Thank you all for the kind words,
Today I bring signs of progress, so good news
30th January 2012
Despite being very tired, I take a fair amount of time to fall asleep. I feel my body becoming heavy, and start visualising background colours in my brain despite still being awake, very unusual feeling. The backgrounds I "see" are; A very colourful LSD style one, Lots of small sweets (candy) in green and blue colours mainly, Swirling fire, Natural Crystals and finally I see what I interpret to be a view from the bottom of the ocean, as a dark marine blue slowly opens to me. This is starting to form an actual image rather than just random colours, but as I am dozing off my housemate in the next room starts talking loudly and I snap out of it....Drat.
Not long after, I am slipping into a similar state again, except without the images. I start to feel myself going numb and my leg starts to shake. I think this is my body just assuming that is what happens when I fall asleep, rather than a natural reaction, as I have been reading DrTech's DJ and he describes how a WILD makes your body work. Nonetheless, I soon find myself thinking "hold on where am I?". This is fantastic news, even though the answer is in fact nowhere as I am not dreaming, I knew that if I found myself asking that question I would in fact be asleep. So I open my eyes to perform a RC and unfortunately, I find myself wide awake in my room and most certainly not dreaming :(
My memory is now blank until I am fully asleep, and my only dream recall of the night. It starts in a town we will call C.R, and I am watching what feels like a cutscene from a television program (If you've ever watched Hustle, a show where con artists steal from criminals, it was like that). The characters are Matt Damon and the blonde lady from Hustle. They are lovers, and work together to steal the money from the bad guys. Something must have gone wrong, as they find themselves being chased out of the city by the criminals. Matt Damon tells the girl he will not leave her side, although once the baddies catch up the girl falls down and he takes the money and leaves her, which I found very entertaining.
This is where I step into the dream, as I either become Matt, or he gives me the money, as I find myself running away and trying to make it to my original hometown (not my current one) as C.R. is in the same area. Although I have the recall of a goldfish, I do remember that I have had many dreams like this before where I have committed some sort of crime and need to run away from someone. Anyway, I find myself in a field staring at a train track, knowing that the criminals will probably get the train to my hometown to try and find me. I see a very slow freight train moving in the opposite direction, so I use it as cover and run for it. My memory is then blank until I am at the town before my destination, where I meet someone I am currently at University with. He starts asking all sorts of questions "What's in the bag? Will you get the bus with me tomorrow? Doesn't (? - item) really suck?" I shoo him away and realise I need to go to the local shop to spend some of the money (Trying to get rid of the evidence I guess). However, instead of finding myself in a shop in this town I am now in my hometown, success! I head into the off-license (liquor store) as I will be able to spend more money in there, however all they now sell is £0.99 soft drinks. I hear my friend J.K. talking to the shopkeeper saying "I bet business sucks now you don't sell alcohol". She agrees, and I take this as my cue to leave as there is nothing of interest for me in this shop any more. The dream ends as I leave the shop.
I also know I had another dream about Minecraft, but I can't remember it so I'll mark it as a fragment.
I felt so close to lucidity today, it was disappointing to be teased like that. I also find that I have so little control over my dreams that I don't do reality checks. I'm also 90% sure that I never dream myself a body, so how am I supposed to do them anyway? I need to find a way to make my dreams seem more realistic, so that if I do have a lucid dream at least it will seem more real than these hazy memories...