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: Caradon's Dream Journal
: Caradon June 27, 2019, 02:00:51 PM
My New Dream Journal

  as of
6/26/19

Recall has been off and on lately, but not been very good the last few nights. Last night I went to sleep trying really hard to remember something though sleep wasn't that good.

 I dreamed that I remembered a dream and then later I could not remember the dream  that I dreamed that I remembered. But I remember the feeling of the dream that I dreamed I remembered. And I vaguely remember walking down a hallway. 
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: Caradon June 28, 2019, 01:25:08 PM
6/27/19

Had some vivid recall last week but this week has been pretty  crappy so far. last night was one of those nights where you have stuff right on the edge of memory, can't quite bring back. Maybe something will come back later.

Tonight is Friday night, I don't often get much sleep on Friday nights because I work the night shift, and then the morning shift on Saturday and Sundays.

I'm in the process of decaffeinating. I've gotten too addicted to the stuff over the winter. And for aside for a couple of people o this forum I knew who used caffeine for WILDing. I've never felt like caffeine was good for lucid dreaming practicing. And to be  honest I'm getting sick of being addicted to it. But few things in the waking world making me feel good. And coffee in the morning does, and was giving me a reason to want to wake up in the morning. But it's been getting to be too much. And I need to get back to who I was, before the world starting going to shit on me.


I lost my link to the private forum when the computer I was using died. I couldn't figure out how to get back to it. And I was already in a bad place mentally at the time and getting sick of writing all the time so when my computer died I just said fuck it and let things go.

Looking at my PM's. It's hard to believe it's already been five years since the shit hit the fan and killed this forum. But at least it's still here. :)   
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: Caradon June 29, 2019, 07:23:21 AM
6/28/19


Slept about four hours. Probably should have gotten to sleep a little earlier when I got home instead of browsing the forums.


But I did recall a work fragment where I was a work and talking to the boss about something work related.


I hsould note that I have a different job than I use to. The company I use to work for for 18 years went out of business. BUt that tunred out to be  agood thing since I like the place I'm t now a lot better. PLus making a little more money and getting more hours. I've been at the new job  just over three years. I've not yet fully taken advantage of the fact that I can sleep in more. Since three nights of the week I work the night shift and can sleep in as long as I want.

 But it's summer, and unfortunately probably my dogs last summer as the vets didn't think she would even last through the winter but she is still here and I'm trying to give her the best summer ever. Because her favorite thing is going for rides on my bike. So I'm taking her out every chance I can get. So when it's warm enough for her to be on the bike early in the mornings I'm going to be getting up early to taking her biking before work. I just got done having two week off work to spend with her.We were out adventuring all day almost every day of those two weeks. 

But I'm still in denial because evvery day that she still seems okay makes it seem less and less real. And I still don't know how I'm going to handle it when she is gone. She cme into my life and formed a bond with me like none otherr that I will ever have in this life. And I can't comprehend the idea of her not being here anymore. but I'm just lucky she is still here. She tunred 17 years old this March. So very fortunate really.

When I get time I thinking I'm going to go through the journals and start bumping up all the old journals of my old frineds here as a means of pushing  back the spam zombies of the forum apocalypse. And to make the front page of the journals look better.
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: Caradon June 30, 2019, 08:12:17 AM
Saturday/June/29/2019

Had some very vivid recall of a horrible dream of seeing my dog fall off a mountain cliff to her death. I wrote it out in detail. But then just as I hit post I remembered that I forgot to copy the post and it was too late. The forum went down for a little bit right then and I lost the post.

But that's alright, the important thing is that I  wrote it out. And now out of time and have to get ready for work.
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: Caradon July 01, 2019, 07:27:41 PM
Sunday/June/30/2019

My nap which as always I'm still counting as the previous nights dreams.

Bug

I find a bug crawling on me. It look like a wood tick. I'm trying to make sure I kill it before it can bite anyone and give someone a fucked up disease. I drop it for a second and lose it. But then I find it again and carry it into the bathroom. I crush it with my fingernail and throw it in the toilet.

Note: trying to remember to reality check at the site of bugs, especially when they are in the house or crawling on me. Because I've been seeing them in my dreams a lot lately.

Homless guy

Very vivid. I'm in the back yard with the dog. I'm off to the side of the house.It feels as if I had just woken up and crawled out of my tent. There is a homeless guy standing there hwo is actually one of my step dads friends. he is about to take a piss on the side of the house. I tell him no. he look sat me and zips it back up and walks to the back yard.

I also walk to the back yard, going towards where my back door is. The homeless guy walks down to wear the treeline is and starts pissing down there by the trees. I realize I forgot to get my dog. She is still over by the side of the house. So I walk back over there. As I do I notice the homeless guy examining some shrubs down bye the trees that has blue flowers on it.  I walk aroud he side of the house the dog is there. She runs twards me.  I scoop her up in my arms wondering how I could have forgetten about her. 

With the dog in arms I walk back towards the back door The homeless guy now over by the door and smoking. I feel like I have an alcohol buzz at this point. And I have a memory that I had been drinking. (Which I have not been in reality.) I want one of his cigaretts. And I wonder if I really want to start smoking again. I decide I don't give a fuck, it's a good time to have a smoke with an alcohol buzz on.

But I notice a really big black dog the guy has with him now. And the way it's looking at me I'm worried ithe big dog might be hostile and want to attack the small dog in my arms. So I want to get her into the house before that can happen. The the homeless guy asks me about phone numbers that are supposedly in a black notebook in my house that he wants me to get for him. Apparently there is someone he needs to call on the notebook.


I try to push the door open, but someone is standing behind it. The person comes from around the door, on the insid eof the house. It's an old friend of mine. I didn't know he was even here. I suddenly notice he is all messed up. Like he has had a really bad stroke or something. "What happened!?" I ask. Barely able to speak it  sounds like he says something about being handicapped. He sits down in a wheelchair that has suddenly appeared.  I feel so terrible for what happened to him, I'm practically in tears. He raises his hand for a fist pump, in acknowledgment and apreciation for my concern. I give him the friendly punch on the fist and wake. 





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: Oneironautical1 July 01, 2019, 09:50:09 PM
The last dream about smoking and the black dog and your handicapped friend was interesting.  Did the old friend take a destructive path in life after parting ways? 

I also felt like the possibly hostile black dog is metaphor for picking up a bad habit again like smoking.
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: Caradon July 01, 2019, 10:46:02 PM
The last dream about smoking and the black dog and your handicapped friend was interesting.  Did the old friend take a destructive path in life after parting ways? 

I also felt like the possibly hostile black dog is metaphor for picking up a bad habit again like smoking.

I did end up taking up smoking again after some bad times since I've been gone. I had previously quit for fifteen years. But I only started up again for a few months, one summer. I quit before winter came, well for a lot of reasons. The cost for one thing. No way I can afford to be a regular smoker nowadays at ten bucks a pack. May as well be flushing money down the toilet.  And the cold season coming I didn't want to be even worse when I got sick because of the smoking. And just don't want to have to be going outside all the time to smoke as I'm not ever going to do it in the house. Not going to lie though, I did enjoy it.

The old friend actually seemed pretty good the last time I saw him. But it was a long time ago in the 90's. Him and I lived in Minnesota but I had moved out to Colorado Springs. He came to visit me in Colorado. And Metallica happened to be playing in Denver. He hung out with me at my apartment all day, then left to go see Metallica in Denver. That's the last time I ever talked to him. So who knows. I'm 48, and he was is a few years older than me. Anything could have happened in that time. The dream made me wonder though that would be freaking if he did become crippled because of a stroke and I just dreamed it. I hope that didn't happen. That's scary stuff.  I rather it killed me than live like that.   
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: Oneironautical1 July 02, 2019, 12:25:54 AM
I did end up taking up smoking again after some bad times since I've been gone. I had previously quit for fifteen years. But I only started up again for a few months, one summer. I quit before winter came, well for a lot of reasons. The cost for one thing. No way I can afford to be a regular smoker nowadays at ten bucks a pack. May as well be flushing money down the toilet.  And the cold season coming I didn't want to be even worse when I got sick because of the smoking. And just don't want to have to be going outside all the time to smoke as I'm not ever going to do it in the house. Not going to lie though, I did enjoy it.

The old friend actually seemed pretty good the last time I saw him. But it was a long time ago in the 90's. Him and I lived in Minnesota but I had moved out to Colorado Springs. He came to visit me in Colorado. And Metallica happened to be playing in Denver. He hung out with me at my apartment all day, then left to go see Metallica in Denver. That's the last time I ever talked to him. So who knows. I'm 48, and he was is a few years older than me. Anything could have happened in that time. The dream made me wonder though that would be freaking if he did become crippled because of a stroke and I just dreamed it. I hope that didn't happen. That's scary stuff.  I rather it killed me than live like that.

Ah, feel ya.  The thing about an old friend coming back hobbled in a dream made me think about how you two parted ways.  Like maybe you had seen him heading in a bad direction. Then his dream appearance with the smoking and ominous dog were a sort of warning.

I tend to psycho analyze from my computer chair :P.  I miss having others to bounce these things off of though.  Keep em' comin' homey.
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: Caradon July 02, 2019, 08:57:01 AM

Ah, feel ya.  The thing about an old friend coming back hobbled in a dream made me think about how you two parted ways.  Like maybe you had seen him heading in a bad direction. Then his dream appearance with the smoking and ominous dog were a sort of warning.

I tend to psycho analyze from my computer chair :P.  I miss having others to bounce these things off of though.  Keep em' comin' homey.

I don't interpret much unless it's very obvious. Like the one with my dog falling to her death that I lost the post on the other night. I've always been paranoid about something bad happening to her. I've had many an awful nightmare where she has been killed in some way. Nightmares don't bother me at all when it's me in danger. No matter how terrified I get I enjoy the intensity in some strange way.
But a dream like watching my dog falling off a vertical  mountain cliff thousands of feet high. I never been so happy to wake up and find out she was still safely laying right next to me.  Well I have been that happy to wake up in dreams about her that were equally as awful.


Yeah I hope to keep Journaling as long as my wrists can handle it but I'm not sure. I need my wrists to work and I get bad carpal tunnel. But I'm going to try. Maybe not post everything if I get a lot, just the ones that stand out the most in my mind. 


Edit:Though one of my goals is to continue my in dream thought control experiments and observe the influence on the dream that my thoughts and feelings have. And try to better understand my symbolisms. Maybe I can better learn to consciously direct my thoughts to influence the dream environment if I understand what thoughts and feelings are doing what.
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: Caradon July 02, 2019, 09:22:20 AM
More Zombie spam! Going to need to bounce it out. WTF is a sexologist anyways. Sounds like a prostitute.


Monday/July/1/2019

Only slept about four hours then was forced to get up because of my caffeine addiction. That's one of the reasons I wnat to get off it. I guess it's okay for doing WBTB's And I'm getting old enough that I can still fall back ot sleep now after an hour or two of being awake. BUt I'm not sure if I'm going to because I wnat to take the dog biking if it's not raining which it's not supposed to be. BUt it was still sprinkling when I woke up at 6:00am And the sky is still dark, but the forecast says it's supposed ot be a sunny day.


I guess it's still happenening. Here we go with the animal attack dreams...  :D

Lizard Attack

I'm walking along the narrow bank of a wide river. The water of the river is dark and mucky looking. The river is passing through a foest so behond the bank is all thick greenery.I come to a spot where the forest is intrudnig upon the bank maaking it difficult to continue. The are many fallen branches laying on the bank, and partially submerged in the water. I decide to turn around and make my way back.

Suddenly I hear the "Boom Boom Boom" of giant footsteps and I realize that there is some kind of dinosaur coming for me. I jump into the river and swim as far out to the middle of it as I can, and begin to get washed down stream. On the river bank I see a giant dinosaur sized lizard appear. Definitely had me in mind for it's next meal. The lizard looks like a Komodo dragon only the size of a dinosaour and could easily eat a full grown human.  The lazard watches me being washed down river while flicking it's forked tongue at me. Luckily it did not come into the water after me. I wasn't even sure if was going to be able to swim or not. I was hoping not.


Next the I remmeber is that I'm in town and out of the river. I'm walking down the sidewalk and there is a female cop on a fourwheeler just sitting there stationary in the middle of the sidewalk, like she is just observing the goings on in the surrounding area. I tell her about my encounter  the giant lizardand that I'm glad to be back in town, feeling safe here from such an attack. "Oh Man!" She exclaims.


I make my way past here. I have to walk around into the grass inn order to get around her sitting on the four wheeler. I walk along until I get to this conrner store. And I have the idea i mind to smoke again. I go into the store with the intent to purchase some cigarettes. I see someone I recognize. An older man in a dark hood, hood pulled up. I seem to know who he is even with the hood pulled up. It's not someone I know in waking life.  But in the dream I have a memory of knowing him. He looks at me for a moment ith recognition then turns away. I say hello to him and continue on my way. I have the feeeling he isn't in the mood for being recognized and chaatted up so I leave him be. That is the last thing I remember before waking.

If I do take a nap I'll edit in any recall later.   


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: Caradon July 03, 2019, 09:37:56 AM

Not as  much recall  as I had hoped. I had planned to get up around  6:00am for an hour or two and then go back to  sleep for a nother couple of hours. But I over slept until abouut 7:30am.  I knew whenn I  woke up a lttle after 4:00am I should have just gotten up then,  had a feeling if I went back to sleep I was gong to miss  the 6:00am mark. I miight still find time to sleeep for an hour or so before I have to go to work I'm  not sure.

I only recalled a couple of short bits trying to see if something else will come back to me. As I sit out on much porch listening to the morning song birds.

Tuesday/July/2/2019


Shark!

There is an overpass bridge with a staircase descending to a small island on a body of water. I think it's a wide river. For some reason I start to go down into the water and swim. Immediately I see a shark swimming around and coming towards me and I realize swimming here is out of the question. I climb back up onto the little rocky island. The shark actually come up out of the water after me, trying to bite at me as I retreat. I'm scooting backwards on my butt kicking at it's face until  I manage to kick the shark back into the water.

For the rest of the dream I'm trying to figure out how to get off this Island with the shark circling and wanting to have me for lunch. Apparently climbing back up the staircase and using the overpass was no longer an option either but I don't remember why. I think  maybe the dream changed a little and the overpass was no longer there.

(It was freaky when I turned on my computer to post about the shark dream. Picture of a huge great white looking shark teeth bared on popped up on my screen. Freaked me out. lol.)

Tractors

I'm in my yard and there is some weird difficult to describe stuff about moving some equipment around in my yard. I don't know why.

But I somehow managed to cause the equipment to dig a deep hole in the yard. As I type this a little more about it comes back to me. The deep hole in the ground had a narrow ridge along the inside of it. And for some reason I though the narrow ridge would be good to stand on. (A part of another dream just tried coming back to me as I type as well but slipped away. So I guess it's a good idea this journaling again.)


Next thing a remember is walking along a street and seeing this tractor sale. It's very vivid. The tractors are large. Look like backhoe's nly inside the digging bucket and a like a wheel for grinding or cutting. So not only is it scooping it's cutting through whatever it needs to. There are people sitting in chairs listening to a salesman as the salesman makes a sales pitch about these tractors, trying to make a sale. I really want one of these things though I know it's pretty unrealistic. I walk onto the display and get a closer look at them all. The smallest one of them is more than sufficient  to meet my needs. Which is still quite large and powerful. Some of them were very big.  I look at the sale price on the smaller one. And it  says it's only $1,800.00  I  don't really want to spend money right now(trying not to spend anything more than absolutely necessary . But I'm thinking that I  could manage  it if I really want to. Just having paid off my credit card I still have a little stashed away that could cover it, or I could just pull  out the credit  card again. But  I don't think I'm really going to. And I wake.


(Other dreams keep trying to come back to me.  I keep thinking I was in some place. But now a little came back. There was something about watching TV. I remember I was watching something weird on the TV and there was someone there with me. Going to keep digging see if  I can get it to come back more fully.








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: Wędajihs July 03, 2019, 04:58:08 PM
I think it's a good sign when your dreams are trying to resurface, as frustrating as it is to have them just out of grasp.
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: Caradon July 04, 2019, 08:28:52 AM
I think it's a good sign when your dreams are trying to resurface, as frustrating as it is to have them just out of grasp.

I agree. It's way better than no recall at all,  and a lot  of times if you keep trying you can bring them back. A lot of my recall lately has been delayed. I wake up feeling it, but not really remembering it. Then focusing on the feeling of it and digging, suddenly the dream comes flooding back and it's like whoa... Last night was the same, took  me a few moments to get something back. But then a flood of recall of being lost in a difficult to describe, but beautiful  place. Similar to your corridor dream.


I'm getting  out of my bad habit of turning on Netflix first thing when I wake up and getting my caffeine buzz and watching Netflix. Instead just sitting quietly, awareness meditation and going over my dreams in my mind. I think turning on Netflix right way pulls my focus outward too much, too quickly.  But sitting quietly, thinking about the dreams, enjoying them, and the feeling of them without the distraction of the show on. Is much better for recall.

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: Caradon July 04, 2019, 08:48:09 AM
Wednesday/July/3/2019

I slept four hours, waking up just a little before sunrise and totally planning maybe a two hour  WBTB. Watching the sunrise and listening to the birds waking. But it's such a beautiful perfect morning. 70 degrees out right now, I'm going to take the dog biking instead of going back to sleep. So just going to go over this one quickly.

Mansion Of Corridors.

Difficult to describe this place in detail, but it was beautiful even if frustrating. It was like a mansion with beautiful woodwork and staircases of red carpeting. But also some type of place of business where many things were going on, almost like a mall maybe.  And many people and security, I even remember a movie theater going on and found an arcade with a kid playing some odd style of pinball game that wasn't really pinball at all.

It was frustrating, because I got totally lost in this place. It started with me overlooking this huge open area, and going down a hall looking for a door that would open into this area that  I wanted to go into. But everything got weird so that a door and a hall that you would think would lead to a certain spot did not. And before I knew it I could not find my way back to the spot where I started. It was a never ending mansion of beautiful corridors and winding staircases, balconies, and great cathedral like rooms. And so many people and different things going on there. And I was completely lost. And I got into a lot of weird events along the way, including getting chased by some people that were out to kill me. But I lost them in the maze of things.
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: Wędajihs July 04, 2019, 03:05:34 PM
Your corridors sound much nicer than mine were, until people started trying to kill you.
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: Caradon July 05, 2019, 12:02:43 PM
Your corridors sound much nicer than mine were, until people started trying to kill you.

I think I have a thing for places with fancy dark woodwork and it shows up in my dreams sometimes.
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: Caradon July 05, 2019, 12:11:31 PM
Thursday/July/4/2019


I slept four hours, maybe less before WBTB. Wanted to biking because it was even nicer this morning than yesterday But after a lack of sleep already I figured I had better get some sleep to work tonight.


Didn't remember much on awakening no surprise because I was so tired. But I recalled a fragment of a gang of bullies doing some disturbing this to some guy. I almost switched into psychopath mode and  rampaged the bully gang. But didn't end up doing it. I don't remember much more than seeing what they were doing to the poor guy for a little bit.

After my  WBTB  I did a little WILding all into work scenes. An then some annoying work dreams after I fell to sleep I was having more trouble falling back to sleep than I had expected. 


I'm not going to have much time because this time of week. I work the night shift Friday night and the day shift on Saturday and Sunday. And hoping to go out biking sunrise Monday morning  because it's my day off and looks like it will be nice out. Not getting hotter than about 80 I think. should be awesome early in the morning.
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: Caradon July 06, 2019, 07:02:54 PM
Friday/July/5/2015/2019

Don't think I'm going to have time to record.


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: Caradon July 07, 2019, 05:40:01 PM
Saturday/July/6/2019

I didn't recall anything, well there was a hint of dreams as I was waking up. I didn't sleep long because of being up too late and having to work in the morning, and also stressing out over BS was taking my concentration away.  Something was trying to come back when I woke but it didn't quite

As I was focusing on dreaming at work today some recall of dreams long past came into my mind. And I enjoyed the memory of them. I like when that happens.

I should just go to sleep right now and get a full night, but I think I'm going to go biking again. this summer is going to go fast. I don't want to miss out on any of it. Last night was such a beautiful night I didn't come home until the sun went down. I'm tired from lack of sleep the last couple  nights so we'll see how long.

I slept in my swivel chair, tilted back, feet up on the kitchen table instead of the tent the last couple of nights because my back was starting to bother me just a little. Feeling the chair pushing right on the bad spot in my spine feels really good.


Yesterdays dream, I was thinking about dreaming in a dream so that is always a good sign.
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: kineticwaves July 07, 2019, 10:23:03 PM
Saturday/ July/6/2019

I didn't recall anything, well there was a hint of dreams as I was waking up. I didn't sleep long because of being up too late and having to work in the morning, and also stressing out over BS was taking my concentration away.  Something was trying to come back when I woke but it didn't quite

As I was focusing on dreaming at work today some recall of dreams long past came into my mind. And I enjoyed the memory of them. I like when that happens.

I should just go to sleep right now and get a full night, but I think I'm going to go biking again. this summer is going to go fast. I don't want to miss out on any of it. Last night was such a beautiful night I didn't come home until the sun went down. I'm tired from lack of sleep the last couple  nights so we'll see how long.

I slept in my swivel chair, tilted back, feet up on the kitchen table instead of the tent the last couple of nights because my back was starting to bother me just a little. Feeling the chair pushing right on the bad spot in my spine feels really good.


Yesterdays dream, I was thinking about dreaming in a dream so that is always a good sign.

Yeah! I feel ya!! If you're dreaming in a dream, then that's dream-ception! Always a good sign.
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: Wędajihs July 08, 2019, 03:59:23 PM
Change of sleeping area could have messed with your recall. Sometimes a change helps recall. Sometimes it doesn't. Hope you get some good sleep and even better dreams soon.
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: Caradon July 08, 2019, 06:05:31 PM
Yeah! I feel ya!! If you're dreaming in a dream, then that's dream-ception! Always a good sign.

Yeah, and last night I had a four wheeler fragment. That is a good sign as well, since that is the kind of thing normally will most likely to get me lucid, if I hit a jump that is and get ridiculous air. I wonder if I'll recognize it as easily as I normally would.

Change of sleeping area could have messed with your recall. Sometimes a change helps recall. Sometimes it doesn't. Hope you get some good sleep and even better dreams soon.

 Thanks.  That is true. I have  been going back and forth from the chair to the tent though, actually sleeping in the chair more until recently.  After three nights in the chair, think I'm going to do the tent tonight. Also, I was pretty angry about some stuff so it was taking my mind way from where it should be. But after being out riding for about 4 hours today I'm much more relaxed. Also tired, getting a little hot out, that heat is draining. Going to sleep early, as soon as I'm done posting. Had some recall last night but was some disturbing content.
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: Caradon July 08, 2019, 06:49:03 PM
Going to experiment off and on not taking my small dose of melatonin and see if it changes anything. I didn't take any last night.

Sunday/July/7/2019

I wake up after an hour, knowing I had some bizarre dreams but couldn't quite bring it back. I htink  there ws an elevator involved.

Then woke up around 4:30am. I just knew I was dreaming about something gross. Because I had a grossed out feeling tone. I focused on the feeling of it, and and threw some images through my mind hoping something would trigger the recall. Then recall of the highly disturbing meat grinder came flooding back to me. 



Demonic Meat Grinder

It's a dark world ruled by a powerful god like demonic entity. The entity is forcing the inhabitants to eat something absolutely disgusting out of what appears similar to a cattle trough. It's a grey colored gruel. I don't remember if I actually hear the voice of the entity or what. But I remember knowing somehow that the entity has decided his awful gruel needs some chunky tid bits added, for extra horror.

Next thing I know there is a large caged structure held above a giant turning meat grinding wheel. Below the wheel is a chute for dumping it's ground contents into the trough for the humans that the entity rules over to eat. Their is a man in the cage above the grinder. As I watch,  the bottom of the cage drops out and the man falls into the grinder. It's disturbing vivid graphic as the man is ground to pieces and I see blood and chunks of bone and flesh dumping out of the grinder into the trough. I even remember seeing a piece of the mans shoe and foot.

Next thing, I realize I'm in the cage. I'm next in line for the grinder. I jump back and grab the bars of the cage just as the floor drops out. I'm hanging there barely avoiding the fall to the grinder and I wake about to fall out of my chair, because I was leaning so far back the chair was tipping and just about to fall backwards lol. It's possible my mind was trying to scare me into lucidity, it used to do that a lot in the early days. Anxiety induced. I used to become lucid in the middle of many a horrifying nightmare.

Then more delayed recall. I kept getting the feeling there was a dream where I was on some sort of trail. I kept working with the feeling of it until the four wheeler came back.

Four Wheeler Fragment

I just remember riding the four wheeler down some very narrow forest trails. I'm having fun but feeling too enclosed by the trees. I want to really let loose with the four wheeler and go nuts. I'm thinking about how much fun it would be to be riding out on an open beach or someplace where I can go wide open. I find some room to do some power-sliding. Leaning into the turn and bringing the back end sliding sideways. That's all I remember of it. This was an earlier dream than the meat grinder, maybe my mind was like. "Well, the four wheeler didn't get him lucid this time. Lets try scaring the shit out of him and try having some evil entity dump him into a meat grinder. That should wake his damn mind  up..." lol



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: Caradon July 09, 2019, 01:14:26 PM
Monday/July/8/2019

I thought I was going to have better recall, but then I only slept about 6 hours didn't sleep in. Dreams were really close to the surface though, annoyingly so since I was having trouble bringing them back. Kind of sort of WBTB'd as I got up at 4:00am didn't try to go back to sleep until about 9:30am I was enjoying the morning too much. I was expecting to get some vivid recall going back to sleep, but didn't really fall back to sleep, just kind of drifted in and out of HI a little bit. I'm probably up for the rest of the day.

I bit of a dream that came back to me about an hour after I was awake. I had looked over at my book case and saw a book cover with a medieval soldier in armor.  I saw it and I knew I had been dreaming something about medieval times and soldiers, I could feel it. It took a moment but this came back. 

Impending Battle

I'm an armored soldier on horseback, in the front lines of an  medieval  army riding towards battle. I'm a little frightened. I know it's going to be a very violent and bloody ordeal, with no surrender and no retreat, no prisoners taken. It's to be a fight to complete obliteration of the opposing army. Whoever left standing alive to be the victors. I contemplate the situation, and to me, it seems a stupid way to solve an argument.

To my right there are towering rocky cliffs, to the left open rolling hills.  The dusty road ahead curves to the right, disappearing around the cliffs. from around the hidden bend, rides forth a knight in extravagant silver armor, a red plume streaming from the top of his visored  helmet. Holding lance in hand, pointed end held towards the sky. The silver night pulls back on the reins of his horse and stops in the road. The night appears alone, but I know an army follows, nearby, hidden somewhere around the cliffs.

The night produces a horn, blows into it, bellowing a cry to battle. That's the last thing I remember.

-There was another fragment about someone from my work with  me, and we needed to stop by my house for some reason I don't remember. I remember wondering if I had left dirty underwear out on the floor or something, but I couldn't remember. I'm hoping their isn't some embarrassing mess or something.

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: Caradon July 11, 2019, 01:42:21 PM
Wednesday/July/10/2019


Slept in the chair. Went to sleep about 11:30pm drifted in and out of some vivid HI for a little bit before falling to sleep. I wake up about 3:00am without any recall. I do one of my ten minute WBTB's of old that I need to get back to. trying to stay focused single mindedly for ten minutes walking around the house before falling back to sleep.

I wake up about 4:30am with some very vivid recall from that hour and a half.  Some of it's pretty jumbled up in my mind though. I'm just going to record the first part of it due to a lack of time. Need to get ready for work. Such a beautiful morning that I stayed up and went biking and walking with the dog instead of going back to sleep. Yesterday I realize how short summer really is, it's already slipping by fast. Almost half way through July already. Only another short month and a half and we are going into fall again...


Cliffhanger

My mind trying to help me get lucid again I think.

Beginning of a longer dream. I'm on a vacation trip to another country with a group of people. Some of them family, some I don't know. But it has the feel of a family thing. I had been riding my bike. There is some woman with me, someone I don't know in real life.
We are not actually on our bikes, we had stopped for some reason. I  notice my bike is barely hanging off a cliff that is along side the road that we have been riding on. It must have fell over and almost fell over the edge of the cliff.


I go to retrieve  the bike before it can fall. But something happens I'm not sure how. But I slip up and fall over the edge of the cliff. I grab on with one hand and I'm dangling over empty air as the cliff edge is like an overhang. Far, far below is a rocky shore, a body of water. It would be a beautiful scene if it were not for my precarious predicament. I'm hanging there by one hand, thinking I'm doomed. I don't know how to pull myself back up. The surface of the rock that  I'm trying to grasp onto with one hand is very smooth and I'm     barely  holding on. Feeling like I'm slipping  little by little. I am very focused on just trying to hold on. BY some miracle I manage to swing a leg up over the top of the ledge, trying to be very careful not to make a sudden move that will cause me to slip. With much relief I'm able drag myself back up to safety. The woman I'm with seeming amused by the whole thing. 
 
 
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: Caradon July 12, 2019, 08:19:58 AM
Thursday/July/11/2019

I got off work a bit early and was able to get to sleep earlier than normal.  After the previous nights intense recall on a few hours of sleep, I was actually expecting some good recall, but I didn't recall much. At least nothing has come back yet. The previous nights dreaming gave me a lot of motivation and my awareness level was pretty good most of the day. I have a vague memory of a smiling faced man upon awakening.   I'm not sure if I'm going to try and get a nap in before work, and more recall. I might if I start feeling a little sleepy.

Possibly focusing on trying to cut some of the dogs hair before going to sleep was enough of a distraction to throw my mind off. She has been starting to get a little raggedly looking.  And I'm not going to bring her to the groomers again, but I'm not good at it.

There is just no way I'm leaving her there, at the groomers, for three hours or more with strangers again, who make me sign a waver saying because of her age the stress of being there could kill her. Screw that. Just not going to happen. Took her there last fall, before her vet appointment. That waver scared the hell out of me.  I stood outside the building the entire time waiting, just wanting her back. I'm not taking her back there and watch them stuff her into a little cage, pawing at the door wanting to get out. No. 

Edit:  I was looking out the window at the back yard and suddenly recalled a fragment of my step dad being in the back yard with his truck. He  must have left the truck in neutral because it rolls down the incline into the trees on the edge of the yard and into the water. The truck sinks down into the water getting good and stuck. (There is a little stream that runs through there in reality. And if it rains hard it fills up with water back there and turns into a marshy little forest. But it dries up pretty quickly, and has never come up into the yard. In reality if he was back there with his truck, and it had rolled down there like that, it probably would have been stopped by the tress and not gone that far in and sunk into water.)

Nap

Decided to take a nap in my chair for an hour before I went into to work. I was sleepier than I had thought, I fell to sleep really fast.

My alarm clock woke me up from a vivid dream about playing a racing game. I was practicing on this one track, just trying to do faster and faster laps. There was no other cars on the track. I was doing really well, getting fast and faster without losing control of the car. I start hearing a weird male voice coming out of the TV. The voice is talking about a "Jaws" video game and why doesn't he see any "Jaws" video games on the list of games I have on my  Playstation. Then my alarm clock annoyingly goes off waking me up out of  it. But have to get ready for work.
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: Caradon July 13, 2019, 06:56:49 AM
Friday/July/12/2019

I slept about  four hours as I work the night shift Friday nights and the morning shift on the weekends. I woke up after about an hour and a half recalling some jumbled up work dreams. Don't remember much other than I was talking with a  couple people that I work with. The details slipped away just after waking. Then I recalled a fragment of another dream as I was sitting there thinking about it. Should comment on the importance of note taking. Since I  jotted down some notes, but then waking later completely forgot about it. Even forgot that I had taken notes on a dream. Note to self. From now on always look at the notebook in the morning even if I don't remember taking any notes, because I might have. I was sitting on my porch for a while in morning meditation and thinking that  I didn't have any recall other than a few feelings of dreams, when suddenly the  dream I had taken notes on comes back to me, and remembered that I had taken notes on it.

I think  when I get home from work I'm going to refrain from turning on my computer and just get to sleep as soon as possible, try and get 8 hours of sleep or more.

T At The park

It's night in the neighborhood. It's not my real life neighborhood. No place that is familiar to me. I'm walking and coming up on a kids playground. The playground is ahead of me and off to my  left a bit. I just coming off the street , towards the playground. There are street light illuminating a couple of areas, the playground is under the street lights.

I notice that ahead of me and off to the right is another illuminated area. Directly under the  somewhat dim light of a street lamp is a long folding type table that you might see at some kind of banquet  or wedding. My mom used to have such a table we used for Holliday  gatherings. Sitting at the table is old friend T. The same old friend that  showed up in another recent, the one that had suffered the stroke in the previous dream in this journal.

 I walk up and see what he is doing. T is sitting at the table organized  his batch of marijuana. Without even talking with him, I somehow know that he is supposed to have the best marijuana around. There are several tubular packages laid out on the table that don't really look like marijuana packages, but I somehow know that they are. The marijuana packages are a dark, almost black color. There is a soft blue light softly glowing around the edges of the packages in magical kind of way. The glowing, I somehow know, indicates the extremely high quality of the marijuana. T  is sitting there, as if the town pot dealer, with the packages all laid out and rolling joints. I think T and I spoke briefly before my last memory of the dream, but I don't remember what had been said.   

-I keep thinking I had another dream, where I was at some house and my step brother was involved. But I can't quite remember if it happened or not. When I picture the house in my mind I definitely get the feel I was at a place like that, and of my step brother that often shows up in dreams. (I think he shows up in my dreams a lot because we had been the best of friends as kids and through young adulthood. Along with old friend T and a few others. And we hung out together all the time. And played music together as guitarists, growing up learning how to play the guitar together and jamming all the time. Entertaining at parties and get togethers and what not.)   
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: Wędajihs July 13, 2019, 05:23:06 PM
There are a lot of challenges in your dreams, though I suspect most of our dreams are about differing degrees of challenge.  It's too bad that the stressful situations don't get you lucid like they used to. Hopefully it's just a matter of time before they begin working in your favor again. Fight or flight... reality check.
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: Caradon July 14, 2019, 07:42:23 AM
There are a lot of challenges in your dreams, though I suspect most of our dreams are about differing degrees of challenge.  It's too bad that the stressful situations don't get you lucid like they used to. Hopefully it's just a matter of time before they begin working in your favor again. Fight or flight... reality check.

Yeah I used to try and watch for any kind of danger since there is often some kind of danger element in my dreams. It would have been good had I fallen off the cliff, that has always been the most reliable way. For my mind to create a situation where I get airborne because the familiar feeling of flying in dreams would pretty much always get me lucid. I think that's what was going on in the cliff dream. My mind trying to throw me off the cliff and get me into the air. We'll see if it works next time it happens because it's been a while and might still take some work.  The anxiety induced lucidity worked for me pretty well when I was younger but most of the time I would have to reach a point of extreme terror and no way to escape death. Then lucidity would come over me in a wave of relief and I'd have fun overcoming whatever awful situation I was in. That's how I learned to become such a dream masochist and not be afraid  of any kind of danger or physical harm. Well, I never was afraid of that to begin with when lucid.  But it got to the point where I would purposely throw my dream body into harms way just for the fun of it with complete confidence in the fact I'm indestructible.

Yeah, It's just a matter of time as long as I stay focused and keep doing what I need to do persistently.  I've only just started seriously working on my dreams again. One thing I know about lucid dreaming is to be patient. And I've brought myself back from much worse dry spells than this one. been through the process enough times to know how it works for me. As much as I look forward to vivid lucids again,  right now I'm just happy when I recall dreams really well.


It's interesting that I'm actually struggling with recall more since I seriously started journaling again. Because even in the off years I have been still holding on to some recall. And always keeping notes on my dreams during the night even if not recording them fully. But I think it's just a temporary psychological blip.
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: Caradon July 14, 2019, 08:01:59 AM
Saturday/July/13/2019

Annoyingly I overslept. Lucky I'm not late for work, but I'm used to getting up early I guess. I had set my alarm for 4:00am to enjoy my morning caffeine with the waking song birds. But ended up not getting up until after 5:00am. Don't have much time.


-For three quarters of the night, since having dreaming on the brainso much, I kept waking up from dreams where I was either thinking about dreaming or talking about dreaming with someone. Barely recalling them though. I remember specifically thinking about reality checking in my dreams a couple of times. So at least my mind is in the right place in my dreams.

-Had an awesome barely recalled dream about entering some other magical  realities using my phone as a gateway or portal. I mostly  remember the feeling tone of it nd some  of the visuals it as an amazing dream, I know. I'm sure it's a dream spawned  by my intent to bring myself lucid into magical dreaming realities.

-A fragment about driving. been trying to bring it back more fully, but keeps almost coming back and slipping away. The driving dream has an ominous feeling tone to it. As If I was trying to drive fast in order to get away from something scary.


-Just before waking for good, was having some vivid recall about playing my guitar And  showing off my beautiful Roads Jackson with dinosaur and sunset paint job, and my playing abilities to some people I work with that have no idea about my guitar playing history.
A vivid memory of a photo/video that I had in my dream of my guitar on it's stand in a beautiful outdoor setting in the mountains. The guitar on it's stand near a rocky stream, surrounded by mountains. And the sound of myself playing the guitar surrounding the image. Like I had somehow recorded an overlay of myself playing the guitar to the video of the guitar on the stand near the mountain stream. It was quite beautiful.

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: Caradon July 15, 2019, 09:56:36 AM
Sunday/July/14/2019

 I had a little trouble falling to sleep last night. That's a little unusual now a days as it's usually more of a struggle to stay awake when I want to. I Lay down to sleep a little after 7:00pm but probably didn't fall completely to sleep until sometimes after 9:00pm. I reluctantly set my alarm clock for 4:30am because I didn't want to miss the morning sunrise on my day off during the rianstorms that the forcast promissed again, but again, failed to deliver on.  I'm always reluctant to set my alarm If I don't really have to wake up for something important  that I have to be on time to, like my job for instance.  Because I don't want to be potentially woken out of any good dreams, lucid or not, for no important reason. But as luck would have it, I did wake from a vivid dream literally seconds before my alarm went off. So the alarm didn't ruin the dream for me at least. Some people like to set alarms for WBTB, which I believe  to be an unwise practice. Because one could already be in the middle of a good lucid dream when that alarm goes off.  But then I'm the kind of person that wakes up often during the night, naturally, and can do as many WBTB's as I like when waking on my own. Maybe not everyone is like that.

I'm happy with last nights recall. I recalled something pretty much every time I woke up, I think. And my list of notes takes up more lines in my notebook than they have in a while. Mostly short bursts of recall, and nothing overly exciting, but the blow job dream was good...  ;)

Zombie Chamber

I woke up from this one after something like an hour and a half of sleeping. "Zombie Chamber" is exactly what I wrote in my notebook to remind myself. 

I'm standing outside of a giant sized/maybe building sized metal storage container. The doors of the giant container begin to swing open. The dream has a powerful feeling tone. Somehow I'm aware that there are zombies inside and I'm preparing to combat them, decapitate them as they charge out at me. I know that they are not just normal zombies, but runners. And not even the normally easily dispatched runners. The bigger, more powerful, military runners that one occasionally comes across in my favorite zombie parkour game. "Dying Light."  The doors swing open fully, the chamber inside is huge and gloomy, difficult to see all the way in. There is dramatic music playing. I peer inside, intently, preparing to dispatch any charging monsters. And I wake without actually seeing a single zombie, darn. That could have been fun and intense. Well had an intense feeling to it even without that actual zombie battle so it was good.

Jessica Jones

The dream begins involving my 20 something year old, lying, thieving, back-stabbing nephew.

The first thing I recall well about the dream is that I had borrowed my car to my  nephew which would never happen. I remember him being gone for a really long time before returning.  I don't remember all the details of the dream that well. My piece of shit  nephew comes to me and admits to me that he and a friend of his decided to take my car for a joy ride into Canada. While in Canada they get into trouble with the law, as they had entered the country illegally, and of course doing no good stupid shit while there as well. And he now has to return to Canada to face criminal charges and punishments. I'm annoyed that he had used my car for this venture, but not surprised in the least as it's just more of his typical untrustworthy bullshit.  I hope the Canadian authorities keep him there. 

I tell someone else there, in the dream, what he had gotten himself into now. My nephew seems upset that I had told someone about it, but I don't care.

A random event as I look at the floor and see something crawling on the carpet. It's a weird looking bug. (Missed target dreamsign as bugs in the house are showing up in my dreams a lot. And I try to remember to RC every time I see a weird bug or beatle  or spider in the house.) The bug looks like a little tiny yellow scorpion with pincers. And in the bugs pincers, it's carrying a large green leaf held up in the air.  Similar to how you might see an ant lifting something much larger than it's size. I'm contemplating the bug as I watch it crawling for a few moments.


Then the next thing I remember. Is that I'm in a different part of the room now and Marvels Jessica Jones is sitting in a chair. And there is some guy laying on a cot on his back. Jessica is being mean and rude to the guy, as she often comes off as a total bitch but in reality a very good person only trying to help people. I have a sense that she is annoyed with the guy laying there, thinking him rudely flirting with her. I seem to know who the guy is, in my mind at least he is another Marvel character. Though in reality I don't know who he is just a random DC.

I have a fond memory of this moment of the dream, as I seem to have a sort of affection towards  Jessica Jones. But not in a  physical or sexual sort of way. At least not on a conscious level anyways. You just have to like her.

"Jones!" I say loudly. Jessica looks over at me.  With a little fond amusement I feel like I know something she doesn't know yet, but will find out in future episode of her show. "Be nice to the man!" I say to her. "He is one of the good ones..."  It's  a line I stole directly form her because I remember her saying that about someone else in one of her episodes. Jessica raises an eyebrow at me, seeming to half believe me but deciding to take my word for it. Jessica looks over at he man and says to him. "You're one of the good ones huh?" In a tone that implies a question.

Blow Job In The Shower

A part of a longer dream I'm at a house with some people when I decide to take a shower. A nice lady randomly shows up in my shower and gives me a nice blow job which was great. And later in the dream I'm more than a little surprised  when she starts unashamedly and openly begins telling everyone in the room about the blow job she had given me and describing the finishing results in detail  lol. 

Talking Urinal

I enter a public bathroom and there is a voice coming from the Urinal. I look again and I see that there is a person that  somehow managed to climb up inside the urinal. The persons head is way up inside it and hidden from view.  The persons legs are protruding out from the main opening. The person is apparently trying to freak people out. Talking in a dark ominous voice, pretending to be some sort of urinal entity.


Later, out of the bathroom, it's apparently some sort of shopping  center.  I ask someone if they had seen the guy in the urinal. They say yes and agree it's a very weird person.


Bear In The House


I have a rare bear dream  where the bear is friendly and in no way threatening. The bear is in the house like a pet dog. It's a brown bear, Not huge in size,  but still quite large for being in the house. And the bear is also no threat to my small dog and I'm not worried about it at all. I think the bear wants to go outside to pee so I get the leash. The bear gets all excited like a dog wanting to go outside and jumping around the house and following me around. I wake as I'm getting leash to bring it outside.



Rich Dot Com

I'm hanging out with a pretty blonde co-worker, just as friends nothing relationship wise or sexual going on in the dream. Except for she keeps ending up removing her cloths. I'm definitely admiring her body,  but not trying anything. I'm surprised at her being so comfortable that she doesn't mind me seeing her nude at all.


But then another appearance of a TV character. (Blind Spot) appears in the dream. Rich dot com.  Again I don't remember all the details of what had been going on. But I find myself having a discussion with someone man in an office building. The man is telling me that the previously mentioned pretty blonde is very upset with my affiliation with Rich dot com as friends. Because there is something suspicious about this man that she is uncomfortable with.  Because Rich Dot com has a completely clean record as if his identity had been comepletely wiped. And they think that he must be some kind of bad person because of this.


But I know him, because I have been working for the same government agency that Rich has been. Rich and I have been working together with an entire team, for the FBI, to fight against terrorism. And in fact we  have saved the world from destruction   more than one occasion. Rich has special advanced hacking skills he has been employing to help the governments  and the  world to stop evil criminals from causing thee public serious harm. His previous  identity had been wiped, because he had had a dark past and served time in prison. But he is now a special operative for the government trying to do good for the world.

Very badly I would like to explain all of this to the man, and pretty blonde that I'm having this friendship with. But the government has made all of us involved  sign a form of secrecy  under penalty of treason, that we are not to discuss our involvement  with the terrorist fighting branch of the FBI. I wake from this dream moments before my alarm goes off. 


 
 

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: Caradon July 16, 2019, 06:34:32 PM
Monday/July/15/2019

Tree House People

I'm on a walkway that is built on the side of a cliff that rises up over a body of water. It's an odd sort of labyrinth walkway naturally built into the cliff. As if it's tees and roots have grown to create the walkway. It switches back and forth as it rises up and around. Looking back along the side of the cliff, it takes a moment, but I see a structure built into the side of the cliff in the same natural manner. It's difficult to make out at first because of the structures naturally camouflaged nature.


At first the structure appears to be a deck built off the cliff face overlooking the body of water. I see a dark haired lady on the deck as I try to find  a path up the winding walkway. I hear the lady make a smart ass comment, making fun of me for not being able to find the correct way up the walkway. I'm only slightly annoyed by this, as I know the correct way, but I was for some reason trying to see if I can find an alternate route through the beams and tree limbs.

I decide I'm going to show this lady the proper way to climb this odd tangled walkway. The parkour switch flips in my mind and here we go. I'm running leaping flipping up and over all these long wide twisting tree limbs and boards making up this labyrinthine trail to the deck. As I do I realize the maze is sort of a natural defense to the people who I now realize live in what has become this giant treehouse.

The dark haired tree lady sees my fluid agile run up through the natural maze and I see her  give  a slight nod in acknowledgement of my prowess and right to be there. I do a flip through the air and land on my feet on the deck. The dark haired lady has now already retreated inside the tree house.

The dream has a very magical feeling tone to it now. And the tree people have a very Avatarish quality, even sprouting monkey like tails. As I enter the main hall of the tree, I notice many of the tree people sleeping, curled up on the floor. I wonder at the time. Is it night or day? I thought it was day. Are these tree people nocturnal then, I wonder?

I see the dark haired tree lady sitting in the middle of the room surrounded by the others sleeping. Oddly the tree lady is rolling what I somehow know is a marijuana joint and lights it. Still in parkour mode and  not wanting to disturb the sleeping tree people.  I do a leap and long fully extended body flip over the top of the sleeping tree people and the dark haired tree lady. As I'm upside  down in the air, above the tree lady. She throws the joint up into the air towards me. And I'm surprised  when I easily catch the unlit side of the joint between my lips and land easily on my feet on the opposite side of the room. I inhale a long drag from the joint and exhale.


Just then, in the entranceway that I had just leaped away from, appears a male tree person. The tree man has dark hair as well, soft round faced features. His tail lazily waving behind him. The tree man squats in the entrance and takes a visual survey  of the room. I watch  as the tree man puts a finger in his ear, wiggles his finger around in his ear and pulls out a big glob of earwax that is clearly visible on the end of his finger. He casually  puts the earwax in his mouth and eats it. More than a little grossed out at this at first, I wonder at   his eating of his ear wax. Then sort of aware this entire situation is not real, I realize that the tree man was just written to do that by the writer that created this story.  I shrug it off as not a big deal. That's the last thing I remember before waking.   
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: Wędajihs July 16, 2019, 09:58:00 PM
Nice lady indeed.  ;) Interesting batch of dreams. And very well recalled and written. I was thinking about trying to dream my way to visit the pot smoking weed people until I read the last part with the ear miner.
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: kineticwaves July 17, 2019, 06:25:19 AM
Yeah, the tree people dream was really nice! Nice reference to Avatar btw. I just watched that movie a few days ago.  :ya:
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: Caradon July 17, 2019, 11:28:53 AM
Nice lady indeed.  ;) Interesting batch of dreams. And very well recalled and written. I was thinking about trying to dream my way to visit the pot smoking weed people until I read the last part with the ear miner.

Thank you. I don't know what the pot smoking has been about in my dreams lately, I've not had any in twenty years and don't want any. Though it would be fun to smoke some and do some VR stuff, especially the animated VR movies where you are literally in the middle of the cartoon. I'm not ever going to though, I'm well  aware of what pot does to dream recall. And I'd rather be dreaming. 

Yeah, the tree people dream was really nice! Nice reference to Avatar btw. I just watched that movie a few days ago.  :ya:

Thank you. Nice... I should watch Avatar again too one of these days. I have the 3D Blu-ray and last time I watched it I watched it on the large screen inside the PSVR headset it was awesome... 


 
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: Caradon July 17, 2019, 11:50:32 AM
Tuesday/July/16/2019

In Dream Awareness Work

I was wondering when this was going to start happening as it's happened to me in the past. Just a fragment of being I my house with to people there as guests. which is a dreamsign in itself. But  the two people were there playing video games on my Playstation.  And I was trying to practice staying focused on my awareness throughout the distraction of having them there and interacting with them.  I only recall a little bit of it. Maybe if it had been longer I would have eventually checked my watch  as an RC too.

Fire!

I'm at the Townhouses where I lived  as a kid, up until early teens. I smell smoke and the smell gets stronger every second. I realize there must be a fire, I can almost feel the heat of it as well. I look at  the ceiling and in the corner of the ceiling I can see char and smoke billowing out through what appears to be a hole beginning to burn through. I realize the entire upper level must be ablaze. For a moment I wannt to go look but I decided there is point. I think it's too late, the house is lost. I'm not afraid of being able to get out because the door to the outside is just right there.

I scoop up my dog in arms, and I wonder if I should try to save anything else or just ditch the place. I decide the only other thing worth saving than my dog is my guitar, as it has a one of a kind paint job never to be found again. And also a lot of sentimental value attached to it. My guitar is just right over there, already in it's case. So simple to grab. I have the dog in one arm, and guitar in the other hand. I run outside and immediately see a pickup up truck parked and engulfed in flames. was I mistaken about the house fire? was it just the truck all along?. I'm not sure. There is a little more to the dream that I don't remember very well. Talking to some people about the truck fire nd figuring out what to do about it.
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: kineticwaves July 17, 2019, 07:51:12 PM
I've had a couple of dreams about fires, too.

And yeah, Avatar was awesome! They're coming out with another one.
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: Caradon July 18, 2019, 07:32:58 AM
I've had a couple of dreams about fires, too.

And yeah, Avatar was awesome! They're coming out with another one.

Every now and then I get fire dreams. Fire acts s weird in dreams. It's pretty tough to put out too.  I've  had  dreams where there is a fire in the house and I'm trying to put it out before it gets out of control. But it's kind of like light switches, now that I think of it. I've had dreams where I'm trying to turn the lights off in the house or apartment, every time I turn around they are back on again lol. It's very annoying. I think it has  gotten me lucid though before.

Avatar was always supposed to be a trilogy or more.   The first one just being the beginning of the story.  I don't  know why it's taking him ten years to make the second one. I know James Cameron is a perfectionist when it comes to his movies and all. And I've always loved his work because he always takes such pride in his work and tries to push the boundaries of what can be done technology wise.  But ten years between movies is getting a bit ridiculous in my opinion...  At that pace half the fans will get old and die before they can watch them. And James Cameron himself would be long dead before completion and someone else will have to finish it for him lol. Since he isn't so young anymore either. Well, I looked it up and looks like the third one is planned to come out a year after the second one does at least. 




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: kineticwaves July 18, 2019, 08:29:54 AM
That's interesting!

I have to agree that 10 years is a ridiculous amount of time to create a movie lol. I know artists do tend to be the perfectionists type, though lol, but I want to see the upcoming movie. At least the third one isn't going to take another 10 years.
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: Caradon July 18, 2019, 02:06:37 PM
Yeah it's one I won't want to miss. Make sure you watch the 3D version...

Wednesday/July/17/2019

Didn't sleep much. I took an hour or so nap before having to get ready for work. Alarm annoyingly woke me from a very vivid very pleasant dream. Just going to try and hold the visual of it and feeling of it in my mind as much as possible throughout the evening.

There wasn't any WILDing, that I remmeber anyways. Maybe a little audio/random voices before falling to sleep.
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: Caradon July 19, 2019, 07:24:14 AM
Thurs/July/18/2019


Queen Of Hearts

I'm at work and I have an old photo of a girlfriend that I had between the years of  something like 17 and sometime in my twenties. Someone who left a lasting impact on me. Last time her and I talked was sometime shortly before I took off to Colorado Springs in my twenties. (We had met at a Valentines day party that a mutual friend was throwing. At the Valentines party she had introduced herself to me as being The Queen Of Hearts, and that was kind of a running nickname from then on. Our first movie date was "Bill And Teds Excellent Adventure" When that movie just came out in theaters.")  In the dream I had the photo with me and accidentally left it sitting out. Someone saw it laying out in the open and asked me about it. I explain who she is and show a few other people at my job the photo, showing off how beautiful she is. It's a beautiful photo of her, long strawberry blond hair with black highlights on the ends. I didn't recall the dream until I saw the actual photo that I had recently taken out from my box of memorabilia in reality and set on a shelf in my living room. When I saw the real photo of her the dream all came flooding back to me.
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: kineticwaves July 19, 2019, 10:33:52 AM
That's beautiful! It's cool that the dream came flooding back to you when you saw the photo. It's amazing how some people have such an influence on our lives (past friends, gfs/bfs, etc).
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: Caradon July 19, 2019, 12:15:51 PM
That's beautiful! It's cool that the dream came flooding back to you when you saw the photo. It's amazing how some people have such an influence on our lives (past friends, gfs/bfs, etc).

Well she has always been the one. The one true love. The one that will forever be at the core, and the symbol, of that emotion for me.

Yesterday I was thinking about something she had told me once. As I was lucid dreaming a lot back in the days when I was with her. She once told me that she believed that her dreaming mind was different than her waking mind and that when she wants to have a certain type of dream she asks her dreaming mind to bring her that type of dream.


So I had started doing that a lot with lucid dreaming. So I would start asking my dreaming mind to please help bring me a lucid dream. And in times of bad recall also ask it to help me remember my dreams. And it did seem to help. And I had forgotten about that. So yesterday I was doing that, asking my dreaming mind to bring me a lucid dream and to help me remember my dreams. It apparently must have did something. Because I got lucid that very night. after a WBTB.  Granted my awareness level has been starting to get better while I'm at work as well the last couple of days. Which is tricky, many distractions. But that could be a benefit in the long run if I can get decent at maintaining awareness with lots of distractions going on around me, and interactions with people.
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: kineticwaves July 20, 2019, 07:16:28 AM
That's really cool that she gave you that advice. If it's okay to ask, do you guys still know each other?

I had a friend that the universe introduced me to, and it seemed like we knew each other in a past life. Sometimes I feel haunted by not being able to see each other that much, but I know we were meant to be friends.

I have another friend - online friend - that I know I was also meant to be friends with. She's one of my best friends to this day.

I know they're my friends but what you mentioned struck a chord with me.

Maybe I'll connect to old friends through the dream realm if I try hard enough.
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: Caradon July 21, 2019, 06:50:13 AM
That's really cool that she gave you that advice. If it's okay to ask, do you guys still know each other?

I had a friend that the universe introduced me to, and it seemed like we knew each other in a past life. Sometimes I feel haunted by not being able to see each other that much, but I know we were meant to be friends.

I have another friend - online friend - that I know I was also meant to be friends with. She's one of my best friends to this day.

I know they're my friends but what you mentioned struck a chord with me.

Maybe I'll connect to old friends through the dream realm if I try hard enough.

No I have no idea if she is still even alive. The last time I talked with her was shortly before I took off to Colorado Springs for a few years. Late in 1993 or early 1994 something like that. A time before internet or cell phones. The world was a much more peaceful quieter place back then. As much as I enjoy the internet, and especially my Netflix streaming. Sometimes I wish it was never created.  It's a continuous non stop distraction in life.

There was no email back then, no texting. The only way to communicate was through a land line phone, or write a letter on a piece of paper and send it in the mail. The last time I talked with her on the phone, there was a tone in her voice that had made me feel like she was irritated that I had called her. I had decided I couldn't take anymore of all the hurting I was going through.  After our last conversation, I hung up the phone. Said a silent goodbye to her in my head, wished her a happy life. I had the phone company disconnect my phone service. And I moved out of state soon after in order to spend time back-packing in the mountains. I never told her I was leaving. Though I assume she found out where I went through mutual friends.

I had a deeply profound love for that girl, the queen. And for a while at least, she had me convinced she felt the same way about me. So that only  deepened my feelings for her even more. Until things started going all to shit, and I was pretty much destroyed inside. After her loss, I didn't even want to be with anyone else ever again. And for most of my life I didn't even want to try. Until I was like 40, I tried again.  And that was huge stupid mistake that led me down dark  roads of pure hell and depression. And that's where I've been since I stopped being a part of the dreaming communities.

I've recently been using my memories of the queen, at least the good portions of those memories, to try and heal and bring back a part of myself that died when her and I parted ways. The part of  myself that could still feel the magic of a childhood crush. The part that could still dream of a fairy tale romance. I came to realize, I don't actually need to live it  to feel it. And wanted to at least be able to feel the magic of the fantasy of it, the dream of it. The way I use to be able to, before all the hurting began...

Once sitting with the queen, she tore a dollar bill in half. She handed me half of that dollar bill and kept the other half to herself. And she told me that for as long as were are ever apart in life, each one of us, will only be halves  of a whole. I still have my half of that dollar. Now, she is more of a symbol to me than anything real. Represents those magical emotions. And I still have that old photo. And I swear, even in that old photo, she still seems to glow like an angel.

But now, I'm purely an Isolationist. All I want in life is a nice quiet place to be left alone to enjoy the rest of my time in this world in peace and quiet and my dreams, stories, and fantasies. I don't talk to anyone outside of work any more than I have to. If I could afford  to, I'd do a disappearing act. Have an underground bunker built on a nice chunk of land that I never have to leave. A place where no one would know where I am or ever be able to find me.
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: kineticwaves July 21, 2019, 08:38:23 AM
Hey, I just wanted to say that your pain makes sense. As long as it doesn't eat you alive, it can be good for creativity and things like that - but I hope you will be able to experience that again. There's only so much somebody can go through before it gets better. Nothing is worse than prolonged suffering.

I'm sorry you haven't been able to get back in touch. That has to be really hard.

It seems like the universe is always offering that taste of friendship/love and then taking it away - and it's often the best ones. As a person struggling with depression, I need to remind myself of self-love/care which, for me, is creating art, realizing my feelings are valid, and knowing that something better is going to come along.

I mean, I guess I can kind of relate?

Hang in there.
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: Caradon July 21, 2019, 09:07:36 AM
Hey, I just wanted to say that your pain makes sense. As long as it doesn't eat you alive, it can be good for creativity and things like that - but I hope you will be able to experience that again. There's only so much somebody can go through before it gets better. Nothing is worse than prolonged suffering.

I'm sorry you haven't been able to get back in touch. That has to be really hard.

It seems like the universe is always offering that taste of friendship/love and then taking it away - and it's often the best ones. As a person struggling with depression, I need to remind myself of self-love/care which, for me, is creating art, realizing my feelings are valid, and knowing that something better is going to come along.

I mean, I guess I can kind of relate?

Hang in there.

Thanks for that. I'm perfectly fine now though. As fine as I can ever be anyways while being a part of the world I hate having to be a part of.  And the situation with my dog I'll have to get through. Otherwise perfectly fine, that's why I'm finally getting back to my real self, my dreaming self.

I have no interest in relationships at all, trying to empress someone, trying to live up to someone elses standards of what a partner should be lol. Most people are so materialistic all they care about is how much money a person makes or what they do for a living. Fuck that shit, I don't give a fuck lol. Like me for who I am or go fuck yourself... :)  There is nothing I need or want from the world. Other than to be left alone to enjoy the rest of my time here in peace and quiet.

A favorite quote from a movie I saw recently. " The older I get, the less I need. All I need is to be left the fuck alone..." I was like, that is so fucking true...   
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: kineticwaves July 21, 2019, 09:21:35 AM
It sounds like you made progress which is great!

I love dogs/cats. Pets are great.

I hope nothing bad happened to your dog. 🐶
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: Caradon July 22, 2019, 06:20:14 AM
It sounds like you made progress which is great!

I love dogs/cats. Pets are great.

I hope nothing bad happened to your dog. 🐶

I don't really think of her as a pet, something much more than that to me.

But basically, she is just very old now. Still doing okay despite a couple of  problems that will probably end up killing her. But for the moment she is still okay. She has already lived longer than most dogs get to, turned 17 in March. So I'm just trying to be grateful she is still here, and still lively enough for her age...  And grateful we are getting to enjoy another summer together. After a few days of really bad heat, this morning is perfect weather. Starting at 60 degrees at 5:00am. And my day off. And supposed to be more of the same tomorrow. And my day off tomorrow as well. So we will be out most of the time adventuring and enjoying the outdoors.
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: kineticwaves July 22, 2019, 08:05:53 AM
I can relate, because I love my four-legged friend as much as a person. My love for my dog is probably unreasonable LOL, but on good and bad days, she sits on my lap, rolls up in a cute little ball therefore releasing oxytocin in my brain. I don't want to lose her, but she's middle-aged.

Wow! 17 years is a long time!! Make sure you cherish her before her passing!

I know you'll enjoy the time with your furriend. 🐶
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: Caradon July 25, 2019, 11:13:44 AM
Wednesday/July/24/2019

Sleeping In The Forest

I remember a fragment of laying in the forest trying to sleep for the night. No tent no blankets, just laying on the ground. It's not night yet, and as I lay there I htink it will be interesting as the sun goes down. I think I'm too close to where people might see me so, so I get up to go deeper into the woods to find a secluded place to sleep.

Want To Hold Your Hand

I remember a fragment of stepping off of a bus. As I step off the bus I'm thinking about a woman that I had been with earlier in the dream and how I randomly took her hand while walking with her. Being bold like. I remember her as being surprised but accepting of my hand holding. 

But I don't remember actually doing it, or actually being with her. I just remember remembering it, and thinking about it as I step off the bus.

-As I woke up in the morning I felt dreams slipping way from me. Felt like I was having a conversation or argument with someone as I woke up. I don't think I'm going to get a nap in today.  Maybe something more will come back to me.   






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: kineticwaves July 25, 2019, 11:35:04 AM
Wednesday/July/24/2019

Sleeping In The Forest

I remember a fragment of laying in the forest trying to sleep for the night. No tent no blankets, just laying on the ground. It's not night yet, and as I lay there I htink it will be interesting as the sun goes down. I think I'm too close to where people might see me so, so I get up to go deeper into the woods to find a secluded place to sleep.

Want To Hold Your Hand

I remember a fragment of stepping off of a bus. As I step off the bus I'm thinking about a woman that I had been with earlier in the dream and how I randomly took her hand while walking with her. Being bold like. I remember her as being surprised but accepting of my hand holding. 

But I don't remember actually doing it, or actually being with her. I just remember remembering it, and thinking about it as I step off the bus.

-As I woke up in the morning I felt dreams slipping way from me. Felt like I was having a conversation or argument with someone as I woke up. I don't think I'm going to get a nap in today.  Maybe something more will come back to me.

Nice! The forest would be an interesting place to fall asleep. I often thought about sleeping in a tree house sort of like the one on Ocarina of Time!^___^
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: Caradon July 26, 2019, 07:51:11 AM
That is kind of a recurring dream for me. I have it every no and then. Well not always trying to sleep, but trying to hide in the forest. Get away from and hide from any nearby people. It's easy for me to understand where that one comes from.
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: Caradon July 26, 2019, 12:17:58 PM
Thursday/July/25/2019

The Great Race

I'm racing a motorcycle. It's not just any race. It's the race of all races. The biggest, longest race in the history of all racing. It's a road race, across the countryside. My first memory of the dream is that the race is already nearing it's end. I am in second place, the throttle of my bike wide open. Little by little I'm gaining on thee rider in front of me. The current location is a rocky desert canyon.


I'm doing everything I can to try and gain on the leader. Trying to find the better faster lines, as I am already at maxed speed. My only chance is to out skill the leader, finding the better lines through the course to gain on him. I'm getting closer. I'm feeling like I just might have this race. Wouldn't that be something, to win the biggest race in the history of racing... Then out of nowhere, I'm passed by two riders that come upon me from behind. Then just like that, the race is over. Passing the finish line, and past the racing official that is recording official course times.


Well, I got fourth place. That's not bad for the biggest race in racing history, right? I ask the racing official what my course time was at least. He just shrugs me off, not caring. It doesn't matter. Fourth position apparently means nothing in this race. I may as well come in last, or been disqualified, or failed to even finish the race.
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: kineticwaves July 26, 2019, 02:14:02 PM
Aww man! 4th place seems pretty good for the biggest race in history.

Sounds like nice scenery : rocky desert canyon.
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: Caradon July 28, 2019, 07:27:49 AM
Aww man! 4th place seems pretty good for the biggest race in history.

Sounds like nice scenery : rocky desert canyon.

 I know right, that was a frustrating finish lol. For a second there I thought I was going to get the win.
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: Caradon July 28, 2019, 07:51:24 AM
Recall has been frustrating since I had my lucid. I know it would help if I slept more... But still should be better than what it is right now.

Friday/July/26/2019

I only had time to sleep a couple of hours and didn't have any recall. Though I did wake up feeling the dreams slipping away. I couldn't bring any of it back.

Saturday/July/27/2019

I got a little more sleep. But I should have went to sleep as soon as I could when I got home from work. I stayed up for a while because I wanted to watch a couple of episodes of a new sci/fi adventure show that just came out on Netflix. The show is starting out really good. The lady that played StarBuck in Battlestar Galactica is playing the lead role in this new space adventure too. Took me a while to remember where I saw her before.

-I remember a fragment of laying down trying to sleep. I did a short ten to fifteen minute WBTB, and when I fell back to sleep I was dreaming of laying down sleeping lol.

-There was some driving stuff. I have a clear memory of  parking lot with my car parked in it.  Also a co-workers car there. I remember asking the co-working if they want to swap cars for a little bit. Telling them that I'll let them drive my car if they let me drive theirs. Because we both had sports cars. Mine being a Mitsubishi 3000GT The car I drive in reality. And the co-worker had a cool looking sports car I wanted to try driving.

-There was something about losing my job for some reason. It was a shitty empty lost sort of feeling, not knowing what I was going to do without a job.

The dream was actually a memory of what happened and how it felt when my last place of employment went out of business with no notice at all. Just closed for business one morning, no warning. But thankfully I wasn't out of a job for very long, since the owners of another business heard about the situation and came to me offering me a job with them.  The entire situation turned into being a good thing. Since I like my new employers, and new job, and new co-workers much better than the previous job. And I'm making more money and getting more hours besides.
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: kineticwaves July 28, 2019, 12:42:53 PM
So many good shows came out on Netflix! I completely dig Stranger Things and Series of Unfortunate Events!

And yikes. It's good that - irl - you were able to get a new job after the unexpected incident. Dreams sometimes have a way of bringing back bad memories even if I find dreams to be a good experience most of the time. The subconscious mind is weird.

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: Caradon October 15, 2019, 07:45:10 AM

I've not been sleeping enough for much recall and have had difficulty concentrating. I decided I'm not getting off the caffeine for not, because it's stupid to give up the only thing in life that I enjoy and feels good. And I've not been wanting to take any extra time to write things down other than a few notes here and there.

Last night I recalled a little bit of an intense dream about being in a battle with some kind of alien robots. I remember being on a stairway between floors and swarms of these robots were coming from the floor above and below.
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: Caradon October 16, 2019, 11:08:32 AM
Tuesday/October/15/2019

Nothing from last night even though I slept a little more than I usually do. I woke up with that feeling of a lot  going on which often happens. I thought I would remember something after getting up to take  the dog out in the middle of the night as sometimes happens but not this time.

Last week I recalled a fascinating dream that I didn't write down at all. I was in some kind of alien world or alien alternate dimension. I remember it being very colorful and beautiful. There was some kind of alien drug that I took,  that I found, maybe it was just a plant or some such. I don't remember. But as the drug started to kick in I began to float upwards towards the ceiling of this amazing colorful chamber and as I was floating began seeing all sorts of psychedelic hallucinations.  I woke up in the middle of it with that wow feeling you get when waking from a particularly powerful dream.   

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: Caradon October 18, 2019, 12:12:21 AM
Wednesday/October/16/2019

Nothing really. I woke feeling like I was very much involved with what ever was going on. Had a strong feeling that there was something involving  forest or maybe mountains.   
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: Caradon October 18, 2019, 01:10:55 PM
Thursday/October/17/2019

Woke up knowing I was having a work dream and interacting with someone that I was working with the previous night. But couldn't quite recall what was going on. Almost came back to me a couple of times but slipped away.
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: Caradon October 19, 2019, 06:50:45 AM
Friday/October/18/2019

Another one of those couple hour nights. But at least I had a little recall.

Cockroach Basement

-Me and a few others are trapped in a basement. Held captive by some kind of psychopath. For some reason the only method of escaping the basement is to eat some disgusting cockroaches out of a container that were found in a side room, and kept in a small container. The cockroaches in the container are dead, and split open on the side. Some kind of disgusting substance oozing out of the split sides of the cockroaches as if they have been stuffed with the substance. I didn't actually eat any of the cockroaches, thankfully. I woke up while looking at them in the container. I don't think I was actually planning to eat any of them, but I know we were supposed to.  And I have no idea why eating them was supposedly part of the only way to escape the basement. Just a part of the psychopaths diabolical plan to torment us I think.

-A work dream. I just remember the boss being upset about something. I don't remember what it was all about.

 

 
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: Caradon October 20, 2019, 06:29:41 AM
Saturday/October/19/2019

I would have gotten a little more sleep except for the weather was just barely warm enough to take my friend for a bike ride when I got home from work. I wish I could have taken the day off, it was warmer earlier in the day. And we barely had enough sunlight after work  for maybe a half hour ride at the most. But I was grateful for even that.  I should have just called in sick since everyone else seems to be allowed to call in sick anytime they want a day off. Funny how often that Saturday flu hits, and that some people are stupid enough to believe that everyone else is stupid enough to believe they are always getting sick on Fridays and Saturdays. The work ethic of most people now days is disgusting.

Might be warm enough to take her this afternoon after work for a while as well. I'm not going to miss any opportunity to do so no matter how tired I might be. And I don't know if there will be any more opportunities, this year, or ever. It's going to be cold and raining on my days off and I don't know if it will warm up enough again.

-My alarm went off  and I woke from what felt like I was having an intense conversation with someone. Before the alarm actually woke me up I could here it in my dream, and I remember just before waking the person in my dream saying that they would find it. I know that what they meant was they would find the switch to turn off the alarm clock. And just then I woke, sat up, and reached for the snooze button in h dark  thinking about how the person in my dream was going to try and find it for me.

-As I was making my coffee aa near flashback of something about a country house, or farm house flickered into my mind and vanished as quickly as it almost appeared.

Trying to get a little more focused, but not been nearly enough yet. It's very difficult when you're not in a very good frame of mind but I need to find a way to figure it out even though I don't even  want to sleep any more than necessary right now.

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: Caradon October 21, 2019, 06:36:52 AM
Sunday/October/20/2019

I got off work about an hour early and took the dog for a bike ride when I got home. Most likely the last opportunity of the year. She was getting a little cold, starting to shiver.  Decided to set her down to walk for a while instead of just going home because I figured she would be warm enough while putting energy into walking, and having her hooded sweat shirt on. That was a good decision as she was obviously in good spirits and walking faster than I've seen her walk in a while and even running a little. That is always reassuring to see.
I was surprisingly awake and energetic too for not sleeping more than a few hours three nights in a row. And working hard all day.   

Then I slept from about  8:00pm to 12:00am maybe a little less. I woke up at one point recalling something and going over it in my head. But stupidly I  didn't take any notes even though I thought about doing so. I don't remember what it was now. I might sleep a little more later if I start feeling too sleepy to keep my eyes open or enjoy my day off. If I do and I recall something I'll add it in later.

 
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: Caradon October 22, 2019, 12:30:03 PM
Monday/October/21/2019

I was going to go to sleep from about 4:00pm to midnight. But it ended up being about 6:30pm to 10:00pm Probably the earliest I've woken up yet. I stayed up all night and went back to sleep about 6:00am planning to sleep for however long I felt like and kind of expecting to have at least some recall. But I only slept for about two hours and then woke to my friend gently pawing at my arm wanting me to get up. So I did. I'm not going to complain, waking up to find her still there and able to paw at my arm is a joyful thing to wake up to. So I gave her a hug and got up to take her out and make something to eat. Made some more coffee.

I had no recall  all.
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: Caradon October 23, 2019, 11:51:17 AM
Tuesday/October/22/2019

I slept from about 8:00pm to 4:00am. Waking up once to take the dog outside. I had no recall between those hours  other than waking up with the feeling of a dream.

But then I stayed up for about four hours and was getting sleepy so went back to sleep for 2 hours.

I did a little WILDing just laying there looking around but knowing that my eyes were actually closed.

I recalled a dream about being at work and seeing my sister and youngest nephew there.  I got pissed off at them for being there and was cussing them out.
 
Recalled a little bit of a sex dream. There was a couple of other things I woke up from but don't remember now and didn't take any notes on.

I should probably start doing more WBTB's to help with recall, I might sometimes I'm not sure yet.     
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: Caradon October 24, 2019, 10:27:57 AM
Wednesday/October/23/2019

I set my alarm for 9:00am but I actually slept from 12:30am to about 5:30am. I woke to my friend licking my forehead  in order to wake me up. I  gave  her a big hug and took her outside. I had a massive headache from drinking way too much coffee on my days off Monday and Tuesday, and not enough Wednesday morning. I was already feeling  the withdrawal  headache coming on before I even went to sleep. So I didn't bother trying to go back to sleep with my head hurting so bad felt like I could puke.  Instead made some coffee and contemplated the dreams I woke up recalling.

Avalanche

I'm walking at the foot of a beautiful and tall mountain that is covered in deep snow. There are a couple of people with me that I don't know in waking life.

Looking up at the mountain, I see the snow on one of it's slopes begin to crack and crumble and slide. Slightly nervous as I see the avalanche begin. I'm not sure if I'm out of it's reach or not. But I mostly feel that I'm not in the path of danger.

Nevertheless, my friends rush to move away to a safer spot. I'm about to follow when I see another slope, begin cracking and crumbling and beginning to slide. This one seems much closer, and more immediately dangerous. I try to make my way, to where my friends have run off. But I have difficulty, I feel stuck, trapped where I am.

There is an overhang of rock just above me. I lean into the side of the rock formation in hopes it will shield me from the powerful snow slide. To either side of me, comes the snow rushing down like a deadly white river. . I have no idea if I'm about to be buried alive as I cling to the rock behind me.

The snow stops sliding. I'm still alive. My head is still above the snow, but it seems just barely. I'm stuck  where I am, I try to wiggle free, I can't move. I call for my friends to help dig me loose.

Demolition Diner

Possibly the same dream as the avalanche, but there is a gap in my memory. One minute I'm trying to get out of the snow. The next I'm in a restaurant. It's a small diner. I'm with someone, again no one I know from waking life. We are sitting at a table. I think we were eating but I'm not sure what. As we sit there, I watch as a powerful bulldozer crashes into the side of the building. I realize that the diner as been scheduled for demolition.  The mad driver of the bulldozer doesn't seem to care that there are still people eating inside the diner. And he is not slowing his destruction. The bulldozer plows through the walls and tables and glass as if made of paper. And it's come to either get out of the way quickly, or be buried in the rubble with the building.

I rush outside to get away from the destruction of the building and find a person outside. We have a conversation of something completely unrelated to the destruction of the diner.  That's about the point when I wake to find my friend standing over me licking my forehead.

New Shelving

A  few minutes after waking I also recall a fragment of being in my bathroom and seeing some new shelving that I did not install. I think it's very strange and wonder who and how someone got into my locked place and installed this new shelving. I wonder if my lock is somehow faulty  that someone could just open the door and enter even if i think it's locked. I think maybe I need to install a new lock. 
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: Caradon October 25, 2019, 09:47:15 AM
Thursday/October/24/2019

I slept from about 12:30am to 7:30am My friend woke me up twice, the second time I decided to stay up.

A little disappointed with the lack of recall. After the previous nights vivid recall I was kind of expecting to have more recall. Well, I had a feeling I might not. I've been doing this a long time and I'm very familiar with the process. But at least I was looking forward to having something to write  down that is a good sign at least that things are beginning to go in the right direction at least mentally. And concentration  is beginning to get a little better.

For a moment I thought I recalled something about a dog. Not mine but some other dog. I big dog I think. And I remember the feeling of the dreams I was having when I woke up. But I don't know how to describe that. 

Won't be getting much sleep tonight  for sure because I work the night  shift and the morning shift the next day.
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: Caradon October 26, 2019, 05:05:42 AM
Friday/October/25/2019

Less than four hours of sleep. No recall.
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: Caradon October 27, 2019, 06:07:39 AM
Saturday/October/26/2019

Slept from about 8:30pm to 2:30am. I had my alarm clock set for 2:30am. I woke about 10:30pm with recall, and did a short WBTB. I took notes on my dream. And this time it was I that woke up my friend to take her out, instead of her waking me. 


Thin Ice

I'm ice skating on a frozen lake. There is someone with me. I'm skating around and I'm noticing these rough patches on the surface of the ice where the ice is sort of bunched up in frozen chunky piles. I knew there was something a little earlier in the dream that had caused these rough patches but I can't clearly recall that part of the dream. As I skate around trying to avoid the rough patches I'm thinking that I wish someone would sand the rough patches down with some sort of ice smoothing vehicle. In my mind I'm imagining one of those things you see at indoor ice arenas, like between periods at a hockey game.

I find areas to skate on that are smoother, less of these rough patches to try and navigate through. After a moment I begin to notices where the ice has a darker shade of color to it. I realize that the darker color of the ice in these areas is because of the water being visible  just below the surface.  I realize the ice is much thinner in these areas.

I now begin to wonder how safe the ice is that I'm skating on. Is there a danger of falling through? I imagine how scary it would be, falling through the ice and submerging into the ice cold water below. And if it happened, I wonder if would even be able to find my way back up to the hole in the ice I fell through. Or if I would get stuck and trapped  under a sheet of ice. 

As I contemplate this, of course, the way dreams go. I begin to notice more and more areas of the ice that seem very thin. And I now also realize that it is not very cold out at all so the ice can't be that strong. The ice is beginning to melt, and I can now see water on the surface in many places.

Now I'm just trying to figure out how to get off the ice before it crumbles beneath my feet and I sink into the ice cold depths.

I notice the person I'm with skating a little ways off. As I watch I see the ice crumble below his feet, and he sinks into the water. It's kind of an odd sinking as he continues his forward momentum while sinking, gradually sinking deeper. And just as he gradually sinks deeper as he moves forward, sinking nearly to his neck, he gradually begins to rise back up out of the water and smoothly comes back up onto more stable ice. I realize the water must not be very deep here in order for that to be possible. 

I wake up right about here and look at my clock. It's almost 10:30pm. Grateful for the recall, but a little disappointed it's not time  to wake up yet. Only been sleeping two hours, felt like it had been longer. I sit up and take notes on my dream to make sure I remember it if I fall back to sleep. As always I'm happy to see my friend, curled up sleeping contently next to me. I decide I should get her up and take her outside. I'm probably awake a  about 15 minutes or so before laying back down to try and go back to sleep. I'm not sure if I can because I feel wide awake at this point even though I slept less than four hours the previous night, and it's only been about two hours, maybe a little less just now.

But I do fall back to sleep until my alarm goes off at 2:30am I almost didn't recall anything else but I could feel more dreams very close to the surface. After a few minutes a little more came back to me, thankfully.

Parkour

I was happy to recall this dream because it felt awesome and was something I needed. I don't remember it real clearly but I remember the running and leaping and flips and hand springs. I remember it was a somewhat scary area. High structures, a danger of falling. But I felt free and unstoppable I ran and leaped and flipped through the course.

Lion Cliff

I remember a high rocky cliff, very vivid. I'm looking down the side of it. Along the sides of the cliff are jutting areas of rock. There is danger behind me, a vicious lion. My only chance of escape is over the side of the cliff. I leap over the edge of the cliff. Somehow able to find a way to garb jutting rock just enough to  slow my decent enough so I don't fall to my death. I'm not sure how I knew, and was confident I could do this. Probably carry over from my parkour mentality from the previous dream. Maybe even the same dream for all I know.

But as I leap over the side of the cliff the lion follows. I'm a little surprised that it does so. The lion latches on to my arm with it's jaws. Somehow I'm able to shake the lion off me and pull my arm away, and the lion falls. I watch as the lion bounces off the side of the cliff as it falls to it's death far below.

 

 

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: Caradon October 28, 2019, 05:57:27 PM
Sunday/October/27/2019

I slept from about 8:30pm until about 12:30am. I woke up without recall but went back to sleep about 7:00am and slept until about 8:30am and woke up with some recall.

Grasshopper

I'm at home with the dog and I see her run over by the wall excited about something. I wonder what she is after and it looks like she is eating something. I'm hoping that she has not captured and eating a mouse.

I notice something climbing  up the side of the wall, I think it's a frog. But  the lighting is not  the best it's kind of hard to see.  I'm not surprised if it's a frog. I've found a lot of frogs in the house this year.

I keep looking at it trying to  figure out what it is. After a moment I notice it has wings and I'm more intrigued. What the heck is this thing. Suddenly the entire shape of the thing comes to clear view and I can see that it's a giant winged grasshopper on the side of the wall.

The grasshopper is huge, bigger than my dog. As I look at the grasshopper I notice the luminescent green color patters along it's sides. It looks quite beautiful actually.

I'm very surprised to see this giant grasshopper on my wall and it's green glowing body. For a moment I think that should be doing a reality check to this thing. But I get distracted by wanting to get my phone and take a picture of the grasshopper. So I go looking for my phone that for some reason I believe is in the kitchen. So I go into the kitchen.

As I go into the kitchen someone enters the living room from the side door. I believe the person to be a friend of my brothers, who I also believe is hanging out in a different part of the house. My brothers friend begins telling me about some music awards show that they have been watching and that I should check it out.

(My brother has not been around here for a long time in reality so that was out of place. But I get the feeling that part of the dream was a flashback to childhood when we still lived in the same house.)

-There was also a brief work dream where some co-worker was complaining about someone that kept smoking half of every cigarette pack that he bought. And he was sick of always having half his cigarettes wasted. (I actually have no idea if this same person actually even smokes cigarettes in reality.)

   
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: Caradon October 29, 2019, 07:25:55 AM
Monday/October/28/2019

I slept from about 12:30am to 5:30am waking once to let my friend out and about  4:30  then going back to asleep until my alarm went off. I had to get up for an early dentist appointment at 8:000am. I had a little recall but ittook  me a minute to bring it back. I'm not sure if I'm going to be getting more sleep when I come back from the dentist or not. if I do and have any more recall I'll add it in later. 

Dirty Bathroom And Talking Animals

I'm in a building that has a disgusting bathroom that seems like a dirty basement room. Everything is concrete and there are pipes everywhere. Some guy walks in wearing dirty faded blue overalls and pushing a wheeled bucket that contains various bathroom cleaning implements. I can tell that the guy is the janitor of this place, of course, and is here to work on the bathroom. 

I watch the janitor get a plunger from the wheeled bucket and start plunging the toilet. He somehow causes a pipe to break and dirty water begins spraying all over the place. It's time for me to get out of here.

Next thing I know I'm in the living area of this same building  and the place is a disgusting mess. Except for one area near a window that is sort of cleaned and organized and has a mattress by a window.  I feel like the area near the window has kind of a cozy vibe to it.

I have the random thought that I've never looked out this particular window before. Even as I think that thought I realize that the thought would imply that I've looked out all the other windows. And I wonder at that, because I'm not sure I have,  or ever even been in this place before.I go to the window to have a look outside.

Outside I see a tree line along the yard (Much like the yard where I'm living now) There are several animals outside near the tree line.  One of them being a large dog, there was a raccoon, deer. Other animals too, I'm not sure.

My perspective kind of zooms in on the animals as if watching them on a big TV screen in front of me. The animals begin talking to each other in English like some sort of Disney movie. I don't recall the exact words but I do remember that they are discussing some sort of approaching danger that they are  trying to figure out how to avoid. That is the last thing about the dream that I recall.

Edit:

 Between going to the dentist and coming home a couple of more dreams came back to me.

Road Construction

I'm driving my car on the back rods of the neighborhood when I run into road construction. There is no one working on the roads at the moment but I find myself on completely torn up roads covered in very loose dirt. There is a raised up section and I use it as a jump to catch a little air with my car. Nota lot of air, just a little. I think it's pretty cool I can jump my car like this. But after the jump the road comes to a dead end. No way for me to continue. Also the dirt is very soft and kind of deep and I worry I'm in danger  of getting my car stuck. I try to take the jump again just for fun but my tires are spinning in the dirt too much and I can't get enough speed.

(This dream is a reflection of all the construction work around my house all summer. And actually getting lost a couple of times in reality while trying to navigate the unfamiliar  labyrinth of back streets around my house in order to find my way out to a main road.

Mom At The Work Place

Mom shows up at my place of employment and I'm not too happy about it. She is trying to tell me something. I don't remember what, I didn't even care. I just wanted her to get away from me and wasn't too nice.

(In reality there is a lot of messed up shit going on with my family and I have pretty much shut them all out and ignoring them all. So every now and then they show up at my place of employment because that is the only way they can force themselves into my life. And it pisses me off and ruins my day. I'm getting fed up with it and it's showing up in my dreams.) 
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: kineticwaves October 29, 2019, 02:35:08 PM
The grasshopper and talking animals sound pretty cool! ^...^>And I can understand that about bad stuff coming to consciousness while sleeping
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: Caradon October 30, 2019, 09:40:57 AM
The grasshopper and talking animals sound pretty cool! ^...^>And I can understand that about bad stuff coming to consciousness while sleeping

Yeah those were both interesting situations, and good dreamsigns. Almost caught the grasshopper dreamsign. I was kind of surprised that I already thought about something as a dreamsign in a dream since I started trying to record dreams again this month. I was making progress previously but let things slip a bit and go down hill. But I'm back at it again.   
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: Caradon October 30, 2019, 10:24:18 AM
Tuesday/October/29/2019

I think I'm going to have to get a new computer soon. I'm starting to have a hard time getting the computer to register the charging cord. Maybe that can be fixed I'm not sure.  Though I'd like to get something with a better picture quality for watching Netflix on. I like watching on my computer sometimes, but even though it's supposedly 1080p picture it doesn't look anywhere as a good as my TV or my phone. But I don't really  want to spend the money either unless I have to. Finally starting to get ahead again...

Slept from about 11:00pm until about 6:00am. I was out pretty good and never got up to take my friend out. I think she might have tried to wake me up but I didn't wake up. I woke to find her curled up next to me on the opposite side of me from when we went to sleep.
That was probably a little tricky for her because she has a bad foot and we were in the tent without all that much  room, so I'm not sure how she got on the other side of  me without waking me up. Especially being clumsy with a bad foot. Did she climb over me, or go around my feet to the opposite side of the tent? Hmm. Too bad no camera, I'd like to see what happened there. I had a little recall.

Driving And Cigarettes

I'm driving my car on a side street near my house. I go off the road and into the grass, and up the side of the man made sledding hill on the school grounds. There is no snow in the dream so it's just a hill covered in grass. 

I don't think that I drove off the road on purpose. I drive up the side of the grassy hill and I worry someone is going to be pissed off that I'm driving on it, or the cops are going to see me and pull me over. I just try to drive down the hill and back to the road. The hill seems very steep now and I'm worried that I'm going to roll my car.

I make it off the hill without incident. I'm now on the sidewalk  and my car has become my bike.

I ride my bike down the sidewalk and I see several pretty young ladies in bikinis sitting out in lawn chairs trying to get sun tans. I'm thinking that it's kind of an odd place to be doing that. In the middle of town along a main road, sitting out and wearing practically nothing. But I guess, as long as they aren't minding getting ogled by all the horny pervy guys that pass by.

I continue on and I soon come to a store. It's kind of weird, almost like a drive up. I ride right up to the door and open it and look in. There is a dog. The dog is a small pug looking dog. There are some steps leading upwards  into the store and when I open the door the pug dog comes running down the steps and runs outside.

Alarmed, I'm terrified the dog will run out into the street and get killed by a car and it will be all my fault for letting it out. I run after the dog (not seeming to even have a bike right now) I easily catch the dog and carry it back to the store.

I ask the store clerk for cigarettes. He opens the lid of a pack and removes a cigarette lights it and hands it to me. (I'm not smoking in reality   but I was thinking about it before going to sleep  while watching someone smoke on TV.)

I'm standing there smoking the cigarette that the clerk gave me, I notice it's already half gone. This isn't what I had in mind, I wanted to purchase a pack of them. The store clerk does not want to seem to give me any more than the one.

I beg him to give me at least one more, to enjoy later. I even say please. This one is already almost gone, and I'm not even getting the full enjoyment of it while standing here trying to convince him to give me more, this one is just burning away.

He finally gives in and hands me just one more, making it clear that's all I'm going to be able to get from him. I'm thankful for it and that's the last thing I remember.

A Couple Fragments

-I remember being on a huge theme park ride very high in the air. I'm attached somehow to a large spinning wheel and there is water spraying everywhere like some kind of scary water ride. I'm not that scared but I'm thinking that I should be. I'm thinking about how trusting it is, to put ones life in the hands of such a man mad construction.

-Naked in a shower. The shower is in the middle of a room and has clear glass walls. I suddenly realize that anyone could come walking in and see me naked in full view standing under the running water. But I'm only mildly concerned not caring very  much if anyone sees me.  (Heck I'd run around naked in reality if it wasn't too cold and didn't cause me to get thrown in jail. )

-There was a couple more dreams trying to come back to me as I was writing out my recall. But didn't quite get it. I think there was something about mountains, or a rushing scary river. Or both.
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: Caradon October 31, 2019, 10:22:05 AM
Wednesday/October/30/2019

I slept from about 12:30am to 7:30am. I woke up once to take the friend  out and to do a few minutes WBTB. She didn't wake me up at  all. Maybe the prescription food is helping her Kidneys. One can hope.  I did notice a couple of weeks before her yearly vet appointment that she had started waking me up more often during the night to go out. And the vet said blood tests showing maybe the beginning stages of kidney disease. I  don't  know much about it, but I was guessing that's probably why she had started needing to wake me up to take her out more often at night.

I had a good amount of recall. Most of it is all fragmented jumbled up difficult to describe dreams.

Hanging Out With An old Friend

An old friend was at my place, that wasn't really like my place at all. There was a lot to it and some things weird stuff about the neighbors that I'm not sure how to describe. But the running theme is that we were  going to watch some movies. "The Lord Of The Rings"  in particular. And kind of funny because I had the movies on VHS tape. I remember rewinding one of the movies getting ready to start watching it and the VCR was making a lot of weird noises while rewinding and I was wondering if the tape was about to get eaten by the VCR.

Alligators

Just a short but vivid fragment of a dream about being on some kind of small boat. A boat so small I have trouble keeping my feet in the boat and out of the water. I'm boating on a shallow swamp or marsh. And there are alligators everywhere. Tons of them. All over the shore, everywhere in the water. I'm trying to keep my feet in the boat to avoid getting bit. But surprisingly non of the alligators become aggressive. They are all just doing their own thing and not paying any attention to me.

Golf Course

I'm in a beautiful forest. The forest is  beautiful by how green and plush everything is. Everything is just so beautifully green and vivid. I'm in a clearing and leading away from the clearing are several trails. I choose a trail and walk along it. It's not far at all before the trail opens up to a large wide open and hilly golf course. The golf course is the same beautiful green as the forest. In the distance I see golfers on the side of a hill. I discover that I'm not really standing in the best of locations as the golfers are hitting balls in my directing. And all of a sudden I'm desperately trying to avoid being hit by a rain of golf balls. I wake as I'm trying to make an escape back deeper into the forest and away from the dangerous golfers.

The New Girlfriend

I have this beautiful new girlfriend. There is a lot to the dream, I don't know how to describe most of it. A lot of it is jumbled up in my head. Like one long fragmented dream trying to piece together. The feeling tone of the dream was a mix of very nice and kind of dark and annoyed. The dark annoyed part is because there was a long section of the dream where she is with me and meeting my family. And I'm very annoyed with them for the way they are talking with her and the things they are asking her. It  could have been a much nicer dream had the family not been involved.

Outdoor Home Theater

I'm watching something I don't even remember what it was. But I was watching it o this huge near movie theater sized screen that I have set up outside the house. Well it didn't begin outside, at first it was in a room inside. But   as dreams go it smoothly transitioned to being outside on the street. The  odd thing is, it's still as if I'm in the room. Only there are no walls. It's an outdoor room. I'm kicked back on a bed watching something on this huge screen. And I have the sound cranked really loud. Before I wake I'm suddenly worried that I might be annoying the neighbors with my blaring theater outside. And I glance over at their houses wondering if they are inside all pissed off at me right now.  And I honestly don't want to be disrupting their peace and quite. Because I know how much I hate having to listen to other peoples shit.
 

 

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: Caradon November 01, 2019, 01:27:39 PM
Thursday/October/31/2019

I slept from around 1:00am to 8:00am. I woke up at about 5:00am to the feeling of whiskers on my forehead, my friend waking me up and standing over me. So I got up and brought her out and did a few minutes WBTB. I didn't have any recall at that time.

I went back to sleep and recalled a dream about bringing my friend outside. I'm short on time at the moment and can't describe it in detail. But there were odd events taking place in my back yard in the dream. I need to start thinking of that as a dreamsign as there seems to often be something going on in my back yard when I dream about being out there.

 In reality, Just before making this post I brought my friend out to the back yard and a deer charges right past us surprising us seemingly coming out of nowhere and leaps off into the woods. I did remember to do a reality check. :) 
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: Caradon November 01, 2019, 11:13:49 PM
Recap For The Month Of October 2019

After slipping again, in October, maybe as an act of desperation, I started recording dreams again. Decided I would write in my journal whether I have any recall or not. It seems to be helping. Recall is gradually improving and with it my frame of mind has been a little better as well. Gradually getting back into the right mindset, and my focus on awareness work is starting to get a little better. I'm realizing how much I really need my dreams. I had one recalled dream that I thought about reality checking in  but got distracted and didn't actually do it.

I'm looking forward to two weeks off from work to spend with my friend starting the 4th of November, two days of working left to go as of this post.  It will be more relaxed than the two weeks I took off at the end of May. In May I took her adventuring on the bike all over the city and  the parks for two weeks. We had really nice weather the entire time it was a blessing. This time it's going to be too cold for taking her biking unfortunately. But it should be okay for walking some. But she has a bad foot and may not be able to walk too much. We'll see.
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: Caradon November 02, 2019, 06:23:02 AM
Friday/November/1/2019

I slept from 12:30 am to 4:00am. I had the alarm set for 4:30am since I work early Saturdays but my friend wanted me to get up at 4:00 to take her out. I decided it wasn't worth trying to go back to sleep for a very short period so just stayed up. I did have a little recall of a weird freaky dream but I don't recall it very well. I think it's often those early hour dreams that can be the most bizarre.  That's how it seems anyways.

Demonic Mutant Babies

I wish I could remember the dream better. But I'm happy I was able to recall it at all. I wasn't sure I would recall anything sleeping such a short period of time. But going to sleep I was hopeful.

I remember traveling in a vehicle with an old man with white hair and a white beard. He is wearing farmers blue jean overalls. He kind of reminds me of uncle Jesse from the "Dukes Of Hazard" TV show."

We make our way to a building that is like an old abandoned hotel. There was a running theme, or plot, I just can't remember the story behind the events. I'm conversing with the white bearded old man as we make our way to the abandoned hotel but I can't bring back the details of the conversation.   

The dream has a very dark feeling tone to it. At the hotel, I remember a woman being there and she is talking about all the empty rooms, and how she is going to be taking up residence in one of them.

Next thing I know the woman is giving birth to demonic mutants, not just one but many of them. And the demon babies are over running the building. I have a clear memory, just before waking, of looking into her room from the hall just outside her door. From my angle, I can't see her face because she is partially obscured by the entrance of the room blocking my view.  But I can see she is laying on the bed. I can see one of her arms laying against her side. Her fingers are abnormally long with slimy webbing between the fingers. And her fingernails are long and claw like. And I realize that she is not just giving birth to mutant demon babies, that she is some kind of mutant demon herself.

Edit

More dreams are trying to come back to me. There was something about a Mettallica concert. And I remember them being old in the dream, as of course they are getting old now. At least older than me at my age of 48. But the memory of the dream is very vague.
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: Caradon November 03, 2019, 07:17:24 AM
Saturday/November/2/2019

I feel like I might be picking up the shit cold  that's been going around. Somehow I just knew I'd start getting it going into my two week vacation.  Though on the positive side, if I am getting it and it gets bad, at least I won't have to work through it. But I've been looking forward to this quite a bit and it's not exactly how I wanted to spend it, feeling like shit, when it's supposed to be a period of feeling good and enjoying time spent with my friend.

I slept from about 6:30 PM to 1:00 am. It was nice being able to set my clock back an hour when I got home from work so that I could get to sleep a little earlier. This is the first time in my life that I've woken up for the day before daylight savings time officially switches.

I wasn't sure I was going to have much recall as I was extra tired from not sleeping the previous night, and feeling like I'm starting to be sick. And also a little distracted because of being excited and preparing for my off time. Stocking up food and snacks and all that jazz. And I was excited to wake up in the morning to get my final work shift for two weeks over with. But I ended up having pretty good recall. Felt kind of like a turning point in my recall actually, as I was getting some really vivid and  intense dreams. And one was partially lucid, I think.

Emotion Explosion/Semi Lucid

  Very intense emotion filled dream. If I had been fully on my game I would have become fully lucid in this dream. But I think I was somewhat lucid actually. I felt aware and I had that familiarity of the situation like something I'm use to experiencing.  But I didn't have the oh wow moment of sudden realization.

I was upset about something, extremely upset. Upset to the point of bursting. I don't remember exactly what was going on prior to the moment of explosion, but I remember the feeling of it. And I know it was a culmination of all the shit in my waking life that has been messing with my head.

And in the moment, all I wanted was to get away. Needed to get away so badly it all welled up inside. Off the planet out of the galaxy, leave this fucking place.

I leaned backwards arms out wide. And so much emotion came flowing through me. I'm propelled into the  sky with such  extreme force,  the earth falling away. Moving so fast, everything a blur. High and high, Within seconds I'm floating on the edge of the atmosphere, looking into space, and the view of the planet far below.

At this point a feel semi lucid, as I've rocketed into the sky so many times in lucid dreams. I feel very familiar with the feeling. All the awful emotion that caused my explosion into the sky melts away and I relax into bliss. I relax and let myself free fall backwards, tumbling backwards and end over end back towards the earth as I am so fond of doing in lucid dreams. I have no fear of being harmed hitting the ground. I know that I won't be.

After a period of tumbling back towards the earth, I have difficulty in continuing my free fall. Gravity has lost it's pull on me, and I remember occasionally having trouble with this in the past. I'm suspended in the air, floating, no longer falling. I'm attempting to use force of will of TK on myself, to move myself back to the ground. I wake in the process of doing so.

Lord Of The Jurassic Jungle (A Parkour Dream)

Another very intense dream. This one was a little scary and wonderful at the same time. I'm basically Tarzan lord of the jungle. But not just any jungle. A Jurassic jungle packed full of giant and dangerous dinosaurs. Some are my friends, but many are also trying to devour me.

A massive green jungle full of life. Towering trees and thick vegetation. I run and leap and swing acrobatically through the highway of limbs and vines high above the jungle floor.

Despite my speed, height, and skill of agility, at every turn I meet a narrow escape from massive  jaws of prehistoric beasts  attempting to clamp down on me and rip me to shreds and have me as a meal. I am however confident and feel that I'm in full control. Nothing can stop my exhilarated run through the jungle highways.

I see a beast that I know is a friend, I swing and leap from a vine doing a flip through the air and landing on the back of this massive long necked creature. Somehow I'm aware that there is a type of war going on, between the Jurassic inhabitants of the jungle. Between the more peaceful that are trying to defend themselves against the deadly violent. 

I sense an anger in the beast I ride upon, and see it's head turn, looking in the direction of danger.  Many others join us as we begin a charge into battle.

I wake and I had been sleeping for only four hours. Even though hardly no sleep the previous  night, the dreams were so intense and vivid I felt wide awake after coming out of them. I wake up my friend and take her outside. Despite feeling wide a wake I make myself go back to sleep. It's only 10:30pm after all and I need to work the next morning. I probably would have stayed up for most of the rest of the night had I not need to work in the morning.

I go to sleep and have more vivid recall. But nothing like the previous dreams intensity. I had a very vivid and detailed dream about being at work. I have a different job than I use to , and I'm kind of looking forward to getting lucid more during dreams of this place of employment. I have a couple of times, randomly during my years of away time from the forums. But never when purposely working  to induce them.


Ship Wrecked

I'm shipwrecked somewhere on an island. I have my camping gear an laying in my tent with my friend. Completely lost and unsure what to do. I have a CB type radio. I call "May day! May Day!"  Trying to find help. A voice on the radio answers. I lay there talking to this voice on the radio for a long time. The voice is a rescue ranger and he seems stern  and judgmental. Not all that nice, like a scolding adult to a child. I have no idea where I am, all I can say is I'm lost somewhere on an island. And they have no idea where to look for me. We talk for a long time. I remember some of the details of the conversation but not all of them. Some of it was about my friend being sick and dying. And I see her chocking and struggling to breath, I fear the stuff they saw growing in her lungs is about to start suffocating her and I won't be able to anything but watch helpless as she slowly suffocates to death. But after a few moments she is okay again.

I wake and see that it's almost 1:00am (my alarm was set for 1:30am) I decide to just get up, make some coffee, and contemplate my dreams.
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: Caradon November 04, 2019, 05:23:20 PM
Sunday/November/3/2019

I slept from about 730:pm to 1:00am. I didn't have a whole lot of recall. I recalled a little bit of a weird dream about opening a store on the outside surface of a space station. The dream had an interesting feeling tone to it. I had planned to get to sleep for a few more hours early in the morning but didn't end up doing so. As I write this it's about 3:30pm  Monday afternoon. I plan to go back to sleep soon, probably wake up no later than midnight, probably much earlier than that.   

My schedule is going to be  even  more abnormal than usual since this is day #1 of  16 day break and I don't have to be anywhere. And I like the lonely quiet hours when the rest of the world is sleeping. Also, I may not sleep any more than necessary a lot of the time just enough  to be awake enough to enjoy my off time. I want to just enjoy as much of it as possible, not sleep through it all. So probably just short bits of sleep here and there when I start getting tired. We'll see. 

Was a little bit distracted today, drank way too much coffee when I got up. But I was celebrating and trying to enjoy the best moment of my 16 day break to the fullest. The early hours of the first morning, enjoying that magical feeling of waking up on the first morning, getting high on caffeine and knowing I don't have to be anywhere  for two fricken weeks and my friend still here to enjoy it with. Too bad life could not always feel as blissful as those kind of moments.

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: Caradon November 05, 2019, 04:45:55 PM
Monday/November/4/2019

 I don't seem to be sick as I mentioned I thought I might be getting. (Thankfully.) Maybe It's just some odd fall allergies combined with being so tired from lack of sleep that made me feel like a cold was coming on. Sinuses have definitely been feeling kind of weird the last few days. But otherwise (at least so far) I'm not feeling sick at all so I'm happy about that.

I slept from about 5:30pm until 8:00pm I woke once with some recall but I didn't take notes and don't remember what it was. I stayed up all night. It was kind of nice getting a little nap in there it made me feel like I was able to sneak in an extra day, turning Monday into two days. :)  I started getting tired and went back to sleep around 6:00am until about 9:00am and had a little recall.

Family Shit

I was telling someone how I really feel. I'm not going to describe the conversation in detail because I was pissed off and not being very nice at all and I don't want to be offensive to any readers. But needless to say I'm not too happy with some of my family in waking life or in dreams. As has probably already been noticed in previous posts. But actually I'm fine with them as long as they just stay away from me and leave me alone.

No Fucking Music

Lol. Actually not sure what to title this dream it's pretty random and nothing really. I'm in a van on the passenger side. Someone else is driving. I'm not sure who it is. We have picked up a male passenger and are giving him a ride somewhere. The passenger complains about how quiet it is and the driver reaches for the radio to turn it on. I'm like "Fuck no! Don't even fucking touch that dial!" I have a real thing about having to listen to other peoples music that I don't want to hear. There are few things I dislike in life right now than having to listen to other peoples noise. And all I want is peace and quiet. I have my noise cancelling headphone on almost constantly when I'm not at work nowdays so I don't have to hear anything other than what I want to hear.

The radio stays off and we reach our destination and drop the guy off. Not sure what to describe. My awareness kind of follows him as he enters the building like I'm watching a movie. There are glass revolving doors that he pushes through, they stick a little and then spin the way they are supposed to allowing him to enter. There is a desk with like a check in clerk at a hotel. Off to the side there is a swimming pool with a few people sitting around it. I have no idea what the purpose of being here is I'm just here.

I wake up and it's about 8:00am I decide to get up and I've been up every since. It's  almost 3:00pm as I type this now and I'm wide awake. 

   
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: Caradon November 06, 2019, 01:42:15 PM
Tuesday/November/5/2019

I slept from something like 9:00 or 9:30pm until 2:30am I wanted to just stay up all night but was getting sleepy. Woke up to my friend pawing at my arm to wake me up. I wanted to get up at 2 but didn't feel like setting an alarm. It took me a few minutes to bring back some recall. I woke up kind of suddenly and the dreams were trying to slip away but they were right near the surface of recalling. After a few minutes I was able to bring some back. It's about 11:00am as I type this. I'm already kind of tired I might sleep more yet today. I'm not sure yet.

I've been kind of distracted with the excitement of having time off. Time to try and start settling down and relax, and concentrate on just enjoying these moments and staying in the moment. And cut back on the coffee a bit. Drank way too much the first two days off.
Monday and Tuesdays are my normal days off,  so today is my first day off that I would normally be scheduled to work. So I guess, in a way, you could say, today is the official first day of my vacation. The first day of the first work week. 

Guitar

Interesting that last night I had a dream about not wanting to hear music and the next night I'm dreaming about playing music. But then the experience  of playing music is far different than the experience of having to listen to music that you don't want to hear.

I'm in a room and there are several people standing around playing guitar. I feel kind of out of place as I'm not playing. I'm thinking  that I  should be on the drums because there are already so many guitarists playing. But I've never been much of a drummer that was my brothers thing. Nevertheless I stand in the middle of a circle  of guitar players. And I start making motions with my hands as If I'm playing air drums along with their guitar playing. 

But then that little bit of the dream is over and it's time for me to get out my own guitar and start jamming. I'm kind of excited about playing actually. I feel like I miss it quite a bit. And even though it's been a long time, I feel confident that I can play and something will come to me. I can actually feel the music trying to well up from inside me wanting to start flowing out. I just know once my fingers are on the fret board I'm just going to feel it flow out.

I open my guitar case and the strings are messed up. I realize that I'm going to have to put new strings on my guitar before I will be able to play. So I begin the task of putting new strings on it. And as you might guess, putting new strings on a guitar in a dream is one of those things that is just not going to go so well and I don't end up playing.

I lose a part of the memory and next thing I remember clearly is being in a bathroom and the door is slightly cracked. Someone is just outside the door and let them know it's occupied. It's a woman outside the door and she tells me about something but I don't remember exactly what it was  that she was talking about.

Piano

I remember a fragment about playing the piano.

(In reality I only kind of sort of played the piano. I had a keyboard I always played with the piano sound on. I could play it okay as long as the stickers were on the keys showing me where the notes were so I could easily hit the proper lows and high notes at the same time and I was pretty good at playing improvisational with it. But I never had any kind of lessons so didn't really know what I was doing. Just making shit up. I actually love the piano a lot and wish I had focused more on that as a kid than the guitar.)

Anyways in the dream I was playing the piano and I was trying to make up piano chords since I don't know any real chords I was just  trying to make some up that sounded good. I was being pretty successful and it sounded beautiful. And all I remember is playing for a little while.

Forgot My Friend

I'm walking along on some street, destination unknown. I suddenly realize that my friend is not  with me and I'm not sure where she is. I left her somewhere with someone and forgot all about her. How could I have forgotten. I'm so upset with myself and scared/worried.

I turn around and run. Trying to find my way to where I left her. I run so fast down the street. Super fast dream running down the street in a near panic. I come to a school. I don't know why I believe I had left her with someone at the school. Walking down the halls of the school I find my brother.  A sense of great relief as  I see that my brother has her and is carrying her. He hands her over to me and I  carry her in my arms as I leave the school.

walking back the way I came with my friend in my arms. I walk down a narrow pathway between two walls like a corridor, or very narrow ally. The narrow walkways is very gross and dirty. Garbage everywhere slimy and rotten spilling over and making the ground slippery with liquid rotten food slime.
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: Caradon November 07, 2019, 03:17:29 AM
Wednesday/November/6/2019

I slept from a little after 6:00pm to 10:00pm. I was planning to get up at midnight but my friend wanted me to get up. I should have went to sleep for a couple more hours to get some recall but I didn't feel like it. It's about 1:30am as I'm typing this.  I'm guessing I'm probably going to be getting tired again before the day is over and I'll have to sleep a little more. If I do I'll edit in any recall I get.

I remember waking up once between 6:00 and 10:00pm with recall and was thinking about taking notes on what I remembered but I fell back to sleep before I took any notes. Now I don't remember it. I do have a vague memory of some martial arts sword play going on. I'm pretty sure I was having a dream influenced by the "Into The Badlands show I was watching on Netflix"

Edit: Something came back to me a moment after posting. There was a snow storm. I just remember it was the beginning of the storm. Maybe an inch or two of snow on the ground and the snow was coming down hard. And I knew it would be a lot. My mind probably remembering last winter and anticipating what might be to come this winter. Some are saying they expect a similar winter this season. But who knows. I have a hard time buying into any kind of predictions that far into the future when they can't hardly predict today and tomorrows forecast.

Edit: I went back to sleep at 6:00am and slept for an hour and a half. I recalled a brief work dream and my friend was waking me up again. This time she was waking me because she was hungry and wanted something to eat. My fault I should have given her something before going to sleep. I would have slept probably another hour or two but not now.   
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: Caradon November 08, 2019, 02:20:28 PM
Oops accidentally skipped ahead a year on the date of my previous post lol. Fixed.

Thursday/November/7/2019

I slept from 6:00pm to 9:30pm and woke up without recall. Then stayed wake and slept from 5:00am to 7:00am. When I went to sleep at 5:00am  I was tired and feeling pretty shitty mentally. I was in the mood to just sleep for as long as possible and maybe have some good dreams to put me in a better mood. But my friend didn't seem to want to let me sleep. I had a little bit of recall though.

Pikes Peak

Just a fragment really. But it felt good being back on the mountain. Maybe my mind was trying to help bring me something that felt good.

I was hiking up the familiar Bar/Pikes Peak Trail. I remember someone being there and talking with them about the camp site and fire pit  I made a little ways off the main trail. (Which I did in reality.) I decided to continue up the trail to the top of the mountain. I'm remember a little more as I type. I remember a discussion with same person I was talking about my camp site. The person was talking about climbing a lot of 14,000 footers which Pikes Peak is one of.

Vivid recall of making my up the final stretch to the top of the mountain. (It's different from the actual mountain.) I'm climbing up a series of switchbacks that are wide and snowy. They rise steeply and level off for a bit, and rise steeply again to level off again. I go through several rising  and leveling switchbacks wondering where the last one is. Finally I make it over the last one of them and come to  the top of the mountain.

From a scenic overlook I look out over an amazing beautiful mountainous landscape. 
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: Caradon November 09, 2019, 11:56:19 AM
Friday/November/8/2019

All I remember so far is a couple of fragments. One was of being in a  public bathroom and there were several women in the men's bathroom. I thought it was pretty strange and for a moment I  thought maybe I was in the wrong bathroom but I wasn't. I thought it was weird but shrugged it off not really caring. Too bad I didn't remember to RC since weird bathroom stuff is a common dreamsign. 

I remember a fragment of a snake being in the house. I though that maybe it was a poisonous snake because e of it's coloring. The snake didn't look like any that would normally be in this area. More like something t  at might be found in a jungle maybe.

There Felt like  a lot of dreams close to the surface that slipped away maybe something else will come back. 
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: Caradon November 10, 2019, 04:05:49 PM
Saturday/November/9/2019

I slept somewhat more normal hours. From about 12:30pm until about 7:30am I woke up a couple of times for brief WBTB's My friend waking me up one of those times to go out. The rest of the time she slept pretty well. It's kind of cute the way she just reaches out with a paw  to paw at me to wake me. Doesn't make any kind of sound. I didn't have much of any recall until my final waking. I had been trying hard to concentrate on the awareness work all day. I felt kind of determined to sleep until I had some kind of recall.

Parkour And Climbing

First bit of recall is running, parkouring through the city of a foreign land. I remember leaping off stairways at speed, and running along sides of buildings.

At some point my step brother arrives in the scene and it becomes not just a parkouring running dream but a climbing parkouring dream. There is a particular building with very little in the way of foot holds or hand holds. And my step brother is saying that the building is an impossible run/climb. I have a memory of already parkouring this building and I explain to him  that it's not a problem I can handle it. And make a run for the building to demonstrate.

It's a little bit scary part of the dream actually. Normally this kind of climbing in a non lucid would be terrifying for me, having a waking life fear of heights. Sometimes I have very scary climbing dreams of clinging for my life against a building or steep face of a cliff.  But in this dream I was only slightly nervous about it, being mostly confident in my abilities.

I run towards the building and leap onto the side of the wall. There are very tiny ridges that I can barely dig my fingertips onto, and get my toes on. But I use these little ridges to make my way up the side of the building with my step brother close behind.

My step brother is talking to me and I am well focused on the climb, putting everything into my concentration. As  this is a difficult climb and the slightest miscalculation will lead to a fatal fall. I'm actually wondering how my step brother is so easily following so close behind.

My step brother grabs my arm and I freak out a little telling him not to touch me and possibly breaking my hold on the wall.

We finish the climb and look over the view of the  city. There is one towering structure that stands high above everything. I point it out and tell my stepbrother that building is our next challenge. But we will climb it from the inside as if it's a hollowed out building and we will climb the inside walls to the top.

Next thing I know we are running and leaping across the city again parkouring our way to the tallest of the buildings.

Once arriving at the target challenge another challenge is presented. The challenge of getting inside unnoticed as this climb is often sought after by climbers, and is an illegal climb.

I come up with a simple plan of distraction to distract the authorities as we slip inside unnoticed. I cause the alarm of a nearby car do go off and make all sorts of noise. This loud car alarm draws the attention of everyone nearby. While everyone is distracted my step brother and I open a small door on the side of the building and slip inside.

Outside we can still hear the noise of the car alarm. Inside there is a group of other climbers already there and preparing to make the climb with us. They are members of an extreme climbing/parkour club that I now remember that I am a part. I wake before the climb actually begins.   

   

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: Caradon November 11, 2019, 02:20:16 AM
Bump to keep the spam bot off the home page. Probably bump up a few journals again soon to knock that shit down farther.

I was thinking about trying to stay awake all night in some kind of feeble depressing attempt to hold back time. Or at least slow it down. But I'm getting kind of sleepy I don't think I can. And I need to pick up a couple things in the morning. Better to get some sleep.   
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: Caradon November 11, 2019, 07:46:46 PM
Sunday/November/10/2019

I think it was around 2:30am when I went to sleep. And I got up just before 7:30am. I would have slept a little longer but I needed to go out to the store for a few things and wanted to get it over with as early as possible. I would have set my alarm and went even earlier but one of the places I needed to go doesn't open until 8:00am.

 I didn't have much recall. I recalled a brief fragment of some sexual content. I have a vague memory of waking up at one point recalling another dream but fell back to sleep before taking notes, unfortunately.  And I don't remember what it was.

It's about 5:30pm as I type this and I'm already pretty sleepy. I might end up getting to sleep early. I'm not going to try and stay up all night like I tried last night. But If I get to sleep early enough I wouldn't mind getting up around 1 2 or 3am so as to have a long day to enjoy tomorrow. But I will probably try to sleep long enough to get some kind of recall, hopefully. We'll see.

 

 
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: Caradon November 11, 2019, 08:13:59 PM
Bumped some journals up to knock the spam farther down for a while.  :guns:
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: Caradon November 12, 2019, 11:07:57 AM
Monday/November/11/2019

I slept from about 7:30pm to 10:30pm and woke up from a pretty vivid dream.

Psycho Apartment Party

The first thing I remember is that I'm outside of an apartment building. It seems I'm standing on the roof of a van. It's night so it's kind of dark outside but the windows of the apartment building  are lit up. There is some kind of event taking place in this apartment, a party I guess. The van I'm standing on is on the opposite side of the  street as the apartment building. So that I'm looking across the street to the building.   

There are no blinds on the windows. Through the windows  to the left side of the building I can see a dark shape moving. the dark shape looks like a pitch black shadow moving sort of liquid like. At first the dark shape appears to be very ghostly and I think it's something supernatural.

As I watch the liquid shape it come into clearer view and I can tell that it's a hooded figure wearing a black hooded cloak. The figure turns in my direction and I can see a face. It's the skeletal face of a skull. This is freaky as well, but I can see that the skeletal face is actually a mask and it's just a man behind the mask. It's nothing supernatural. The skeletal mask covers the lower portion of the mans face and I can see human eyes peering out at me from behind the mask and hooded black cloak.

The cloaked skeletal figure tilts his head to the side and raises a hand. In his hand  I can see a wide wicked shaped blade. The window  seems dusty now, and the figure uses a finger to draw letters on the dusty window. I watch as he slowly draws the letters out in creepy fashion. "KILL" then "YOU"

For some reason I'm not really frightened. I'm thinking more in terms of "What the fuck is this asshole? Bring the shit on!" I'm feeling a little psycho myself and I think I'll tear this guy apart.

For a moment I look around the street from my position standing on top of the van. And I wonder if maybe this guy is far stronger than I and I'm about to be slaughtered. But I'm feeling crazy enough in the moment that I'm not worried about it. What ever happens, happens.

I make my way into the building to hunt the psycho hunter. Once inside, I'm now in a labyrinth of corridors and stairways. And now with the hooded figure out of sight and not knowing where he is.  The situation feels just a little scarier, in knowing that he is around here somewhere hunting me. For some reason knowing I'm being hunted and not seeing the hunter feels scarier than just facing him head on.

I find a couple of big guys walking the halls. They are their for the party. I ask them for help in finding the hooded psycho. To my relief they agree to help me out. My momentary nervousness about the situation is completely gone. I'm confident that the three of us will have no trouble handling him. 

I hear one of the guys say. "Lets head to the war room." I assume that he does not mean "War room." literally. But that he is using some  silly slang for the room that is being used as the central hub of the party that is going on in this building. And I agree to follow them their.

Now I have a memory of having an apartment in this building of labyrinthine corridors but I can't remember my apartment number or how to find it. And I have a memory of being lost in apartment buildings before, looking for my apartment. (Something that has happened in dreams before.)

I follow the two  guys to the  central hub/war room. That don't seem to have any trouble finding the place. There are many people hanging out and drinking. I sit down on a couch and someone offers to bring me a tall beer. A forty ouncer. It sounds delicious to me so I accept the offer.

As I sit on the couch I have a discussion with someone about losing my apartment. I have no idea how to find my apartment in  this building. I don't even remember what the apartment number is.  The I explain that maybe I can find my apartment through the air ducts. Just as I'm explaining that I realize how absurd the thought is and I'm wondering WTF I'm thinking. How would it be possible to find my apartment by crawling through air ducts or even be able to fit in them.

I wake thinking about the possibility of air ducts wide enough for a grown man to crawl though.
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With the vivid recall fresh in my mind  I feel very awake and happily satisfied about the recall so I decide to get up.

I'm also happy that it is still officially Monday and I have all night to still enjoy before it becomes Tuesday. And I come to realize why I like the late hours so much. It's  the in between time. A pleasant moment in time that exists between two days. Several hours where it at least feels like time has paused. It's not yesterday it's not yet tomorrow. It's just a quiet pleasurable period in between the days. So from now on that's what I will label those hours.  "The In Between." I like to be awake to enjoy the in between  when I can.

I was wanting to stay awake all the rest of the night and into the next day but about 5:00am I began to get sleepy again. So I went back to sleep for a couple of hours. I had recall but it was mostly fragmented.

-Someone coming to my house to borrow my tent and I was trying to take it all down and fold it up for them. (Because in reality my tent is set up in my living room.)

-A fragment of riding my bike somewhere with my friend. But realizing that I had forgotten something. I don't know what it was I had forgotten. But I realized I needed to turn around and head back home.

-A fragment of trying to cook a giant baked potato in the microwave. And wondering how long it will take a microwave to cook such a giant potato that is so large I can't barely get it stuffed into the microwave and get the door closed.       



 



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: Caradon November 13, 2019, 01:00:01 PM
Tuesday/November/12/2019

I slept from about 7:00pm until 10:30pm. I didn't have much of any recall during those hours. Except for I remember that I was talking with someone about the "Bates Motel" show that I was watching on Netflix. But I don't remember much about it, just that I could tell it happened. I stayed awake until about 4:30am when I started getting sleepy again. I lay down feeling in the mood to sleep all day long but I ended up getting up about 8:30am. I had a little recall not much.

Truck In The Mud

I'm driving a Chevy Avalanche. There is someone in the passenger seat to my right. I'm not sure who it is. I have driven off the road somehow and trying to make my way back to the road. I'm driving through an open field that becomes a marsh and I can actually feel the tires sinking down into the wet mud and muck of the marsh.

I'm worried that I got us into a predicament that we can not get out of. I use the lever on the steering column to switch the truck over into four wheel drive. I'm worried that the truck has already sunk so deep into the mud that not even the four wheel drive will be able to pull us out of it.

In four wheel drive and with some spinning of the tires the truck begins to pull through the mud. Then with relief I remember that there is also a winch on the front of the truck so even if we are stuck we can use the cable and winch to pull us out. I don't end up needing to use the winch as the ruck plows through the deep mud like a powerful tank.

We reach the edge of the marsh where there is a forest tree line. There is a dirt road that is not much more than a wide trail through the forest. The road/trail is also soaked with deep wet mud. It seems that there has been a lot of rain recently.

I take the truck down the muddy forest trail still unsure if I will get us stuck or not. But confident in knowing the winch is there to pull us out if need be I continue down the trail. That is the last thing I remember about the dream.

-I remember a fragment of being at work and a machine malfunctioning in a way that sometimes happens in reality. It's something I try to always remember to RC on when it happens because I know it's something that will show up in work dreams as it just did. But unfortunately I didn't remember to RC in the dream this time. Maybe writing it down will help to plant the memory to do so in my mind.

 

 
 
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: Caradon November 14, 2019, 05:29:32 PM
Wednesday/November/13/2019

I slept from about 9:00pm until 4:30am getting up once to let my friend out. I slept really well. Annoyingly shitty recall. I could tell there was a lot going on. I was only able to bring back a small fragment.

Transported

All I remember is being on a space ship and one of our crew gets beamed over to a passing ship, Star Trek style. I remember a trick was played because our crew member gets transported onto a ship that is moving  at light speed. So within seconds he is taken away to some far distant location.
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: Caradon November 15, 2019, 06:43:18 AM
Thursday/November/14/2019

I slept from 5:00pm to 1:00am. My friend woke me up once about 8:00pm to go out. I woke up a few times with recall and thankfully had the presence of mind to take a few notes before falling back to sleep. But I can tell there was a lot I'm not recalling as of yet anyways.

Tornado Shelter

Just a fragment about digging these square shaped holes/pits in the ground that are intended to be shelters in case of a tornado.  They ae not even very deep, just a couple of feet deep maybe. I'm wondering how these pits are going to help anyone if a tornado comes by. There is someone ese there with me.

I mention to this person that I think there should be some kind of disaster survival kit placed in each one of the pits that includes a plastic tarp. So someone can at least cover themselves with the tarp in order to try and keep from getting soaked by rain. As I explain this I'm also wondering what is going to keep people from coming by and just stealing the survival kits out of the pits.

Movie Theater

A longer dream about being in a movie theater. I'm with someone I don't remember who it was. We are sitting close to the front. Not in the front row. There are a few rows in front of us.

The movie is about to begin and I know it's a Transformers movie we are at. The lights go dim  I'm excited for the opening music and the sound Optimus Primes narration as he begins to describe the setting.

All of a sudden there is some technical difficulty and the sound is all messed up, buzzing and full of static. The lights come back on. There is sound equipment to the back of the theater and someone come in and works on trying to fixe the problem.

As that is taking place some people come in and sit  in the row in front of me. Some persons big head is right in my face blocking the screen. I'm like Gah, bullshit. I get up with the person I'm with and we go back a few rows hoping that it will be more elevated so that we can see over the tops of peoples heads. ( As I type this I just had a random  and amazing dream come back to me from last year sometime.)

We find a seat farther back and I'm not real happy about it I feel like we are too far back from the screen now. And to make it worse even more people sit in front of me again blocking the view again. And I keep trying to scoot over to a different seat trying to get peoples heads out of my field of view. But it does not seem to matter where I sit there is always another persons damn head in my way, lol. Typical dream situation...

Metallica

I'm watching Mettallica playing live on stage. It's a small place, like a bar. They are playing a specific song, one of their early songs off of "Kill-Em-All" or "Ride The Lightning." I can't remember exactly which one it was supposed to be. I notice a string break on Kirk Hammett's guitar. He keeps playing, just trying to smoothly adjust even though he does not have the popper string. Is trying to improvise and make it work.  Kirk Hammett goes into a final guitar part and just rocks it.

But then the song is over and this girl that I somehow know steps out from behind Kirk Hammett.  She had discretely stepped in behind Kirk Hammett with her guitar when Kirks  guitar string broke and she was the one that actually finished playing the song for him.

I was surprised because I know this person (not someone I know in reality) and I had no idea she knew how to play the guitar. I explain that this is why there should be a spare guitar ready to play sitting near by. He could have picked up a different guitar real quick.  And I'm wondering why, with all the money and experience these guys have they don't have any spare guitars ready to use if needed. 



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: Caradon November 16, 2019, 11:13:55 AM
Friday/November/15/2019

I only slept a couple of hours and don't remember much. I could tell there was stuff influenced by the shows I was watching but can't recall it. I did have some brief lucid HI though before falling to sleep.     
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: Caradon November 17, 2019, 03:56:02 AM
Saturday/November/16/2019

I slept from about 5:00pm until 10:00pm. I was very sleepy from a combination of not much sleep the previous night, and a lot less caffeine. So I was feeling very lethargic. Plus having the end of my vacation blues as I only have three days left now that Saturday is gone. So just feeling like shit in general. Now I can only hope that my little friend will make it through the winter into next spring.

If so I can take more time off when it gets warmer and take her out adventuring and her favorite thing, riding on my bike. But if she does not make it trough the winter, this will be the final time that I get to spend this kind of time with her. So that knowledge just makes these last few days feel all the worse. All I can really do is try not to think about it too much and just enjoy a few more days. But I don't see any way of doing so without also having a heavy heart. And I hate having to leave her alone so much while I have to work during these times.  But there is no way around that, since unfortunately, it's difficult to exist in this society without money. It's just a really shitty feeling, knowing there is so little time left and having to spend so much of it away. 

Also when I woke up at 10:00pm I had a massive headache as a result of cutting back quite a bit on the caffeine, and having withdrawal. I cut back a little today as well, and tomorrow I will probably cut it by half, or at least three quarters of what I have today.
I'm seriously considering  getting off of it completely again so that I can better focus on my dreams. I know I will make more progress, more quickly if I get off of it altogether.

I did have some recall.  And oddly even though only sleeping for five hours it felt as if I had been sleeping for a long period of time. It's currently 12:45am as I type this right now. I might sleep a couple more hours later in the morning I'm not sure yet. If I start feeling too drowsy I will take a morning nap to refresh enough to continue the day.

Okay enough of the rambling.  :)

It seems zombies were the theme of the night.

Zombie Horde

 Just a fragment.  I'm outside on foot. I'm not sure of the location. There is a large crowd of people behind me. For some unknown reason I'm aware hat the zombie apocalypse is about to begin. But it's more like "World War Z"  Or possibly this scene was influenced by my Dying Light PS4 game where sometimes the standard zombies can transform into running and come chasing you. Especially during the night sequences.

Anyways I'm aware that at any moment the majority of the human population are about to begin changing into fast running zombies and attack. I begin trying to get as far away from the mob of people behind me as I can, and begin to run. But I'm also as much concerned about what I might be running towards as what I'm trying to leave behind me.

I barely make any headway before the mass of people behind me begin to transform and start coming after me. I'm not far enough away and several of the fast running zombies are quickly upon me. Nothing much I can do other than to try and fight back and run. I have no weapons to defend myself with.

I am nervous about the situation but I'm not terrified or anything like that. The scene does not feel like a horrible nightmare even though I'm not sure if I will be able to get away. I may not have any weapons but apparently I am pretty strong. As I get a rush of adrenaline in defending myself I grab hold of the nearest zombie coming at me,  lift it off it's feet and slam it to the ground with great force. I continue this same  attack on a couple of more zombies that are threatening to surround me as I attempt to make enough room to run away. That is the last thing I remember about that.

Preparing For The Apocalypse

The zombie theme continues. I'm in an apartment (that I don't live in reality.)

Anyways I am in this apartment and I'm  again somehow aware that the zombie apocalypse is about to begin, but has not yet started. And I also am aware that it's going to be similar as it was in the previous dream. People being transformed into fast runners. Oddly, even without an imminent threat as in the previous dream. I am more nervous in this situation than I was with the mob coming at me.

I know I   that I have plenty of food stocked up and I have a strong and sturdy lockable door.  I feel certain that the apartment building is going to be over run with these fast running zombies that are going to be hunting down and killing every non zombie human they can find and kill. 

My plan of survival is to simply barricade myself into my apartment, keep the lights turned off, and try to be completely silent in hopes of not attracting any attention to myself inside.

There is a knock at the door, someone is outside. I open the door not worried yet, knowing the zombie invasion has not yet begun. There are a few people that live in the apartment building outside my door.  They are asking me if they can enter and try to survive with me in my apartment.

I don't like the idea and consider refusing them. But I don't feel right about refusing them  and leaving them to their fate. But I'm worried that having these people in here with me is just going to draw more attention. I'm not sure that they will be abele to stay silent and unnoticeable. 

I ultimately let them in. Before waking there is some interaction with these people. Some of it is jumbled up in my memory.


Just before waking I remember having a conversation with some guy about a cat he used to have. We were discussing the intelligence of cats in general. In the dream as we are talking I have a memory of having a black and white raccoon colored cat.(Which I don't have any memory of in reality.) We were discussing how amazing it is how many things a cat understands when you talk to it. Almost as if sometimes they understand the human language.

This part of the dream probably comes from how I've often been surprised about how much my dog understands, and picks up on.
And I've often wondered how she seems to always know when I'm planning to take her for a bike ride even when I'm trying as hard as I can not to give away my plan. She will somehow just know and start following me around  excitedly before I've done anything at all to get ready for it. It's weird.     
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: Caradon November 18, 2019, 11:24:03 AM
Sunday/November/17/2019

I slept from about 12:00am and then woke up about 5:00am to take my friend outside. I woke up feeling like I had been having powerful dreams. But I couldn't bring them back. I went back to sleep after taking my friend out and slept for about two more hours. And I had a little recall. Yesterday I slept a couple more hours early I the morning and had some more recall but I didn't record it. I just took a few notes on them and went over them in my mid a lot during the day.


Awareness

I'm sitting in a living room watching something on TV. There is some woman with short blonde hair present, along with some other guy I don't remember what he looked like. The woman is talking about lucid dreaming, she is addressing the other guy in the room as I'm just kind of sitting off to the side observing, and with the TV on in front of me. The woman is explaining to the other guy in the room about awareness meditation, and staying in the present moment. I decide to chime in on the conversation and explain about trying to stay aware while watching TV. And I'm explaining trying to stay aware of as many things as possible at once. And trying to follow both her conversation and the dialogue on the TV at the same time without losing track of either. (Too bad I wasn't a little more aware in the moment, lol. At least I was thinking about lucid dreaming I a dream. )

Lost Friend

I had this, basically the same dream two days in a row. Yesterday during my  early morning nap I had dreamed I was biking with my friend. She was in the basket on the back as usual.  I had stopped and turned to look and the basket was empty, she was just gone. And I woke up in a panic trying to figure what happened.

Then just before waking this morning. I'm dreaming that I'm taking her for a walk. We are walking along the side of a street. I turn around and she is just gone. I freak out, trying to figure out where she is. I'm looking all around I don't see her anywhere.  Where could I have lost her. I run back down the street looking for her. This can't be happening. At the corner of the intersection there are some people standing around and I ask them if they have seen her.

There is a woman that points in the direction down another street and the woman explains that she thinks my friend ran home. I look in the direction she is pointing. My stomach is sinking with so much dread and I just hope the woman is right that I will  find her safe at home when I return there. I start to head in that direction when I wake relieved to find her still here and fine, and pawing at my arm to wake me.   
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: Caradon November 19, 2019, 01:05:21 PM
Monday/November/18/2019

I slept from about 12:00am to 7:00am. I slept sitting in my swiveling office chair with my feet up on the kitchen table. My back has been bothering me and sitting that way for prolonged periods is the only thing that's helps it. I guess because of the way the back of the chair pushes hard against the messed up part of my spine as I put weight on it. It's been over three years since I injured it, I'm not sure it will ever be healed completely. It's not as bad as it was at least, for a long time it was extremely painful and I could feel the bones in my spine grinding together when I moved. And I worked ever day at fast moving job through that shit. Anyways, just trying to get it feeling better if possible be before going back to work. So spending a lot of time in the chair.

I didn't drink any coffee this morning. I took a couple of caffeine pills instead, to satisfy the addiction, and also so that I can start regulating the exact amount of caffeine I'm getting each day and cut back a little every day.  I'm hoping to be making more progress by the turning of the new year, and December is already drawing near. Cutting way back on the caffeine and probably getting off it completely is a step in that direction.

Disappointing recall last night. I might still take a nap if I start feeling too tired. I'd rather not though, considering I'm on the final day of my vacation. It's probably going to be difficult trying to adjust to being in such  a loud and crowded environment after so much relaxing peace and quiet.

Fragments

-I woke once with a little recall of an odd conversation I was having with some medieval soldier. I wish I could recall what had been going on previous to the conversation. The soldier is explaining to me that it is illegal  for a person to purposely, knowingly make them self  wake up from a dream. It makes me wonder if there was some kind of lucidity previously, or at the very least a false awakening that I somehow made happen. At least I was thinking about dreaming in a dream again, two nights in a row.

-I also have a vague memory of a dream about getting laundry done, as it's something I was planning to do today. I remember in the fragment that the screen that goes over the drain hole into the wash sinking had blown off into the sink. I' sure that had to do with the fact that in reality I was thinking about how I'm going  to need to put a new screen on it soon.

- I'm also pretty sure there was something about a dog, not my own.

-I'm also sure there was something about aliens.  I can't remember it at all. But I saw something in reality that reminded me that there was something about aliens going on in my dreams. Just for a flash, it almost came back and then was gone just as quickly.   
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: Caradon November 20, 2019, 12:54:01 PM
Tuesday/November/19/2019

I slept from about 12:30am to 7:30am. Slept in my office chair again. It was less comfortable this time. Neck was sore and legs and hands kept falling asleep on me.  But at east after two days  of sitting that way as much as possible my back is feeling better at the moment at least. We'll see what the work night is like. If it's doing okay when I get home I might sleep laying down tonight, we'll see.

I was surprised when I woke up only one hour after falling asleep and having recall. That was actually the best recall of the night. The rest of the night was just a lot of disjointed fragments.

I cut back my morning caffeine dose by 200mg. At the moment at least I'm looking forward to getting off the stuff completely.

Party

I'm at a party and I really want a cigarette I grab a pack  of my friends and open the pack. I see that he only has a couple left so I don't take one. Then I  realize that there is no more alcohol at this party either. It's still early I'm thinking so I talk to my friend and ask him if he wants to go with me to the store for a beer and cigarette run. he agrees to go with me. Just as we are about to leave I realize I have to pee really bad and I should go before we leave. I wake up having to pee really bad. (I drank too much water as usual.) I look at the clock and I'm surprised to see that it's only been an hour since the last time a looked at it.   

Fragments

-In my notes I had written smelly fish. Lol. I have no memory of what that was or even writing that down.

-There was a fragment of setting up a tent and it was going about how you would expect setting up a tent in a dream would go, not very well.

-I remember being outside an in the back yard of I house I lived at as a teenager. The sun was at my back and I could see my shadow. I was using my hands to make all sorts of cool shadow figures.

-Before waking I was in a dream and thinking about writing my dreams in my journal. So that is three nights in a row I was thinking about dreaming in dreams.

Random Note

Before going to sleep last night I was watching a movie called "Kristy" on Netflix.

In the movie there were similar elements of how my psycho apartment dream of November 11th started that was just eerie to watch. Even down to the dirty window and the dark  hooded figure spelling out the letter K on it as the intended Victim watches. I was watching the movie and was like whoa, this is so much like my dream. Creepy.   
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: kineticwaves November 20, 2019, 09:14:13 PM
You've been doing good with recall lately! I enjoyed reading your dreams! The Psycho dream was somewhat spooky haha!
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: Caradon November 21, 2019, 12:06:12 PM
You've been doing good with recall lately! I enjoyed reading your dreams! The Psycho dream was somewhat spooky haha!

Hey, welcome back. :) Thank you. Recall is still pretty hit and miss, far from where I want it to be.  I think it will be better if I get off the caffeine or at least get it down to a very minimal amount. It might help if I cut back on my Netflix addiction a little too.

Yeah that psycho dream had a creepy element at the beginning. I've been known to have some pretty disturbing dreams sometimes. I don't think it happens  as much as it used to. I  should read through my old Journals more, find some old dreams I've forgotten about.

 

 
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: Caradon November 21, 2019, 12:24:49 PM
Wednesday/November/20/2019

The first day back to work wasn't too bad. Interesting to note, that when you don't talk much for a long time the vocal cords start to go weak. After 16 days of not seeing or talking to any other human being, other than briefly the one day I had to go out to the store to pick up a couple of things. About an hour into my shift of talking with people the entire time I was starting to lose my voice. lol. But after a while it went back to normal, just had to warm up the vocal cords I guess.

I slept from about 12:30am to 8:30am. Sleep was very fitful and I had disappointingly shitty recall. I slept in my chair for a while, then lay down for a while because my legs kept falling asleep up on the table. Then went back to the chair after a while. But this time I put a pillow under my legs so that the table didn't press so hard on the skin to cut off the circulation in my legs. That seemed to help and was more comfortable and slept better that way for a couple hours.

Shopping

The only thing I could recall so far was a little bit before waking. I was dreaming that I was out shopping and I was in the electronics section. I was in the market to purchase some kind of new electronic tech of something or other. I'm not even sure what It was I was trying to buy. There is  of those glass cases where they keep stuff locked to avoid being shoplifted. The glass case happens to be open however, because  the clerk there was in the process of stoking shelves with merchandise. I wanted to talk with the clerk about retrieving for me the item I had in mind to purchase. But before I could talk  with him another customer gets his attention and I wait patiently for the clerk to be done with the other customer. Then I wake. 

As I was just typing something else almost came back to me. Something with a creepy vibe to it and strange eerie corridors.  Maybe I'll get something more back in a while.
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: kineticwaves November 22, 2019, 04:10:03 AM
Definitely! Another thing you might find are connections between each dream and recurring dream signs.

I read your dream and now I'm curious about the strange eerie corridors. Seems interesting!
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: Caradon November 22, 2019, 09:27:11 AM
Definitely! Another thing you might find are connections between each dream and recurring dream signs.

I read your dream and now I'm curious about the strange eerie corridors. Seems interesting!

I went back and read some earlier dreams in this journal  from a few months ago and found some I completely forgot about and glad I wrote down. Shows the important of journaling. Like the Demonic Meat Grinder dream. That was a really intense and disturbing dream that I had forgotten all about. It all  came back to me after reading it again.

Yeah that corridor dream I was trying to get something more back about it but I was unable to.

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: Caradon November 22, 2019, 09:54:05 AM
Thursday/November/21/2019

The second day back to work felt a little better. Back on my game more, and feeling just back into the old routine. I had kind of an odd sense of not even  having a two week break. As if I just skipped ahead through time and my two weeks off never even happened. That's kind of shitty actually.

I lay down to sleep a little after midnight. My back was feeling fine so I just lay down to sleep. But I woke up at 3:00 am and my back was killing me. I had a feeling that if I didn't spend some time in my chair I wouldn't be feeling too good at work tonight. So I spent a couple hours sleeping in my chair and wasn't sleeping too good. But when I first got into my chair(with heating pad behind my back) it felt really good a sigh of relief on my back.   I just got up about 6:30am. I might have tried sleeping a little longer but I need to get to the bank this morning. Will possibly have time for an hour or two nap when I get back. We'll see. 

Gas Pump

I recalled a dream about pulling up to a gas pump at a gas station. There is another guy with a car that looks like a Mustang. The color of his car is something between orange and yellow. I was thinking that it's kind of strange  how the guy does not seem to know how to use a gas pump. For one thing he has parked too far away from the pump so that he is unable to reach the gas tank on his car with the pump hose. It's kind of comical watching him trying to get the gas pump hose to stretch far enough to reach into his gas tank And it's coming up a little short.

I forget about him and I have a gas can that I want to fill.  I seem to be getting gas for a recreational vehicle. Snowmobile or four wheeler or dirt bike maybe. There is some gas in the gas can already and it's dark as if it has oil mixed in with it. Like has to be done for the dirt bikes.

Getting the gas for the recreational vehicles must have brought my brother to mind since I used to always go riding motocross and snowmobiling with my brother. The dream kind of shifts as I pick up my phone and I'm looking for my brothers number to call him. On my phone I find some video of a party that he and I were apparently at. As teens we often went to parties together so maybe that's where that came in.

And as what often happens in dreams the video becomes the dream and the gas station is gone and I'm now at the party with my brother. And for some reason the dream leads to having a discussion with my brother about going in on  buying new house together and being roommates. And maybe renting one of the rooms out to my step dad. Which sounded like a nice idea in the dream.

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: Caradon November 23, 2019, 08:10:50 AM
Friday/November/22/2019

I slept from about 11:30pm until my alarm went off at 5:00am, hit snooze a couple of times. I had a brief WBTB  letting my taking my friend outside around 2:00am I think if I remember right. I work the morning shift so that's why the alarm was set. It as actually the first time that I didn't want to wake up in I don't know how long. Slept in the tent laying down and was sleeping really well, back isn't doing too bad so that is good.

I woke up once with a little recall and stupidly didn't take notes on what it was. And can't remember exactly what it was. I have a couple of random images in my head from stuff during snooze time but nothing I can piece together, at least as of yet. I don't have time to write much anyways, since I have to start getting ready for work.   

Despite my lack of recall right now.(Something still might come back to me.)  I'm actually feeling pretty good about my dreaming at the moment. I should be able to get more sleep tonight. Hopefully a little better recall. Last night I was conked out pretty well, probably because of not sleeping very well the last couple of nights.   

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: Caradon November 23, 2019, 08:20:59 AM
So strange. As I'm sitting here trying to recall something, this song comes on, lol.

 "Little pictures in your mind. Pictures behind your eyes. You can see them if you try. I want you to try and remember. Remember Remember Remember. "

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6EJ2iPWfCA (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6EJ2iPWfCA)







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: Caradon November 24, 2019, 07:21:41 AM
Saturday/November/23/2019

I slept from around 8:30pm until almost 3:30am I had my alarm set for 4:00am but just decided to get up when I saw it was almost 3:30.
I slept pretty good, not in my chair. My back is starting to be doing a little bit better, I think. My little friend surprisingly didn't even wake me to go out. I should have done a short WBTB anyways, but I actually forgot to.

recall  was not very good but I could tell I was dreaming a lot. I could feel a lot of dreams really close to the surface every time I woke up briefly. Sitting quietly for a while after waking and going over the feeling of my unrecalled dreams I was able to bring back a little fragment.

Mud Swamp

I'm walking out into a wilderness area and I'm  looking for something in particular. I can't remember what I was I was looking for. I've been trying to recall what was going on before this point but so far have not been able to. I come upon a sort of dried up swamp/marsh.
The water is gone but there is a lot of mud. I see a guy walking through the mud. He is sinking down to his knees in the mud.

( In the dream I'm remembering a time in reality that actually happened. I was really young and a friend and I found a dried up pond that was a huge mud pit very similar to what I am seeing in the dream. He and I went walking out into the mud pit, sinking up to our knees in the mud. And the mud sucking our shoes right off our feet. An adult came out of a nearby  house yelling at us to get out of there. Warning that the mud might suck us down to our deaths. My friend and I, not even considering that the mud might get that deep kind of freaked out at the possibility and got out of there as quickly as we could lol.)

Anyways in the dream I'm watching this guy wade through the mud and I wonder if he is in danger of being sucked down to his death. And I watch as he starts pulling out and collecting  cattails. (plants) I somehow know that he is collecting the cattails for eating, as I remember from once reading a wilderness survival book that cattails are an edible plant.
 
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: Caradon November 25, 2019, 12:16:54 PM
Sunday/November/24/2019

I went to sleep about 7:30pm in good spirits ready to have a good night of sleep.  I slept really good until 9:30pm when I woke. I had recall of a work dream that I don't feel like describing. And I woke up feeling like shit. Stuffed up sinuses, headache, sore throat. I was just really uncomfortable and was having a hard time falling back to sleep.

By midnight I still had not fallen back to sleep, tossing and turning and thinking about shit in the past I've not thought about in a long time. I decided to pick up my phone and watch some Netflix on it for a while and see if it would help me relax enough to fall back to sleep. It seemed to help. I watched about a half an hour of some random movie that popped up when  I brought the app up until I started feeling a little sleepy again. Then turned it off and closed my eyes just trying to relax. 

I fell back asleep until about 3:30am and decided to get up for a while.

 At first I didn't recall anything but after a little bit a dream came back to me about being at an interview for some strange new job that I had no idea how to do. It's a difficult to describe dream, some weird stuff going on. The job was going to pay a lot more than what I'm making now. They were going to teach me how to be a clothing designer or some weird shit, how to design and make extravagant outfits for the rich and famous. I remember feeling both excited and bad about learning this new trade. I felt badly about having to give my current employer the news I'll be quitting because I know how much I'm need in my current position. And I like my boss quite a bit. So I felt badly about the idea of telling him I was going to be leaving him hanging.

After that I stayed awake for a while and went back to sleep sitting in my chair in my kitchen around 7:00am until about 9:30am. I recalled a vivid dream about family BS that I don't feel like writing out.

I still might sleep more.   
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: Caradon November 26, 2019, 07:11:00 AM
Monday/November/25/2019

I slept from about 5:00pm until about 12:30am. I decided to sleep in my chair again even though  my back is okay enough I think, to lay down. I actually slept a lot better than the previous night laying down. Except after a while my knees were starting to get sore.

I had the best night of recall since starting my journal up again in October. Each time I woke up all night I was recalling what I was dreaming. A lot of it is still jumbled up difficult to describe dreams though.

No Fear

This is one of the more interesting dreams of the night. Very vivid.  Interesting, to note again, a complete lack of fear in a would be scary situation even without lucidity.

I'm in a building. It's a haunted place I guess. The first thing I recall is a woman. Somehow I know she is a psychic. I see her gesturing to a wall. Indicating a supernatural presence. There is some type of evil entity taking up residence in this building.

I look to the wall where the woman is gesturing. I see a dark blob like shape moving through the wall and I get a threatening vibe from it. I'm more annoyed and angered with this dark entity that thinks to cause me harm. I have no fear of it at all.

I see the dark shape becoming blacker and blacker as it moves. I realize the deeper black shade is indicating the entity is becoming more angry and volatile. I'm amused, I don't care. 

I kick at the shape in the wall. I'm not sure what I'm trying to achieve, but I'm at least showing the entity that it's presence doesn't scare me. The black shape separates itself from the wall  and floats out into the air. The shape takes on the form of a large black skull. I reach out and grab a hold of each side of the skull with each hand and slam it forcefully to the floor.

On impact the skull explodes into black smoke and slowly dissipates.

I wake up for a moment here and jot down a little note in my notebook.  I simply write down the word "Ghost" just to remind myself of the dream in case of forgetting later.

I fall quickly back to sleep and back into the dream. Where I again encounter the same entity. Much like before, the entity is a black shape moving through the walls.

This time rather than attacking the entity, I challenge it to try and cause me harm. I explain out loud to the entity that I have no fear of it and I don't believe it has any power at all to cause me any harm. I tell the entity that it is free to try. I will passively allow it to try and do harm to me, show me, prove to me that it has the ability. Try and make me believe that it can.

I watch then, as the dark shape of the entity moves across the wall and then down along the floor until it is in front of my feet on the floor. The black shape takes on the creepy looking form of black oily humanoid arms reaching up out of the black mass on the floor in  front of me.

I stand motionless, fearless, as these arms, hands, grab hold of my legs, apparently attempting to suck out my life force. And I can remember reading on the forums people that fear and believe such things in dreams are trying to suck off their energy. I don't share this belief in the slightest and continue to allow it to try. A few moments pass with nothing remarkable enough happening to cause me to feel like I'm actually in any kind of danger. This thing just grabbing at my legs. And the dream fades away and I wake.         

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: Caradon November 27, 2019, 10:50:26 AM
Tuesday/November/26/2019

Not as much recall last night. I don't have much time. There is a snow storm going on outside(in reality) and I'm going to have to go out there with a shovel and see how bad it is and figure out if I'm going to be able to get to work and back today. I have a little car that doesn't get through the snow very well. Also I'm on back streets that don't get plowed right away, and I'm also on a cul-de-sac that doesn't get plowed right away either. So it gets frustrating when it storms and the snow gets too deep. Last year was bad, I had to walk out to the main road many times and wait for a ride from my boss. Luckily I don't work that far from where I live, but it seems far enough anyways when I can't get through the snow. And by the looks of things, it might be snowing for the next three or four days, gah...

Skate Park

Basically just a fragment but a vivid one about being  at a skate-board park like something out of the X-games. It was fun, I was taking some practice runs on the ramps and getting enough air off of them to do flips and tricks. I was practicing and getting ready to begin a competition with several other skate-boarders at the park. I wake up before the competition truly begins. Too bad, this one had a good potential of lucidity had the dream continued and if I ended up getting some ridiculous air off one of the ramps. But I'm not sure if that situation will get me lucid as easily as it was doing before, at least yet, since I'm out of practice. 
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: Caradon November 28, 2019, 05:59:17 PM
Wednesday/November/27/2019

I'm officially sick I guess. It started hitting me pretty hard during my work shift last night and I completely lost my voice. Thankfully I was able to get out of work early last night. And it's Thanksgiving day as I write this.(I always date my dreams as the previous days night of dreaming  since I'd be recording Wednesdays nights dreams it's dated as Wednesday.)

I'm thankful that I don't have to work ad it's very quiet and I can just rest and sleep because I feel like shit. Hopefully I'll feel somewhat better by tomorrow going back to work.

I had no significant recall other than my INRALD (I'm not really awake lucid dream) moment that I recorded in my WILDing Journal. And some other brief HI stuff

I took some cold medicine before  going to sleep I'm not sure if that contributed to not recalling much of anything or not, or maybe just  maybe being sick in general sometimes makes recall difficult.

I was able to get to work okay. Thankfully the snow stopped early, and surprisingly the plow came through before I had to leave so the roads were not too bad. But there is still supposed to be a couple of more snowstorm filled days before the weekend is over. Hopefully I won't have any trouble getting out. I hate when I have to call and say I can't get my car out because of the snow. My next vehicle is going to be something more snow worthy...
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: Caradon November 29, 2019, 10:28:26 AM
Thursday/November/28/2019

Still pretty sick. I slept from about 8:00pm to 6:30am. I slept really well, I was out, and the time went too  quickly. I feel like I could keep sleeping and probably would if I didn't have to work today. Not very good recall again.

Fragment

Some HI basically. Should Probably  be in my WILDing Journal.  but as mention nt feeling well and don't feel like making another post  for it. 

As I was first drifting off to sleep I experience this bizarre little non lucid dreamlet. I wish  could remember the detail a little better. When I came out of it it was kind of fuzzy/barely recalled. I was watching some events like a movie and for some reason which were clear in the dream but I don't remember now, I get sucked into this other dimension. I remember a light blue color associated with this other realm. While I'm there I get reverted to an infant. I'm a little baby and get sent back into this world as a baby. But once back in this real I begin to morph into a large beats. Still watching like a movie I watch myself grow into this large hairy Bigfoot looking creature with red glowing eyes. As I watch this thing as myself walk along for a moment I come out of it thinking "Whoa what was that?" I even sat up and took a note on it to make sure I wouldn't forget. But  didn't need to look at the notes. 

Fragment

After sleeping about three hours that felt like a few minutes. I wake up and bring my friend outside. I had no recall. But again as I sit back in  my comfy reclining camping/lawn chair and begin to drift off I experience another little non lucid dreamlet. Again I'm watching like a movie.

I'm married and I'm a Part of this political family. My wife and my children are on a trip to the white house to spend time there and with the president. (I'm not sure where this came from as I have no interest in politics or visiting the white house. Maybe it was influenced by the fact that I recently watched a show called "Designated Survivor" on Netflix with Kiefer Southerland. Where he gets thrown into the position of president.)

Anyways, as I watch like a movie the events of my family arriving at the white house and settling into the rooms they are being assigned to.  My awareness drifts to another room where I'm apparently invisible and I'm watching a coupe of politicians in power  discussing my family. And some plot that they are planning against my wife and I. The I drift back awake. 

Work Fragment

After I wake around 6:30am I sit there for a while trying to bring anything else back. I'm able to bring back a work fragment where I'm back at my previous place of employment. (That no longer exists.) My old boss is there and I'm having kind of a nostalgic moment in the dream. And I'm telling the people there that are working for my old boss what I great guy he is to work for.
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: Caradon November 30, 2019, 07:28:18 AM
Friday/November/29/2019

I slept from about 11:30pm to about 4:15am. I had my alarm set for 4:30am since I have to work this morning but I woke up fifteen minutes before it went off and I just decided to get up. I'm not feeling any better yet. If anything I'm feeling worse this morning. I didn't take any of the cold medicine (Dayquil) before going to sleep because I wanted to save it to get through my work shifts and I don't want to over do it with the stuff. I've probably abused my body enough with the Ibuprofen I take when back is acting up badly. So I'm trying to be careful not to take too much.

I didn't sleep as well as the previous night. And still not much recall. I do remember dreaming about trying to fall asleep. I keep thinking that there was something about driving my car too. There must have been. As I typed that something tried to pop into my head about flat tires. But then slipped away. I should be able to get a better nights sleep tonight. I'm going to try and get to sleep as early as I can when I get home this afternoon.
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: Caradon December 01, 2019, 06:19:44 AM
Saturday/November/30/2019

I got off work early and managed to get to sleep about 5:30pm. I was completely out until about 11:00pm. When I woke up and I had just a little disjointed recall of images. I was dreaming about trying to sleep again and recording dreams on Mortal Mist. Still feeling pretty sick. It took me while to fall back to sleep.

I finally fell back to sleep sometime between 12:00am and 1:00am. I woke up again just before 3:00am feeling all the dreams in my head but unable to recall them. But as I was drifting off to sleep I had some little dream that I was able to recall.

Elder Scrolls

As I begin to drift off I find myself in an Elder Scrolls Game without lucidity. For some reason I think it's supposed to be the Morrowind game I had on the original Xbox rather than the Skyrim VR  game that I have on my PS4.

But anyways I'm in some underground chamber with a body of water like a pool. The walls of the chamber have kind of a dirty golden color. I find a corridor and make way down the corridor, all the walls have that same dirty golden color to them. I come across some enemy soldier. I don't remember the moment very well. But I remember a moment of combat and defeating the enemy.  It was as if the soldier was trying to keep me there, like a prisoner. not wanting me to escape.

I move along and soon find a doorway that opens into the world.  I have a moment of magical anticipation as the door swings open and  I can see a hint of the outside world.  I see a couple of characters from the fantasy land  standing around out side. Unfortunately, I come out of it before the dream can continue.

I think I might have been dreaming about Spider-Man. Because I saw I Spider-Man picture and for a moment I felt like some Spider-Man dream was trying to come back to me.
   

 
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: Caradon December 01, 2019, 07:36:25 AM
Recap For November 2019

It could have been better. Recall has been off and on. Was thinking about dreaming in dreams a few times. Cut back on the caffeine a lot. I gave up the coffee and now I'm down to just a small does of caffeine in the morning. And I'm feeling more relaxed and focused. Also in a better place mentally at the moment.

The last few days recall has not been very good, probably has a lot to do with being sick. But over all I'm feeling pretty good about where I'm at. I feel like once I get over being sick things will begin to improve more. Hopefully December will be a good month and I'll be able to start out the new year in a good place. 
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: Caradon December 02, 2019, 06:24:42 PM
Sunday/December/1/2019

Still not feeling too good. Went to sleep about 6:00pm and slept off and on most of the night and into most of the day as well. Still not much for recall. A lot of almost recall. Just catching bits and pieces of what I was dreaming as I wake up.

The snow storms over the weekend were not nearly as bad as predicted, thankfully. The worst of it was Sunday and it was just enough snow to make the roads nice and slippery for the drive home but not deep enough to get stuck in.   
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: Caradon December 03, 2019, 03:50:47 PM
Monday/December/2/2019

I slept a lot. Still not very good recall.  I'm feeling just a little less out of it at the moment, I think. Hopefully it's a sign that I'm coming to the tail end of this cold. I woke up in the middle of the night with a cough that didn't want to stop so I got up for a little while, and then spent the rest of the time sleeping in my reclining chair where I slept pretty good without the cough. I did something at least.

Fragment

I'm on a wide snow covered mountain ledge. I have a sense that I'm in a video game again, maybe Skyrim again. There are missiles being fired at me from I don't know where. At first I'm trying to dodge this way and that to avoid being hit by the missiles.

I'm carrying a sword and after a few dodges I begin swinging my sword at the incoming missiles to deflect them away rather than dodge. Suddenly an unknown friend makes an appearance. My friend drives up in a little off road buggy and gets out of the buggy.

 I tell him that he should make for the near by cave that I know is just behind me and take shelter from the incoming missiles. He and I reach the cave together. The entrance of the cave is covered and sealed by a large hinged door. I have the sense that there are more people inside the cave system. I come out of the dream just as the door begins to swing open.
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: Caradon December 04, 2019, 10:46:21 AM
Tuesday/December/3/2019

Lions Fragment

I'm standing outside of a house. The house has something like a crawl space below it which is mostly covered by ornamental woodwork. There is a section that is open and I can see under the house. And under the house I can see that there are several lions lounging around. Someone is with me (I'm not sure who it is) and I comment to then person about the lions under the house.
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: Caradon December 05, 2019, 11:16:19 AM
Wednesday/December/4/2019

Not quite over being sick yet. I felt pretty shitty at work last night and I had a hard time sleeping because of a cough that didn't want to stop that kept waking me up. I'm getting pretty sick of being sick. Most of the night consisted of drifting off to sleep a little bit then waking up coughing after a few minutes. Late into the night I finally settled down enough to get a couple hours rest. 

Yacht Fragment

I was with another person and there was an apocalyptic vibe to the dream. This other person and I found a partially submerged yacht or sail boat that we decide to hide in and take shelter. The walkways inside are slanted because of being partially sunk.

I remember walking up a slanted walkway inside the yacht and finding a sleeping area where there are a couple of beds. I'm looking at a bed that has all the sheets in disarray laying o top of it. I notice that it looks like there may be a human shaped lump under the sheets. I pull the sheets back and yes. There is a woman with long blondie hair sleeping under the sheets on the bed. She opens her eyes and looks up at me. That is the last thing I remember about it.


-I think there was something else about being on a ship out at sea.

-A sexually oriented fragment.   
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: Caradon December 06, 2019, 09:32:19 AM
Thursday/December/5/2019

Better recall last night. But I still had trouble sleeping most of the night because of this cough. I should be sleeping sitting up in my chair, I think would be better. But the tent in my living room is so cozy and warm and my back isn't bothering me too much right now. I'm probably going to try and sleep a little longer after recording this dream.

Escaping Stormtroopers

I'm on a forest trail. I'm not sure what I'm doing there. I suddenly notice that an army of stormtroopers and imperial war droids have quietly emerged out of the forest and taken up formation along the trail. I know that they are waiting in ambush to apprehend me.

As silently as I can, I take a slow step backwards, then another, and another, as I try to sneak away unnoticed. Once I back off so far, I slip into the cover of the forest trying to disappear from sight. 

I make my way deeper into the forest and the way ahead of me grows steeper and steeper as if I'm climbing the side of a mountain. The ground is covered in a beautiful thick green carpet of some kind of vegetation or moss. The trees are huge, and widely spaced apart with a think canopy of branches and leaves above. It's a very vivid and beautiful scene. 

I keep making my way up the steep incline which continues to grow steeper with my every step. After some time I reach a level plateau. Atop the plateau I notice a grey dirty worn out easy chair just sitting there. The chair looks like it will be a nice place to rest after the steep climb.

Looking around I also notice a bench that looks much like a park bench. Now I notice the crumbling walls around me and I realize I'm standing in the ruins of some old building that seems too be an old house. I can see the remnants of who ever lived here once upon a time. There is a dirty beat up stuffed animal laying just over there. And oddly, I find and over sized Zorro style mask that looks like it's made to fit the face of a giant.

Suddenly I hear the engines of motorcycles. I see several bikers riding up just a little ways over there, I crouch down, then sit with my back up against one of the crumbling walls of the ruins. For some reason I don't want the bikers to see me or know that I'm there. That's the last thing that I remember about it.

 

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: Caradon December 07, 2019, 07:17:27 AM
Friday/December/6/2019

I only slept about four hours, maybe a little less because, of having to work in the morning. There was some recall close to the surface but so far nothing has come back yet. For a second I thought there was something about chopping wood with an axe. I'm starting to feel better but still have a lingering cough that will probably stick around a while. It took me a while to fall asleep because of it. 
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: Caradon December 08, 2019, 07:21:07 AM
Saturday/December/7/2019

Definitely feeling better but the continued cough is still making sleep difficult. I slept about six hours with the first three hours a struggle of constantly waking up coughing. But it eventually settled down so I could sleep for a while and had some recall I'm happy with. After today I have the next two days off so hopefully I can get some better quality sleep.

Siege

Intense vivid dream.

The tone and setting is like something out of the movie "The 300" or something similar. I'm at a small fortress with a small group of fighters that are defending against an invading army tribe of medieval style warriors.

Inside the walls of the fortress we make plans for a defense from the invaders. Someone outlines a strategy. I  wait for someone to ad to it or come up with a better plan. No one says anything, and I'm thinking well sounds like as good a plan as any. When the battle begins, it does not go as outlined I the plan.

The next thing I know I'm standing on top of the walls of the fortress with just a handful of fighters. Maybe half a dozen men. We look out over what appears to be a sea of tribal style warriors that have taken siege of our fortress. The defense seems a hopeless cause. For some reason I am not at all frightened even though I fully expect to die here.

I hear one of the men on the wall beside me say "Whatever happens try to make sure you at least take one of them out with you." And as one, our small group leaps from the wall to dive head first into the attacking see of warriors.

It's a long fall from the wall to the fight, but I know that the bodies of the enemy will act as cushion for the fall. I land easily amongst the enemy full of blood lust and rage. My only weapon a long bladed knife. It's bloody and disturbing as I hack into the enemy that surrounds me.  I become a berserk whirlwind of death. Slashing, stabbing, spinning kicking. My only goal to destroy as many as I can as quickly as I can before they can take me down.

But I seem an unstoppable force of death to the enemy as I cut through them like a hot knife through butter, chaotic and bloody. I'm mildly aware of my companions doing the same.

I hear someone screaming. "The enemy retreats!" And before I even realize what is happening I notice the enemy has thinned out and mostly disappeared, leaving behind piles of the slain.

I stand in the middle of the dead with just a couple of my companions. I look around and try to wrap my head around it, wondering. "How the hell are we still alive?"

The scene kind of changes as the enemy as now retreated behind the walls of the fortress and we the defenders stand outside among the dead.

The leader of the tribal army sends out a messenger. The messenger explains that their leader requests a meeting with my companions and I and I accept.

One of my companions wonders if this is some kind of trap. But I don't think so. Somehow I know the tribe leader is an honorable man.
With confidence I allow the messenger to escort us into the fortress of the enemy.

Inside, we are taken to the leader who sits upon a huge throne. The man seems abnormally large and dressed like a tribesman, adorned with huge rings and necklaces. We are instructed to sit cross legged on the floor before the throne as a measure of respect to the king of the tribes.

The meeting takes a surprising turn as the king explains how impressed he is with the combat abilities of my men and I. The tribal king proposes a truce and offers a position in his armies. He explains that he wants me to take on leadership of one of the many tribes that make up the kingdom of his rule. I wake before the conclusion of the meeting.

Mountains

I have recall of another dream, a beautiful dream of just hiking and exploring in the mountains. At one point I see a bear, but the bear is in the distance and not an immediate threat. I watch the bear climb a giant tree that  seems dead, like a really tall and wide tree stump. No branches or leaves. I see the bear stand up on it's hind legs on top of the tall dead tree looking out across the land.

 

 

 
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: Caradon December 09, 2019, 08:31:02 PM
Sunday/December/8/2019

Fragments

-I'm with some people and walking up to my parked car and I'm dismayed to find my car sitting on blocks and the wheels missing.

-There was something more about the mountains. And I'm in a small RV type vehicle that someone else is driving. It's winter, there is snow everywhere. The RV goes off the road and gets stuck in a field. I'm not upset at all for some reason I find this to be great fun.

-A fragment about seeing someone that looks exactly like me.

Nap

I took a two and a half hour nap and had some recall.

Framing The Dead

I dreamed I watched a movie. In the movie I watch as the military has defeated some evil dictator and there is a funeral going on out in a foreign desert. The leader of the conquering military had been making and stockpiling alcohol which was supposedly illegal for him to be doing. So he gets this great idea to frame the dead dictator, claiming that they found the dictator hoarding all this alcohol so they are confiscating it. After the funeral they start passing around the bottles of confiscated alcohol and have a big party, now making their ownership of it legal because of confiscating it from the enemy. And while I watched this taking place in my dream I found it to be hilarious.

Rooftop Ladies

I climb the side of a tall building. I'm hanging onto some metal beams screwed into the building. Not really a ladder but I'm using it like  a ladder. At the top I peak up over the edge of what is a slanted and shingled rooftop. There are two very pretty ladies sitting up on the roof and I peak up over the edge at them. They notice me and for some reason I find the situation hilarious. and I'm like. "Hello ladies!" How are you? I'm just hanging out here on the side of this building."  And I find  this so funny I cant stop laughing about it. Like wtf am I doing up here peaking over a rooftop at some pretty women that are hanging out on the roof. And why the heck are they even up here. Lol.

I say to them. "I don't know what I'm doing here. I'm just going to climb back down I guess." There sure is a nice view from up here though isn't there?" The ladies agree it is a beautiful view. And we all look around at the beautiful view that can be seen stretching out for miles. I suddenly have this weird memory and I ask them if they have ever jumped off of this roof before. They tell me that they have not. I have a memory of jumping from the roof. And even as I remember it I'm trying to figure out how I ever did that without breaking bones or being killed because it's pretty high up. That's the last thing I remember about it.

More Bears

I remember a conversation I was having with someone about bears and how some are more dangerous than others. Unless it's just a particularly crazed or mean bear you would be in trouble. During the conversation I'm seeing all this visual stuff about bears in the wild.
I actually forgot about this dream until I saw a picture of a bear on my computer when I woke up and I knew I was dreaming about bears. And after a moment the conversation about bears came back to me. 





 
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: Caradon December 10, 2019, 06:22:38 PM
Monday/December/9/2019

I slept three hours without recall. I stayed up all morning and I went back to sleep about noon and slept for another hour without recall. I was planning to stay asleep until I remembered a dream but I woke up after an hour nap and couldn't fall back to sleep again so I just got up.
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: kineticwaves December 10, 2019, 10:18:32 PM
Interesting! It's pretty cool when you forget a dream but then see something throughout the day that reminds you of it. I've dreamed about climbing up buildings too.
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: Caradon December 11, 2019, 12:38:39 PM
Interesting! It's pretty cool when you forget a dream but then see something throughout the day that reminds you of it. I've dreamed about climbing up buildings too.

Yeah that happens a lot. I can get delayed recall at any point during the day, all the way up until just before going to sleep again. Or even occasionally  while laying there about to fall asleep and suddenly something from the previous night comes back.
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: Caradon December 11, 2019, 12:54:13 PM
Tuesday/December/10/2019

Slept about 6 hours. I had recall but mostly difficult to describe. I'm kind of in a hurry so just going to summarize.

-There was a dream about going on a bus trip. It was frustrating because of getting everything ready and then losing my bus ticket and trying to find it.

-There was a dream about watching the construction of a city. It  was kind of sad, it was a beautiful landscape being torn up and destroyed. And highways and bridges and buildings and houses basically smeared all over the top of what was previously  a beautiful place.

-There was a dream about preparing for a trip to the cabin and getting everything ready to go.  I've not actually been there in a couple of summers in reality because of the situation with my dog and being able to do more with her here than there because of all  the biking trails here. But anyways I was worried about what kind of mess I was going to find when I show up there after the mice have had the run of the place for the last two years.
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: Caradon December 12, 2019, 02:14:13 PM
Wednesday/December/11/2019

I slept three four hours or so I'm not sure, then got up and stayed up for a couple hours. Then went back to sleep and slept for about an hour and a half and had this dream.

Leave Me Alone

Dreaming that I'm sleeping but have to get up to pee. And I want to take the dog out too. But there are people everywhere and I'm very annoyed. I see a truck in the back yard and there are people out in the back yard. It's mostly family and friends of theirs. I don't want to take the dog out there with them out there because I don't want to see them or talk to them. I crouch down before they can see me through the window. I don't want them to even see me in the window. They are in the house too, I just want to hide. I don't want anything to do with them. I just want them all to go away. But I have to pee and I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to get to the bathroom and back without anyone noticing me. Just then I wake up for real with the dog pawing at my arm and I need to pee for real. And I guess she did too. And thankfully the house is quiet and no one is around or in the back yard...
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: Caradon December 13, 2019, 01:53:53 PM
Thursday/December/12/2019

I had some recall.  Some work stuff and a dream about trying to cook  eggs for breakfast but dream eggs don't turn out very well. And a dream about opening crates full of beautiful fantasy style swords and knives.

I slept in a little late and there is a snow storm going on outside so I have to hurry up and get ready and try and see how bad it is out there. Shovel and clean the car off and  all that. Hopefully it's not too much trouble getting to work.   
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: Caradon December 14, 2019, 07:50:52 AM
Friday/December/13/2019

I slept  less than four hours because of having to work in the morning. I had some recall  about getting into an argument with my sister. I don't remember what it was about exactly but I was pretty angry.
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: Caradon December 15, 2019, 07:00:09 AM
Saturday/December/14/2019

I slept about seven hours. I must have been pretty tired I was pretty well. I woke up about an hour and a half after sleep with some recall, then the rest of the night there wasn't much. Just before waking for good I woke up from a work dream about discussing some plans with my boss. And some other flashes of dreams having been trying to come back. More work related stuff, and I'm pretty sure there was something about driving because it keeps almost coming back. I would  have kept sleeping but have to get up for work.

Back To School

An hour and a half into sleep I woke up from this dream where I'm back in highschool. It's like a re-do situation. The entire class, along with one ring leader of the class is trying to encourage me, and convince me to change my ways, my way of thinking, and conform to the beliefs of general society and put all of my energy into learning all the same things they are being force fed so I can better fit into societies way of life and structure of beliefs. And I'm just sitting there, a part of me feeling kind of good that they are so concerned for my well being. Because being an alien in a society I don't agree with and completely tired of having to be a part of is a large part of where my depression comes from.  But at the same time I'm just like no... I don't want to, just leave me alone. I don't want any part of their teachings, their lifestyle. I just want to be left alone. Leave me alone...

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: Caradon December 16, 2019, 01:48:13 PM
Sunday/December/15/2019

Golf
I'm at the townhouse apartments I lived at as a kid. I walk out to the front yard with some golf balls and a gulf club. I'm planning to just stand out there and hit golf balls into the distance, over the tops of the nearby houses. But then I feel bad. It sounded like a fun idea at first. But I decide I don't want break any windows. Or even worse maybe hit someone.

Cooking School

I don't know why but I had a weird dream about being in a cooking class. I was kind of enjoying it at first. BUt then I got annoyed when the teacher says that we are expected to do a written report on the recipe. Describing our likes and dislikes about the recipe and what we would do differently to change it and make it more satisfying  to our personal  tastes. And I'm like Gah, really? Cooking homework... 
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: Wędajihs December 16, 2019, 08:44:47 PM
The cooking dreams (aside from the dreams with desires to be left alone) stood out to me. Eggs in one and cooking class in another. I think they drew my interest because I don't dream of food very often. When it happens, I suspect my body is telling me to watch what I eat, or eat better.
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: Caradon December 17, 2019, 02:45:27 PM
The cooking dreams (aside from the dreams with desires to be left alone) stood out to me. Eggs in one and cooking class in another. I think they drew my interest because I don't dream of food very often. When it happens, I suspect my body is telling me to watch what I eat, or eat better.

That's a good point. Sometimes that is probably what it is. The egg cooking dream is for me isn't too much of a surprise because when I was in Colorado I spent a couple of years cooking eggs at a crazy busy restaurant  that served breakfast 24/7. And I also like cooking them at home sometimes though I've not had them in a while. The cooking school class was different though. I'm not sure where that came from.

This is the restaurant I worked at. Apparently they are not open 24 hours anymore. I used to work four ten hour shifts a week. And in the summer spend three days back-packing on Pikes Peak.  I don't mind showing since I don't live anywhere near there now. I used to have an apartment a ten minute walk from the place. The restaurant is right off the freeway exit ramp in the middle of a vacation area, surrounded by hotels. And the best place for breakfast in the area. So to say we were busy during the summer is putting it lightly, lol. Those were good times. I miss that place and the guys I used to work with there. 

I've had several fun lucid dreams where I got lucid during dreams of working there too.   

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: Caradon December 17, 2019, 04:14:09 PM
Monday/December/16/2019

I slept really good and had pretty good recall. I was recalling dreams every time I woke up. Though some of it is difficult to describe and not as clearly recalled as I would like. But I'm not complaining. I'm thankful for a good night of dreaming.

Busted

I'm driving but the car I'm driving is like one of my first cars, an old Cutlass. Mine was kind of a beater but I still kind of hot rodded around in it. I'm driving the Cutlass and I punch the gas pedal to the floor. The car immediately responds and powerfully  accelerates and I'm going way too fast. I let off the gas pedal and think to myself I had better quit doing that before I get myself into trouble.

Just as I have that thought, of course, the sound of police siren flares up behind me and the flashing of red police lights. "Shit!" I pull over and the cop walks up to the passenger side and opens the door and gets in and looks at me angrily.  I hand him my drivers license and he gets out to go run my name through his little computer. I wake up while I'm sitting there waiting for him to come back.

Hunted

I'm being hunted through a mountain wilderness by a very skilled and relentless tracker. I don't know why I'm being hunted I just am  and all I want is to try and keep as much distance between myself and the tracker that is hunting me as I can.

My perspective is all over the place. Sometimes I'm watching like a movie as I see the tracker following my trail. There is no shaking him. Every footstep, every bent blade of grass. Everything I touch or disturb he knows it, can see it, and just keeps following. And sometimes I'm myself just trying to get away.

I'm trying as hard as I can to figure out how to make my way through the forest without leaving any kind of sign of my presence. But it's impossible. There is no way to just not touch the ground or disturb the brush or grass or branches in any way.

I find myself out in the open, exposed and visible. Further up ahead I can see the cover of thick trees. I'm trying to run but my legs are getting tired, sore from so much fleeing through the forest. I'm getting exhausted. The way ahead grows steeper and I'm grabbing at the grass and weeds trying to pull myself along.

I eventually reach the cover of the trees. Feeling less exposed I make my way over the next rise in the terrain. I come to a little village and I'm talking with a person there. They are telling me of a place just beyond the next mountain. A place where the land meets the sea, and of a small city along the shore. I realize that this is the place where I need to go.

Suddenly, I see the tracker. He is just right over there. He is an older man with a bushy gray beard, and hair to match. He looks like a stereo typical mountain man. I know he knows I'm there. But for some odd reason he is pretending not to notice me. As if he has changed his mind about apprehending me and is pretending not to be able to find me.

I forget about it and make my way towards the city by the sea, that is supposedly over the next mountain.

The dream takes an odd turn and I see what I know are monks. The monks are headed back in the direction that I had come from.  They are fleeing from the city by the sea.

Now my perspective is all over the place again. I watch like a movie again. I'm at the location of the city by the sea. It is a medieval era. And I'm viewing the scene of a temple. The monks of this temple are of a passive non violent philosophy. So there is nothing they can do as aggressive violent soldiers of destructive intent surround their temple. I watch as the temple is utterly demolished by the soldiers and the monks flee in the direction of which I first saw them straggling along the road.

The monks do not even seem very upset or distressed. I realize that to them it's just another day in the life existing as a pacifist in a violent land during  dangerous violent times. They just move on to find another place to set up another temple until that one too, meets the same fate.

The dream takes another strange turn as I'm now with a family. I have a wife and children. I have met them at this city by the sea. But now that the temple has been destroyed there is no reason for us to be here either. We begin to gather our things, to make our way back along the same road as the monks have traveled. And back to where I began this dream, as I began fleeing from the mountain man tracker. 

As we gather our things for the long journey back, my wife is selecting songs to sing to pass the time along the way. And I wake.

Tomb Raider

I wish I could remember the details f this dream better. It was a long adventure dream based on the Tomb Raider video game. There were times when I was playing it like a video game and times when I was in it, exploring these amazing magical tombs filled with traps and monsters. Fighting monsters and avoiding the traps. Putting everything together like a puzzle, to open hidden pathways and secret doors that led to more traps monsters and puzzles.

The dream continues after the adventure where I'm describing to people the amazing adventure I went on searching for treasure in ancient tombs  full of deadly traps and monsters. And there were more fragments of the dream difficult to describe. walking along a road I meet an old man with a sack of apples and we have the time of our life just throwing apples out into an open field. "Shrugs." lol.

The Racer

Another weird dream where my perspective is all over the place. There is a race car driver describing to me his life story. And of how he became the greatest race car driver in the world. And as he is describing to me the story I'm watching scene after scene like a movie as he describes it. And during the story the most beautiful music begins to play that I'm in awe of. Violins and piano and all sorts of ambient mixes blending in with it.   




   

   
   
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: Wędajihs December 17, 2019, 11:56:24 PM
4 10 hour shifts a week?  I :dead:-ed at the mere thought of it.

Maybe I'll find myself at that place in a dream. If I do there better be some breakfast on the house for me courtesy of you.  :D

What an amazing night of dreaming you had. Like the way you flip back and forth between being inside of and outside of yourself in the scenes. I get that sometimes and its so funny that it never occurs to me to reality check while I'm outside of myself, watching myself, while at the same time being completely unaware that I'm creeping on myself.
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: Caradon December 18, 2019, 12:44:47 PM
4 10 hour shifts a week?  I :dead:-ed at the mere thought of it.

Maybe I'll find myself at that place in a dream. If I do there better be some breakfast on the house for me courtesy of you.  :D

What an amazing night of dreaming you had. Like the way you flip back and forth between being inside of and outside of yourself in the scenes. I get that sometimes and its so funny that it never occurs to me to reality check while I'm outside of myself, watching myself, while at the same time being completely unaware that I'm creeping on myself.

Okay something weird happened I thought I was quoting you but I somehow ended up writing in your post instead. I must have mistakenly clicked on modify instead of quote and didn't realize it at first. So that's why your post says edited by me. Because I took out my text that I accidentally put in your post and quoted you properly. :?

I'm a little surprised that I didn't end up dreaming of that restaurant because of thinking about it and writing about it. It's been a while since I've been back there in a dream.

Thanks yeah, not sure what triggered all the sudden recall.  And then last night wasn't as good. Well as well last night either. yeah that's weird the perspective changes like that. Sometimes it make sit difficult to put things together when it's all over the place like that. It would be a good thing to try and recognize.
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: Caradon December 18, 2019, 12:58:36 PM
Tuesday/December/17/2019

I woke up too early and was planning to go back to sleep for a couple of hours but it didn't happen.
I remember a fragment of having a family and kids. I don't remember who it was but someone dangerous was coming to the house. I was trying to get the kids to hide up in an attic that has those pull down from the ceiling kind of stairs. The dream had a feeling tone like it was something from the "30 Days Of Night" movie. When the survivors were trying to hide from the vampires in an attic just like the one in my dream.  But I'm not sure if it was actually vampires that were the danger in the dream though. However it well could have been since I watched an episode of a new vampire show on Netflix called "V Wars" before going to sleep. A show about some new virus plague that is beginning to spread that turns people into super strong blood sucking vampire like monsters.

There was a dream that kept trying to come back when I got up but I was unable to get it. At least not so far.
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: Caradon December 19, 2019, 01:53:37 PM
Wednesday/December/18/2019

I didn't sleep much, maybe two hours. Woke up with no recall.  Then went back to sleep for about another two hours. I recalled an annoying dream about family stuff I'm not going to go into details about.

I wanted to sleep a little longer but my little friend was waking me up.  I needed to get up and make something to eat for the both of us and start getting ready for work anyways.
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: kineticwaves December 19, 2019, 04:01:01 PM
Interesting. I haven't heard of that show but I can see how movies and stuff can affect people's dreams. And that Back to School dream was pretty relatable. Do you like to cook btw?
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: Wędajihs December 20, 2019, 01:53:27 AM
Family dreams.  :gaah:
Melatonin to help you sleep? It works for me. I sleep most of the night and don't have that crappy, sickly, want to crawl out of my skin feeling that sleeping pills gave me.
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: Caradon December 20, 2019, 02:00:18 PM
Interesting. I haven't heard of that show but I can see how movies and stuff can affect people's dreams. And that Back to School dream was pretty relatable. Do you like to cook btw?


Yeah shows and movies definitely have a big influence on dreams. That's where are the medieval/fantasy stuff has been coming from lately because I watch a lot of that. And there has been some really ones I've watched lately. like. "Outlander." I still have season three to watch of that. Sometimes I watch certain kinds of shows and movies for the sole purpose of incubating dreams based off them. But I've cut back on my Netflix quite a bit the last couple of weeks. Though the first  season of Witcher comes out today which  I'm excited about. And the second season of the Lost In Space remake comes out on Tuesday that I've been excited about too. Hoping to watch them both over the course of my three days off for Christmas. I got lucky in that Christmas falls on a Wednesday this year, and I automatically have Mondays and Tuesdays off so I get a three day weekend.

Edit: Sorry, forgot to answer your cooking question. I do enjoy cooking when I decide to take the time to do it. But I don't eat that much and a lot of times I don't want to spend a lot of time on making food. So most of the time I'm just making something quick and easy.

Family dreams.  :gaah:
Melatonin to help you sleep? It works for me. I sleep most of the night and don't have that crappy, sickly, want to crawl out of my skin feeling that sleeping pills gave me.

Well It's not so much that I can't sleep as it is I'm still addicted to waking up at two and three in the morning to enjoy a couple early quiet hours, and get my little caffeine fix. I've cut back on the caffeine a lot, I'm down to just a small dose when I wake up. But it's still enough that I'll be waking up feeling the withdrawal headaches and have to satisfy it. I've been taking the same small dose for about two weeks, not cutting back on it anymore, but I should be cutting back a little each day  until I'm off it completely.  But every morning I'm like not today, maybe tomorrow I'll cut it back a little more, ha. On Saturday Sunday Monday and Tuesday. I've been  trying  to get to sleep by 6 or 7 pm and sleep until around 2 or 3 am  but it gets all out of whack because I work the night shift the first  three days of my week before the weekend. Then I go from working Friday Night to early Saturday morning. 

Until I set my mind on completely getting off the caffeine crap, it's going to be continuing to hamper my progress somewhat since I'm forced to get up and satisfy the addiction at odd hours, and makes me too eager to want to get up to enjoy it. But it's difficult to give up my favorite couple hours of my day...  But when I finally do, I could sleep a heck of a lot more.

But yeah, I do have some melatonin. A bottle of 3mg I've been going back and forth between taking one and not taking one before going to sleep. 

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: Caradon December 20, 2019, 02:36:55 PM
Thursday/December/19/2019

I slept for about three and a half hours and woke up trying to recall some dreams that were right on the surface. They kept coming up and then slipping away before I could fully recall them. Then after a couple of hours I went back to sleep for two more hours.  While drifting off I had some vivid non lucid  HI dream about getting my car stuck in a snow bank and trying to dig it out with a shovel.

Then falling to sleep I had some really vivid recall. I don't have time to describe in detail because I have to get ready for work. But I was pretty close to lucidity. In my dream I was thinking about lucid dreaming and thinking about how I wanted to run across the top of a nearby fence, and would if I knew it was a dream. Then I might have had a brief awakening and fell back to sleep, because I was in another dream and thinking about how I had just missed an opportunity for lucidity, thinking about dreaming in my dream. And not realizing that I was sill dreaming in that moment.  Then I got distracted by some sad and disturbing events taking place and ended up forgetting about it.   
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: Caradon December 21, 2019, 09:37:24 PM
Friday/December/20/2019

This night I had a lucid dream that I recorded in my lucid dream journal. 
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: Wędajihs December 22, 2019, 04:45:02 PM
Nice to hear that you actually got lucid the night after getting so close and missing lucidity the night before that.
Congrats.
 :yahoo:
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: kineticwaves December 22, 2019, 06:41:47 PM
Congrats on the lucid dream yo!!

And I kind of want to watch some new series. : D

My mom usually cooks but I need to learn myself tbh. When I make my own food it's quick lmao.
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: Caradon December 22, 2019, 08:00:01 PM
Nice to hear that you actually got lucid the night after getting so close and missing lucidity the night before that.
Congrats.
 :yahoo:

Thanks, yeah.  I was psyched up after feeling so close to lucidity. And remembering how often times when trying to get over dry spells I  would get  close call or two before it happened. And I went into work trying extra hard to maintain awareness throughout my work shift. 

Congrats on the lucid dream yo!!

And I kind of want to watch some new series. : D

My mom usually cooks but I need to learn myself tbh. When I make my own food it's quick lmao.

Thank you!

Yeah, there are a lot of really good series to watch. I'm actually behind on several that I've wanting to watch because of cutting back on it a lot the last couple of weeks. But definitely going to start The Witcher tomorrow/Monday. And "Lost IN Space" season 2 when I finish Witcher. Try "the 100" "Outlander" "Bates motel" Van Helsing. Just a few really good ones I've seen recently.

Cooking isn't very hard really, at least for basic stuff. I think the first thing I ever learned to cook on my own was hamburger helper. Stuff like that is pretty easy, just follow the instructions.
 
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: Caradon December 22, 2019, 08:07:22 PM
Saturday/December/21/2019

Parkour At Work

Having a work dream and a co-working and I are horse playing around pretending we are some kind of ninjas or something. And I get into parkour mode.  I leap off of something and do this helicopter twirl through the air. But before I land  I reach out with my foot and use the wall to push off with my foot and I do a back flip off the wall. And just as I land on my feet I wake up.
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: Caradon December 23, 2019, 12:47:06 PM
Sunday/December/22/2019

A dream I had after a couple hour WBTB.

Reality Check Moment

I'm outside on foot walking through a park that is near where I live in reality. There is a sledding hill there (that is also there in reality) and when I come around the side of the sledding hill (there is no snow it's summer in the dream) I see a guy that is wearing a cowboy hat sitting casually on a horse. There are a few other people standing around. The cowboy on the horse is swinging a lasso around. The cowboy flings the lasso in my direction and I'm kind of surprised when the lasso expertly goes over my head and down around my body. The cowboy pulls the loop tight. 

I'm less annoyed than I probably would be in reality if this happened. I just calmly stand there like, whatever, WTF. The cowboy asks me if I'd like to be dragged? I look down at the ground and the ground is all wet and muddy. I simply and calmly say to the cowboy.  "I'd rather not get my jacket all dirty." Even though it's not a winter scene I am still wearing my jacket. And I'm thinking that he means to drag me along the ground by my feet through the mud. But That is not what happens.

The cowboy turns the horse and starts riding and I start to get pulled. I lean back on the rope a bit putting my feet out. And I start being pulled behind the horse while standing on my feet like a water skier behind a boat. I'm slightly annoyed at first, but this is actually kind of fun and I start to enjoy it.

I start getting pulled along, skiing behind the horse all over the park. We go over these little hills on the ground and I catch a little air here and there. I want him to find a bigger bump on the ground to pull me fast over because I want to catch some big air. As I look around seeing if there is a spot like that near by I start thinking about what a reality check moment this is. And I'm thinking about how funny it's going to be to post about this in the reality check moments thread. And I also start thinking about the fact that this is the kind of thing in dreams that has gotten me lucid so many times. When something similar in a dream happens to cause me to get ridiculous air and then I recognize that I'm dreaming from the familiar feeling of flying.

But unfortunately I wake up shortly after these thoughts. Maybe if I had  stayed in the dream a little longer I might have gotten lucid, or remembered that I should actually be doing an RC when having a reality check moment... 
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: Wędajihs December 23, 2019, 09:14:02 PM
lol. Next time you're thinking about reality checking...  :rc:
Cool dream though. I'd like to try horse drawn skiing in a dream sometime.
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: Caradon December 23, 2019, 10:52:01 PM
lol. Next time you're thinking about reality checking...  :rc:
Cool dream though. I'd like to try horse drawn skiing in a dream sometime.

Oops put the wrong day on the date. It was Sunday nights dream, not Saturday, duh...  fixed.

I know right. I'm not surprised that happened though, I've done that before, when PJ first started the thread. That's when I was like, aahhh, the thread itself is like a lucid aid. I'm not sure if PJ originally intended it that way, but if one is often on the look out to find weird reality check moments to post in the thread, that ups the chances of seeing something weird in a dream and thinking about it being a reality check moment to post in the thread like what just happened to me. Just have to remember to actually do the damn RC when that happens, lol. Maybe next time, or at least eventually, in a dream I'll remember how I forgot to actually do the RC the last time and that will remind me to make sure I don't forget to do it...
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: Caradon December 24, 2019, 10:11:20 PM
Monday/December/23/2019

Not a lot of recall, mostly fragments. Took a late nap but didn't get anything in my nap other than a little non lucid HI of walking down some side roads near where I live.

Storm At Sea

Kind of an odd dangerous situation. I don't think I was lucid because I don't remember ever thinking about the fact that I was in a dream. But I was acting like I was lucid as it was a deadly scary situation that I wasn't taking seriously at all. I was just acting plain silly and having fun with it.

I'm on ship out at sea. There is a very rough storm threating the ship. Strong winds and huge waves rocking the ship and splashing up over the sides threatening to capsize us and drag us down into the depths. Lighting, thunder. I'm standing near the captain who is frantically turning the wheel this way and that trying to keep the ship from capsizing.

 It's become a race to try and make it to some kind of safety before we all die. There is no way our ship can last for long in this storm.  I can hear dramatic music playing as if it's some kind of movie.

And I'm totally unafraid and acting completely silly.  I have one hand holding onto a ladder that is bolted to the side of a wall trying to keep my balance as the ship is violently rocking. But I'm doing a silly dance to the dramatic music and using a deep dramatic voice as if I'm narrating a funny dangerous situation.  In my dramatic movie  voice  I'm saying stuff like. "Can they survive the deadly storm! Can they make it to safety!" Describing the rocking of the ship and the rising waves splashing up over the sides. "twenty miles left to go in counting! Can they make it!" the dramatic music flares up extra dramatically.  And I dance back and forth in a silly manner to the amped up drama of the music finding great humor in the whole thing. And I continue my count down of the miles left to go as the captain wrestles with the wheel. 

There is a guy near me that explains to me what he will do when the ship capsizes and how he will try to survive it. And I just continue with my silly dance to the music and my narration. I wake up wondering what the hell that was, lol. It was just how I might act had I been lucid in that situation and just having fun with it knowing it's all just a dream and there is no danger at all. 

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: Caradon December 25, 2019, 05:37:18 PM
Tuesday/December/24/2019

I didn't get to sleep until about 8:00am I woke up after a couple of hours with no recall then slept for a while more and kept  sleeping until I finally recalled something.

Pool Golf

There was more to the dream but I don't remember all the details very well. I was playing golf but my brain got golf and pool all mixed together. So that I was on a golf course but  playing like it was a game of pool. Several balls on the  ground and I'm using a  pool queue stick to hit the balls into the hole.  But I'm swinging the pool queue stick like a golf club, and using the wider end to hit the white ball into the other balls to try and knock them into the hole.

I do this unintentional trick where I hit the white ball and it leap frogs over the ball I was trying to hit and manages to hit the opposite side of the ball ad knock the ball backwards towards me and falls right into the hole. I'm like wholly crap what a trick. Somehow I manage to get it recorded on my phone and I'm trying to show someone that I'm with the video of the cool trick that I just pulled off.
But  I'm having trouble finding the moment of the trick on the video. Looks like I  have lots and lots of golfing video on my phone.

I don't actually play golf in reality. But I have a virtual reality  golf game that is really fun but I've not played much of my VR stuff in a while. Partly because of the situation with my dog and partly to try and focus no my dreams. BUt even before I had that game for some reason I dreamed of  playing golf every now and then I don't know why. Though I do live near a golf course and see the golf course all the time. Maybe that's it...







 
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: Caradon December 26, 2019, 11:03:39 AM
Wednesday/December/25/2019

I don't remember too much right now. A couple  of vivid fragments.

-I climb up into the ceiling. It's one of those paneled ceilings that you  can push the panels to the side. And their is space up there. I climb up there and I'm trying to stay on the stronger beams so that I don't fall trough. But it seems very weak anyways and that I cold break through at any moment. I move very tentatively across the beams.

- A vivid fragment of just hanging out in a kitchen. I have cigarettes and kick back and light up a cigarette.

 
: Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
: Wędajihs December 26, 2019, 02:06:53 PM
 :lol: at the storm and boat situation because I could envision myself acting the same way.
The pool golf games sounds like more fun than either pool or golf. Get it invented!
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: Caradon December 27, 2019, 04:55:16 AM
:lol: at the storm and boat situation because I could envision myself acting the same way.
The pool golf games sounds like more fun than either pool or golf. Get it invented!

Yeah, sometimes while lucid I can become sheer silly. I must have had some kind of awareness that it wasn't real in that dream I order to be acting like that  and no even caring about the danger.

Yeah pool golf that was weird. Golf is actually a lot of fun, well I like it in virtual reality.  I wouldn't go out of my way to play it in real life. A guy I work with is big into golf and I told him about the VR game I have. I told him I think It's probably more fun in VR than in reality. And a lot less money too. The game cost me less than thirty bucks and I can play it any time I want. Even in twenty below temp winter  I can be instantly transported to a beautiful sunny summer golf course and don't even have to leave the house. It really does make you feel like you're out on the golf course. Virtual reality is far from the experience of a lucid dream, but it's really amazing in it's own way too. It can be a shock to the system at first, when you put the headset on and transported to this other place.

Th first VR game I payed was at a demo and I   was flying a fighter ship in out space. I couldn't believe it. I was actually there, in the cockpit of this fighter ship like something out of Battle Star Galactica. Flying a  fighter ship around these huge carrier ships. I'll never forget experiencing that for the first time.   
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: Caradon December 27, 2019, 01:57:36 PM
Thursday/December/26/2019

I ended up not getting to sleep until around 6:00am So I slept in as long as I could and don't have time to record much.

I slept about five hours, I think. I had some vivid recall in the first hour of falling asleep but after that I don't remember anything else. At least as of yet nothing else has come back to me. I think maybe there was a driving dream, or at least something about my car.

There was a vivid dream about a large falling apart dock/boardwalk out on a lake. (That is a recurring theme that I wish I could recognize some day.) I was trying to walk on it and get across the broken spots and not fall into the water. There was also cigarettes involved again. I'm not smoking in reality but I have in the past. Sometimes when I smoke in dreams I think about how I had quit and don't really wat to be starting up again. Other times I don't think about it at all. Should try to remember to reality check if I'm smoking or even seriously thinking about smoking. I don't know if I'll ever catch that one.

Also there was a weird sex dream.   
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: Caradon December 28, 2019, 04:37:35 PM
Friday/December/27/2019

Slept about four hours with a little almost recall. But not quite. Had to work early.

I got out a little early because of the weather. Going to try and get a good long night of sleep in. I can barely keep my eyes open typing right now at 2:25pm.

 
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: Caradon December 29, 2019, 07:40:38 AM
Saturday/December/28/2019

I spent too much time posting elsewhere on the forum...

I didn't have a lot of recall though except for the last hour or two that I slept. I should have slept a couple more hours.

There was a weird dream about being at some TV game show where there was a contest/race involving a waterslide obstacle course. I was there as a spectator but they were trying to get me to take part and I didn't want to but eventually I was in it.   
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: Caradon December 30, 2019, 05:35:54 PM
Sunday/December/29/2019

I slept about six hours without any recall But then took a nap and had some recall in my nap. And I had a little bit of lucidity that I've decided to post in my lucid dream journal even though the lucid bit is  pretty brief I was aware it was a dream before waking up.

Computer Shopping

Some vivid stuff about being at the store looking for a new computer. I've been wanting one for a while but not wanting to spend the money on it. Before going to sleep I decided it's time because I'm getting sick of mine because I can't move it at all or I lose connection to the power cord and it's very difficult to get it to reconnect to the power. And now it's having more problems too all of a sudden.  So when I went to sleep I was dreaming I was at the store trying to pick out a new laptop. I'd probably be at the store in reality right now if there wasn't a snow storm going on outside. I'm hoping I'll be able to go tomorrow.

 

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: Wędajihs December 31, 2019, 12:17:36 AM
Computer troubles.  :? 
Better get yourself another soon as the snowstorm passes... or else the computer might keel over at the most inopportune time...and you'll end up spending all your vacation savings on a new one that doesn't work... and switch it in for another one that is laggy... and then get a refund for that one then buy a different brand that is perfect but sends you into debt and puts you behind on your bills. And you spend the next few months playing catch up on bills and debts and trying to maintain a semblance of sanity while negotiating with your landlord to take lesser payments on rent instead of him kicking you out... and then... Oh wait, that was me this past summer.
 :crazy:

The waterslide obstacle course sounds like loads of fun. You need to invent these things you're dreaming about.
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: Caradon January 01, 2020, 06:29:45 AM
Computer troubles.  :? 
Better get yourself another soon as the snowstorm passes... or else the computer might keel over at the most inopportune time...and you'll end up spending all your vacation savings on a new one that doesn't work... and switch it in for another one that is laggy... and then get a refund for that one then buy a different brand that is perfect but sends you into debt and puts you behind on your bills. And you spend the next few months playing catch up on bills and debts and trying to maintain a semblance of sanity while negotiating with your landlord to take lesser payments on rent instead of him kicking you out... and then... Oh wait, that was me this past summer.
 :crazy:

The waterslide obstacle course sounds like loads of fun. You need to invent these things you're dreaming about.

I know right lol. Well I have been very frugal for quite a while. (Except for having to spend a big chunk of my savings to finish paying off my credit card which was getting too high mainly because of stuff like vet bills and car repairs.)  But I have a little bit saved up, and a nice decent tax return coming soon too. So I can go get a new computer and it's not going to kill me. I'm just not eager to spend any of my savings because I've been working so hard to try and get ahead and don't want to be set back at all. But I really want a different computer with a better brighter picture quality, and one that I can move around now that I can't even move mine like it's a desktop or I will lose connection to my power cord which is annoying as hell.

The other issue I was having seems to have miraculously fixed itself while I was sleeping lol. Which I had thought the thing was pretty much dead completely. I had stupidly clicked on a front page news article, you know those stupid ones that just want you to read so that they can bombard you with ads and only give you like one paragraph to read and make you click next so you can load another page full of new ads... I usually don't look at those because they seem to always slow down and freeze up my computer, and they are just annoying.

But anyways I stupidly clicked on an article and security popped up and everything on my computer was freezing up and message saying people were trying to hack into my computer but they were blocked, call this number right away to find out what to do about it. And all that blah blah bullshit scam hacker warning stuff that they throw out there to try and get people to fall for that might call the number and give them access to really hack into their computer.

 But the browser was frozen up and I had to open another browser in order to even use the computer. And I thought it was just stuck that way. Because even restarting it was still all frozen up when it came back on.  But when I woke up the next morning all that crap was gone and it was working normal again it just fixed itself somehow. So it's not a dire rush now to go get a new computer. But I still want a new one, and my power cord issue is still an issue. But for now will keep working as long as I'm careful not to move the computer or bump the cord at all. I could just go get a really cheap one at Walmart to make do for a while. But I'd prefer to get something with a bigger screen than anything they have in stock there. And I want to be sure it's something with a better picture quality than the one I'm using now. Which isn't terrible but not as good of a picture as either my TV or my phone has.   

I think the water slide obstacle dream was influenced by seeing shows like Wipe Out or American Ninja warrior. Where contestants have to compete in running the gauntlet of obstacles and win by getting the furthest the fastest before getting knocked down or into water or whatever. I don't watch that kind of stuff much, other than for just a few minutes if I randomly come across it while channel surfing I might watch a couple people make their run be fore switching channels. But I no longer have any TV to watch other than Netflix streaming because I got rid of it. Netflix is more fun to watch and better picture quality and costs much less besides...       
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: Caradon January 01, 2020, 09:53:06 AM
Monday/December/30/2019

I ended up staying up too late and then only slept two hours without recall. I was going to go back to sleep for a little bit but never did.
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: Caradon January 01, 2020, 10:01:46 AM
Tuesday/December/31/2019

Slept six hours without much recall. Remembered a cigarette fragment. After being awake for a few hours I went back to sleep but only very briefly, maybe a few minutes to half an hour and had a little recall. 

Creepy

I hear someone in the house upstairs. I think it's someone I know but they shouldn't be here. I look up the stairs and call their name. No answer. I call their name again. No answer. I try again louder. Sill no answer. But I can easily hear them moving around up there. I flip the light-switch on the wall. Nothing happens. I'm thinking that who ever is in the house must have done something to make the light not work. I wake trying to figure it out. (Note to self any time lights are not acting right do an RC.)

If I have time I'm going to go back to sleep for a little while.
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: Caradon January 01, 2020, 10:15:33 AM
Recap For December 2019

Started out the month with a bad cold and was losing progress. But ended up making some progress regardless of that. Recall is still too sporadic. But ended up having one good full blown lucid. A brief moment of lucidity. And some partial lucidity. So that's over all more progress than October or November. Going in the right direction at least.

Now we begin the first month of the new year. Really need to get off my need and want to be up at 2:00am all the time. And completely get off the caffeine so that I can just sleep, better focus on dreaming, and do the right kind of WBTB's the way that I used to do them in the past.

I want to, and been trying to work on my WILDing but it seems more often than not I'm just falling asleep. Whether I'm laying flat on my back or sitting upright in a chair hasn't been mattering. I think it's mostly because of getting older I just fall asleep easier. But maybe if I start sleeping longer periods so I'm more awake and not falling asleep so easy I will be able to make some progress with it again. Need to be awake enough so that it's an act of will power and meditation in order to make myself drift off into hypnagogia and dream scenes.
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: Wędajihs January 01, 2020, 12:27:35 PM
Happy New Year Caradon.
 :greenstars:
Best of luck and training for WILDing. Looking forward to reading your adventures in the days, weeks, and months ahead.
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: Caradon January 02, 2020, 12:52:56 AM
Happy New Year Caradon.
 :greenstars:
Best of luck and training for WILDing. Looking forward to reading your adventures in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

Thanks. I hope you had a great new year. It was back to work for me. It was a  little busy but otherwise alright. I'm looking forward to reading your adventures as well.

I actually managed a little WILDnig after making that post but didn't write it down. After posting I kicked back in my chair to try and sleep a little more and had the kind of WILDing where it's like you are looking through your eyelids. I was kicked back in my chair with my eyes closed and the kitchen opened up in front of me. I was just siting there looking around the kitchen  fully lucid knowing it was a dream kitchen I was looking at. Stayed in it for a decent amount of time too, it felt pretty cool. Should have tried to get up and walk around.
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: Caradon January 02, 2020, 02:02:33 PM
Wednesday/January/1/2020

I slept from 12:30am until 2:30am and woke up from some barely remember stuff that my brother was involved in but don't really recall what it was. I went back to sleep a little later than intended 7:00am and slept until 11:00am so don't have much time but had some vivid recall in that period.

Super/Natural Tornado

In a hurry so just a basic description of the dream. I'm outside a building with several other people and there is a massive storm brewing.  The sky is churning with dark clouds. As I  watch a monstrous funnel cloud forms and reaches down from the sky like a massive finger and touches down. I get out my phone to record the event on video. But the tornado kind of loses  moments and dissipates. I'm aware however, that it's far from over. It's just begun. 

From where I'm standing, in the shadow of the building behind  me I don't have the best view of wicked looking sky. So I step away from the building to try and get a better view to get video.

I see that the churning sky has opened up into a gateway into another realm. I see a lot of red color beyond the opening in the clouds. I realize that this is no natural storm but is being created by some highly evolved beings, possibly aliens, other dimensional, I'm not sure.(The dream is possibly influence by a combination of watch the movie "Doom" And also reading Wedajihs recent lucid dream.)

I realize that the intent of the tornado is to suck up us humans into this dimensional gate and people are getting sucked up into a massive  vat and their bodies physically dissolved and their consciousnesses being absorbed into some other higher level of reality that is home to these beings.     
 
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: Wędajihs January 02, 2020, 08:47:08 PM
Storms, tornadoes, and nefarious beings, sounds like something my head would have conjured up for sure. That storm sounds amazing, scary but amazing. I'm always fascinated (after the fact) by the wild and wicked storms the mind can make.
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: Caradon January 03, 2020, 02:09:12 PM
Storms, tornadoes, and nefarious beings, sounds like something my head would have conjured up for sure. That storm sounds amazing, scary but amazing. I'm always fascinated (after the fact) by the wild and wicked storms the mind can make.

Yeah I know right. The skies  during storm dreams are insane. But also a wonder to behold.
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: Caradon January 03, 2020, 02:12:33 PM
Thursday/January/2/2020

After a couple of hour WBTB I had some pretty good recall for the rest of the time I slept. And I had a little bit of lucidity that I recorded in my lucid dream journal. After the WBTB I slept in as long as I could and need to hurry to get ready for work. 
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: Caradon January 04, 2020, 08:44:37 AM
Friday/January/3/2020

Didn't sleep much at all.  I slept from about 12:00am until 2:30am with no recall. Then I was up until about 5:00am and went back sleep for an hour and had a little recall in that hour. But  no time right now. Will edit it in later when I get time.

Edit: I was way too tired when I got home so just skipped it and went to sleep as early as I could. But will briefly add.

Living Room Motocross.

I had my motocross bike in my current living room and I started riding it wheelies.  I was circling the living room around my tent and up and down the hallway while keeping the front end up, balancing wheelies. It was a fun dream. There isn't really quite enough space to pull that off in reality but in the dream there was just barely enough room to maneuver around the place riding wheelies.

Dream Note: I should note here hat I used to practice riding  wheelies on my pedal bike and my motocross bike. So wheelie riding I my dreams has been kind of recurring thing for a lot of years. And there was a time in my life when riding wheelies abnormally well in my dreams was a reliable dreamsign that would get me lucid every time it happened. And I had quite a few lucids that started out that way.

Roller Coaster

Also another theme that has gotten me lucid on occasion. I'm on a rollercoaster. There is something just not right about it and I am afraid something bad is going to happen. I am determined to get off of the rollercoaster. The rollercoaster is moving slowly while climbing the steep tracks getting preparing for a fast descent. I reach  out and grab the side of the tracks with my hands and am able to stop the rollercoaster form moving. I can hear people complaining but I don't care, I have to get off this thing. I'm sure disaster awaits. The others on the coaster think I'm over reacting but I don't care. I climb out of the coaster car and onto the walkway next to the tracks. And as I walk along the walkway the coaster continues on without me I know that all the people aboard the coaster are doomed. The rest of the dram is of me trying to find my way down the walkways back to the ground.
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: Caradon January 05, 2020, 05:23:28 AM
Saturday/January/4/2020

Managed to get to sleep around 6:00pm and woke up around 1:30am. There was a brief WBTB after a few about three hours or so when my little friend woke me to take her out. Then I move to the kitchen and slept the rest of the time in my chair. At first I had no recall but after some contemplation upon awakening I was able to bring a little bit back.

Meet The Parents

I have this completely fictional girlfriend and I'm just at her place hanging out with her family. There is not much to describe.

Underworld

A fantastical dream about a cave system underneath the sea. This was a rare non scary cave dream where the deadly mutant man eating  humanoids that I'm usually always aware of dwelling deep below the earth in cave dream did not exist. In this dream I never thought about the creatures I usually always know are there and always terrified of encountering.

My best recall of this dream is a moment of wonder, fascination, and contemplation, as I walk along the cave system admiring the complex beauty of the caverns and luminous vegetation that is lighting up the place all around me. And as I explore I'm thinking about the possible dangers of life under the earth. Of possibly getting lost in the sheer massive labyrinth and darkness. Or the possible cave in or becoming trapped. But  these were fleeting thoughts as I didn't feel as if I was any real danger at the time.


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: Caradon January 06, 2020, 01:11:21 PM
Sunday/January/5/2020

I slept close to eight hours, I think, without any recall other than for some Hypnagogia/ WILDng stuff early on. Then I woke up for a couple of hours and went back to sleep. I slept three more hours with a lot of amazingly vivid recall. But it was all just work dreams. But  oddly they were actually fun work dreams with a lot of weird stuff going on. And plenty of dreamsigns I should have thought to RC to. Especially since I was even thinking about the odd and different circumstance while in the dream. And was also thinking about dreaming and lucid dreaming at one point. Hopefully maybe some new recurring work themes have developed that I might recognize as being dreamlike in future work dreams.
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: Caradon January 07, 2020, 08:03:22 PM
Monday/January/6/2020

I slept about six hours without any recall. I was planning to go back to sleep for a while but things happened and I didn't get time. It's been a distracting day. I had to go do some errands and things didn't go as planned and ended up taking a lot longer than expected. And then since I was out near a Best Buy I decided to stop in and have a look at the computers. I ended up just doing it and I got a nice new laptop.

At first I was a little bummed that I spent too much on it. But after playing with it for a little while, and checking out what Netflix looks like on it. I'm just like wow. Didn't even realize what a junker the old Lenovo I've been using is until playing with this thing. So I'm pretty happy now that I went ahead and did it.

So been a little distracted with that, getting it all set up and getting my wireless headphones connected and all that.

This is the one I got right here.

https://www.bestbuy.com/site/dell-inspiron-17-3-7000-2-in-1-touch-screen-laptop-intel-core-i7-16gb-memory-geforce-mx250-512gb-ssd-32gb-optane-silver/6372667.p?skuId=6372667&irclickid=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&irgwc=1&ref=198&loc=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&acampID=615614&mpid=1808408  (https://www.bestbuy.com/site/dell-inspiron-17-3-7000-2-in-1-touch-screen-laptop-intel-core-i7-16gb-memory-geforce-mx250-512gb-ssd-32gb-optane-silver/6372667.p?skuId=6372667&irclickid=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&irgwc=1&ref=198&loc=1sx2Uez3qxyOU2DxTSQPxVT4UknRIo1PPxkFXw0&acampID=615614&mpid=1808408)



 
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: Caradon January 08, 2020, 12:16:52 PM
Tuesday/January/7/2020

I think I might be starting to get sick again. Lungs have been on fire all night, and just not feeling great.
I sept for about four hours with recall just barely on the surface couldn't quite bring anything back. I stayed awake for about two hours and went back to sleep for two more hours. And had some recall during that period. I would have slept longer but I had to go do something early this morning. I don't think I'll have time to sleep any more, but I might we'll see.

There for a while there was a bunch of stuff about talking about dreaming and writing in my journal that I don't remember the details of very well.

HELLRAISER 3D

I'm watching a HELLRAISER movie that is being projected onto the wall of my living room. I don't really have a projector in reality, and it's not really like my living room. It's mostly just a fragment. I have a vivid memory of the puzzle box (that opens the gateway to hell) appearing in the scene on the wall. The puzzle box is very detailed and huge and begins to protrude out of the screen. I realize that I'm watching a 3D movie. And I believe that at any moment there is going to be a 3D pop out of those hooks on chains flying out of that puzzle box and ripping into my face. I'm not scared of it at all, believing it to just be a 3D movie nothing real. I think  it's a pretty cool 3D effect actually the way the puzzle box is coming out of the screen like that. I wake up before any chains come flying out at me.

Note: Some of the scariest nightmares that I've had were influenced by the HELLRAISER movies. Star Treks Borg as well, those things freak me out. I actually got lucid during an encounter with Pinhead once.

-There was also a fragment that I was working at some retail store. And I was trying to use an old style phone and trying to plug a land line into it in order to make a call. I don't remember who I was trying to call.

There was some other stuff that I don't know how describe. There was some mad scientist and his assistant walking around doing something, up to no good. But I don't remember what it was.

Note: I'm liking typing with this new keyboard. It feels kind of weird because it's different but it seems I can type more quickly with less mistakes. And possibly, hopefully, better on my wrists the way it kind of forces me to position my hands better in order to reach all the keys. Plus the letters on the keys light up so I can see them if it's dark. That's a feature I never had before.

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: Wędajihs January 09, 2020, 12:24:55 AM
Slick new machine you got there.  :goodjob:
Hope you're feeling better asap, although sick dreams can be pretty freaky, which is good if you like freaky.
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: Caradon January 09, 2020, 10:00:04 PM
Slick new machine you got there.  :goodjob:
Hope you're feeling better asap, although sick dreams can be pretty freaky, which is good if you like freaky.

Thanks, yeah I like it a lot. Has all sorts of nice features.

Thanks, whatever I got hit me fast and hard. Fever I think. The boss let me go home early last night. I had to call in sick today, something I never do unless I really feel like I can't work. This is probably the third  time I've called in sick in the last four years. I've literally been sleeping nearly the last 24 hours except to get up take care of the dog periodically. And just going to go back to sleep.

 Definitely like freaky but Kind of disappointing there has been no recall though, at least yet, sleeping so much.  I keep waking up knowing I was having a conversation but unable to bring back the details. Hopefully I'm able to work tomorrow. I don't want to have to call in again.
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: Caradon January 11, 2020, 07:00:32 AM
Friday/January/10/2020

Still not feeling great but better than I was Thursday. Now feels like a regular cold shitty but manageable compared to whatever it was that knocked me out for a day and a half. Still crappy recall. I got about six hours of sleep last night which is better than usual for a Friday night for me. All I remember is a little bit of a conversation I was having with my step dad about the policies of a bank. Influenced of course by all the more than a little annoying stuff lately of him needing me to deposit some checks for him in his bank account because he is out of town. And his bank making the task difficult to accomplish.

I did finally recall a few short but vivid dreams towards the end of my sleeping binge through Wednesday night into Friday morning but was feeling too shitty to write.



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: Wędajihs January 11, 2020, 12:29:53 PM
I know a lot of people who are having issues with banks these days. I think something is happening behind the regal banking scenes that none of us common folk know about.
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: Caradon January 12, 2020, 08:40:02 AM
I know a lot of people who are having issues with banks these days. I think something is happening behind the regal banking scenes that none of us common folk know about.

I told him he should switch to the bank I'm using that is just down the road from the one he is using. I've not had any problems with them at all. 
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: Caradon January 13, 2020, 01:16:31 PM
Sunday/January/12/2020

No recall. Not doing so well right now. Still really sick my heads in a fog and I think my little friend might be starting to take a turn for the worse. She doesn't seem right and I'm more than a little worried.
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: Caradon January 14, 2020, 03:25:56 PM
Monday/January/13/2020

Still no recall. Vaguely remember something about a work dream.

My little friend isn't doing too good. Was just all of a sudden, started Saturday night when I got home. I thought her breathing seemed off and wheezy. She seems to be breathing okay at the moment at least. But she is super lethargic and can't get her to eat anything. She ate some shredded up pieces of chicken yesterday but so far today I've not been able to get her to eat a bite of anything.

 
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: Caradon January 15, 2020, 12:02:00 PM
Tuesday/January/14/2020

 I had a little bit of recall. I remembered a dream that my little friend was suddenly miraculously okay. She was up and running around and playing. And there was  a little bit of stuff about my step dad driving around in a large monster truck. And I'm pretty sure there was something about a wilderness trail.     

I called off from work today. It seems apparent now that my little friend is in the process of dying and my heart is breaking. She can't hardly stand up without falling over. I can't bring myself to take her in to be put to sleep yet. She doesn't seem to be in any kind of pain or suffering. Just very weak. But is relaxed and sleeping peacefully. And she is still drinking water. I'm just going to spend the day and night with her wrapped in my arms and see what tomorrow brings. She is drinking water at least.


 
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: Contratonics January 15, 2020, 12:24:30 PM
That sounds like just about the comfiest way for a dog to go, heart goes out to you and her.
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: Caradon January 15, 2020, 01:20:59 PM
That sounds like just about the comfiest way for a dog to go, heart goes out to you and her.

Thank you, Contratonics.
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: Caradon January 16, 2020, 03:32:35 PM
My baby died today. Just a little after 12:00pm January 16th 2020. She died at home in my arms. I made an appointment to bring her in but she didn't last long enough for the appointment. It's better she died here at home in my arms than at the awful vet place getting put to sleep, so I'm thankful for that. Now she is gone and I can only see her in my dreams. My bike riding buddy, I'm going to miss you so much, every single day. Despite how awful it was to see you go, you were the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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: Wędajihs January 16, 2020, 08:48:24 PM
Oh no. Caradon, I feel for you. I don't know what else to say except honor her memory with all the tears it takes and bitter sweet memories that arise. I hope you are both reunited in dreams soon.

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: Caradon January 17, 2020, 12:17:15 PM
Oh no. Caradon, I feel for you. I don't know what else to say except honor her memory with all the tears it takes and bitter sweet memories that arise. I hope you are both reunited in dreams soon.

Thank you. Waking up today has been very difficult.

Thursday/January/16/2020

After bringing my little friends body to the vet to be cremated and coming home the reality of the situation started to sink in. And I was starting to freak out. She was nowhere to be seen and I just desperately needed to see her. And in a disturbing way a part of me wished I had not brought her to the vet and left her there. But what else could I do.
I just wanted to be knocked out so I took a pretty large does of Melatonin at least compared to the 3mg that I normally ever take. I took 15mg and just lay down in my tent looking at some photos for a while before falling to sleep. Every time waking up and remembering she is gone and feeling the emptiness and just wanting to go back to sleep. So many times having horrible dreams of losing her, and then waking to relief and seeing her laying their comfortably next to me. But this time waking up to the horrible reality of it. I'm sorry... I might not even have gotten up except I'm expected to be at work today. I'm so glad I didn't go in Wednesday or Thursday and stayed with her as she kept getting worse.  There is supposed to be a winter storm here today too, possibly up to 9 inches of snow. I'm kind of worried about that if it's really bad trying to drive home tonight. Does not look like it's started yet.

I actually had a lot of recall last night. And even a little brief lucidity. I was in my tent nearly 15 hours.

It felt like the deeper part of my mind was trying to help me to feel better. And help me to get lucid. In my dreams yet, probably thankfully, I had not remembered she was gone yet. I had so many dreams of the most beautiful mountains. And for some reason there was so often this running theme of an extremely high cliff.

An RC Lucid Moment

I'm just feeling too lazy and shitty to put this in my lucid dream journal right now. And I don't think I'm going to count them even though I know I should.

There was one point where I was with someone on the edge of this incredibly high and scary cliff. I think about how scary the drop is and if I could even jump if I knew it was a dream. I knew that I could. I ask the person with me if they knew this was a dream do they think they could jump? And then I decide to do a reality check. I look at my watch and look away from it and look back. When looking back at it the numbers were all bizarre looking and scrambled. And I knew it actually was a dream. But the dream faded right away and I was alone in my tent for a little moment before drifting off again.

Weird Slap In The Face Dreamsign

I'm in a vehicle with someone traveling down a road. I'm having a discussion with the person about lucid dreaming. I don't remember the conversation exactly.
When out of nowhere a strange vehicle full of people wearing Spider-Man costumes driving crazily side swipes the vehicle we are driving nearly running us off the road. And the vehicle full of Spider-Men goes racing off. The vehicle they were in is like a large jeep that is a convertible and the are several rows of seats. And every seat has someone that looks like Spider-Man sitting in it.

To the person with me I say. "Did you just see that? That's like an obvious dreamsign thrown right in your face if I ever saw one!"  I don't remember if I actually did an RC right then though I was thinking about it. But I was lucid after that. We get out of the vehicle and I look around for a few moments taking in the scene and watching the people that are walking around. I remember thinking to try and feel the dream and try to get used to the feeling of it. But that is the last thing I remember about it

Plastic Toy World

I had a really weird dream that I was a little plastic toy and my friends in the dream were little plastic toys and the world was a plastic toy world. It was so weird. And maybe even weirder even in this dream there was the high cliff theme again. I was at the top of the high toy cliff and watching my little toy friends going about doing their thing. Far below the cliff is this little plastic toy sail boat on some very plastic looking water. And I actually decided to jump off the cliff into the toy water which was not like real water but not solid either because I splashed into it. And later I had a dream where I was telling someone about this odd plastic toy world dream I was having.

Rooftop Parkour

Very vivid and long dream about climbing up onto the roof of the house. The roof of the house was elaborate in design and I was practicing parkour moves on the roof and mapping out running courses across it.
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: Caradon January 18, 2020, 05:45:23 PM
Friday/January/17/2020

Kind of annoyed my new computer isn't accessing the forum at the moment. Says page not found. But my old computer and phone are finding it fine. I think maybe the free trial McAfee that came with the computer is blocking it for some reason. Will have to figure that out. But At least my old computer is still usable to record dreams with for now. Got out of work a little early. Going to try and get to sleep early.

I only slept a few hours because of having to work in the morning. Not sure how many, maybe four hours or so. I slept until the last possible minute this morning. And I had to go out in shovel try and get out. I managed to get to work and back okay through the storm Friday night and Saturday morning. It wasn't too terrible. 

-There was a four wheeling dream It could of ended up being one  of those that got me crazy air but. There were some jumps but I never got that kind of air off of them.

- I was at a house with a lot of people and I found ice cream in the refrigerator. It tasted really good and I couldn't stop eating it. I felt kind of bad it wasn't my ice-cream and I was intending to go to the store to get more to replace it.

-There was a dream I'm not sure what was going on but I was sitting up on this raised area and trying to imitate a Buddha statue. I think I was just being silly. 
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: Caradon January 19, 2020, 09:07:29 AM
Saturday/January/18/2020

A lot of recall and a couple very close calls for lucidity. It seems like every since my little  friend died my mind has been trying to get me lucid. And recall has gotten very vivid all of a sudden. I slept in too long and don't have time to record this morning. I just want to get to sleep as soon as I can when I get home from work. So probably going to skip recording.
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: Caradon January 20, 2020, 04:23:17 PM
Sunday/January/19/2020

My first couple of days off without my friend. Trying to figure out how to function with her no longer here.  I'm just camping out in my tent. Will probably be spending a lot of time in here for at least the remainder of the winter. With my computer and Netflix. Watched some Netflix for the first time since she is gone. Just very relaxed and warm with my heating pad it's been very cold outside last few days and it's cozy and  warm in here inside of my tent. I solved the problem of being unable to access the forum from my new computer so I'm glad about that.

More very vivid recall and some lucidity that I recorded in my lucid dream journal.
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: Caradon January 21, 2020, 03:50:59 PM
Monday/January/20/2020

I slept only about four and a half hours. I was going to go back to sleep for a while but never did. More intense recall. I'm fascinated by what has been going on with my dreaming mind since my friend has gone. Ever single day so far since she has been gone extremely vivid recall with either some lucidity or very close to it. I wonder if this will continue. Or maybe if it's caused because I've not been eating very much, I don't know. Whatever is happening I'm thankful for it, hopefully it will continue.

I slept in pitch darkness for the first time last night since my friend has gone. I always previously had some sort of light on so she could get to her water if she needed to without trouble in the dark.

Ocean River Falls: Best Dreamsign Missed

My first memory is of swimming in the ocean. I get caught in a current that begins to pull me deeper out to sea. At first I'm a little worried, but instead of freaking out and fighting it I just go with it. I swim with the current and don't worry about it too much.

But then suddenly a rift (I'm not sure how else to describe it.) opens up in the ocean nearby, and another. As if the ocean itself cracks open and a crevice/rift appears and spreads open wide. The waters of the ocean rushes over the edges of the rift and down into who knows where like a massive waterfall falling into the earth. There is nothing I can do as I get sucked along with the powerful current and over the edge of the newly formed falls.

It's not as scary as it sounds as I dive headfirst over the falls, what else is there to do? It's a very long drop and hit the waters of a rushing river far below. But now it's not as if I'm under ground or under the sea. I'm just being washed along a powerful river across the land. I swim with the current and soon come to another massive waterfall. I swim right over the falls again diving head first over an extremely far drop. Again I hit the waters of a rushing river below and continue along with the currents.

I come to more waterfalls, again and again. Each time I swim and dive off over the falls to the rushing waters below. It becomes so exhilarating that it's not scary and I'm so confident of my dives.

But eventually, one of my dives ends on land. I land on my feet somehow and I have such momentum from the rushing currents that I continue to run. Just up ahead I see a massive canyon cliff. It's appearance is similar to the grand canyon.

 My momentum is out of control and  my confidence so high. A part of my mind is telling me this is insane, but I don't care I don't want to stop. Another part of my mind remembers and knows I have the skills to handle the jump. But even so I'm not sure how I know because I'm even thinking of it as I run at full super speed towards the edge of the cliff. I have no idea how I'm going to survive.

I reach the edge of the cliff at speed and leap with everything I have. Whooooaaaaaa, I rocket into the sky ridiculously high over the canyon. Dizzying height I tumble through the sky. I'm incredibly exhilarated by the experience but wonder how I could ever survive the landing from this kind of height. I think maybe I can slow my fall but instead I pick up speed. Faster and faster I fall. The ground rushes at me and it's a hard impact. Expecting a lot of pain as I slam into the ground, but there isn't. I stand up, I'm fine. I wake up thinking whoa, again. So intense.       
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: Caradon January 22, 2020, 02:22:42 PM
Tuesday/January/21/2020

Nothing from last night. I didn't sleep much. I should have slept a little more.  Something almost came back to me a couple of times but slipped away as quickly as it surfaced.
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: Caradon January 23, 2020, 01:11:48 PM
Wednesday/January/22/2020
 
Slept for a couple hours. woke up for a couple hours. and went back to sleep for a couple hours.

Nothing from last night either. Not sure what happened all of a sudden. I woke up feeling pretty disoriented for few moments. If I had time I'd try sleeping a little longer but I have to start getting ready for work.
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: Caradon January 24, 2020, 12:56:17 PM
Thursday/January/23/2020

Had some very vivid recall after a WBTB and slept in late. 

Haunted Mansion

Someone I know(not in waking life)has bought an old run down falling apart mansion that is also haunted. I love the place and think it's very cool. The mansion itself on the outside is white, peeling paint and literally falling apart in places. The place almost looks like a castle. The haunting is real, the ghosts are real. But for some reason I'm not afraid of that in least, instead, I think it's pretty awesome. I'm in the mansion in the dark getting ready to go to sleep. But I decide it that instead of sleeping I will go exploring the place in the dark looking for supernatural encounters. I'm loving how creepy the place is in the dark and the suspense of what I mind find. I take out my phone to use the flashlight but I can't get the light to turn on. I suddenly see a ghostly arm reach around me almost as if to give me a one armed hug. Startled I quickly turn, but then there is nothing there. And I think, wow.

Secret Places

I have a very vivid dream where I'm in a place that I'm not supposed to be. I'm trying to be stealthy and sneak around to find secret places to hang out that I'm not supposed to be.  The dream is definitely influence by my real life  activities down town Minneapolis when I was a teenager. I used to explore all over the place and discovered hidden places where I wasn't supposed to be. Including one of my favorites a place high up on a Marriot Hotel that had fancy lounging chairs. I found a way to sneak past security and make my way to the upper levels of the hotel where I wasn't supposed to be.
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: Wędajihs January 24, 2020, 10:57:11 PM
Haunted house! If you're ever in another haunted house, imagine me there as well. We can paranormal investigate together.
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: Caradon January 25, 2020, 09:21:58 AM
Haunted house! If you're ever in another haunted house, imagine me there as well. We can paranormal investigate together.

I'll try to remember that. haunting dreams seem to be kind of common for me. Well, I get them every now and then anyways.

Friday/January/24/2020

I had recall but I slept in to the last minute and don't have time to record. Kind of difficult to describe dreams anyways.
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: Caradon January 27, 2020, 10:13:38 AM
I'm not sure I'm going to have time to record dreams for Friday and Saturday nights. I might be sleeping in to the last minute before going in to work most of the time and not want to record when I get home. Unless I have a lucid to record. But we'll see. Things are different with me now. My little friend was in my dreams yesterday for the first time since she died, that I recall anyways. In my dreams I'm still not remembering that she has died yet. That might be a good thing, and it's good I've not had any nightmares about her final hours which I'm actually kind of surprised I've not had yet but no doubt that I will at some point. She was in my dream yesterday and we were out walking together as if everything was still the same. They still don't have the urn ready and they told it would be early last week.  But I did order a nice one with engraving so probably taking longer for that reason. 

Edit: I'm angry at myself for bringing her body to the vet and leaving her with strangers that are likely to just treat her like a product of disposal and of making money off of. How do I even know they are not just scamming me? How do I know they didn't just callously throw her in a pile with a bunch of other dogs and burn her and then scoop up some ashes to give me that may or may not even be her... I don't trust them. But I was confused and distraught and didn't know what else to do at the time. Maybe a little morbid but I wish now that I would have just wrapped her up and stored her in the freezer until spring when I could have made a legit grave for her. But there isn't anything I can do about it now. All I can do is try not to think about that and try and trust that they are doing the right thing.

Sunday/January/26/2020

I'm probably not done sleeping yet but I thought I'd write this one down now anyways.

Riverbank

My first recall is of being at a store and I'm looking at camping equipment. I see this big hooded rain almost poncho type rain jacket. I try it on and I like how it feels. The jacket feels thick and heavy and just gives me a comfy feeling of security and protection. And it's also made with a camo design.

The next thing I remember is being out in the wilderness walking with a group of people. There is something about a section of forest off to my left that I'm compelled to go and explore. Just something about the way the area looks that makes me want to go and check the area out. The people I'm with keep wanting to keep going the other way. But I end up getting them to follow me.

I walk in said direction, past a little clear area and then through a tree line. I come to a tall bank/hill that slopes steeply down to a body of water. At first I think the water is a lake, but then I realize it's actually a very wide river that snakes around to the left.

I see someone slide down the hill/bank on their feet like they are skiing, only half way down they fall because they are unable to maintain their balance. I know that I have the skill to do so and want to show off. So I make the slide down the slope on my feet. I make it to the bottom without falling no problem as I knew I would. It's so much fun that I want to do it again. So I run back up the slope and do it again. And then again. I wake up.

I've been awake since, about 1:30am it's about 8:15am as I type this I've stayed up longer than intended already. Will edit anymore dreams in later if I sleep more and have recall, will still be counted as Sunday nights dreams unless I just end up sleeping into the rest of the night rather than just taking a nap.

Edit: I took a two hour nap and had a vivid dream but it was confusing and weird and I'm not sure how to describe what was going on.
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: Caradon January 28, 2020, 04:37:57 PM
Monday/January/27/2020

All I recalled is a fragment of being in an apartment that resembled an apartment I used to live at. There was someone else there. I don't remember the details but I had the feeling there was some kind of conflict. Possibly fighting with someone just before I woke. My clearest memory of it is looking at the windows and seeing them half covered by the curtains and thinking about people possibly being able to see in.
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: Caradon January 29, 2020, 10:50:14 AM
Tuesday/January/28/2020

Nothing significant recalled. 
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: Caradon January 30, 2020, 12:53:11 PM
Wednesday/January/29/2020

Funeral

I'm at a place I guess is supposed to be a funeral home and I'm trying to make preparations for the funeral of a dearly loved friend. Though it's kind of weird, the place is like an electronics store like Best Buy.  There are sales people trying to help me and are surprised at the amount of money I'm willing to spend. I want it to be the biggest and best funeral there ever was and I don't care how much it costs. The sales people are gathering all the best and newest most expensive gadgets and gizmos of the latest technologies. I know it's going to cost many thousands I don't care. I might be in debt for the rest of my life because of it and I don't care. It's not important.

Slasher

I'm on a many leveled dock on a large body of water. There is a slasher hunting me. I get the feeling that it's supposed to be Jason Vorhees From Friday The 13th that is after me. I'm on the upper levels of the dock and he is on the lower. I'm doing my best to keep a level or two between us.

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: Caradon January 31, 2020, 02:43:37 PM
Thursday/January/30/2020

I had to go run some errands so short on time. I recalled a dream where I was trying to avoid some black bears by climbing out of their reach. I didn't recall the dream at first, but when I turned on my computer there was an image of a deer on the screen. When I saw the deer I had the feeling there were wild animals in my dreams. After a moment the bear dream came back to me. I didn't get to do much of a WBTB because of having to go do some things before work today.
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: Caradon February 03, 2020, 04:13:05 PM
I got my little friends urn back today. Not feeling so good.

From Saturday night February/1/2020

After a WBTB and the weirdest creepiest WILDing experience I've had that I'll post in my wild journal. I fell back to sleep and had some very vivid and intense recall. Nearly lucid a couple of times as I was thinking about it but just kind of shrugged it off.

A Nice Dream

In this dream she was alive healthy and young. Running around playing like a puppy. Wrestling with me. There was someone there and I say to them you would never know she is 18 years old with all of this energy.

First Of The Bad Ones

I have her body wrapped up in the blanket that I carried her to the vet in. I carry her outside to a big dumpster as if I'm going to just drop her in the garbage. I'm distraught and need to see her one last time. I unwrap the blanket and she has already begun to decompose. Some of her flesh and fur coming off, sticking to the blanket as I unwrap her. I don't care and I wrap my arms around in a hug  even as she rots in my arms I don't want to let go. And I wonder what the fuck I was thinking about to throw her in the garbage dumpster what the fuck. And I walk away with her held tightly in my arms.


Compactor

I step into this building. It's sort of like a parking garage. Once I step in, the doors behind me close and lock. The walls and ceiling begin to move. Slowly. The ceiling is lowering, the walls are closing in. It's like I'm in some kind of trash compacter. Only it's a building. I'm wondering why anyone would design a building like this. It's extremely vivid. I call out, trying to let someone know someone is in here. It doesn't matter the walls and ceiling keep closing in. I'm going to be slowly crushed to death in here. I'm trying to figure out how to escape. There doesn't seem to be any way to escape. I wake before the crushing end.

 

 
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: Caradon February 03, 2020, 05:35:59 PM
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: Caradon February 04, 2020, 07:26:08 PM
Monday/February/3/2020

I don't remember a lot. Just a little bit about going into a garage with my brother to get a jet ski that is on a trailer. He is going to hitch it onto his truck and we are going to take it to the lake. It was a pretty vivid dream moment but I woke up before we actually took the jet ski anywhere.
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: Caradon February 06, 2020, 02:52:43 PM
I did too long of a WBTB and slept in too late. I'll try to update when I get home from work.

Edit: Now my wrist is acting up. Started flaring up at work tonight. It's really bad at the moment. Hopefully will be better tomorrow. I shouldn't have been typing in the tent instead of at the table where I was. That's probably why started acting up all of a sudden. Was not giving me any trouble for quite a while.
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: Caradon February 07, 2020, 02:55:08 PM
My wrist is a little better this morning but still a bit sore. We'll see what it's like at work tonight.
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: Caradon February 08, 2020, 08:53:48 AM
By some miracle my wrist was perfectly fine by the time I went to work last night, like there was never anything wrong with it. So strange. Thursday, throughout most of my shift it was bothering me just a little, not too bad, but I could feel it. And I was using my squeeze ball whenever I could to try and work it out.  But towards the end of my shift I went to pick something up. The item I tried to pick up got caught on something and I pulled on it to try and get it free. It put pressure on my wrist just the wrong way and pain shot through my wrist. And all of a sudden my wrist was hurting so bad I couldn't even barely use my hand. And by the time I got home I couldn't even barely move my hand at all because it was so painful just to try and move it, turn it. Use any pressure to grip anything...  And it was hurting all night. I was seriously worried I wasn't going to be able to do my job. But by the time I got to work Friday night, there was no longer anything wrong with it at all. And I was able to use it even for the most strenuous things I need to use it for without even so much as the slightest pain. I'm not sure how it could go from being that bad to perfectly fine that quickly. I was trying to do a healing meditation on it as I fell to sleep, focusing my awareness into my wrist and massaging it with my mind. But who knows if that is what helped or not. "Shrugs."
 
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Didn't sleep much last night and wasn't able to do any WBTB because of having to work early in the morning. Yesterday I recalled a couple of dreams, vividly. After a WBTB. Both dreams had an unpleasant undertone as if I was aware that something was wrong but I wasn't really consciously thinking about what it was. In the first dream I was just  sitting in my chair in front of my big TV watching and  episode of "Criminal Minds" In the dream, I was on vacation again. I was sitting there trying to enjoy the moment and slow down time as I was so much during my last vacation. I had cigarettes and I was chain smoking. I kind of thought about that I shouldn't be smoking, but I decided that I didn't care and just kept smoking. The scene on the TV was vivid nd disturbing I'm not going to describe in detail. If anyone reading this, has ever watched Criminal Minds you are aware of the disturbing themes. Psycho paths and serial killers. The scene on the TV in my dream was of such a theme. Some psycho path had abducted someone and was doing awful things to them. And it was very graphic and disturbing. I remember thinking about how graphic and disturbing the scene was even for and episode of Criminal Minds.

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Another dream that was more pleasant, but still had the unpleasant undertone/feeling tone. I was on a bus headed downtown. I decide that I don't need to take the bus I can just walk, I'm thinking it will only take a few hours. And then I remember I can run, and that I can also run and parkour through the city. So I get off the bus.I didn't really do much running or parkouring before waking up. The unpleasant undertone came from the reason I was out doing what I was doing in the first place. Even though I wasn't really thinking about the reason, but I was aware that there was no reason for me to be going home. So I was just out wandering the city, feeling lost and dead inside not knowing what else too do. Just wandering.
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: Caradon February 09, 2020, 07:57:58 AM
Saturday/February/8/2020

I slept a little less than five hours. I didn't have time for any WBTB because of having to work early.

I woke up with a dream recalled and was about to take notes on it but fell back to sleep before I did. Now I don't remember exactly what it was. But I remember a specific co-worker was in the dream. But I'm pretty sure the scene was not at work.
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: Caradon February 11, 2020, 12:35:24 AM
Sunday/February/9/2020

I'm not sure how long I slept, I don't remember exactly. I woke up after about three hours from a vivid intense dream. After some consideration I've decided not to write it down at all due to disturbing content better kept to myself. I went back to sleep for a little while and had another vivid dream but nicer. I was going to sleep more during the day but I had to go out and do something and didn't get back to sleep. Well, that's not exactly true. I was getting sleepy about 4:00pm so went back to sleep intending to sleep until at least midnight. But I woke up about 6:30pm without recall and decided to just get up. I'll probably stay awake most of the night now, and go back to sleep around the time the sun starts coming up unless I start getting too sleepy again before then.

Mountain

The first thing I recall is I'm riding my bike up a steep mountain trail that curves upwards to the left. It's very difficult. Even though it's a dream my mind is simulating the feeling of struggling to pedal hard up a very steep incline quite well. It feels very realistic as I'm barely able to do it. And pedaling as hard as I can.

I make it up the left hand upward curve of the trail. But then I have to stop and get off the bike because it's become too difficult to pedal up the climb and my pace has slowed to the point of a near stop, so have to actually stop or fall over. I look up the trail and it continues very steeply through a mountain forest. It's quite beautiful but I'm like "Gah, there is no relenting with this steep incline."

I notice a large tree limb that has fallen. The tree limb has fallen on top of an animal that looks like a squirrel. It appears the squirrel has died due to the tree limb falling onto it and is pinned under the tree limb. After taking note of the situation I move on up the trail.

I no longer have my bike the bike just smoothly disappeared without my noticing of it as is often the way with dreams. The trail leading upwards comes to an overlooking cliff. I want to look over the cliff and see what lies beyond.

A fear of heights and vertigo is nearly overwhelming as I approach the edge of the cliff. My curiosity and desire to see the view beyond is stronger than my fear of heights. I force myself forward to the edge of the cliff, but vey slowly and carefully. I look out over the cliff and the view is beautiful. I look down, it's a long drop. But far below I can see a beautiful city. I'm compelled to reach the city, but of course, I will need to find a way along the mountains that will get me down there. There is no way for me to descend the extremely high and steep cliff. I never get there because I wake while still admiring the view and wondering how to find my way down to the city below.   

 
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: Caradon February 12, 2020, 01:32:40 AM
Monday/February/10/2020

I slept kind of weird. I went to sleep about 4:00am I was getting tired then I only slept about two hours with no recall. I was intending to go back to sleep earlier. But I was awake until about  4:00pm. I couldn't keep my eyes open any more so I went to sleep and slept until about 11:00pm. Now I'll be awake for who knows how long before trying to get some more sleep before Wednesday evening.

Heist

The first thing I recall is invading some building with a group of masked burglars. There is a lot of commotion, people running around. I don't remember what we were after but we are there to steal something. The security is onto us and we are in a hurry and trying to pull off the job and escape before capture. Hurriedly making our way along corridors crowded with people that are running this way and that.

We come to some digital key code device on a wall. I'm supposed to put in the code that is supposed unlock something important to our mission. Crap, I'm not sure I remember the code. Stupid, I should have had it written down. I start typing in numbers that feel familiar. They come naturally. I don't remember  exactly but there was fives twos and threes in the code.

The device accepts the code, yes, got it. I can see the device going through the motions of loading. We make our way down a corridor to where there are elevator doors along one side of the hall. I hit a button impatiently waiting for the elevator. I can hear mechanical motion behind the wall of the moving elevator. I wake before the elevator doors can open.

I had a lot of other jumbled up fragments that I'm not sure how to describe. 

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: Caradon February 12, 2020, 02:16:01 PM
Tuesday/February/11/2020

I ended up staying awake until around 7:00am and sleeping until 11:30am. Actually Wednesday morning but as always counted as Tuesday nights sleep.
I don't remember much. I have recall of a vivid fragment about climbing a tree and the tree limbs falling off the tree making it difficult to climb.  I think there was something about a war or some kind of battle. As I'm typing this just for a second something about being at an apartment started to come back to me and then slipped away again. Maybe it will come back in a bit.
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: Caradon February 13, 2020, 12:57:31 PM
Wednesday/February/12/2020

A visit

A dream of my little friend. In the dream she is full of energy and hungry. Following me around trying to get me to get her something to eat. I'm happy to see her like this. I don't remember that she has actually died but I remember that she was not feeling well and not wanting to eat. So I'm happy to see her up and about with a healthy appetite. I go to get her a treat but I wake shortly.

Bike Shop

I'm at the bike shop. It's an Eric's bike shop that is near my home in waking life. It's a bike shop that deals in high end expensive bikes. I'm not sure if I can ever ride my old bike again. So I'm thinking about indulging myself in a new bike for the upcoming summer. I have money saved so I could do it if I really want to. I'm considering purchasing the Specialized that I've wanted for a long time. Something in the two to three thousand range. Something a little more road and paved trail designed, but still capable of going on off road trails from time to time when necessary. Something fast and light and rides smooth as butter for long distance travel. 

I'm at the shop and not actually sure I want to spend the money until I see something that I like. I decide hell with it why not. I tell the store clerk to go ahead and ring me up. The dream goes into a long ordeal of finding just the right size for me. And then they still have brand new ones still unassembled in the box so I tell them I want them to assemble one of the ones still in the box for  me rather than buying one off the floor. There is a long ordeal to that. I'm not the only customer either there is a lot of other people there that they are trying to help there is a lot of commotion and different things going on.
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: Wędajihs February 14, 2020, 02:10:52 AM
So glad you enjoyed your visit from your friend. I think, at first, it's better you don't realize they've passed on in dream. It's best to just enjoy experience one another again.
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: Caradon February 14, 2020, 12:59:56 PM
So glad you enjoyed your visit from your friend. I think, at first, it's better you don't realize they've passed on in dream. It's best to just enjoy experience one another again.

Thanks, yeah it was nice. I had another one recently I never ended up writing down where she was running around and playing like a puppy. There was a bad  one little ways back too.

Thursday/February/13/2020

Not very good recall. Mostly fragments. There was a dream about walking around at the bottom of the ocean. It wasn't that deep but I could breath the water for some reason. I remember being surprised that there wasn't much for fish or anything. The wasn't much of anything of interest at the bottom of the ocean here.

- I remember something about a snake.

-Something about mice.

-There was a work dream I don't remember much of.



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: Caradon February 17, 2020, 03:53:15 PM
Didn't have time to record for Friday and Saturday.

Sunday/February/16/2020

I slept in through most of the day Monday. But no significant recall. I was having a lot of dreams but can only remember bits and pieces. There was a lot of people in my dreams. And I remember some work stuff and some motocross stuff probably the best.
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: Caradon February 19, 2020, 11:54:06 AM
Yesterday I had some recall but I had to get my taxes done. By the time I was finished I just wanted to relax and enjoy the rest of my day off and didn't want to do anything else online. I knew I should have recorded first, then the taxes. But I just wanted to get it done and over with. I already put it off for two weeks because I've not been in the mood to do it, and not desperate for cash. But it's done now thankfully. 

Tuesday/January/18/202

I didn't sleep very much as intended. I didn't even WBTB since I couldn't fall back to sleep. I tried to get a couple more hours but I gave up on trying to relax my mind enough to fall back to sleep. I recalled a vivid fragment

Flies

Sitting on a couch in the living room of a house. I think is supposed to be where I live but it's not like where I live at all. My sister is there. There are some  flies buzzing around me annoyingly. I get really annoyed with it and wonder where all these flies are coming from. I look over and I'm horrified and grossed out to see black flies crawling all over the end table. I look around and grab a cloth that I see nearby. I use the cloth to start swatting all the flies that I can trying to kill them all.