Mortal Mist

4/19

Attempted WILD Meditated and focused on my new dream goal scenery. I lay down to attempt a wild. I remember the usual vibrations, colorful auras, then suddenly I'm falling down what feels like a water slide or tunnel. That's pretty much all I remember, next thing I know, I wake up.

No recall. :(

4/21-4/22

Fragment: Hanging with friends, talking about how good this chinese food is. Probably had to do with a conversation earlier that night

4/23 - 4/24

Seems the dry spell is nearly over...recall and lucidity is getting back to normal.
I'm currently attempting a dream goal that I spoke to PJ about, which involves dreamers here. So here goes my night last night.

Fragment: Bit and pieces of me having long hair like I used to. Random sexual encounters in the dream. but next comes the lucid part:

Lucid:I become lucid, and since lucidity has been slow lately, I try to concentrate on my thoughts. I'm suddenly sitting in front of the computer, on MM discussing dreams, and as I realize this, I remember my latest dream goal.

I know it is somewhat large, but I've been concentrating on uniting dreamers, and shared dreaming. As I begin to gain more memory and control, I put myself into a calm state. I'm in a beach now, it's somewhat cloudy but still a nice day. I try to formulate my words, but for some reason, they do not come out right. I'm mumbling. So I just think what I want to say. I think strongly, "I'm calling to all those able in the world to join me in my dreams. All those in mortal mist who can hear this, you are welcome."

Next thing I know, the beach I'm sitting on begins to get windy. I realize I am using a lot of power in doing this, and I try my best to hold the dream together. Suddenly the water up ahead, perhaps 100-200 yards away, begins to develop a wave beyond my imagination. The wave grows larger and larger, till it's towering above me as it approaches the shoreline. My last thoughts were that the wave would surely crush what little stability I have. Right as the wave is falling down on me, I wake up right before it crashes.

I attempted WBTB, it worked, but my  recall is lousy at this point. I became lucid, but remember very little.

4/25 - 4/26

GREAT night of lucid dreaming.

I've recently gone back to an old technique I used to use years ago. It used to work extremely well, and I don't know why I stopped, but it's working extremely well again.

I guess I'd call the technique the "rope climbing method." I meditate briefly before bed to clear my mind. I then lay down and begin to imagine myself climbing a rope in the first person. I imagine the rope in front of me, and I mentally view one arm grabbing the rope, then the other, so on and so forth. It helps me maintain focus and go right into LD.

Lucid: I'm in a house I don't recognize. I immediately RC, and find I'm dreaming. For some reason, an ex g/f from over 5 years ago is there, along with a friend of my current g/f. Apparently they both want to "be with me." I'm sitting down and they are coming on to me like drunk girls, I laugh as I know I'm dreaming, and if my g/f saw this, she'd freak. Right as I say this, I get a FA. I'm now laying next to my g/f in bed, and she's looking at me all upset. I innocently ask her what's wrong, and she tells me she heard me talking in my sleep, and she doesn't trust her friend that was coming on to me. I spot a cup on the nightstand that does not belong to me. I do another RC, and sure enough, dreaming. I say bye to her, and I'm suddenly in an airport, past security.

This whole portion of the LD was literally hours of me just looking around, and attempting several dream goals. I attempted to call on dreamers again as I previously did. I specifically called to pj, but noone shows up. There are many people in the airport, but noone seems to take any special interest in me, I like this because I want to concentrate on the LD. I decide to go out to pre-security to find something to drink (I woke up super dehydrated, which would explain why I wanted water.) As I walk back through security with my bottle of water, they try to hassle me. I laughed at them hysterically as they tell me it's for my safety. I tell them, "I'm quite safe here, thank you very much..There aren't any terrorist in my dreams." I decide to simply fly over all the people being herded through the TSA checkpoint  and say bye to the gentlemen there.

I'm back by the gates now, and I decide to work on some telekinesis for a little. I'm starting to get bored, and at this point it seems like I've been there a few hours, so I decide to attempt to create a portal back to my room. I never thought of doing this until I read it on a thread on MM. I use my index fingers to draw a circle I can walk into that will transport me to my room. I walk through and I'm still in the airport, it's like I'm jumping through hoops. I laugh at this because of the irony. I think to myself, there must be more I can do. The next bit gets hazy..

Fragment: I'm suddenly talking to someone. I can't remember what we spoke about, how they look, or any real details, but I know it's important. I'm being shown something. I somehow see another cup. I then think to myself that cups would make good RC items. I become lucid, and suddenly everything around me disappears. I'm in the void of space, and I suddenly wake up, about 15 minutes before my alarm was supposed to.

4/26 - 4/27

Fragment: There was something about a virus infecting the computers at my office. I was concerned that I may have clicked something I wasn't supposed to. Totally forgot to RC!! :(  I was somewhat disappointed when I woke up, but oh well, it is what it is.


Then I'm in my bedroom. I'm looking at the engagement ring I got my g/f (I'm actually proposing soon IWL) I open the little black box, and the ring is less then shiny. It seems much more dull then when I bought it. I begin to worry but then start polishing it with a kit I have. It begins to look shiny, so I worry less, then I look at the engravement of our initials and THEY'RE ALL WRONG!! I was kind of worried, like an "oh shit" moment.

Pretty much all I remember for the night. Still dealing with a cat who LOVES to jump up and down the window all night.

4/27 - 4/28

ROUGH night last night. Only recall a fragment, but that's not the rough part.

I was CONSTANTLY waking up. And for some reason my first thoughts were to do a rc. I was sleepless all night long, and I felt distressed. This is rare for me, I usually sleep like a baby. I woke up feeling physically ill and fatigued/weak. I'm trying to curve my thoughts so I remain in a positive mood, but I just feel like curling up into a ball right now.

Fragment: Something about the engagement ring again. Might have something to do with it being ready today, and I may have that on my mind. I remember fearing the ring would be stolen from me. Although it was too small, I wore it all night long and held my fist clenched.

4/28 - 4/29

OBE: Been a good couple of months since I've had one, was nice. I was extremely aware last night as I fell asleep. I was talking myself through all the sensations my body was feeling. The second I fell asleep, I knew it. I tried to roll myself out of my body. My control was shaky. I was out of my bed, but my foot was still stuck in my body or the bed, I couldn't get it loose. I was feeling a slight tug from my body. I was trying to maintain control, so I tried rubbing my hands together like some people have stated on previous posts. I looked down and saw myself sleeping. This isn't unusual for me, as it has happened before, but for some reason when I saw myself, the tug I felt from my foot got stronger. I was essentially pulled back into my body, and I woke up.

Fragment: Something about work. I said something that made my boss upset. I rationalized it by telling him it was only a dream. I don't remember what happened next.

5/1 - 5/2
Not much recall last night.

Fragment: I'm in a field/wilderness setting. For some reason, someone is handing me a large assault rifle with a front grip. I become lucid for a brief moment but begin to lose focus. I'm with other people, some have weapons as well. Mostly men had weapons. Women and children were in a town hall or church or classroom. I couldn't really tell, but it seemed like there was an important gathering. I walk in the hall and it's packed with families, children, old folks, an entire community. Someone is speaking at the front, but they pause when the men I was with walk in. I make a conscious effort to keep my index finger off the trigger and the firearm pointed down. I find a spot in the corner to listen to what the gentlemen at the front had to say. He begins talking, and everyone listens. The rest is extremely fuzzy.