Mortal Mist

[Dreams on 2 June 2008]

Dreams on 2 June 2008

Wow, what a night!
Yesterday I read Marks DJ and was amazed by the many dreams he had. I think this inspired my mind as well
And a lucid quicky (inspired by MB's reply to Hiros in her DJ )

Back at uni
Outside, walking around, I'm gathering my stuff cause I'll be leaving town for a while.
I get into a bar, where an old 'friend' is waiting for me. She's rather pissed off, cause I was way too late and/or didn't send anyone else to pick up the stuff she had for me. We go to her room together and on the way there (outside the house), we kiss. We 'telepathically' exchange thoughts on how the kiss feels and adjust the kissing-style accordingly. It feels really good in the end, but then she suddenly leaves to her room to see her boyfriend.

Inside the house is a very relaxed atmosphere. One guy shows me a really difficult ringtone-programming he did. He said you could buy a ringtone for €150 but he made one himself. He made a polyphonic ringtone for monophonic phones and it consists of long columns of codes in a spreadsheet. I ask him how he found out about the codes and he replied it was all trial&error. My friend later tells me this guy is a real geek (like I hadn't noticed )
I make a phonecall to my boyfriend to arrange some things before my departure.

Toilets and birth rooms
Outside on the street again... I'm waiting for my boyfriend, but I really need to pee. I enter a public toilet that has a plastic bin on the wall and I pee in there (don't ask how I managed to do that standing up!) but the bin is open on the bottom, so it all drips out again (yuck). I see there's several 'special' bathrooms. The regular "men's" and "disabled" but no female bathroom. There are 2 other special ones and the next room is no toilet, but a room to give birth in. It has several machines, a couveuse, a chair with those leg-things... you can watch it from the outside, cause 1 wall is from glass. A bit further I see a similar room, with a fat woman laying on the bed. First, I think this is a plastic model to show how the birth-room looks, but then I notice she is breathing and pressing on her belly to get the baby out. I feel ashamed to be watching this, so I quickly leave.

Lucid sex!
Don't know if this was caused by the ipod (which has an mp3 about erotic possibilities in lucid dreams) but I suddenly got lucid while walking on the street. I felt an extreme urge to have sex, right then and there, but the only person I saw was my ex (the not-nice one). Well, what the hell, I just need sex NOW! I tell him: you were not very good IRL, let's see if you're better in a dream. He continued walking on the street, so I jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist. We didn't undress (never necessary in dreams...) and sort of enters me. He still sucks, but I get aroused anyway. But within seconds, he tells me 'oh, I have to aim' and he pulls out his 'thing' right when he comes, and the stuff gets into his mouth and over his chest. It's really a lot! (hehe, never met a guy who even dared to taste it ) He drops me and I wake up, very disappointed.

I'm lying in a bed on the sidewalk, still feeling aroused.
I hear something about 'false awakenings' on the ipod and think "yeah right, this is plain real reality, you know when it feels like a dream or not" I don't think I'll soon enter a new dream so I start masturbating in the bed, under the blanket, trying to do it not too obvious cause people are walking by. But now it doesn't feel good anymore and I blame this stupid ex for not finishing me in the very short quicky.

Waking up after this dream was really weird!

I had my alarm on snooze, which caused 2 more short dreams (and one can dream a LOT in 10 minutes!)

10-minute-dream 1 : Swimming pool slides
With 2 friends I'm in a large entertainmentpark which also holds a swimming pool. We go to the pool first and try some waterslides. After some time, we tried them all and go to the dressing room. When we get dressed, a lady approaches us to tell we can get 1 free hour of swimming if we cheat the system and go in during the cleaning break. We are back in the swimming pool, 1 of my friends is in clothes now, but she goes down a waterslide. I yell: noooo, you'll get your clothes wet! she replies 'only one slide won't be that bad' (like in the joke: if you only have a small towel, just use less water when you take a shower).

I go after her, but now the slide is without water and it's very steep! I'm afraid I'll ruin my clothes by going this fast. She had stopped halfway down the slide and I bump into her. She's angry with me, but I say it's her own fault, she shouldn't be so childish and stop in a slide (oh, I did that many times when I was young...)

10-minute-dream 2 : Czech cheaters!
Again somewhere outside in a small city... On the corner of a street is a table with some souvenirs. Tiny, simple figures from plastic or clay. The prices are unbelievable! 150 euro's for the smallest piece up to 10.000 for a set of 16 small items.
There's a bakery that almost closes it's doors for lunch break, but I manage to get in. I'd like a nice cake or pastry and the lady shows me all there's left. I ask her for 'merunka' and get a cake with pears. (merunka = apricot, not pear, pear = hruska) She says it's 4 euro's and I pay her with a bunch of czech coins. Later I realise: 4 euro's??? for a small cake with pears??? Those czech people think tourists are milionaires...

[To the Dump with Dad]

Yay, Mark, join the contest!

Well, no lucids last night. No spectacular dreams either :(
Short and stressfull night. My friend woke me at 6:15 to go running, I forgot I was supposed to get up this early and I have an assignment I still need to finish for my studies, blech...

To the Dump with Dad
I'm in the car with my dad and we're going to a timber 'shop' / dump. It has racks full with wood, but also a corner of 'left over inventory' in which I find a perfect stick-thing to use as a display for my halters on a fair. It's a thick pole, made of dark wood, with horse carvings around it.
Then, I see two pillow covers with horses on them and tell my dad 'look, the same prints as I have' He replies 'of course, there's not that many different horse prints for pillow covers'

Dad tells me to hurry and we leave.

*scene change, or different dream?*

I'm in the car with my mum, she's driving me somewhere. Later I'm on my bike, while my boyfriend already left for school. I keep forgetting things and have to turn back and fix things and after an hour my boyfriend returns, quite angry. He was waiting on the train station all the time... I feel bad for him and wonder what I can do to make it OK with him again.

-fragment-
I'm looking outside and it's raining. There's no way I'm going to run in the rain, so I'm happy that I can sleep in...

Then my friend knocks on the door, so I wake up, we ARE going to run (and it's raining as well...)

[Dreams on 4 june 2008]

Dreams on 4 june 2008

I tried for 5 minutes to focus on 'the next thing I do, will be in a dream'. I started to get a great HI where I told this text to a girl, then realised I was TALKING in a DREAM which made me too awake again and the HI dissolved immediately.

Tried WBTB at 4:30 and 6:00 but without iPod (battery empty) and didn't get out of bed, so no lucids afterwards. Both times I remembered a very long and detailed dream, but somehow the first one I still know and the second got lost (stupid me, I should write things down in the night!!)

Epic escape in WW2

This was really a great dream, it felt like a movie of which I knew the ending, but I was fully participating in it.

*something happened before this, but I forgot, something in a dark room, I had an uneasy feeling about it*

I was walking on a street in WW2 and a russian/german guy had done something very bad. The police came and they suspected me for committing this crime, but then a black guy showed up and took the blame. Very loyal of him, but he had nothing to do with it. Later, I knew the russian guy was hidden in a cardboard box. I walked on the sidewalk with 2 black guys and asked them if they didn't feel sorry it was another black guy who was blamed for a crime he didn't commit. They weren't too sorry for him, but we had a plan. We were going to exchange this black guy with the russian that was hiding in the box.

I took the box and taped it shut. I think the russian was dead by now. A car arrived with some more of their black friends and we pulled the box in. I remember Moonbeams story about fitting many people in a small car. Well, this was just like it! We put the box with the guy plus 5 people all in the back of the car. Just when I got in, the police arrived with screeming sirenes. I didn't feel scared, cause I knew we were going to escape. (i knew the end of this 'movie' all along). We were followed for a while, then the driver took a narrow street, opened a garage door with his remote control, drove in and closed the door so we lost the police (like in GTA, where you can hide in a garage and repaint your car) Once inside, we dumped the box with the dead russian in a room next door. A dog sniffed into the box and started eating on this dead body. Blood was on his face. All I thought was 'maybe he'll eat the penis first, cause that's like a sausage'  WTF

Inside this 'garage' we threw a small party and in the end, we all forgot about the black guy that had to be saved.

I hope someone else's dream will trigger recall to my second dream from last night. I still have the feeling it was very long and interesting, but it's hidden behind a fog in my mind...

Oh, FOG! That was in my lucid!
As I was flying in this building, I saw a huge 'ball' of fog down in the distance. With some TK, I made it implode and fade away.

(Sara, this is Moonbeam--I am so sorry.  This is the second time in two days I've done this....I modified instead of quoting you.  I put it all back, but I'm afraid some of the sizing and stuff went away. Sorry. I may get fired if I do this any more. )

No problem, Miss Beam, I set it back, it was only the size of the title that got screwed up
I can't be mad at you, now that I beat you in the contest

[Dreams on 5 June 2008]

Dreams on 5 June 2008

Me won the contest! 

My good old podcast mp3 (the one from Pavlina) plus a few minutes awake at 5:00 got me lucid again It's starting to become a reliable technique. I think more because I now associate this podcast with getting lucid than because of the actual text.

2 normal dreams before this one, I took notes! but will work them out later.

Sex w/o chocolate

I'm walking around with a guy (I think it was my BF, but I'm not sure...), when I start hearing the text on the podcast about lucid dreaming, we talk a bit about this, when I suddenly plug my nose. I can't breathe, but I know something's not right. I try a few more times and then I'm sure: this is already the dream I was waiting for!

(click to show/hide)

Oh, I was supposed to have sex!
I jump on him, perform oral for a few secs to make him wet and then sit on him. I come very quickly,

but then I wake up :([/color]

I feel good because of the sex, but I'm disappointed I forgot about the chocolate :(



I'm walking around with Tobby in a small garden next to our house. There is a tiny paddock with 2 donkeys. 1 is trapped behind a fence and I walk around to free him, but he already jumped out by himself. Stupid donkey
I'm a bit sad that only now we are moving, I discover we have a garden at our house (IRL we live in an appartment, 3rd floor and want to move to a house with garden) I see a place where fresh herbs grow.

*Somehow I got lucid at this time as well, but memory is very vague here, since there were 4 lucids in a row. No sex at least *

I wake up again, while hearing the restart of the podcast. That's strange, I never realised I was sleeping for 10 minutes... I turn around and sleep again.

A shower full of men

Now I wake up on a mattress outside. A kid is holding a bottle of bodymilk and spraying it on my. Hey, you nasty kid, I'll get you! As I'm running after him, I realise this is again a dream! (don't know what triggered it) I follow him and arrive at a large shower room full of naked men. Ah, the perfect situation for my task! "Who's got any chocolate and wants to have sex with me?" I shout. Several guys start looking in their bag, a girl hands a bar of chocolate to one of the guys, so he can have sex with me.
I take him outside on the road, which is now in my parents town. He reminds me of a friend of Tobby. He looks around a bit scared, cause he's still naked and everybody can see him. I tell him this is just a dream and he shouldn't be worried. I push him down on a small slope of grass. First the chocolate! He has 2 bars of Milka chocolate. The first is with a biscuit inside. I don't like that too much, but still take a bite. It tastes like chocolate, but very vaguely, not sweet at all. The other is with caramel, that's much better! Still not a strong taste, but at least I can feel it melting in my mouth. Now, the sex!

(click to show/hide)

The guy is still laying down and I sit on top of him. He has a much larger dick than the first guy, but it fits anyway (uhm, MB's remark about fitting large objects in a small car is applicable to other themes as well ) I feel I'm very aroused again and my heartbeat is rising. The dream gets unstable, but I manage to stay in the dream (and on the guy) long enough to reach an orgasm before I wake up again. My heart beats pretty fast IRL as well.[/color]

Wow, I managed to complete the task!

Me, myself and my 2 clones

I wake up in my room (where I'm sleeping now). Tobby is in the bed next to me, but 2 metres away. I wonder why he sleeps at such a distance from me. He looks a bit angry and asks me why I was hiding my camera, he thinks there are pictures on it of me having sex with another guy. I'm sure I didn't take pictures from that and I tell him that was only in a dream. I had to reset the camera cause it was broken, not because I deleted pictures that he was not allowed to see. I show him the camera. Look: the screen is on while the camera is turned off. Ehm, wait a minute, that is NOT normal. Damn, I'm dreaming AGAIN!

I head for the door and want to leave the room. Tobby has disappeared, but there are 2 clones of me, walking around naked. They are much thinner than I am, skinny actually (not the way I want to be). Great, I have some clones, that can be usefull, I think I walk past a closet full of horse items. It looks like a display of a store and I'm amazed by how clear I can read the names of all the products. Most of them are German or English, there's fly repellant, brushes, rubber bands for making braids and several medicins. I want to keep looking, but one of my clones pulls me further, while speaking the text of the podcast. This annoys me a lot. We walk down some stairs and I tell her to SHUT UP!!! and push her away. I know the voice won't go away, but at least I got rid of her.

I enter a room, where an middle-aged lady sits in an old chair. She has a large christmas tree in the room. Ah, I can have some TK fun with that  (the podcast also says something about levitating cups) I start with dropping some balls from the tree. The lady looks at me in awe, not saying anything. I don't like here, she looks like a jury from Idols. There's a glass of lemonade or tea next to her and I lift it up in the air. I want to poor it over her head, but my TK abilities are not that refined. I have trouble turning the glass upside down and it takes a while, but the lady is stunned anyway, so she doesn't run away

Then, I get on to the bigger work. There's 3 christmas trees in the room and with large gestures, I push them over one by one. The silver strips in the tree remind me of 'shooting ribbons' from my hand. I point my finger at the lady and want to give her an electrical shock from distance, but all that I produce is a thin, silver thread that whirls around in the air. It gets to her head, but it's totally harmless. I decide the lady has had enough 'punishment' (for whatever reason she needed that) and I go back upstairs. My clones are still walking around naked. Then a dirty idea gets into my mind.

(click to show/hide)

What if I would perform oral on my clone, would I feel it myself?? I kneel in front of my clone and already feel I'm getting aroused. I have no idea what it would feel like to perform oral on a girl, but I guess my brain produced a pretty realistic feeling. It felt good both ways, giving and receiving and it takes only a minute before I get another orgasm...

[/color]...and wake up again, 1 minute before the alarm goes off.

[Dreams on my birthday]

Thanks Mark!!!
My biggest present is on his way (boyfriend visiting me in France) and my parents already gave me a navigation device before I left, so I wouldn't get lost in France (very helpfull!).

My friend made apple pie, I made Tiramisu for myself and tonight we're going to party in Tours (6 girls + Tobby, LOL)

And yeah, Moonbeam, that would be a good idea for a new contest
This time you will have an advantage on me: I'll be on holiday with my boyfriend for 1 week, somewhere in France, sleeping in a tent (thus: w/o computer) and drinking some good wine. Not much chance for lucidity next week.

Dreams on my birthday

No lucid-presents last night... but I did kiss my 'nice-ex' again (tho I didn't want him to kiss me, I just got 'over' him in my dreams)

I took notes during the night, on my cellphone, wow.

Kissing my ex, again   

- not very interesting to read, I guess -
I was in school again, in the sports hall where we usually take exams. I have to do an exam on Organic Chemistry (the one I failed 3 times, but finally passed last year). and I'm afraid I'm not going to pass it. The exam is taken to see if you need extra classes, or whether you can skip them. My ex is sitting next to me. I still like him a lot, but he has another girlfriend now, so he's not interested in my anymore. He has to take the classes anyway, so somewhat I hope I have to take them too, so I'll see him more often.

When the results are there, my ex whispers to me: don't worry, you got a 5 out of 10, so we can do the course together. I have mixed feelings about this and I tell him I still fancy him. Then, a guy is hanging in the ropes on the ceiling. He throws a heavy ball to someone on the ground. He asks me to join, but I don't like ball games, so I walk away.

Then, I see the msn-name of my ex. It says "But I don't love you  :'( " I wonder why he put tears, maybe he feels sorry for me. He has to get home, so I walk with him while he goes on a really strange bike. More like a boat-bike (remember the boat-taxi in 'waking life'?) . We end up at our flat, he says goodbye and kisses me. I'm like 'nooo, don't do that, you know I can't resist it!'. It doesn't feel as good as his earlier dream-kisses. A small, piebald mouse appears on my arm, I try to put it in my pocket.

Then, he gets on his bike again and the bike falls down 1 meter. He hits his head and collapses. I think he's dead! NOooo, don't die! His eyes are red with blood, his skin turns really white! I see he's moving a little bit and run off to call for an ambulance. Then, I see my boyfriend's car and completely forgot that I had to be home an hour ago! I feel so sorry for him! I walk to the car and see him in another car, with my grandma and family. They get out and I show them the way to my appartment. Ow shit, how am I going to explain my dying ex is in the bike-shed...

5 am, I turn on my iPod

Horse in the House! - missed lucid chance -
I'm walking on the street again (that happens a lot, lately! maybe cause I'm spending so much time outdoors these days) and I meet some interviewers on the street. They ask me about my dreams. Do I remember 6 or 7 dreams per night? (that's a sentence from the mp3) What do I dream about? And why? (that's not on the mp3). I'm happy to answer their questions and even tell them I like to kiss my ex in my dreams   

A next interviewer even asks me questions about LUCID dreams. "Wow, a research about lucid dreaming, that is cool! I should tell my friends on the forum!" I'm thinking. "And I should do an RC" is my next thought, but I don't do it... 

I take my white horse to my home, up the stairs, into the elevator. He walks with my very relaxed. The stairs are with small steps and covered with white sand to make it easy for the horse to go upstairs.

[Dreams on 15 june 2008]

Bwuh, internet was offline yesterday and this morning. That sucks! Nothing to do here in the evening, so I was really bored. I called some friends, who weren't home, so I left a crazy message on their answering machine

How is Tobby with all of this and are you able to tell him about ROBBIE?  Not suggesting that you should.

Oh, I tell my boyfriend about my dreams, ofcourse. Else, he just reads them here.
He asked me to have lucid sex with him instead of all those random guys I find in my dreams, so that was kind of a personal achieved task as well

Depends who was "better" in the dreams I suppose.  "Hey Tobby, Robbie was good but you were BETTER" 

LOL
as long as the real thing beats the dream-sex...

I know that feeling - to pee or not to pee (hmmm...Shakespeare could have written that any better ).  To bad it was a French toilet 

Hehehe, to pee or not to pee....
French toilets are not as terrible in dreams as they are IRL by the way. At least I didn't get dream-pee on my shoes

Yeah, France is lovely! Glad you like it too. We saw a lot of British people! Mostly older people, with large campers.
The tree climbing (and more difficult: walking on ropes and hanging poles etc) was cool in the end, after I got over my fear of heights.

You were in one of my dreams yesterday, be due to internet failure I didn't write it down and forgot most details :( I'll try to see what I can remember of it.

And the peeing is usually when I need to pee IRL as well. It's as common for me than dream sex 

Dreams on 15 june 2008

Mark from Scotland?

I was watching a sort of interview/quiz. Mark was sitting at a table and I saw him from behind and the man asking questions was in front of him. Mark scrambled around with letters on the table, so they formed the word 'Scotland'. That's correct, the interviewer said, since you are from Scotland. Later, there was another question to which the answer was Scotland.

Out of supply!
I'm walking around in a city. Streets are covered with a roof (how nice) and I hold a small packages of lemonade. Some people approach me and say how nice it is I still have something to drink! I think this is a very weird remark. She says "yeah, you don't want to drink anything pasturised, would you." My lemonade isn't 'fresh' either, so I don't get her point. But then I see the shop, it's almost empty! Only a few veggies left on the shelves. I hurry inside to buy some last supplies. The fire alarm goes off and I see people blowing foam on the floor. There is no fire, but a leak of a dangerous chemical.
On the intercom, a man announces we shouldn't inhale the fumes, but it is safe to stay in the shop. I continue shopping and find a massive amount of bubblegum balls, spread on the floor. How cool! I run to it and slide on them.

Computer crisis
I'm working in a classroom on a computer. I leave and come back later to get my book. Then, I see I left ALL my valuable items in the classroom, how stupid! My laptop, my CD-player, everything! Plus a small glass with a dangerous looking chemical. I put it in a 'toxic waste' bin, but the teacher is there to question me and I try to come up with a good excuse...

Help, no brakes!
It's there again, the dream-car without brakes...
It's almost dark and I have to bring 3 old christmas trees to the horses (they like to eat those dead trees), when I lose 2 of them on a speed bump in the road. I stop, drive backwards and want to stop the car, but it won't stand still, ARGH! The hand break doesn't function either, so I allow it to drift a little while I put in the trees.

I continue my journey and drive through an area where all front gardens and houses are decorated with Simpsons and 'Tigger' pictures and statues. It looks like a really happy neighbourhood. My car slows down, I push the gas as hard as I can, but it only slows down more. Well, I think, it wouldn't stop when I wanted it to stop, so I just drive 5km/h and arrive anyway.

Lucid flying around the trains! (dream-talking induced lucid!)

Hehe, the other day I agreed on Mark that we were talking about dreaming within our dreams so often and it never got us lucid. This time, I finally got it

I was walking on a street, talking to some people about dreaming. They said lucid dreaming was going to be a real hit and i should start a website about it, but if I wanted to make any money, I was too late for it. I thought, hmmm, lucid dreaming, better pinch my nose.
Hey guys, wait a minute, this IS a dream!
*missed something here*

I'm at a platform of a railway station, looking at the tracks. I decided this is a good moment to practice my flying skills. I fly up to the roof, but see a train coming. Afraid that it's going to hit me, I quickly descend. When the train stops, I fly over it, and land on the next platform. I want to fly out of the station, but I'm afraid I get hit by the power lines. Oh, what the hell, I can't feel pain in a lucid, so I fly up to a window, through the powerlines and through the window. I experiment a bit with holding my arms in front of me and behind me.

In front, I have better control over the direction, but backwards I have more power. The dream ends too quickly and continues in a normal dream. I'd like to have had some more flying practise...

Dreams on 16 june 2008

Very tiring night: I was working with horses all night long, doing heavy and boring jobs.
Funny detail: I filled the watertank for the horses with the watertank in my camper (that one only holds 5 liters) and I really couldn't figure out how I could fill a 1000L tank with my car's watertank. I was making up some dream-like conclusions, but never did an RC
Then, I went on training horses, lunging foals, being late for my appointments with my friends etc.

[Dreams on 17 june 2008]

Hey Hiros, nice to see you
Well, I knew it was him, but in the dream it wasn't really special to see him. Stupid dream-logic...

As for the competition and the 'torch', you can find it on the previous 2 pages. First, MB suggested a task to have lucid sex while eating chocolate, which I managed within 2 days. But now the task is 'have lucid sex while flying' which is much more challenging for me, since my flying skills need lots of practice.
Maybe if there are some hot guys up in the air, I'd get some incentive and be able to reach them.

Dreams on 17 june 2008

I started keeping notes (only in the morning, not yet during the night) which improves my memories of last night's dreams.

My first alarm is around 5 hours after going to sleep, then 1,5 hours later and then at the time I need to get up. This gives me 2 chances of WBTB and to improve my recall.

Quiz at high school
I'm at my old high school, participating in a kind of quiz / treasure hunt where we have to search through the building to find hidden clues. My friend S and I manage to get into a private teachers room, where a teacher left his bag. We scan through his belongings and find some interesting notes.

*in between dream/fragment*
I'm discussing with a harness maker which color of leather I should take. The black one is thicker but a bit stiff and could crack, the brown one is more supple, but I'm afraid most people don't like brown leather. I like to take them both, but I got enough fuzz with all my different colors so I choose only 1.

Again, I'm in this teachers cabinet. He's still not there and I pack my stuff to get out of there. Damn, it looks like I turned my bag upside down, my stuff is everywhere! Just when I finished, another teacher walks in. I say I wasn't in there very long and didn't touch anything, but he looks like he doesn't believe me.  (and he should ) Then I wake up, 20 minutes before the alarm (so that was a nice guess on 3 sleep-cycles of 90 minutes)

Toast machines on fire
With some friends in France, we decide to make toast (actually: tosti, the bread with molten cheese in between). I turn it on, but before I can put the bread in, it starts smelling really bad, black smoke comes out of the machine and the plastic casing starts to melt. I try another machine, but the same thing happens. We don't give up and try another, third machine. This one even sets on fire and burns a hole in the table! I want to stop the flames with my hand, but a friend gets in my way and throws water over the burning toaster.

iPod goes crazy + moving out
This was after waking at 6, I put the earplugs from my ipod in and listen to my lucid podcast.

I'm riding on my moped and realise my ipod doesn't function well when I go fast or around a corner. I show it to my boyfriend, who doesn't believe me. Look: i press 'pause' and the ipod automatically goes back on 'play'. I can't get it to stop making noise! I get on my moped again and want to go fast, but it's power is totally gone. Like yesterday's car, it doesn't go any faster than 10km/h. I'm afraid it's broken again, what a bummer.

Next, I'm at a house with a grumpy man. I had a room in this house and need to get my belongings out before the 19th of june. I tell him I'll come back later this week, is it OK to store some things in his shed? He shows me the shed, it's filled with bags of clothes from other people, students who hired a room as well and couldn't take all their clothes as well, so NO, he is FULL and I need to get my own stuff out ASAP.

I'm asking my boyfriend, who arrived by his car, to take some of my stuff, which he does. Then, I look at him and am surprised at how handsome and cute he looks (oh, he is IRL as well, but I never observed him this well in a dream). I totally fall in love with him (again) and kiss him very long. The typical dream-kisses: soft and romantic. But then Tobby complains about sore lips and only wants to give short kisses, too bad for me :(

I'm so happy I had this nice feeling with my boyfriend and not anymore with my ex (the one who almost died a few dreams ago). It's like my subconscious is finally used to him instead of the ex (damn, what a slow mind I have...)

[Spiders in the city]

  dream impotence  make that LUCID dream impotence, cause I remember numerous 'healthy' adventures of you

Too bad it doesn't work out in lucids YET, but I'm sure, with some more practise, you will manage one day!
I'm again in the 'oh noo, I wake up because of sex' stage, cause I refused to have sex with a DC because I didn't want the dream to end.

Spiders in the city
Nice, long, adventurous but bit scary dream.
With Tobby I'm driving around in a city, we are looking for a place where we were supposed to meet one of his friends. It's a building like a swimming pool, but it represents several countries. Like a huge atlas withing a building. Then, it changes into a large nest. A sort of hollow tree with giant wasp nests in them. I put my hand in (why???) and one of the nests attaches to my hand. I can't get it off, I would rip my skin off if I tear the nest off. Then, I notice spiders are born in these nests and I have a huge spider egg on my hand. IEUW!

I wake up 2 minutes before the alarm (what a timing!!) put my iPod on PLAY with the standard podcast.

Crawling out of bed, rejecting the sex
I find myself lucid in bed, I feel extremely tired, but manage to crawl out of the bed. A DC walks towards me, I don't remember if it was a he or a she (later it felt like my sister) and I pushed him/her away, cause I didn't want to have lucid sex. I walk towards the window. I'm in my old bedroom. I open the window (it's one of those turning windows in an angled roof) and look down on the roof. My sister pulls me back, I shouldn't go down there, cause I don't have a safety line (hehe, memories of the tree climbing)

Lucid FUN plus lightswitch breakthrough
Again, I'm lucid, laying in a bed. I recognise the situation, I'm in the same room. I crawl out of bed. I hear my sister? say: and I saw a passenger seat driving by itself. I recognise this as a twisted sentence from my podcast and laugh about this. I'm thinking "I should remember this for MM". I get up and walk towards the light switch. It's dark in the room and I know light switches don't work the first time, but someone (caradon?) told they usually work the second time. I flip the switch twice, it gets a bit lighter. I switch it several times and each time it gets brighter and brighter. Hey, how nice, I found the solution to dark rooms

I head over to the bed. I'm thinking about lucid tasks, but don't want anything with sex this time, so I decide to have some fun. I put my hand through the blanket and then watch it from the other side. I see my hand sticking through the blanket and slowly pull it back out, a very cool sight   my SC has been wanting to do this for ages, but previous time with the glass it didn't work

I touch some items in the room, to stabilise the dream. Now, I push my left hand through my right hand. The image is extremely vivid with bright colors and perfect details. I can even turn my left hand 90 degrees through my right hand. Then I pull it back out.

Next, I pick up a stick and wonder if I can push it through my belly (ieuw, groce idea!). I get in front of my mirror and see I already got something sticking out of my belly. It's a white iPod cable. I pull it out and observe my body up close. It looks extremely muscular, really TOO muscular, like a bodybuilders body. I tighten my muscles and feel them close underneath my skin. Hmm, I'm glad I don't look like this IRL (I watched pilates vids on youtube yesterday and was a bit jealous at the slim, well shaped women)

Time to get out! I open the window and squeeze myself through. I get onto the roof, let go of my fear and slide down. I imagine a soft water pool on our lawn, so I softly land in the water. That was cool! I try to do some forward flips, still a bit afraid of loosing my dream when I go upside down, but they go very well! Each time, I land on my back in the water, like George Sampson does in the vid Mark posted. (I admit, I watched it too often  ) After a few of these acrobatic tricks, I wake up with a smile on my face

The wicked game
Another long dream, pfff, all this recall causes me hours of writing...
I meet with a group of friends on a camping. We're going to play an adult game (alcohol and racing with strange vehicles involved) but I need to get to the 6th floor first. The elevator can only hold 2 people at a time. It feels like a dangerous elevator. I watch how the first 2 go upstairs. (my perspective goes with those two people, up with the elevator) I'm watching from the 6th floor, as the elevator is now empty. I wonder: should I go back down in the elevator to get myself to the 6th floor? No, I'm already upstairs, stupid! *some things happen, like arranging with the group again etc*

An evil man gets home in his appartment on the 6th floor. I'm still in there! I try to hide, but can't find a good spot and crawl into a large chair. He sees me and is going to torture me with his super powers. He has glowing hands that have a temperature of 250 degrees (Celsius) and I'm really afraid he's going to make brand marks on my. As he gets closer, my perspective switches and I'm looking from above. I see the chair where I was hiding is 'empty'. I see a girl looking from underneath a blanket, smiling as to say she has fooled him. But then, a french bread drops on the ground and this sound reveals her presence.

*scene change*
Outside/downstairs again with the group. We are with 5 and need a 6th person to join for the game. We try to talk someone into joining, but suddenly more people leave. There's a lot of confusion and rumour going on, an unpleasant feeling.
And something with a white, sony camera in a triangular shape, that has videos of us sneaking into the evil man's house. We run for it and I'm glad my alarm goes off.

[Dreams on 19 june 2008]

@Mark: the spiders were really frightening. I didn't really see them, just the enormous nests... yuck.

Glad you don't blame me for liking that video. Thanks for putting it in your DJ, it was so cool to watch!

@Caradon: i've never done a hand RC before, neither IRL, nor in a dream. The nose RC works perfect every time.


Dreams on 19 june 2008

Most interesting / frustrating part in purple...

Didn't get a chance to write down my dreams yesterday, so I forgot a lot of details and the first dream of the night I forgot to write notes of. (hehe, now that I started to use notes, I start to rely on them...)

Frogs to keep you warm

I'm on a holiday, somewhere in a house (I should pay more attention to the surroundings, I'm often just 'somewhere'...)
- I have a discussion with my mum and dad about God. I tell them I started reading 'conversations with God' and that I like the book. My parents are disappointed in me, that I shouldn't be reading it and certainly shouldn't believe anything from it
- I have some frogs in a box :S
- My mother is in bed, she's very cold. I bring her a fleece blanket and tell her to use it on her legs. I put some frogs with her in the bed, to keep her warm...
I'm wondering, why frogs could keep her warm. After all, they are cold blooded animals. The ones I have in my box change into rats. Rats are warm . One rat is specially 'designed' for keeping you warm. It has been bred without skeleton, so it is soft, flat (1cm thick) and square. I know these need to be treated carefully if you want to 'use' them to keep you warm. The rat is scared and bites me, but I can't punish it, cause that will make it afraid. I endure the pain in my finger, while the rat has it's teeth in my thumb. When the pain ends, I wake up.

** alarm goes, i switch on my iPod **
Dreaming of lucid dreaming...
I'm at a party in a certain shop (a small grocery store I remember from childhood). It's a party where everyone is dressed funny, so I look for some funny clothes. I find a blue collar, some blue ties and feathers and many more items in the same blue color. The more I look, the more blue there is! (focus-theory). I put on everything, look in the mirror and I'm completely blue I know I look a bit silly, but hey, it's a costumed party, so what the heck! I feel strangely confident in my weird outfit.

Next, I'm running on the street, near my parents house. I run with music in my ears (ipod was on podcast, so no music there) and it goes effortlessly. A guy I know from uni wants to talk to me, but I tell him 'later, I'm running 12 km/h now!' I pass my parents house, mum wants me in for dinner, but I tell her 'I have to run 15 more minutes!'
I end up at a snackbar (which is indeed near my parents house). I see they only have fries and sateh. (meat on sticks, in spicy peanut sauce). I spot some people on a table and join their conversation. It's like I've just spent a few days with them, but then they're leaving. I ask one of the guys for his hyves-account. He doesn't have any. Facebook then? MySpace? No, but he has an email address. "Bogus" he says. I know I can't remember it, so I ask him to write it down. It says 'bongus-in-the-middle-of-dung@xxxxx (forgot the rest)' That's a long address!

I follow him outside, it starts to rain and he offers me to walk under his umbrella. We walk towards my car and he clicks on his keys. "That nice", I think, "one key to open all cars". Then, he asks me about lucid dreaming. He says 'a lucid dream, is a dream in which the person is aware that he is dreaming'. Yes, I KNOW,  don't tell me those basics, I already know that sentence too well (it's in the podcast). I get all enthusiastic that he knows about lucid dreaming too! I tell him "yesterday, I had a lucid in which I put my hands through each other, like this" and I show him, but my hand doesn't go through, it only stretches a lot. He tells me 'I put my knee through my chest'. Hmm, that's weird

I forget about the lucids, when we arrive at his place. It's the student house my friend lives. Now, I realise he is the boyfriend of a girl I know (and don't like!). I'm stunned by all these random things that come together in the end and I wake up just before the alarm.

[Dreams on 20 june 2008]

Dreams on 20 june 2008

The weird hair-cut
My friend dyed her hair yesterday (I wrote 'died' but that's probably not correct here ) and it turned out really nice.
I'm at a bit darkish hair-dresser's place.
A security agent walks by, in the alley of the shopping centre.
I sit in a chair, when my ex (the not-nice one) walks in. He shows me a mirror with my new haircut. I can see myself in there, with the hair already cut (that could be a usefull invention!!!) It's really red/orange with highlights, but also quite short and a bit old fashioned. I like the color, but not the way it's going to be cut.
A security guy walks past the open door, again.

My ex grabs a hair dryer and turns it on. Instead of blowing warm air, it sucks my hair in! Ieuw!
We check the machine to see what is wrong. There are many buttons, but we have no clue. The security guy walks in and shows us the switch for blowing was in the wrong position. When we put it on, the hair that was sucked in, now comes out again.

My ex and I leave. He tells me he wants me back and has arranged everything... (what, a wedding??) I say I'd never consider getting back together with him!

FF-ing gypsies

Again a bit frightening/adventurous dream. I'm not used to those kind of dreams. Actually, I'd feel more comfortable with my boring train dreams...

... some things happened before, argument with the ex? a bit chaotic memories here, the situation was getting more and more tense and chaotic.

I'm in a huge garden, belonging to an equally big house. A kid runs away from me, lightning fast. She wants to steal my cell phone, but I manage to keep it.
I walk into a building next to the house. First, it's just me and the little girl, then my ex comes in and suddenly the room is filled with gypsies. They look a bit creepy.  I try to reach Tobby, but can't get his number in the screen. It keeps going to names of people I DON'T want to call.
The gypsies 'protect' me, while my ex walks in and wants to get me out. I hope my ex has some smart excuse that will convince them and let me go unharmed. He says "I'll take her to Paloma Blanca' " and pulls me out of there.

One man follows us. I'm in a corner, blowing hot air in a paper bag, where I kept my money. The man argues with my ex for the money he should pay for getting me out. He gives around 70 euros. The money in my paper bag has dried and I hope the man won't see it and steal it. I'm frightened now. He shows me a bottle of perfume.

We walk through the garden, on stepping stones through a large pond. The man yells 'why do you have my perfume' and to my surprise, it is in my hand. How did it get there? I see a small bomb is inside! It was a trap! I throw it in the water, near the stepping stone of the man. He falls into the water with a dramatic (fake!) scream. I hope the bomb explodes in the water, next to the man, but this doesn't happen and the man gets out and leaves us.

When we arrive at the house, we see it's been robbed. All my expensive equipment is still there, pfew!

[Dreams on 21 June 2008 (shortest night of the year)]

Haha, never mind, Mark

It was exciting till the last 5 minutes of prolongation. Russia scored twice and we lost 3-1.
My apologies for not replying in other DJs tonight, I spent all my free time today reading a book, that is going to show me how to get rid of my stress and chaotic non-planning lifestyle
(Getting things done, by David Allen)


Dreams on 21 June 2008 (shortest night of the year)

My 'sleep in' morning, so extra time for WBTB
Not that I needed it, I had my lucid before 7am

The evening before, we watched an episode of 24. While watching, I suddenly realised we are not 'in' the movie, it is being captured by camera's. The whole time I was very aware of the position and movement of the camera (which made me loose the plot) and I thought 'this is like the kind of awareness you need for a lucid dream'.

Scary fish - fragment
In my parents garden, some fish are out of the pond. They are round, looking more like big shells, and they attack me. I want to kick them away, but they keep coming back

Car-accident with a kid
On the street, just after sunset, I see a car hitting a kid on his bike. He's around 12/13, falls down and since there's no one else to help him, I run over to check what happened. The kid can talk only a little bit, he's really injured and slowly falls into coma. A good friend is with me. She looks after the boy, while I search his backpack for a phone number or other information about him. I'm really concerned about him, as if I knew him well.

Later, we reach his parents and they get help. Suddenly, I'm standing there with my horse and leave the scene, knowing the guy is going to be OK.

Flying on a guys back + binge eating in the supermarket

I'm walking in a shopping mall (happens a lot in my dreams, lately) and I see bones for the dog at a very low price. I suggest to Tobby to buy some for a friends dog, but he refuses. He says they are cheap because they are out of date. I check and he's right. The expiration date was in 2005 

I continue my shopping tour on my own. When I get at an air-passage (usually at the exits, they blow hot air to keep it warm inside) I can't walk any further. I have no grip on the floor, no power in my legs... I partly realise I'm dreaming and there's no use in putting in all my effort. A guy walks buy and I grab him, so he pulls me through. I tell him: you can fly! And so we fly through the mall. At the exit, I tell him 'you can go through the glass'. He asks me 'really?' I say 'yeah, it's just a dream, you can manage' and so I fly outside, on this guys back. I shortly think of having sex with him, but since I'm on his back, this would be quite impossible. I go over the idea of imagining I'm a male as well, but I can't complete this idea, it's a bit, uhhm, well, you know... (I did get aroused )

We land at a sidewalk, with water around. I get in the water and find some goggles. I pinch my nose to see if I can still breath and then put on the goggles. My vision disappears, but I know I'm still in the dream AND I can still breath. When I put my head under water, I can see some divers. The water is big, green and empty, only a few divers are around. I like being able to breath under water, but there's nothing to explore.

I get out and into a shopping mall. Ahhhh, FOOOD! I run to some shelves with cookies, open a package and eat one. Then I head over to another shelf and start eating there. I find a shelf with candies at the bottom and open a bag of colorful, rod shaped candies. They are hard on the outside, with a soft centre. The first one has the colors and taste of watermelon. I spontaneously get an orgasm. Wow, nice, orgasm candies I want to have another orgasm, but instead of taking another candy, I try some hand-work, but that doesn't feel good. So, I'm off to find some CHOCOLATE! I run through the store, only seeing ropes, climbing equipment and other non-eatable stuff. Finally, I find my chocolate, I open the package and...

...a sentence in my podcast wakes me up :( Dammit! My old flatmate comes into the room, he wants to get in my bed! I push him out and start yelling at him. He points at some scribbling at the feet-end of my bed. I wrote my dream-notes there and I'm ashamed he's reading them. I try to hide it and he says 'are you ashame of your ugly feet?'

I leave the room and join my 2 friends who are both here in France. We discuss the dreams we just had. I tell them I found orgasm-candies. My friend says 'ah, that's nothing, I was watching a whole movie in my dream and could adjust the plot to my liking. I tell them about eating everything in the shop, which they do like, and in the meanwhile, we are all putting opened packages back on shelves.

Now I wake up for real and feel so stupid for not recognising this FA. But hey, the lucid was cool  (and I like those candies )

[Dreams on June 22:]

@Mark: sorry for the late reply, glad you understand though

You and your attacking animal fetish I hate those dreams, the animals are often really creeping up to me and hurting me as well. Bwuh!

The candies were really nice indeed, I'd like to find them again! Would be much easier than Viagra... Just eat a candy and be satisfied

Funny thing about those FA's. Once I had one with another flat-mate, in which he told me he knew I dreamt about him, but this was luckily less awkward.

Yeah, I nearly finished the task! Somehow my SC stopped me, to give you some more chance
And I totally forgot about turning into a horse, which I made a deal about with Lumi. Sorry Lumi! My SC is kinda focussed on the 'lower' stuff :S

Dreams on June 22:

Bit boring dreams, just the part about the money felt 'intense' as if I had a big fight about it with Tobby.

Trains are back!
I'm in the train (yeah, my wish was granted, trains are back ) and I have my bike with me. I get out in Gouda (a small station IRL) and see many many tracks. I'm lucky I can read the signs above the platforms, so I select the next train to Tobby's home town. I talk to Tobby on the phone. He tells me his wallet was stolen, as well as his camera and his phone. I meet him at another station, where he asks me for some money. I give him 20 to buy food for 2 days, but he wants more :S
I confess that I left my bike in the train, so it's probably lost :(

Damaged my dad's car
Tobby and I are going on holiday with my dad's car. Right before we leave, my dad checks the car and spots a 'crack' in the back. He tells me it's my fault, I must have hit something on the way out of the garage, but I'm sure I didn't. We discuss some more and I don't remember if we ever went on our holiday.

[Dreams on 24 June 2008]

Dreams on 24 June 2008

Set my alarm 6 hours after going to sleep and I wake up 5 mins before the alarm. Nice to know, my sleep-cycles are exactly 90 mins!

Living apart together
Weird setting: we live in a house, that has a shared livingroom with 2 other families. The living room is huge and mainly our 'property'. I explore the house a bit, till we are ready for dinner. Mum made a very chique dinnertable and nice dishes, but I can't eat them. When I want to start eating, one of my teeth starts to hurt really bad. I wake up (5 mins before alarm) with the feeling of a sore tooth, but this quickly disappears, so it wasn't real, I guess.

Lost in school!
Isn't that a very common dream-theme...

I'm in high school and have to finish a project. As I walk through the school to find my equipment for an experiment, I get lost. I end up in a room that's been decorated like a disco for bio/veggie people (all 'natural' and with mushrooms and stuff). As I try to find the exit, I meet some interesting people and I start to like this place.
When I visit it again, I run into a bossy board member of our rival study association. He says 'you are caught in the act, now you have to drink this' and he hands me a glass of pure salt. He takes one too and swallows it. I resist, but have to drink it. I take it in my mouth, but almost puke and try to spit it out in small bits. I tell them: this is crazy! Now I have to drink 7 litres of water to get the salt out of my body. (I was checking salt content of products in MacDonalds yesterday, it's really high!!)

We exit the school (the exit was right around the corner, why did I have so much trouble finding it :S). There's a guy who wants to kiss me, but I reject him, since I have a boyfriend and don't want to cheat on him.

The bossy guy is now in a blue car and wants to run into us. His car wiggles and falls to the side. I run over with another girl and we push it upside down. The roof breaks and the car collapses. It turns itself upright, I see the guys inside are unhurt, but the car now slowly sinks into a swamp. I feel sorry for the guys, but am glad we 'won' at the same time.

Real life: forest climbing
If you like, here's a movie of me and my friends on 'forest adventure'. An adrenalin rushing experience where we climbed in trees, swung on ropes etc.  (and there's some really dodgy pics of me as well, but you can't see my dyed hair )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwQ4jrTPZiY

[Dream on 25 June 2008]

Dream on 25 June 2008

Forgot the first dream. I woke up after 4,5 hours (3 cycles) and knew I just had a very lively dream, but forgot to take notes... 

Missing the airplane

My friend and I are in France and we're going to visit another stable for 3 weeks. We travel from Tours to Bordeaux by plane. (I really had the feeling this plane was going to Canada/USA, as do all my dream-airplanes) As we arrive at the airport and get into the plane, I notice I forgot my pasport and my plane ticket.I get out of the plane, walk on a grassy field with a fence that goes a long way. I meet this very small girl, who is a friend of mine, and I help her to get in the plane as well. Then, I'm going to look in my car and find my ticket, but now the plane has just taken off.

I'm weighing pros and cons of taking the plane the next day, or driving to Bordeaux by car, since it's only a 3-hour drive, where the plane takes 2 hours. The gas my car uses costs more than the plane ticket, which was only 38 euros. I feel the criticism of my mum and dad about forgetting the ticket, I don't know what to decide and I feel really bad :(

Still dreaming of airplanes and forgetting my tickets. What's the thing I feel like 'missing out on' in life...
My airplanes are usually connected to going to Canada/USA, even when traveling within France. I guess this is because I only flew once when I was young and that was to Canada.
Lol, just google-mapped 'Tours-Bordeaux' and it is 3:09 hours by car :-)

[Dreams on 26 June 2008]

Haha, good to hear you liked the movie (AND the music )
I think it's a good thing you don't know which one is me (Oh, I'm not one of the people who lands on their butt after the descend )
Did you know there are tree-climbing parks in UK as well! You should try it some day, it's so exciting!

LOL, I told Tobby I was indeed shocked he asked me for more money. He said 'so next time if you loose your wallet IRL, I won't lend you more than € 20 as well '
And I'm glad my brain is finally realising I have a relationship and can't kiss and jump on all dream-boys I meet (well, that was about time!)

Dreams on 26 June 2008

Goat attack!
I'm at a stable, where 1 pony is tied with short ropes in his stable. The owners don't show up often and I know he's trained in a bad way. However, I know he's soon going to be mine, so his problems will be solved.
Instead of horses, I'm training goats in the indoor arena. My goat is not very nice and starts to run into me with it's horns. I know how to 'catch' such an attack, so I fight a little with the goat till he stops attacking me.

Hehe, that was a little PMP, when I was on a camping with my BF, a goat really did attack me, while I wanted to bring it some bread. I played with him, but in the end he sneaked around me and bumped me so hard I got a nasty bruise.

Broken time
This is a fragment from a longer dream, of which I totally lost track of the events.
Someone hands me a watch, an old one in which you can see all the small radars moving. I look at how nicely this tiny machine works. Suddenly, it falls apart and the parts fall in the sand. Some pieces are very, very tiny and hard to see in the sand. I collect all parts and try to put it back together, but more and more parts fall out, till I have no idea how to ever reconstruct the watch.