fisherj's journal

[fisherj]

Dance
Non-lucid

I'm at school for some sort of dance performance thing, and we're meant to perform it upstairs outside the dance room. I think that this is dangerous, as it's concrete. We have to perform some dance that I don't really like, I don't do much in it and I say to someone that I don't get to show off my flexibility. There are a few girls I do dance with there, but there are also other people I don't really recognize. When the performance has finished, someone tells me that M was in the audience, and came to watch me. I was annoyed because we did such a crap dance. Our dance teacher (not IWL) then told us to do some stretches and I'm using this table to stretch my legs.

I can't recall anything at the moment, it's really annoying.

[fisherj]

This morning I went back to sleep for an hour because I was so tired, had such a good lucid! It wasn't especially long, time wise, but it was rather detailed, not to mention really.. real

Maps/beach
Lucid

I'm sitting on this red heart shaped couch, it's made out of velvet. It's so soft, I decide to lie down..I don't feel tired, just very relaxed and happy. I seem to have WILD vibrations of some sort, and become super aware of where I am. There are quite a few people around now, and it reminds me of a scene Inception (the hotel that they are in). I notice A in the crowd, and he waves to me to come and look at a large sheet of paper he's holding. I go over and see that it's a map. We have a conversation:
'What's wrong with this map?'
(me) 'I don't know, I'm not very good at maps'
'Look at it closely. Does it look familliar to you?'
'It has too many lines'
'Yes, but does it look familliar?'
'No.'
'Think about why it doesn't'
I don't understand and ask him why he's asking me this. His response:
'Because it's important!'
(me) 'I.. can't see Australia, is it on the back?'
'No, it's not there.'
'That's impossible! Why isn't it there?' (I can't believe how daft I was being)
'Ask yourself that'
I think to myself why it isn't there. After a while, it hits me. I'm dreaming! I start laughing and tell A that this is all a dream. He tells me he knows I get really excited as I haven't had a LD that isn't in my house in a while, and I decide to try snap my finger in half. I snap my pinky, but I can't feel it, only an odd warm feeling in my finger. A tells me I shouldn't do that, as it could have adverse effects IWL. Something else happened here but I can't remember. I decide to try and focus on one of my main goals, to levitate/fly as high as I can. I see a bridge, and I say to myself that if I jump off it, I won't fall, I'll fly. I run towards the edge of the bridge and jump, and I realize I'm flying I go upwards until I'm up pretty high, and instead of clouds around me there's all this purple fog. When I touch it, it's really cold, reminds me of dry ice. I suddenly realize how alone I am up in the sky, and I wish I hadn't left the ground so quickly :( I try and get back to the ground. This proves difficult, as I'm not entirely sure how to go downwards.. I get really frustrated and just end up giving up, and this seems to be the key and I start dropping, fast.. I slam into some sort of sand. (well that should of killed me) I'm on a giant beach.. It's beautiful, and really sunny. The water looks amazing, so I decide to go in. I don't have anything to swim in and I don't want to get my clothes wet.. But then I realize it doesn't matter and go in my underwear the water is so warm, it's actually amazing (and made me really want the beach when I woke up) and I go underwater for ages and just swim around (novelty of not actually needing to breathe hasn't worn off yet apparently) and I decide to go back to shore. I swim back insanely fast, get out, and put my clothes back on. I look around and the beach is completely deserted, and I start to get annoyed at the lack of people. I realize that there are a few people on the beach, a few of them from a musical I was in a few months ago, but most of them are a lot older and seem uninteresting. A voice in my head tells me I need to stay where I am, so I do, and J comes over! I tell him I was getting really bored, and decide to ask him questions. I ask him if he knows this is a dream and he tells me to 'shut up and not be so ridiculous'. I want to argue with him but realize that it's pointless. I notice that there is the purple mist again, mostly to the left of me, and I spot A again and ask him if he knows what it is. He tells me something along the lines of that it's very important, because it's growing and I'm becoming more aware of it. I'm really confused, and ask him what it is again. He says that 'only I can find that out'. This goes on for a while, and by now, there's purple all around me and I can't see anything anymore. I wake up.

I think it's funny how when I don't try at all to have a LD.. I have a pretty cool one.
oh and thanks A  

[fisherj]

Party fragment
At a party. There's something to do with N, I'm talking to him.

I really need to write down my dreams as soon as I wake up from them, but I have been so tired lately! When exams are finished i'll work on it.

[arliatis]

Maps/beach

That was a really good lucid, you got a lot done.
haha I'm happy to help interesting how i act, seem very... knowledgeable.

[fisherj]

That was a really good lucid, you got a lot done.
haha I'm happy to help interesting how i act, seem very... knowledgeable.

I know! I'm happy, because for once I actually got to do things I wanted!
 hmm, well I think my SC was correct, you seem like a knowledgeable person anyway   I wish I knew what all the fog was about though... 

[fisherj]

I remember trying to WILD last night, I got vibrations and HI, but nothing seemed to come of it. It happened really easily though, I wasn't really trying that hard, maybe it was all the caffeine I had yesterday?

Annoying screaming fragment
Non-lucid
Someone came up to me, and kept screaming unexpectedly. Just when I thought they had gone away, they would do it again, and it was making me really angry.

Fog fragment
Non-lucid
All I remember is that there was purple fog again..

confusing!  

[Hukif]

Oh, how cool! A DC helped you to become lucid!

[arliatis]

I know! I'm happy, because for once I actually got to do things I wanted!
 hmm, well I think my SC was correct, you seem like a knowledgeable person anyway   I wish I knew what all the fog was about though... 

Seems worth it, i've never been able to fly higher than the clouds, i always fall.
Oh yer, how'd you find that? Landing from lethal falls feels weird for me, its not like i just stop, i can really feel it!
I forgot to mention it before, interesting how when you had your WILD vibrations you became more aware. Thats my next thing i'm trying to work with
and with the fog i can't really help, i've never come across it before.
haha i'm flattered

[fisherj]

Oh, how cool! A DC helped you to become lucid!

I know! Something i've never experienced before, too, usually my DC's try and stop that 

Seems worth it, i've never been able to fly higher than the clouds, i always fall.
Oh yer, how'd you find that? Landing from lethal falls feels weird for me, its not like i just stop, i can really feel it!
I forgot to mention it before, interesting how when you had your WILD vibrations you became more aware. Thats my next thing i'm trying to work with
and with the fog i can't really help, i've never come across it before.
haha i'm flattered

yeah, I was surprised, it's been something i've really wanted to do for a while and I've never gotten up so high!   with the falling.. felt like i'd been winded, and it really hurt for a second or two... but nothing that bad, I think it might have been because I expected the landing to be kinda soft?  I wish I felt pain more in my dreams tbh, I think it would make everything far more real.
oh really? that's cool! They were so much more.. intense in my dreams, moreso than i've ever experienced in real life as well
mmm, really weird with the fog, I wish I couldd have taken a picture, mybe i'll see it again tonight if i don't fail at wbtb
and, good

[pj]

That conversation with the DC about the map is absolutely amazing!  Hopefully he'll help you out again some time.

[fisherj]

That conversation with the DC about the map is absolutely amazing!  Hopefully he'll help you out again some time.

I know, it was an excellent conversation, I hope so too


Towels- Before wbtb
Non-lucid

I'm walking back to C's house from a shop with J and C, and J is being really suggestive for some reason. It's sunny, and we're carrying bags with things we've just bought in them. Once we get back to C's, C's mum asks her something about a doctor. I have a conversation with C about the doctor:
(C) 'Mum says I should go to the doctor more, but..'
'Yeah, it's like, you can't be bothered?'
'Yeah I just ceebs, I know it's good for you and and stuff but gee, can I be bothered..'
(It's really hard to write this conversation down, because it was the way she said it, which was really funny and very similar to how she speaks IWL)
Then, because a doctor told us to, we had to have a shower. (can't remember actually having one but now I'm in a towel apparently) and we're still outside.. Now though, C has turned into M and it's her house. We're both in towels and need to cross the living room to get to her room, and I say that it's going to be so awkward because I have never met her family and now I'm nearly naked in front of them, but she shrugs it off and we go inside. As we were crossing the living room, I was scared that the towel would fall off, it felt like it was shrinking.. And I saw M's older brother (who doesn't exist IWL) and prettymuch ran to M's room. I sat on the bed, and noticed that she had an insane amount of Halo (the game) merchandise, and I thought this was interesting. She was also now wearing a headset..

I did wbtb but again, it didn't have very good results, I think I stayed up too long (I only stayed awake for 10 minutes!) and it took me ages to get back to sleep/generally failed. The only thing that it was useful for was that I wrote down the dream above pretty easily.

Party/bed- after wbtb
Non-lucid

I'm sitting in this orange booth at a party, next to K. I'm talking to Georgia who's opposite me, about something, but K keeps trying to come on to me, which is rather distracting. I get annoyed because I don't want Georgia to be a witness to this, but I can't seem to bring myself to stop K distracting me. So genearlly this situation is rather awkward. Luckily, we go and organize beds for the night, and we see that we're all sleeping on one large bed (my group was there as well). K seems disappointed about this (haha) and asks if we can sleep on the bed next to the big one, which is separate. I get annoyed at this and say no.

[fisherj]

Ranch (before wbtb)
Non-lucid

I'm at some kind of country house on a huge property, and I'm inclined to think of it as some sort of Ranch. Me, K and Georgia are sitting at this park, which looks like the park near my school IWL. It's sunset, and we are just sitting on the grass talking about stuff, when suddenly K spots this guy she used to go out with who cheated on her. He was jogging and hadn't spotted us yet. K gets very angry and says that we have to ambush him. Georgia and I agree, although we're not as enthusiastic as she is. By now he's jogging just up the road, but still pretty close, and it's a similar road-layout to IWL except, as per usual, everything is far more spaced apart. We walk, in a kind of far-apart triangular formation, towards the guy. He doesn't notice us, and we get closer, until K gives up on being stealthy and just runs up to him and starts yelling at him/hitting him. Georgia and I kind of awkwardly stand there looking at each other, wondering what to do. The guy seems to be unaffected by K and doesn't seem to mind that much.

Now, I'm in what seems to be a locker-room at the ranch. It's quite big, and has wood-paneled walls and a few wood supporting beams, and wooden benches lined up through the middle. It's warm in here, and I'm walking over to some far corner. Before I reach the corner this guy, late 30's, taps me on the shoulder and I turn around. He's wearing grey pants and a tucked in shirt, and is wearing glasses. He hands me this vacuum, and we have a brief conversation:
'I'm returning the vacuum back because there are only a few days left until this camp ends'
(me) 'No, I don't want it, I have no use for it..'
'Here, take it anyway, I think it belongs in here'
So I take the vacuum and put it on one of the benches. The guy leaves, and I'm glad, because although he was being nice he had a distinct creepy aspect to him and I didn't want to be alone with him. Now, theres an email from my English Lit teacher being read out/shown. I wasn't sitting at a computer reading it.. it was more like I was the computer. The email says/ read something along the lines of this:
'Hey guys, just reminding you that you have three assignments to finish for me. (true IWL also ) But don't worry, I'm giving you the three days until this camp finishes and of course the morning we leave.'
The voice reading it out was this odd, nasally voice which sounded strangely similar to one of my friends impersonating him.
It's odd, there was this sense of foreboding when I was in the locker rooms, because I knew I had to leave soon. It was making me really sad!

I did wbtb again, with not very good results. Argh!

fragment- sad
non-lucid

I'm holding someone's hand. I don't know who it is, because I was only looking at our hands.
I woke up from this not remembering anything else, but I had such a strong feeling of being sad when I woke up that it's really annoying me as to why I can't remember anything else! The emotional intensity of only that fragment was so unexpected.

Both of those dreams had a feeling of melancholy to them, I felt so.. depressed for a while when I woke up.


  

[arliatis]

yeah, I was surprised, it's been something i've really wanted to do for a while and I've never gotten up so high!   with the falling.. felt like i'd been winded, and it really hurt for a second or two... but nothing that bad, I think it might have been because I expected the landing to be kinda soft?  I wish I felt pain more in my dreams tbh, I think it would make everything far more real.
oh really? that's cool! They were so much more.. intense in my dreams, moreso than i've ever experienced in real life as well
mmm, really weird with the fog, I wish I couldd have taken a picture, mybe i'll see it again tonight if i don't fail at wbtb
and, good

You want to feel more pain? I guess it has its ups and downs, but not feeling pain in a fight it'll limit your inhibitions
interesting was it scary or something?

Your recall seems to be getting more detailed

[fisherj]

You want to feel more pain? I guess it has its ups and downs, but not feeling pain in a fight it'll limit your inhibitions
interesting was it scary or something?

Your recall seems to be getting more detailed

Yeah, I guess not feeling it as much would be a good thing at times.. but because I don't experience it as much the curiosity of how much pain I could handle gets the better of me! I really want to fight someone/something in a dream, sounds fun..
do you mean the vibrations? yeah, a bit actually. but after a while I rationalized why they were happening in my mind which helped that.

I know! I think it's because of the wbtb, it feels so excellent to be able to remember things more clearly.

[arliatis]

Yeah, I guess not feeling it as much would be a good thing at times.. but because I don't experience it as much the curiosity of how much pain I could handle gets the better of me! I really want to fight someone/something in a dream, sounds fun..
do you mean the vibrations? yeah, a bit actually. but after a while I rationalized why they were happening in my mind which helped that.

I know! I think it's because of the wbtb, it feels so excellent to be able to remember things more clearly.

I wonder if its possible to wake up because you cause too much pain.
i was referring more so to the fog... is it a bright or dark purple?
its my favorite method, no matter how bad it goes it seems to a least help recall.