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[AspirationRealized]

To Moonbeam: I'm thinking zombies might be my dream sign. Its too soon to tell if this is an ongoing thing, or if its just the current stimulus, but there's reason to believe it anyway. The difficult thing is my recall is so bad, I'm only getting little scraps of what my subconscious is trying to show me.

mu, I'll try to focus my awareness on other parts of my body. While I think I may have felt the "heavy" feeling people often talk about, I never felt any of the awareness of your surroundings feeling you've described yet.

Because my recall hasn't much clarity, I can't tell if I'm thinking these things in the dreams, or if I'm filling in the blanks upon recollection. I personally think that what we actually perceive in a dream, and what we recall later can be two different things; in fact, I'd argue that this quality of recall was worth its own research and perhaps terminology. I might post about that elsewhere.

But yes, I am a little outside of myself in dreams. It isn't often I'm in a "first person" perspective, so much as omnipresent. That is to say, I'm more aware of the plot of the dream, rather than experiencing it first hand. But that varies too.

I'm not sick of zombies. I like them, but I'd rather not see them every dream. I think this is a case of accidental incubation or self fulfilling prophecy. But zombies are one of my favorite subjects, be it movies or video games. My dad and I have a little ritual of seeing whatever latest zombie film is out. I'm also writing a short story, or a series of short stories, involving a zombie apocalypse (but more of the human response to it). Because of this, often times I'll consider "scenes" for my book when I have spare time, or when a situation is particularly good for it. This might be why it comes up in dreams so much.

No, I didn't feel any shock when I did it, just the feeling of the earpads compressing. That part was rather clear actually. Its really kinda silly when I think of it now, I seem to have a silly sense of humor when I'm dreaming.

If you'll look back a few entries, you'll see a dream where I encase my sister in ice with a frozen blast for annoying me xP if I do that again, after she wakes me, hopefully I'll RC.

[AspirationRealized]

August 2nd, 2010 (WBTB/ Failed WILD?)

This was after my second attempt of WILD, elaborated here in my awake journal. I woke up with a different fragment in mind, struggled to recall it, then lost it. Afterwards, a slight memory of a different dream with Pete in it (one that occurred before the fragment I struggled with) stirred and I managed to recall some of the details. Still highly fragmented though unfortunately.

I am talking to Pete about lucid dreaming. I don't recall seeing him in front of me or in person, but I don't know that it was definitely online either. Towards the end of the conversation he says "its your decision"; the decision is very important. I'm supposed to check my pms for what he's talking about (this leads me to believe, after waking, that we were talking online somehow). I don't recall what I find there, except I am pleased and amused by it.

(Note: since my return, I've been recording these the morning I recalled them, no longer the night before as I used to. This is just... easier <.<)

[Moonbeam]

Back to the zombie thing, for some reason DS's have never worked very well for me, other than general weird-situation type ones. I think a lot of people have said that before; that DS are sort of over-rated.