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Tally begins 11/10/09


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« on: December 06, 2009, 09:07:29 PM »
Dreams in this post:   D:52 L:6 F:21

CHAPTER 2- Dreams of 2 years later

I'll keep it simple this time, dreams this color, lucid is in blue. Notes are this color, italicized
And occasionally this color
Feel free to skip to today, as that's where I'm putting my focus. These older dreams are just so I have a good record of my progress this time around

Tues 11/10/09
 
(Nap)                           A New Beggining
 
After a series of reality checks today (hand thru table, lightswitch, nose), combined with paying attention to my surroundings and asking myself, “is this a dream”, I was able to have 3 or 3 consecutive lucid dreams. As is typical for me, I find myself in sleep paralysis (SP) after noticing the onset of hypnagogic imagery (HI)and hear the rushing noises combined with a tumbling sensation. I, in the dreams, while lucid, hear voices from what I can only call my subconscious, speaking to me, and enlightening me about myself though I can’t recall what was said. Soon I am in my family room at home, there is a figure on the couch with my dad’s guitar. “She” begins laughing when I voice that this could be a dream (after a failed nose Reality check (R.C) and soon ignore her and begin to fly around the house. (I need to work on conjuring up imagery). I also had a series of false awakenings (F.A) in which I saw a terror-like figure in my room and knew it to be an F.A. Length (4-5 minutes)
 
Techniques that seem to work with perseverance: Lightswitch RC
                                                                                Nose r.c (with conscious thought)
                                                                                Hand thru object r.c
                                                                               Imagining if the scene were a dream
                                                      WILD during naps “next thing I see will be a dream”
                                                      
What Im trying now: WILD-naps combined with lightswitch, nose, and watch rc.)

 

11/10/09 (Nap)
                        They’ve moved


-I was in a house where I believe T, J and some other girl had moved to. It was dark outside and a bit frightening out there. It seemed to be a modern house and I got to see a few different rooms
 

                Contemplating moving far away

-I dreamed I was contemplating moving to Israel. Before this, I was hiding out in the end room of my house, A was there telling me about how I should finish school at the H A, that it’d be good for me. Mom was threatening me about not coming out to say hello to our guests. Soon, I was out, drawing a world map for some one, ranting about the continents.
 
Wed 11/11/09
 
         Reminiscing about my pot smoking days

-I was on a Ramapo-like campus (my college). I was with 2 guys, both smoking cigarettes and spoke to them about smoking weed. (We were outside one of the dorms in a surreal looking version of the college) They put down weed and I soon asked if I could have a cigarette with them.(IRL I'v never smoked a cig) One handed me his and I smoked a little. I then got very worried about my lungs and could almost feel the tar on the inside, while thinking about running and exercise.
 
An approximate version of my view during the conversation:



Thurs 11/12/09
 
         Alcohol stands

-I was walking down a path in what seemed to be an alcohol fair of some sort. Hassidic Jews were behind the stands, all was silent, and I got dirty looks from these people as I strolled on by.            
 
(Nap) Fri 11/13/09
 
         The Firefighter boy


-I dreamed that a boy brought a large quantity of water to a water park because he felt the slides should be more fun. This same boy had a right, as he was a volunteer firefighter. The dream jumps to the same boy having gotten lost and seen on FOX news appearing to wobble precasriously by a river’s edge.
 
(Night)
 
         Why so elusive babe?   

-I dreamed I was at home. I had just put my number in the blonde girl from my Spanish class' phone and tried to kiss her(I don’t know her name..). She was elusive, but friendly. I watched and wondered as she got into her own Saab (make of car) in the driveway with L A. I then found myself in B's van in the driveway. I was trying to help him keep warm by continually wrapping him in blankets and sheets. He laughed and thought he’d be okay.

B, I should mention, is my suitemate who is confined to a wheelchair. Now living with him, there is a sense of responsibility carrying over into my dreams, I do IRL, put him in bed most nights.
 
         Spaceship Chase

-I dreamed I was in a space ship watching a chase go on. The details seem fuzzy but there was crawling through vents and a sense of urgency. The dream jumps to a documentary scene where the people escaping are trapped in a bubble that is losing oxygen and filling with CO2. They manage to escape.
 
-Fragment (guitar dream)
 
-Fragment (E S dream)
 
            The thrill of “Raisin Bran Crunch”

-I dreamed I was on a cruise-ship and there was a machine for candy. You had to put in coins and get your sweet. There were a few already sticking out so, I took my pick, when some guys next to me thought I was stealing. Eventually, I gave up on finding the perfects sweet. Soon I was sitting at a table with some random guys and one was just about to try, “Raisin Bran Crunch”. Everyone was excited and I couldn’t contain my excitement and laughter and crawled under the table. I heard them mention me a few times but the excitement overrode that fact.
 
Sat. 11/14 /09 (Nap)
 
            Kid stole my records

-I was looking for a beatles record that a little kid had (or so I believed). There was a lot of rummaging around in closets (similar to my parents closet at home) while looking for it.
 
            More to do with pot

-I was in a forest with a woman and her daughter, on a hilly path, my pot bowls (smoking pipes) came into my mind as well and so did images of marijuana. I should also take this time to mention that I no longer smoke, after learning of the detrimental effects on REM sleep…the only reason I stopped..mostly.
 
11/14 / 09 (Night)
 
(Many dreams recalled but not written soon enough)
 
-Fragment- I was on a balcony on a college campus, people were smoking on the balconies, I seemed to be flying around and grabbing onto the sides of tall buildings, at night.
 
-Fragment -I dreamed that I was in a house with a nut-case woman. My goal was to get out of there by any means.
 
I need to be more disciplined when it comes to recalling a dream in the middle of the night, and jotting down just a few notes
 
Sun. 11/15/ 09
 
A dream here forgotten and not written

                                             Its Jesus time

-I dreamed I am looking at a movie-like crucification where jesus is very bloody. It takes place in my house, almost like a horror movie of some sort. I’m critiquing the movie and it’s emotional elements. There may be others there watching it happen near a certain room in my house as well.

                         Jason Mraz at my old school         

-I dreamed that I was going to watch a movie in K’s (My old school) auditorium area. I find myself seated next to an obnoxious 2 boys. Jason Mraz and a fictional brother of his are there too. I got up to leave and find a more suitable, less obnoxious seat.
 
           A family horror

-I dreamed that there’s a story about a family in the woods, like a horror movie. The grandfather who should have been watching the kids disappears due to some evil folks out there and the kids don’t know what to do. They tell their dad the next day.
 
            Watching Pornos in an office setting

-I am in an office like setting, kind of watching a movie, kind of witnessing a “class” get lectured on basically why men are better than women. It was an official from the (blipped out name of a pornography company) that would show some pornographic videos of (censored, censored). Jon, my brother, was there and all had to watch in a small conference room.
 
Mon 11/16/09
 
      Self-esteem issues once again

I am with a model in a car, very concerned about my body and the like, thinking about clothing and exercise. She’s encouraging and I feel better.
 
      My dog is not a horse

-I was with Pickle (my dog) in the backyard. I was riding her as if she were a horse. There was a tree with a spider web in it. This frightened me. I pushed the web to the ground and it rained. Mom and dad were watching from the window. They told me the web, now wet, would turn into a “pillow”. Eventually I threw Pickle and a gutter pipe across the law, and she wound up in a shed. She came running back and that’s when I began to ride her like a horse.
 
Tues 11/17/09 (nap)
 
                   The shack

-While attempting to WILD I dream about a dark shack in the woods, being afraid of it ..as if something evil was there, and at the same time wanting to go that shack to attempt WILD. I believe someone else was with me, there was an overriding sense of dark eeriness and perhaps an FA.


11/17/09 Night
 
I have to be more vigilant about recording my dreams as soon as they’re recalled, even if in the middle of the night.
 

         Gliding in paradise            

-I was paragliding on a beach..this felt surreal. Soon I glided back to an even higher up beach than the ledge I jumped from. The view while flying was spectacular..of mountains and greenery as far as the eye could see, with brilliant but blurry colors.
 
         Another chase

-I dreamed I was at Uncle A’s house and someone was attempting to get me with a gun, outside, on the woody road. There was a sense of urgency.
 
-Fragment- I dreamed that a locker was trying to be opened. Someone was inside instructing someone outside how to do it, in a high-school like setting. It was like a movie.
 
             Allow me to arrange your library

-I am in a library, I think my mom is there too. I’m sitting at a computer. I felt I could be a great help in making the library more efficient and productive. Soon, a show is put on in the library.
 
 
Wed. 11/18/09 (Nap)
 
                             The football player

-While attempting WILD I fell into a non-lucid dream. I was watching almost a documentary about a man who played tackle football on a mountain, for a living, and people were worried that he was suicidal. The argument made by the male announcer was that he put everything on the line by playing on the mountain, not like someone on the field. A POV image of the man in his shoes getting thrown to the ground, was shown.
 
         Naw, she wants me

-The dream continued with a TV show depicting a woman who supposedly loved her husband, but I could tell, she wanted me when I looked at her. My dad was there pointing this out as well, that the husband was a dork somehow. He told me I was what the blonde- blue-eyed beauty really wanted. (The documentary) continued and seemed to take place  in a modern waiting room with fish tanks with all of us sitting down in that waiting room on perhaps, the top of a mountain.
 
11/ 18/09 Night
 
                   Guilt

-I dreamed I was in an old grandma’s E's kitchen looking at the ceiling, feeling guilty for having my mom work for me. (I’m not sure what I meant by this) Mom was in the process of telling a girl/woman that I was still reliant on my mom and dad and when I brought up her relaxing a lot, she got angry.
 
              Iraqi war…art?

-I am walking through a place that looks a lot like a high school. J. K. is there with me commenting on Iraqi war art, and me commenting too, on how strange some of it is. Ms. W. seems to be in agreement with J.
 
-Fragment- Ant appeared in a dream as well, though there didn’t seem to be much tension.(IRL enormous tension)
 
Thurs 11/19/09 –Didn’t record
 
 Fri 11/20/09 Night
 
      Scooby Doo, you poor soul

-I dreamed that I was sort of watching a sick version of Scooby Doo. Scooby was coming out of the wall and being harassed almost. He had to fit through very small holes in the wall. This took place on a spaceship.
 
      Modern Torture chamber

On the same spaceship, many years in the future, a stubborn man is mutilated by 2 guys with a working knowledge of the human body. They did a countdown and at the end of the countdown cut open and tortured a man who somehow survived being cut in half and losing so many body fluids in this futuristic torture chamber. The men picked up his cells from the floor and literally placed them inside his open veins.
 
      More guilt about pot

-I dreamed I took up smoking pot again, but this time with a shady crowd. I felt addicted. I recall saying “yes” to a joint on a path in the woods and loving it. Soon, I approached Jas, naked, fingering herself (on some stoop to a house)..about the joints that her GF gave me, being laced with heroin. Jas said her GF was asleep. I felt broken and ran into L A and she was so mad that I took up drugs..again (I didn’t get to say much), she wouldn’t talk to me. I slowly walked down a hall, angry, upset, and miserable. I felt ashamed about L and missed Jas..as I was walking, I may have passed a doctors office.
 
      Chasing brother J through a hotel

-I dreamed I was in a hotel, down, far at the bottom, trying to get out of some over-crowded basement where a movie had finished and the credits were rolling. I tried to get in the same elevator as Jon, but he was too quick. I wound up banging on the door to the room, it eventually opening and a mountain of Tupperware blocking me. The kitchen proceeded to fill with water and Jon doing something gross (not sure what). He got mad at me to stop bugging him, as I stood there at the door to his hotel room.
 
                        How to sell the house

-I dreamed we were in the house and P.B and some other people from the synagogue were in Mom’s room. I was peaking out of mine. They were leaving but soon I found myself in the basement. They said they wanted to sell the house and that we’d need to bring the laptop to talk with the potential buyers (r's). In the basement area, I looked around and wondered why anyone would want to buy such a damaged house. I saw “the secret passage” through the crawlspace (I used to dream about this frequently) and leading to the (fictional) extra room in the basement leading to an extra pair of stairs and another (fictional) hall in the house.
 
Sat 11/21/09 Night
 
      Riding a motorcycle down a ski-slope

-I dreamed I was driving down a sloped highway on a motor-cycle. Somehow I knew how it was done. It was bright, looked like a ski slope too, and soon there was a construction zone. I zoomed through the construction zone, my tires sticky with tar, but soon I was zooming along again toward a town area. Soon, it seemed I was racing someone else on a motor-cycle (documentary type bit of the dream here?) down the same stretches of downward sloped road.
 
-Fragment-I am in a utility room that is filling with a poison gas. It seems to be happening on a college campus. Soon, people after, scoff when I mention the situation.
 
Sun. 11/22/09 Night
 
      Ex’s and …bizzareness  

-I dreamed I was in G Cs' changing room. After being played by my ex, D, G proceeded to bend over in front of me. Soon D.came into this fancy, modern, changing room. I felt the need to comment on some tight pants/ underwear that (I?) was wearing..I was ridiculed, and she told me that a certain service worker in the (supermarket we were now in) could sense that he thought I was of a peculiar orientation. I felt this worker following me as I strolled along, wondering if people would make fun of me for not seeing items on the shelf until I decided I liked them, as I was so worried about this worker.
 
11/23/09 Night
 
      Flying on an old friends back

-I dreamed that I was flying around the backyard on B. R's back. She kept reassuing me about what a good person I am and that girls will love me and all. I found myself up in the trees. I thought of Meg. and realized that deep down she is a tolerant girl.
 
Mon. 11/24/09
 
               God only knows what this one could mean

-I dreamed many little dreams. One where a statement was being repeated over and over. “Not everyone does greese and not everyone who does is evil” and some words about gods herb.  This was accompanied by images of a darkened town.
 

Fragment-I dreamed I was looking up places to live and one that stood out.
 
Fragment- I dreamed something regarding a house belonging to Robert Deniro in Las Vegas.
 
      Anxiety in my dorm

-I dreamed I was in an overlook-like dreamscape with B, (My suitemate) I was holding a cardboard box that was overflowing with water, in the common room, with Brian there.
 
      Don’t live with no roof

-I dreamed I was watching a kind of advertisement to live out in the open forest with no shelter, while somewhat being there myself. A woman was shown taking care of her outdoor house. I wondered what would happen if it thundered. Soon, the clouds began rolling in…
 
      Michael Jackson

-I dreamed I was in a dark underground basement auditiorium and Michael Jackson was set to perform “Thriller” live there. He was reluctant as he strolled in, but was pushed into doing it.
 
Wed 11/25/09 Nap (WILD)
 
          First real success with WILD

-It took about a half hour while laying on my side, full awareness, no mask, but earplugs in. I “woke” in a vibrating state that I’m familiar with, with frightening images appearing, but me remaining in control. Numerous false awakenings occurred. The vibrations continued and soon the sensations and images darkened and faded. I decided to try and “Roll-out” of my real body. It worked. I floated up from my real body in my dream body, looked at my hands to verify that I was dreaming, and I was. I was excited but it didn’t fade. I seemed to get stuck to the ceiling. (Length 4-5 minutes) I’m sure with calm efforts I can prolong and control my WILD’s.
 
11/25/09 Night
 
         Michael Phelps

-I dreamed about Michael Phelps holding his breath underwater. I saw him flipping about with his fins and knew the tension in his lungs that he must have been feeling. This took place in what seemed to be an olympic-style pool and pool area.
 
         Flying lessons again

-I dreamed I was flying a plane (a C-172 trainer) with M.M. We flew around and it was thrilling. Soon, I seemed to be flying by myself. The dream ended with a “diagram” of what a (C-172) looks like when it lands…bouncing up and down on the runway (NOT the way to land IRL)
 
Fragment -I dreamed I was in a kitchen-like area with some girls and a guy. The girls were teasing me to go towards the gay guy. They made me feel bad for some reason.
 
Thurs. 11/26/09 Night
 
   A friend of mine standing on bridges in N.Y

-I dreamed I was watching a kind of documentary about bridges and popular ones in New York. Portia was blurred out from some of the images of the bridges because "she’s always on the bridges". I, and the others, “watching”, cannot understand this.
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Fragment -Continuing on with bridges, I explain to some people as we pass one, that one of my friends moved to England to try to make it big. (This is true IRL)
 
         Liquids joined together

-My dream view is fixed on one bottle (really 2 bottles somehow joined together)  of apple juice and water, (striping where they’re joined). The view then jumps to a broadway like theatre-place where some girl explains that she wouldn’t ask a lot about the bottles since she…doesn’t really know “Mes Tarrant” (from DV).
 
         The seat on the bus

-I was on a bus, like in real life (IRL) but at the same time, kind of like in a documentary. A seat was offered that was somehow symbolic of the idiot in the group. And although racist, reserved for the “black” person. I felt uncomfortable and was seated next to a black guy who constantly said things like, “Awesome” ..it didn’t feel good, and was unpleasant.   (Coming from a minority group myself, I acknowledge prejudices, even if subconcious. Before I'm flamed for including a dream such as this, remember you can't control the content of your dreams unless lucid...I’ll try my best not to censor my dreams)
 
Fri. 11/27/09 (Nap)
 
Fragment -I dreamed something about being in close proximity to a volcano…it was dark. R Z. was right nearby. He requested that I get him coffee.
 
Fragment-I dreamed about D. G calling me
 
      The foreign mall

-I dreamed a scene which (partly took place in a 1st person view, partly 3rd person, documentary type) took place in a modern foreign mall, with foreign police, people falling down the escalators, and irritating girls, while some of this was being recorded on security cameras in the mall.
 
Fragment -I dreamed I was on what looked to be a college campus, I was outside a brick building, vividly detailed which I knew to be the library.
 
 Sat. 11/28/09 (Nap)
 
Fragment -I had an experience with faint lucidity and a False awakening.
 
11/28/09 Night
 
Fragment -I dreamed that there was some sort of dilemma with there being enough beer for 4 men.

                         A short dorm party

-I dreamed I was sitting on the floor in the common room of Overlook (my dormitory) with Kristen and some other girls. We’re having a party. Brian comes in. I am disappointed.
 
                A small lucid

-I dreamed (really a F.A) where I woke and the lights were on in my room and I felt very lightweight. I verified that I was indeed dreaming and got excited. I spawned a hamburger. I lost full lucidity though still maintaining a faint awareness. I was still in my room at home, and there were 2 sexy models on my bed. I was teasing the, sexually. One seemed to be made of marble and the other, jeans. Both were pretty, one blonde, one brunnete. (Length of lucid portion 1-2 minutes)
 
(The dates here are slightly screwed up…generally correct, but not exact as I didn’t have my DJ accessible when I was at home)
 
Sun. 11/29/09- Mon. 11/30/09
 
         Bike-car

-I dreamed I was outside P H H School at night. I was walking around dad’s car, that I was using, examining it, and noticed that there was one regular missing tire, and instead a spare on. L B was there too. I seemed to be in a car with him soon enough and it was a “bicycle car” (I somehow knew this was a very precariously built car, on 2 thin bicycle wheels somehow supporting the weight of the cab. The car wobbled back and forth, the view through the windshield was very obscured (wipers may have been on) and I felt as though we were going to tip over/crash.
 
         Don’t shine lights at the helicopters

-I dreamed I was in a sort of TV sitcom setting. I was in a dark house with some other D characters. There was a sense of action. They were shining flashlights as some police helicopters out of the pitch-black house through the floor to ceiling windows. I tried to stop them because I was worried what the chopper would do. Soon though, it flew away, I knew it had “buisiness” to take care of somewhere else.
 
Tues 12/1/09 Night (First time toying with REMdreamer Pro)
 
         Minorities

-I dreamed about a store, in the store, a girl was talking about how there is always going to be a group that is going to be marginalized and not covered, with no category for them to fit into.
 
         The army?

-I dream I see an army base. They are offering 5 bucks an hour to anyone who joins. I hear a girl and a guy excitedly discussing this fact that they’ll start off with that pay.
 
I’m not sure what role the REMdreamer played tonight but it did wake me up at points.
 
         Ex, again

-D V, my ex, came back to me and seemed eager to begin a relationship once again. I seemed to be a sucker  and was supremely happy about this. I felt it would work this time.
 
Fragment -I was on a chairlift that seemed to be really very flimsy, frighteningly so. I seemed to be half-falling out of the chair, half still-on.
 
Wed. 12/2/09 Night  (Toyed with REMdreamer again)
 
Fragment -Hispanic immigrants are being discussed.
 
Fragment-Some one is talking about their ipod and its programs.
 
              Get those Xbox things to Ireland

-I dreamed that my goal was to get “Denny22” (from DV, I gave him my old induction device)  some things for an Xbox. I am sitting outside where I know he is in order to travel to get it. I pull behind a blue van and call Denny to let him know I’m nearby, in Ireland.
 
             DV members

-I dreamed that some older DV members were in my house. I didn’t become aware. I think “KaniaZ” might have been there. I was going to reply to a thread and “KaniaZ” pointed out that it was from 2005. Soon, the guy DV members all were clustered in my room.
 
                       Surgery and a fancy bathroom

-I dreamed I was about to have some type of surgery done and was nervous. I seemed to be outside the (former) JCC. My family was there, in a van with dad giving me last minute instructions. It seemed to me that just a few moments before, I was in a fancy Japanese style bathroom (fictional) (inside the JCC?) with a water-fall going down the wall.
 
Thurs. 12/3/09 Night
 
Little sleep, no dreams recalled
 
Fri. 12/4/09 (Nap). Played with the REMdreamer dreamalarm settings..I believe it helped me to recall some dreams, and woke me. I’ve yet to become lucid using the TWC (two-way-communication) feature, I think I might need to tone down the TWC settings to low/medium for ideal results.
 
         A college dream

-I dreamed I was in some non-existent lots outside (A different looking) Ramapo college, looking for my car. L A was there, we were going to go out somewhere. As we got in the car, I grazed the car next to us and got very upset about damaging my car.
 
         A college documentary

- I also dreamed in kind of a third person view about Ramapo College’s Public safety, and that they are effective. The image was of a dark Ramapo at night with a voiceover explaining how public safety provides enough time for the real police to get here. That Public safety does have a purpose.

What nonsense dreams. I'm glad I have recall though. Hopefully soon I'll be able to exert conscious control over the content of my dreams and get my WILD's down.
 
  12/4/09

         The HIV men

-I dreamed I was climbing on top of a large storage tank in a huge boiler room in what appeared to be a modern complex of sorts. I was hiding on top of one of these large tanks as I heard a group of people whispering below that I knew somehow were infected with HIV. Soon, I am down on some escalators in the same complex, these gay men are chasing me, I believe, to infect me. I am balanced on the escalator with my legs on one side, and my arms stretched out, to the other side. Somehow I feel safe in this position but I am desperate to escape.

Sat 12/5/09 (nap)

         Grandma’s corpse :X

I dream I am in my old, now passed, Grandma E’s house. Her corpse is lying out in one of the upstairs rooms on the top of what appears to be her casket. This doesn’t appear abnormal to me. There is the scent of rotting flesh and its clear its been a while since she died. There is a sense of eeriness as I explore the now dead, house with some members of my family.

   Meeting what might be my dreamguide…or just another tricky dream character

I am in a town unknown to me, it is very bright outside. I am walking alongside a very friendly dream character and we’re chatting about music as we stroll down a residential street. He mentions a band I haven’t heard of (all the while theme music playing in the background of the dream) and when I say I haven’t heard of them, he can’t believe me.  The scene jumps to outside my old high school, right by the track, now under a brilliant starry, star-speckled sky and spontaneously one of us calls out “We’re going to fly”,  (I believe it was me). He and I, the dream character (who gave me a sense of well-being and wonderment, that perhaps I’d met my DG) link hands and our feet leave the ground as we jump. I become lucid, and we fly towards the sky, arms still linked and I tell him “Let’s land there” pointing to a spot on the ground, wanting to stabilize my lucid dream. I feel the clouds rushing past and the dream quickly fading. I call for him, vision fading quick, feeling a sense of loss as we’d shared such a surreal flying experience together, and soon wake. (Length- 2-3 minutes)

12/5/09 Night

I recalled many a dream tonight, woke to my alarm as I’m attempting to interrupt my REM periods in the middle, but some were lost in translation. I also have a bothersome feeling that I became lucid last night but just cannot recall it.[/i]

-I’ve also been drinking apple juice before bed on and off, I feel it helps the vividity of my dreams though I’m not quite sure yet.

      Doomed Cruise Ship

I was on a cruise ship that was sailing along a coastline. It is very bright outside and I am wandering about the deck. There’s a sense of excitement, families on board are happy, wandering around the ship and I am enjoying the view and the wind. I make friends with a young boy who seems to have lost his family. The ship begins to rise, and I notice an enormous tidal wave breaking hundreds of feet above my head. Within 2 or 3 more seconds I feel the deck of the ship slide out from under me and everything goes dark. I am not afraid, rather, I sense excitement, that I know I can survive this for sure but I’m not sure quite why :p

-A fragment involving my grandma Z

-A fragment where I was keeping a bear in my house

-Another fragment where I began to smoke Pot once again, there was a sense of “giving in”

-A fragment involving a bunch of skin-heads screaming sounding very much like Hitler did while giving a speech.

         Infected Vampires in my house

I dream I am in a house that looks a lot like my own home. I observe casually as vampires sprint around biting random DC’s and infecting them with something I can only assume to be horrible. I am not desperate but have a vague urge to leave this unpleasant version of my house.

I’ve decided to for-go my use of my induction device the “REMdreamer”. I seem to have had some success with WILD.. particularly during naps and I’d like to get better at that.

I believe, starting anew, that with some true R.Cing efforts, coupled with WBTB’s, and various WILD techniques that have worked periodically, I’m bound to get lucid more often. I’m focusing my attention on getting the (basic )December task of the month done the next time lucid as I recall becoming lucid more often when I have a goal set in my head.. I'm sensing as though I'm edging ever closer to more lucidity,..that I'm "almost there" but we've yet to see. It's going to be difficult to keep dilligent records these next few weeks, but I'm going to do my best. So Here goes round 2.
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« Reply #1 on: December 06, 2009, 09:33:48 PM »

Wow that's quite a lot of dreams to go through. I haven't read them all but i did like your lucid with flying with your dreamguide. did you ever dream of that DC again?
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« Reply #2 on: December 06, 2009, 10:12:17 PM »

Hey MoSh,

Bah, don't go through them all, I wouldn't. I'm just compulsive and like to have a solid record of all my dreams. (of this year) Smiley If you're interested, read the blues, ie:lucids- that's where I'm trying to put my focus, to see where, when, why and how I got lucid..to try and replicate the result for the future (and improve the length and clarity).

And nope, that was the first time I'd met that DC, and I felt such a connection I'm beginning to believe he's my DG. Perhaps just that belief will produce more lucid dreams.

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« Reply #3 on: December 07, 2009, 07:57:36 AM »

That's an impressive amount of lucids!   Smiley 
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« Reply #4 on: December 07, 2009, 01:16:47 PM »

Oh, I see you have started a journal here, cool. I left a comment in your journal at DV.
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« Reply #5 on: December 07, 2009, 01:43:19 PM »

Thanks Caradon. I was originally planning on maintaining my Dream Journal there...then it just felt foolish. That idea's in the past. DreamViews is now far too chaotic and un-focused as we all know..

I'm trying to put it out of mind. Here is where I'll be putting my focus and documenting my efforts. The serious atmosphere and caring members are for me what's conducive to my lucid dreaming success.

Thanks for reading Smiley

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Thank you. There's always room for improvement though! I pretty much pulled an all nighter-last night with 2 or 3 cups of black coffee, I'm hoping some of the caffeine withdrawl we spoke of and some REM rebound will come into play nicely later today, and perhaps help lucidity, when I nap. Smiley


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« Reply #6 on: December 07, 2009, 05:20:49 PM »

Great to see you posting dreams here again, Bro.  In a bit of a hurry now but I WILL take a look soon...
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« Reply #7 on: December 07, 2009, 10:07:48 PM »

Smiley Glad you'll put it here, you're right about DV too chaotic, I left long ago to avoid it, and although they're giving you troubles now, it did bring us a good thing, you! hug

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« Reply #8 on: December 08, 2009, 01:17:07 AM »

Cool; nice thorough DJ, Bro.  I feel compelled to write everything I remember too; I think it really does help.

A few things jump out from looking over that quickly:

- You're very much into trying to WILD, aren't you?  Your "First real success with WILD" sounds almost exactly like how most of mine start..  I've gotten stuck in ceilings too!  shakehead  You also mention sounds during SP, the sensations, etc..  That stuff is immensely helpful..

- You have some very strange dreams that make no sense.  (e.g., "My dog is not a horse..")  I like that!  goodjob

- I feel terrible for Scooby..
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I repeat myself when under stress.
I repeat myself when under stress.
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I like it.
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« Reply #9 on: December 08, 2009, 08:44:31 AM »

Thank you. There's always room for improvement though! I pretty much pulled an all nighter-last night with 2 or 3 cups of black coffee, I'm hoping some of the caffeine withdrawl we spoke of and some REM rebound will come into play nicely later today, and perhaps help lucidity, when I nap. Smiley

Can't wait to hear the results of this!  The idea of combining REM rebound with CWILD seems like genius.
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« Reply #10 on: December 08, 2009, 09:10:34 AM »

After a series of reality checks today (hand thru table, lightswitch, nose), combined with paying attention to my surroundings and asking myself, “is this a dream”, I was able to have 3 or 3 consecutive lucid dreams. As is typical for me, I find myself in sleep paralysis (SP) after noticing the onset of hypnagogic imagery (HI)and hear the rushing noises combined with a tumbling sensation. I, in the dreams, while lucid, hear voices from what I can only call my subconscious, speaking to me, and enlightening me about myself though I can’t recall what was said.

I know that feeling.  Wouldn't it be good if we could actively communicate with "it"?

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-I was on a Ramapo-like campus (my college). I was with 2 guys, both smoking cigarettes and spoke to them about smoking weed. (We were outside one of the dorms in a surreal looking version of the college) They put down weed and I soon asked if I could have a cigarette with them.(IRL I'v never smoked a cig) One handed me his and I smoked a little. I then got very worried about my lungs and could almost feel the tar on the inside, while thinking about running and exercise.

Powerful sensation.
 
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B, I should mention, is my suitemate who is confined to a wheelchair. Now living with him, there is a sense of responsibility carrying over into my dreams, I do IRL, put him in bed most nights.

He is lucky to have you around.

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-I dreamed I was on a cruise-ship and there was a machine for candy. You had to put in coins and get your sweet. There were a few already sticking out so, I took my pick, when some guys next to me thought I was stealing. Eventually, I gave up on finding the perfects sweet. Soon I was sitting at a table with some random guys and one was just about to try, “Raisin Bran Crunch”. Everyone was excited and I couldn’t contain my excitement and laughter and crawled under the table. I heard them mention me a few times but the excitement overrode that fact.

Better than the weed from the previous dream?

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-I was in a forest with a woman and her daughter, on a hilly path, my pot bowls (smoking pipes) came into my mind as well and so did images of marijuana. I should also take this time to mention that I no longer smoke, after learning of the detrimental effects on REM sleep…the only reason I stopped..mostly.

You can take up your Raisin Bran Crunch addictio now Grin

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I need to be more disciplined when it comes to recalling a dream in the middle of the night, and jotting down just a few notes

Tell me about it!  Roll Eyes

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-I am in an office like setting, kind of watching a movie, kind of witnessing a “class” get lectured on basically why men are better than women. It was an official from the (blipped out name of a pornography company) that would show some pornographic videos of (censored, censored). Jon, my brother, was there and all had to watch in a small conference room.

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I am with a model in a car, very concerned about my body and the like, thinking about clothing and exercise. She’s encouraging and I feel better.

Interesting you want a model to tell you that.  Normally it's them that are anxious about these things.

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On the same spaceship, many years in the future, a stubborn man is mutilated by 2 guys with a working knowledge of the human body. They did a countdown and at the end of the countdown cut open and tortured a man who somehow survived being cut in half and losing so many body fluids in this futuristic torture chamber. The men picked up his cells from the floor and literally placed them inside his open veins.

 boggle That's x-rated stuff, Bro.  You on the Raisin Bran Crunch again?

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-I dreamed that I was flying around the backyard on B. R's back. She kept reassuing me about what a good person I am and that girls will love me and all. I found myself up in the trees. I thought of Meg. and realized that deep down she is a tolerant girl.

It's those self-esteem issues again, yes?  You really do seem to want someone nice to tell you you're nice too.

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-I was on a bus, like in real life (IRL) but at the same time, kind of like in a documentary. A seat was offered that was somehow symbolic of the idiot in the group. And although racist, reserved for the “black” person. I felt uncomfortable and was seated next to a black guy who constantly said things like, “Awesome” ..it didn’t feel good, and was unpleasant.   (Coming from a minority group myself, I acknowledge prejudices, even if subconcious. Before I'm flamed for including a dream such as this, remember you can't control the content of your dreams unless lucid...I’ll try my best not to censor my dreams)

Yes, keep posting anything.  For me the interesting part is that you feel you'd be judged here, for posting the dream.  Doesn't that highlight the anxiety that emerges from the dream in the first place?

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-I dreamed (really a F.A) where I woke and the lights were on in my room and I felt very lightweight. I verified that I was indeed dreaming and got excited. I spawned a hamburger.
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I lost full lucidity though still maintaining a faint awareness. I was still in my room at home, and there were 2 sexy models on my bed. I was teasing the, sexually. One seemed to be made of marble and the other, jeans. Both were pretty, one blonde, one brunnete. (Length of lucid portion 1-2 minutes)[/color]

Nice.

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-I dreamed about a store, in the store, a girl was talking about how there is always going to be a group that is going to be marginalized and not covered, with no category for them to fit into.

An interesting comment on human nature, then?

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I dream I am in my old, now passed, Grandma E’s house. Her corpse is lying out in one of the upstairs rooms on the top of what appears to be her casket. This doesn’t appear abnormal to me. There is the scent of rotting flesh and its clear its been a while since she died. There is a sense of eeriness as I explore the now dead, house with some members of my family.

Sounds like you haven't let her go.

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-I’ve also been drinking apple juice before bed on and off, I feel it helps the vividity of my dreams though I’m not quite sure yet.

Let us know the resuts of your research!

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I was on a cruise ship that was sailing along a coastline. It is very bright outside and I am wandering about the deck. There’s a sense of excitement, families on board are happy, wandering around the ship and I am enjoying the view and the wind. I make friends with a young boy who seems to have lost his family. The ship begins to rise, and I notice an enormous tidal wave breaking hundreds of feet above my head. Within 2 or 3 more seconds I feel the deck of the ship slide out from under me and everything goes dark. I am not afraid, rather, I sense excitement, that I know I can survive this for sure but I’m not sure quite why :p

Because your self-esteem issues are not permanent?  You have dreamed of not being overwhelmed, and if you can dream it then you can think it!
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« Reply #11 on: December 08, 2009, 09:09:02 PM »

He is lucky to have you around.

Thank you..its been difficult and tense to get along with him as he said to me himself "I want you to think of me as a friend, not a chore"..something I'd of hoped he'd say long ago

You can take up your Raisin Bran Crunch addictio now Grin

Haha that addiction's been around a long time..it is a delicious cereal. Pot, seriously though, I only began toying with late in 2008 and even though it's been a significant amount of time since I've smoked it..it was scary how much I like (d) it. Self-medocation if you will.. still an urge I battle but the urge to lucid dream is just tipping the scales slightly stronger..It is missed though :/

Interesting you want a model to tell you that.  Normally it's them that are anxious about these things.
Age old self-esteem/ body-dysmporphia problems..never seem to leave! still working on them..doing better though!

That's x-rated stuff, Bro. You on the Raisin Bran Crunch again?


Hah...That cereal does cause me to act funny..the deliciousness simply abounds!

It's those self-esteem issues again, yes?  You really do seem to want someone nice to tell you you're nice too.


Exactly right.. I guess my insecurities shine through when I dream. On a heavy note, I do yearn, always have and I think always will for that one who understands and has no problem doing what it takes to let me know I'm accepted.

Yes, keep posting anything.  For me the interesting part is that you feel you'd be judged here, for posting the dream.  Doesn't that highlight the anxiety that emerges from the dream in the first place?

Thanks for your support here...I know MM is quite the accepting community, but the thought "I hope by posting this my friends here don't see me to be the prejudiced fellow of the group..."

An interesting comment on human nature, then?

Yes surely. I think all these social issues have been spawning from this class I've been taking "Social Issues". A very thought provoking, relevant course.

 
You have dreamed of not being overwhelmed, and if you can dream it then you can think it!
Thank you..I'll be keeping this in mind. I know it to be true deep down..just a matter of getting that to cross the border to conscious thought on a daily basis.




it did bring us a good thing, you! hug


Speaking of self-esteem, you brightened my day LB. hug Thank you. I'm Glad the journal is here too, where it belongs.





Cool; nice thorough DJ, Bro.
Thanks! I try and will continue to try to keep an accurate record of what goes on in my head at night.


Cool; nice thorough DJ, Bro.


You're very much into trying to WILD, aren't you?

Thanks Mu. I am indeed. Really the whole concept of inducing a lucid dream at will is fascinating..and I had a taste of a successful one, so I'm determined to make it less elusive now. Just about to make a post on today's attempt actually.







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« Reply #12 on: December 08, 2009, 09:10:14 PM »
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Mon 12/7/09 ( Night/nap )

Very little sleep- No dreams recorded.

Tuesday 12/8/09 (Nap+WILD attempt.)

I recalled recent conversations with Moonbeam and Pj about caffeine and the various experimental techniques surrounding it. I’ve been suffering recently from falling asleep during my WILD attempts so I’ve been wanting to find a solution. I’ve been rather tired recently so I figured why not try to combine REM rebound with caffeine (haven’t quite gotten to the point of trying the “withdrawl” portion yet).

I lay in bed, at about 530 PM, earplugs in, (I prefer earplugs for WILD attempts as I can hear any “inner” noise my brain begins to produce).  fully stretched, a hot cup of coffee in my belly slowly going into my bloodstream, to hopefully counter-act my tendency to fall asleep  I got on my back and lay very still. I was cozy, the position was perfect.  I usually lay there and wonder “Pshh, vibrations, SP..they’re far off” but Lo’ and behold as I lay there, eyes closed, still quite still, I “watched” some fleeting HI imagery (This is what kind of messed me up..I’d get too focused on what I saw..very faint outlines of figures, movement and I’d jolt back to waking”. This happened numerous times..eventually, still, still, I told myself to repeat the undemanding and hopefully non-difficult task of saying “Lucid”..bearing in the back on my mind that that meant that I could keep just the amount of awareness needed to lucid dream, but not enough to keep me awake. I had a sensation of sinking, a good feeling..I know it means I’m getting closer, a few vibrations began, the HI still there, occasionally causing me to focus too hard and jolt back to reality but soon enough, while trying to stay passive, I fell into a non-lucid sleep.

I’m not giving up on WILD…even though I get frustrated or seem either too aware (heart thudding in my chest), or not aware enough (falling asleep during an attempt) I have had a fully successful WILD so I know it can be done. I plan to continue tweaking my caffeine intake. It DEFINETELY affected me in one way or another, brought on the HI and first signs of SP much quicker.. I was  more aware of the HI I saw..its been a while since I’ve noticed it so clearly, so maybe caffeine can aid me in my quest to reproduce a WILD..I’ll slowly try drinking it in coffee, while attempting to WILD at the same time of day..I’m bound to find the right balance.


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I am in my "social issues" classroom, (where I was earlier today IRL) and a girl there chatting with me is telling me all about her brother, and that he’s an Olympic “freediver” of some sort. (I long had an interest in honing my ability to stay underwater for long periods of time)


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« Reply #13 on: December 08, 2009, 09:29:14 PM »

Awww, so close! But this "social issues" thing sounds interesting.
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« Reply #14 on: December 08, 2009, 10:17:42 PM »

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I’m not giving up on WILD…even though I get frustrated or seem either too aware (heart thudding in my chest), or not aware enough (falling asleep during an attempt) I have had a fully successful WILD so I know it can be done. I plan to continue tweaking my caffeine intake. It DEFINETELY affected me in one way or another, brought on the HI and first signs of SP much quicker.. I was  more aware of the HI I saw..its been a while since I’ve noticed it so clearly, so maybe caffeine can aid me in my quest to reproduce a WILD..I’ll slowly try drinking it in coffee, while attempting to WILD at the same time of day..I’m bound to find the right balance.
i have to say, for me the difference between a successful and unsuccessful WILD attempt was Seeker's "5 phases of WILD" tutorial...
http://mortalmist.com/forum/index.php/topic,992.0.html
donno if you read it, but it made me aware (when i had the time to concentrate on this stuff and focus on LDing... instead of just Ding!) of the tiny difference between drifting off when experiencing the vibrations and HI, or being conscious enough to make it into a dream.  for me, my greatest success was a single hershey's miniature... at WBTB, just as i awoke.  then i stayed up for half hour, reading about LDing, and then my "sleepiness" was comfortably countered by a little sugar.  donno if it will work for you... but i say NEVER give up on WILDing... it is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hugely rewarding when it does work... it is worth any effort you give it.  it is one of the best experiences i have ever had... Smiley  maybe i will have some time to try for it once again at some point.  GOOD LUCK BRO!!!
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