Moonbeam's Lucids

[Moonbeam]

Dream Lover

I am in love with a tall, dark-haired, somewhat older man. We are trying to live in the midst of a lot of water, maybe on an island. I become lucid, and I look at the man and tell him that it is all a dream. He looks at me with concern, as if he is worried about my sanity. I insist that we are in my dream and I feel sorry for him because he does not exist. He says something like, "How can the whole world be inside your head? How can I be nothing but your imagination?" I look around and I am totally amazed by the detail and scope of the scene. We embrace, and I am sad.

[Moonbeam]

Long Lucid; Task Failure 

I am in a train station sort of place, at the counter, lots of people around. I suddenly become lucid. I fixate on a young man next to me and decide I am with him. For a while I follow him, and at some point he acknowledges me. We begin to travel around together, sometimes inside thru hallways and rooms, sometimes traveling by train or bus, sometimes walking or running on trails. We are chasing or being chased most of the time. I remember thinking at one point it had been three days. The man sometimes changes in appearance, sometimes even becoming a boy, but I knew he was the same person.

I remember the lucid task, which is to become a giant and eat clouds, and attempt it several times. At one point I looked thru a window and saw clouds, and I try to "grow myself" thru the window to become a giant, but I get caught in the glass which stretches and goes around my hands and head like gloves and a hood. I remember a couple times I was outside and I saw clouds and I looked up at the sky and I was going like "ARRRRGH" and straining to stretch myself and get the clouds. It didn't work at all, and I got some weird looks from DC's. It felt about as silly and hopeless as if IRL you tried to grow big and eat clouds.

I never told any DC's that it was a dream, although I was aware of it the whole time. I was doing some acrobatic things, jumping and running along the tops of fences, stuff like that, and I thought how amazed my companion would be if I flew, but I just couldn't do anything that I wouldn't be able to do IRL. I remember thinking, I should be able to get rid of gravity, and I considered how for a while, but I just couldn't do it. I was running up a trail at one point, and it felt strenuous but good and energizing, and I was glad I was getting some exercise.

[Moonbeam]

Drawing

I am in a bad neighborhood, walking down the street—LUCID! I am amazed, but I don't feel like I have any control at all, and I try to remember techniques for changing things. Then I think of the painting lucid task, and forget about everything but that. I don't see a store or any place to get some paint. So I start going up to DC's, asking them if they have some paint I can borrow. I get the reaction that you would from people IRL, so I give up. I go into dark run-down parking garage. There is a man fixing a car that seems to be in a lot of pieces. I ask him if he has anything that I can draw on. He gives me a dirty scrap of paper and a worn down pencil from his pocket. I start trying to draw something, I figure a mountain by a lake with a sun in the sky qualifies as a landscape. So I scribble it on the paper, and I realize it is a pitiful example, not painted, and not even in color. A mean looking guy comes and menaces me, telling me I better draw him a dirty picture. I draw an anatomic picture of the internal female genital tract, with a uterus, fallopian tubes, ovaries, and I explain to him about the egg developing in the ovary, and start to draw the histology. He walks away, bored.

[Moonbeam]

WILD--Sexy Man

I focus on HI; once I think I am stacking wood and I wake up and try again; then I see a small picture, like an old-fashioned post-card.  The picture is a cowboy on a horse that is rearing up. I am studying the picture, and the man turns his head and winks at me. I think, I must be dreaming, because a picture just winked at me.

For some short period of time I know I am dreaming but I am in a void. I try to stay calm and I remember reading about "moving into the dream". So I just sort of travel thru a swirly background, trying to think of a place to go, but then I am in the dream without making the choice. I am in a place with a lot of people, all naked, and I am nude as well. There are mostly women around me, but I see men further away. I say to the women, "I'll do whatever you tell me to do”, because I think they won't let me get to the men otherwise.

A woman climbs onto a table and lies down, and I know she wants something from me. So I satisfy her in the obvious way, and then I am free to find a man. I walk away, and the place becomes more like a crowded mall, with many of the people clothed. I see a man who I think is absolutely the most beautiful creature I have ever seen, tall with dark hair; I am extremely attracted to him. He is one of the clothed ones, and even though I don't have much control, I know it is still my dream and I go to him. We have sex, which is quite realistic and fun, with a happy ending. Afterwards, I go back from the dream, almost by the same path I went into it on, but this time it is thru a tunnel of bright white light rather then black swirly. It is really a feeling of going backwards rather than forwards.

[Moonbeam]

Sex Change

I'm living in a strange place, a basement apartment, with lots of bedrooms and bathrooms. It is dark and dank, messy, and I can see vines growing thru cracks in the walls. I am trying to sleep in various bedrooms, I think Tom is there for a while but I don't know where he goes. I am disturbed by the atmosphere, and think maybe I can systematically clean the place up, but it is going to take a while. I become lucid at some point, but I am unhappy with how the dream is going and I can't get out. I close my eyes and try to imagine being somewhere else, but it doesn't work. I think maybe if I lie down in a bed and go to sleep I can wake up somewhere else. This doesn't work either. (A gap in what I remember). I am in the apartment still. I am laying in a bed, under a window. I am not alone, there is a girl in bed with me, and I am very comforted by her presence.

We hold each other and the apartment doesn't seem nearly as scary and I feel peaceful. There is a window over the bed, and I see fireworks in the sky. We both get up and crouch on the bed and look out the window. Now we are up high instead of in a basement. There is like a campus view, with lots of students shooting fireworks and running around. A celebration, I think, and the fireworks are beautiful. Every once in a while, a huge person walks by; the big people are dressed in formal clothes and carrying briefcases and look normal except that they dwarf the partying people around them; the big people pay no attention to the fireworks and just stride thru the crowds.

The girl and I look at each other in wonder; I realize that she can see them too. I say, but this is my dream, how can you see them? She shrugs, as mystified as me at the whole scenario. Then, big spray bottles lumber out and start squirting the students and killing them.  It is like bug spray killing bugs. The girl and I are horrified, and duck down. I peak back over, and one of the bottles points towards me, aware of me. I get back down in bed, but I am laughing at the ridiculousness of it.

The girl is scared, and asks if they saw me. I tell her yes, but it doesn't matter--remember, I tell her, it is just a dream. I start to make love to her, and suddenly I think, I know what will make her feel better, and also surprise the hell out of her. I become a man and get on top of her. It is extremely realistic (I think!) When I come, I am surprised to find that it feels just like it usually does.

DEILD - Task Completed (ask a DC if you are dreaming)

I'm on a busy street, like in New York or Chicago, lots of people walking around. I appreciate the variety of people that I have conjured up for a minute, then I think, I am not messing around this time. I go straight to the nearest DC.

It's a black guy, wearing a wife-beater, long tan shorts, gold chain around his neck. He is crossing the street diagonally towards his car, getting his keys out. I say to him, "Hey, am I dreaming?" He turns around and walks towards me.  I can tell by his face that he thinks I am coming on to him, and I realize how it must have sounded, anybody would think that. He's like, "Hey baby, all right", and I say, "No, I'm serious, I really want to know: Am I dreaming?" I think I am being very intense, I get close to him and I might have grabbed his hand; it freaks him out. He gets visibly worried that I'm crazy and he starts backing off, mumbling about having to get somewhere soon.

[Moonbeam]

Jenny, I Got Your Number

I am in a crowded building with several women, we are walking thru hallways, past elevators, there are a lot of people there. I don't know anyone but I know who I am supposed to be with. I don't recognize them but I know we are friends and I remember our relationships and their personalities, sort of like we are all sit-com characters. We are talking about going to see a show or a play, and one of the women doesn't have enough money. I know she never has enough money but she never wants to take any from anyone, and we are trying to talk her into going and letting us pay. We are pushing our way thru crowds, stop in front of a busy doorway, go out into a side stairwell and start walking down.

Suddenly I am lucid. I laugh, and I say "Reality check!" and look at my hands. Sure enough, I have two thumbs on one of my hands. I wave them around in front of the other women, saying "It's a dream, look!", and they just look at me like I'm an idiot and keep talking.

This a boring dream, I think, so I go thru a door marked "EXIT". It leads outside to a busy courtyard; people are walking and talking, some hurrying, some pushing strollers. I begin to skip and twirl, and I sing "867-5309, Jenny I Got Your Number". Everyone ignores me, and I am doing my usual gawking in amazement when I first get lucid. Then I notice a man pushing a hand cart which holds an enormous bottle of Tabasco sauce in a wooden box. The name is painted on the outside of the box, so I know there is a big giant bottle inside. He looks strangely at me, but not because I am singing and dancing like I'm in a musical.  I think "Oh goody, here's one who knows what's going on...I dance towards him, still singing "For a good time, for a good time call..."

[Moonbeam]

DV Conference

I am at a conference, at first I think it is work related, but then I realize it is about LD and I see people from DV there. Some look like their avatars, and some have their avatars on their shirts, but others I just "know" who they are. I see my boss, and I go talk to her and tell her I am glad she decided to get into LD, and I think she will enjoy it. She shows me a picture in a book of a wizard like Merlin and says it is her perfect avatar. I am a little doubtful, but I pretend to agree with her. She asks me if I think it is too late for her elderly father to get into LD. I say no, I'm sure he can do it too, and she looks for an avator for him in the book.

Around this time I become lucid. I begin to fly around the room, out thru the door, and the conference lets out and the DV people start moving out into the hallway. I see a man that I "know" is pj, and I swoop down and he smiles and high-fives me in congratulations for becoming lucid. As I fly around, I hear a cat and then I see a kitten on the floor, pitifully meowing and looking at me.  I realize I am probably hearing my cat IRL trying to wake me up, and I choose to ignore her (which I recognize at the time as an accomplishment).

I fly up around in the hallways and up the stairs, sometimes balancing on something high just to look around, a little afraid of the height but I am able to overcome it. I see a girl I knew in grade school, she is grown but I recognize her, and we talk for a moment. I see my school financial aid advisor and I tell him I am mailing my last school loan payment off today (which was true IRL).

I fly thru doors and thru a tight space just barely big enough for me which leads outside. I try to fly up into the sky, but find myself trapped by a chain-link fence which encloses the area. I falter, and at first I feel defeated, but I manage to keep cool and I take hold of the fence and pull it apart. A hole forms and I fly thru. I think I am in San Diego so I go look for the beach, thinking an ocean flight would be fun. Then the dream shifts unexpectedly, and I am in an auditorium, waiting for a show to start. I am near the bar, and I hear some official looking people say that this is going to be a bad show tonight, and that they better get started. They begin handing out over-ripe bananas to the audience. I wonder if we are supposed to throw them at the performers. Suddenly the dream seems pointless, and I think that I really should get up and get ready for work. I am not regretful to let go of the dream at this pointless.  It seems finished. (I wake up, three minutes before my alarm is set to go off.)

[Moonbeam]

Lucid Brawl

Dad and I are driving in a neighborhood; he points out a house he once looked at to buy but rejected because of the "weird yard". I look at it and see that the ground is all white. I think it is sand, but then I realize it is snow. I think it is at this point I become lucid. We get out of the car and walk to a repair shop. I look in the window and see a big brawl, several men fighting viciously. There is a metal tool on the wall that I think will make a good weapon, so just as a test of my control I try to teleport it to one of the guys who seems to be losing so he can use it. It doesn't work. I look around and it seems like spring rather than winter; I fly up to a tree and float around the leaves and turn upside down and hang from the branches. I decide to blow smoke from my mouth as another test. This fails as well. I am happy to be lucid tho and enjoy my flying and floating.

[Moonbeam]

Stuck in the Ceiling

I become aware that I am dreaming, but it is extremely dark. I know I am inside, in a small windowless room or hallway. I go sit on some stairs which I sense to be there, and try to calmly think what I can do to get out and have a good lucid experience. I decide to forcefully fly upward and out of the room. I end up hanging from the ceiling, with my hands and wrists buried inside, feeling the foamy insulation.

[Moonbeam]

Lucid Mall

I am in a drugstore with CR from work, I think it is a drugstore, but the checkout girls are behind a counter with little holes like bank tellers. C and I are buying shaving supplies; I have a red and white striped can in my hand; she is talking about helping some old lady she knows and I am feeling sorry for her. Then she starts talking about wanting to see the movie "Bareback Mountain". I start laughing at her and making fun or her, telling everyone around us what she said, and they laugh at her too, but she doesn't know why.

Out of nowhere I think, "It's a dream!" I look around, confirming the thought, and without an RC I am sure. I run out of the drugstore, and into a mall. Boring, I think, and try to fly upward and out. The same thing that happened in my last lucid happens again--my hands get stuck in the ceiling and I hang there, feeling like an idiot. The dream starts to fade, but I am determined to keep it; I break free of the ceiling and fall back down and rub my hands together, concentrating on the sights and sounds of the mall. (YAY! First time I've remembered to do that!)

I walk around, wondering what I can do. I picture some woods and a lake, and try to find a door to walk thru into the scene, but no luck. A stray thought occurs to me: Any tall, good-looking guys around? I try to suppress it, but a man about ten feet tall walks by. I freak out a little and try not to look at him and hope he won't notice me. Then I see a nine foot tall woman running after him and they go off together like they are looking for something.

My hearing goes bad, and I feel like there is cotton in my ears. I yell, "More Lucidity!" and "More Clarity!", and it seems to improve. I am still wondering what to do when a teenage boy with really weird hair like Lyle Lovett or somebody in a David Lynch movie approaches me and asks if he can help me figure out what to do. He knows he is a DC, and he is really trying to help. I say thanks, but I don't think so. I walk some more, and I see a weird guy talking to himself and shaking his head. I tell him don't worry about it, and ask him if he knows he is just a DC, which he ignores. More walking, and I see a pregnant woman moaning and clutching her belly at the top of some stairs. I go over and decide to heal her. I put my hands on her belly, and then I don't really know what to say; everyone is looking at me expectantly, so I just sort of mumble, you'll be OK, and then she is.

[Moonbeam]

Lucid Dream-in-a-Dream

Mom and I are sleeping in the same bed, and there is a crib next to her side. A baby is inside, and it gets fussy so Mom puts it into bed with us, then she gets up. The baby, which is really more like a little kid, somehow slips between the head of the bed and the wall, and I pull her up. Then Mom gets back into bed and we all go to sleep.

I dream about an evil dictator who has kidnapped an old women, and I have something to do with rescuing them. I am in the palace grounds of the dictator, and I wander into an area which has a huge buffet laid out, piles of delicious food everywhere.

I am suddenly lucid, and think I'll enjoy the feast. Twice the dream starts to fade, but as the scene goes, I remain calm and concentrate on visualizing it and bringing it back, and I am successful both times. Unfortunately, by the time I stabilize the dream and go to the buffet table, the piles of gourmet food have turned into stale chocolate long-john donuts. I pick one up and try it--it doesn't taste too bad, but I wish I some of the food that I saw at first, and I try to conjure up something better. This has a minimal effect--I see some slightly fresher looking cinnamon rolls, and eat one of them.

I am starting to have trouble moving my jaws, and I think, I bet I am disturbing Mom and the baby with all this eating...and that thought causes the dream to fade. I wake up in the bed with Mom, and she gets up, saying she can't sleep anymore. (Wake up for real.)

[Moonbeam]

Valentine Task Lucid

I'm putting my dogs in a truck outside my Dad's house, and I'm having trouble keeping track of them and keeping them from getting in the street. I think to myself, they'll be OK, it's just a dream. For a second I don't even realize what I said, but then it hits me. I start to run off towards a man I saw walking on the sidewalk, but then I see one of me dogs looking out at me, all happy and excited. So I stop to let her out, and we run towards the elderly man I had seen. I ask him, "Will you be my Valentine?" and he looks at me in surprise, and mumbles something like "No, I've already got a cat", and goes into his building. I'm not offended.  I run off down the street, which turns tropical with palm trees.

[Moonbeam]

Cousin's House

I'm in a huge house, with ceilings thirty feet high, windows as big as a department store, hallways twnty feet wide.  It is so big and rundown and scary I am depressed.  I wasn't sure yet who lived here. I go into a huge room that looks like it may have been fixed up a little; there are gargoyles and dragons on the ceiling, and paint on the brick walls. I think, this looks like Cousin E's work to me, and he walks in. He shows me the huge picture window, overlooking a strange cityscape. He says, "Some people pay a lot of money for a view like that, and I'm only paying $150"! I laugh because he always finds a way to get things for free or cheap.

He leaves, and at some point I have the thought, I'm so glad that it is a dream--hesitate--LUCID. I start to go thru a door, then I stop and imagine a beautiful woods and lake scene to walk into, to escape the house. I walk thru the door--darn, doesn't work. I am in a huge hallway, so I fly back and forth, doing flips in the air and trying to control my speed and level. I didn't think to find a DC and talk to them, which is my other goal.

[Moonbeam]

Lucid Path

I'm at a party that seems to be at KF's from work's house; there are also childhood friends there, CN and BD. I go outside with CN and a guy, we stand by a car and talk. Then I take off on a bike with BD. I become lucid, but begin to wake up. I lie very still and picture scene; it narrows down to the gravel that had been on the path and I concentrate on the detail. It works, and I am back in the dream, however now I am walking down the path alone.

Lucid Institution

I'm in an institutional type building; still lucid. I fly down the hallway and try to escape thru a window that is open a crack, but I get caught in the screen and tangled up. (Wake up, DEILD back into dream, I see bright lights and I know it is the lights in the hallway I just left; this is where I feel the vibrations.) I'm back in the institution, and I don't think I can get out so I just fly back and forth down the hallways, glancing in thru the windows in the doors where there are day-room type set-ups for patients who are sitting around, watching TV and talking. (It is like a mental institution, but the thought doesn't occur to me at time!)

FA - Riding

I'm riding in the back seat of a car, two blond headed people I don't recognize in the front. I don't know them, and I can't even tell if they are men or women. I'm still lucid, and I wonder what to do. I have a drink like a fast-food soda in my hand, so I drink the last of it thru the straw. I take the lid off and throw the ice over the seat into the lap of the front passenger, laughing.


FA - Stranger

I wake up in a strange house.  Tom isn't in the bed. Someone else comes, he is huge and ugly, just like Andre the Giant. He gets on top of me and holds my arms down. I am scared and I try to turn him into Tom. He gets smaller, he doesn't become Tom but he turns into a regular man and I'm not scared anymore.  Then he goes down on me.

FA - Back Home

I wake up, Tom and I are sleeping cross-ways in the bed. I say to him, "You know this is a dream?" He says, "Do you want me to wake you up?" I don't think I say anything, but he rolls over on top of me.

FA - Waking Myself Up

I get up to go to the bathroom to record my dream, and it doesn't look right. I realize I am still dreaming, and (I can't believe I did this!) I yell, "NO!" (And I finally wake up for real.)

[Moonbeam]

The Party I

I'm at a house party; there are lots of people I don't know. I walk around looking for a bathroom, but can't seem to find one. There are couches arranged in front of screens hanging up on the wall to watch concert footage and people are crowded onto them. I squeeze in between some people and watch the show. I think, wow, I haven't had a cigarette all night; I guess I could quit if I wanted to.

The Party II

I'm back in the house, except now I am alone. I think it is this change that makes become lucid. The house is dark and I have a feeling of unease bordering on fear, but I try to be rational and not ruin the dream or wake up. I look at my hands to try and stabilize things, and I see eight fingers on the left and six on the right. Things are still hazy, and I spin, but this doesn't help much. I don't want to be in the dark house, so I walk towards a doorway trying to imagine a nice outdoor scene I've been visualizing for such an opportunity. I walk into the haze that is present on the other side of the door....

FA--Lucid cont.

I'm in a strange house, but it is lit up and quite comfortable and cozy. Nothing looks familiar, and I search for a pen and paper to record my lucid dream. I almost immediately become lucid.  I don't have the unease I felt before. I look around the house, it is totally unfamiliar--somewhat cluttered and lived-in looking, with a comfortable couch with pillows and an afghan, and big wall-to-wall bookshelves filled with books. I walk over and take one down and open it at random. I see a picture of a map but the writing is garbled, which doesn't surprise me.

I put the book back and walk outside thru the kitchen door--and back into darkness, with the feeling of fear returned. I walk thru the yard, down the driveway, then turn around and look behind me. I see a cougar stalking me, about fifty yards away. I feel a rush of panic but I try to control it. The cougar charges, but I stand still and hold my fist out at it. It veers away instead of leaping. I see it watching me and I know it will charge again if it gets a chance. I see a bear with cubs in another back yard; this worries me a little too but I maintain control and try to remember that they can't hurt me.

I walk towards a house, and I see a light flickering thru the window. I hear a woman screaming for help, so I go over and look in the window. It is just the TV, turned up loud. A man is sleeping on the couch in front of the TV. I decide to play a joke on him, so I say thru the screen window something like "Are you sleeping?" or "Are you dreaming?" I think maybe I will give him a lucid dream. He rolls over restlessly and mumbles "Shut up, I'm really fucking tired." So I walk away.