Tab's intuitive answers

[luctab]

I had been sleeping and at 4am I hear someone else, knowing it can't be JM, but think it has to be bc it wouldn't be anyone else. They get in bed and cuddle me, it's different and they're not as tall as they shoudl be. I know it's BD. I call him by someone else's name on purpose, David. He's pissed. later I'm telling someone what happened, maybe BN? and also later, I'm eating with JM and he says B's not my friend on fb anymore. I comment that it's funny he knows that and I had no idea, but that I'm kinda glad bc it's a lot simpler for a lot of things.

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LD and a bunch of us are in a truck. she's busy with her daughter. husband is holding onto DW and his arm is around her, stroking her shoulder and they're cuddled under a blanket. I mention it to LD, but I dont want to. She and him go for a bike ride once we get to location and I watch the daughter. we swim in a pool. it gets so hot, but she's cold, and she's tired so we're ab to get out, when Mr's sis shows up and wants to play with her in the pool. she goes to change before I can say anything. I decide we should go ahead and get out at least for awhile, so she can warm up.

[luctab]

I have pulled this up every single day this week to update and can't seem to get all my dreams in before the day is done and lose them :( Was on vaca with NO service at all last week! and life has been mass chaos ever since SO. The only exciting thing to speak of in dream life the last week or two, a lucid dream:

 my mom is trying to convince me to think more seriously about religion and going to church, and I immediately RC, didnt even really think about it. Lucid! Went up thru the ceiling, then as soon as I got to it thought ab how it would be strange if it didnt work. So of course then I 'couldn't' and reminded myself it was just cause I said that and attempted to remedy by slowly putting my hand/arm thru the ceiling, and paying attention to the sensation. Mom attempts to pull me back into the plot, physically, by my arm haha. I decide to surprise her and kiss her lol and then I see JM and decide I'd like to do the same to him. We decide we want to have sex. he turns into a moose (A has been reading that mooses' loose tooth book a lot lately). I want until the room clears and he turns back to JM. Start playing around and have lucid sex, just. amazing. my gosh. but after the initial state I can't seem to recall a damn thing.

Other than that
- a dream with really cool architecture and old buildings, I pay very close attention to detail and a special seal on an envelope.
- being in the ocean with MH, her bf who keeps voicing ab how he would much rather be at the spa, swimming with dolphins, a strange house that's composed like a doll house, where the entire front of it's gone yet it's still apparently liveable. I walk around the rooms wondering if I'll remember not to fall out the front. I see MH's mom here and her kid, who is really smart.
-a dream with a large engine room, with lots of ..equipment? I'm stuck in ehre with A and I'm told it's unhealthy here so I try to leave. I remember at one point yelling "shut up".
-being in T's house (my babysitter who has suddenly disappeared off the face of the earth IWL), I talk to her in her basement and try to see what's been going on.

[pj]

I just returned from a camping expedition in Michigan's Upper Peninsula.  I didn't even bring a computer - made a decision to disconnect for that time.  I'm glad I did.

I hope your time away was as enjoyable as mine!

[luctab]

Thanks PJ - I'm glad you had such a good time! and ooooh. It was I loved every second!!! It was a perfect break. Strange with no technology but completely awesome!

[luctab]

Posting a few nights at once, clearly I cant' seem to get seperate posts done haha

8.15
-More dreams of trying to connect with my disappeared sitter. go to try and find her at her house and she's in her basement. She's doing laundry. We chat some.
-frag: eating rice crispies with yogurt.

8.16 recall that I had lost babysitter dreams again, but no details

8.17
-being on a trip. JS asks me like 12 times to let him take me to a shrimp meal, which I'm admittedly not fond of nor do I want to go out with him. I finally agree so he will quit badgering me and we have a salad.
-fragA's other grandpa RD is somewhere in a dream, driving me and A someplace.
-There are a lot of puppies, I have one and am looking for others. Lil boxes of choc that look like the puppies. There's some dance school A is going to. I'm trying to pay them, a younger girl and trying to cancel her membership and lost it, says I can't pay it until she finds it. She does. I say, "thank goodness because I like this place better than my bed!"...

8.19
Sex on a train. quite involved. JM starts it and licks me ear strangely. I'm trying to tell BF that I found her debit card and she can't seem to hear me but there's no noise or anything. I say it like 5 times.and she continues to repeat back something I didnt say.
- FA. Laying in bed charging my phone, waiting for JM to text back and realizing I must be asleep, we already said goodnight and I was sooo tired. I say that to my phone screen, that I'm asleep, so I lay my head down and go back to sleep. DAMN.

8.21
many dreams ab my friend last night, that committed suicide years ago. JD. like 3 different ones. had a fa or real wakening and recall feeling very sad ab how much I miss him and I just want to cry. but I'm so tired i just want to go back to sleep.
- work dream frags
- getting the mail frag
-2 bigger dogs and a lil one that kept thinking they had puppies, a military guy followed it with a fake dog. going to the denist and JM pays for it without telling me. I'm kinda upset ab it. There's a guy in there that had gotten gas and he was pretty funny ab it. 

[luctab]

A lot of TD dreams last night. I think bc JM's base is called that. We chat forever and have quite interesting convo. He was JM, but looked like TD, it was weird. At some point I'm making some kind of movie, there's a man in a polar bear costume. mom is around someplace and things starting flying around in the air and we have to dodge and run quickly. A girl totally creeps me out.Then I'm looking at my body in a bed type thing, I see I'm dead. A man says I'm back in spirit bc my love for him was strong enough to hold me there, he thinks. I'm so upset all I can do is stare, but the whole thing is apart of this movie.

[luctab]

8.23.12
on a vaca at a cabin for Mikey's bday. w BD. We're cheating on each other. I make breakfast for everyone. Mikey has everyone take quervo shots and leaves the bottle for me? There's a spinning rack of unopened calenders in this cabin, I look at it a long while, wondering the point of it exactly. BD think we should get A her halloween costume. It's Halloween day, late. go to the store for fun, observe ppl. There's a small group including rob schneider that seem to have stolen a small child and are looking around in paranoia. BD turns into him. Suddenly bd/rob schneider turns into the guy I'm cheating with. I take him to meet my parents.

8.24.12 no recall

[luctab]

not much recall over the weekend, late nights, early mornings, too focused on the many daytime activities and not focused enough on my nighttime!!! Even last night. Woke in the middle of the night, recalled a very detailed dream, didnt force myself to record, my pillow felt too damn good. :( but even now I do rem a little ab it:

What a nice girl
 ER (past person related to TD that keeps popping back up in my present life) booking her bachelorette party and they totally screw her over. Overcharge for what they DO do for her and completely lose her reservation and all her arrangements. I'm pissed for her. I ask if she wants me to take care of it. she says no and calls them, and she doesnt take a lot of shit, but she still lets them win. She's being too nice. I think, what a nice girl.

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8.29
Secret Place in the Mountains
- My brother and I are taking a walk. We get to a small pond with pebbles in the bottom. It's a secret place and there are other kids and parents and I can't understand how they came to find out about our place. We walk into the pond. CM and AM are the parents in charge. CM directs them on how to descent so you're in. SF is there bc its the anniversary of his mom's passing. I come down further in the water and suddenly I'm floating down thru the air. I look around and everything is so vivid like HD. bright yellow mountains and cliffs, valleys of bright green trees, beautiful blue oceans sparkling, birds fly near me and they look like something from Dr. Suess. The air smells sweet and there are bubbles floating thru the air too. I look at my brother excitedly as I always do tho I know we were here pretty recently. At some point we all resurface and CM directs everyone on how to get out. Ring around the rosie is playing. He wants to go get high, he makes up something diff of course but I know what he means haha. His wife AM doesnt want to go bc the other adult is her friend and doesnt smoke and will be left here alone with the kids and she doesnt think that's fair. I kinda hope they all just leave but am glad they went. The pond is in the mountains, in a clearing on a hiking trail. I can hear someone asking if I am okay, using my full name, sounds like my moms voice I think?

frag
- something ab a vaca with my sister and dad & fam

Clock Stopping and Shopping
- shopping in a discount store. small alarm clocks for $0.40 each. I get one and throw it to s ee what I can hit and it shatters and is pretty funny. Have employee #136 direct me to clock #148, throw it and it hits my brother. It doesnt hurt him at all but hes surprised and I laugh, it's kinda hysterical so we start that game

[Caradon]

Sounds like a very pleasant dream, that secret place in the mountains. 

[luctab]

It was very pleasant!! I haven't been on here in quite some time it its a bit heartwarming to remember that dream

[luctab]

Been on vacation again, spent a lot of time excited and planning and now have gotten out of the habit of journaling. I will get better again!!!!! I can't believe it's been so long. Have recalled and journaled a few dreams:

-A family function with grandma and she's smoking!!! I stare at her for quite some time. I mean I guess family fuctions can be stressful, she deserves a lil break. I just had no idea. She looks at me and blows smoke rings. I stare some more (dang tab! heeelllloooo )
- BN losing her ring in numerous places, we search constantly and find it.
- shopping at a really cool thrift store and running into large amounts of money.
- an FA, thinking I journaled and I didnt.
- Rogue cheer campers at our senior trip, camping obviously. JB gay w DB
- a gas station bathroom, BD at the register, the attendent keeps adding a dollar to the total after everythign is all paid, like the register is messing up? I can hear it all going on because I'm sitting down in the bathroom and the door keeps popping open and some guy keeps trying to look in. I keep shutting the door. back open. wtf. (lol taaaaaab! nonsensical frustrating situations ) he finally gets his all paid and leaves, and then it's me and the same thing happens, over and over, and he still owes $1 and so do I, I open my clutch and happen to have $7, with 2 $1 bills, so I use those to cover and walk out, thinking geez why is it so difficult to just freakin go pee and get my damn total.