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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #60 on: February 24, 2012, 09:01:25 AM »
You're coming along nicely bluebird. Consistent progress.

I also like the fact that you took the whole situation in for a moment before deciding what to do. That's a good sign.

But ... I think you missed an opportunity by not talking to your grandfather. Maybe next time?
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #61 on: February 24, 2012, 09:50:05 AM »
But ... I think you missed an opportunity by not talking to your grandfather. Maybe next time?

I think I wasn't fully aware at the time, I didn't seem to recognize him for who he was, rather just another DC. Now that you mention it that probably would have been a good thing to do, although right now I just want to try everything I can do while lucid, experiment with my boundaries and possibilities a little.


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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #62 on: February 25, 2012, 07:24:03 AM »
25th February 2012

The first dream I recall is just a fragment, something about having a briefcase full of money and I either stole it or I'm about to do a deal. There is something illegal going on, and as always I am being chased/hiding from someone.

My next dream takes place in the pier of my current town. I can't remember what's happening but we are hanging out there and I see a shower room. I walk in and there is tonnes of public showers, and one cubicle in the corner. I walk over and see a big LD button with a light above it. LD obviously stands for lucid dream, so I go away to tell my friends I'm gonna go in the lucid dream chamber. I do so, and on my return the door to the chamber is wide open. I walk in and it's a very shabby room. It's like a prison cell, except the seats are made out of breeze blocks and the bed is just a metal thing with wires and no mattress. There is a small drain in the corner and no sign of a toilet. I'm distracted by the room and completely forget my motive to try and LD (even though I'm already dreaming...d'oh).

The next thing I remember I have left the room and not had my lucid dream, and we are outside on the beach. We are swimming around and there is a small island just off shore that everyone is swimming to. I swim to it and do a huge dive off, I wasn't lucid but I jumped extremely high and plummeted deep into the ocean. I saw a lot of really cool fish before swimming back up to the surface, where everyone was clapping for my spectacular dive. Hooray!

I believe I woke up shortly after (for real) and then went back to sleep. I was now in a dream where everyone was being controlled by some people (I guess you could say the government). I'm running all over the place in my old student accommodation, trying to get answers as to what's going on. I manage to piece together that there is some sort of organisation, that was set up by one guy. That guy was trained by some master in whatever discipline, and there is a lot of argument amongst the bad guys as to who is the true leader, although they all seem to agree with hating the public.

The guy who set up the company, we'll call Alex, had a big wrestler as his bodyguard, I believe it was The Big Show but I may be wrong. Also all the followers of this organisation walk around in grey hoods. The dream kept cutting between indoors and outdoors. Indoors I was watching a 3 hour long movie with some non-followers, and I was told we must prove our support by watching this movie. I'm pretty sure nobody wanted to see it, and it was full of propaganda. I kept sneaking out to go and talk to more people outside about what is going on.

I then find out there is this one particular bad guy (or a girl I believe) who is responsible for "keeping me quiet". I can't remember it exactly but she was saying all sorts of things to me to keep me quiet and on the side of the government. There was also a different girl who was trying to help me, in I guess my quest to take down the government. There was a lot of running around and timewasting in what felt like a very long dream, before finally I had learnt enough to take on the system. I walked into the big dining tent where everyone was including Alex and The Big Show. I walked in and screamed something out loud, it was something along the lines of:
"STOP LETTING PEOPLE CONTROL YOU. THIS IS MY LIFE AND I AM FREE"
"THIS IS MY LIFE AND I AM FREE"
Slowly some other people in the tent started to chant along.
"THIS IS MY LIFE AND I AM FREE"

We outnumbered the guards by a very large proportion. The Big Show came over to me and started making all sorts of threats, but some other guys came along to protect me. We stormed around chanting and shouting, towering over the guards. I went back to the accommodation where my friends where and there too everyone seemed happy and free. The bad woman came back but there was some sort of fight and she was defeated. I then saw a girl in my group of friends who I used to quite like and she liked me too, but it never went too far. She grabbed my shirt and said something like "It's about time" and pulled me out of the room. We started kissing and she was unbuttoning my shirt, at the same time we walked down the corridor towards my room. However, before we even got close to my room, the dream ended and I woke up :(
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #63 on: February 26, 2012, 12:28:39 AM »
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #64 on: February 26, 2012, 07:22:54 AM »
26th February 2012

Fragment: I am at alton towers (theme park) with my Mum, my Sister and John Locke from Lost. Locke seems to want to go on some sort of mission, but all I care about is the rides. My Mum is too scared to go on any of the fun ones but she does ride one slow rollercoaster with me. I don't see much of my sister but when I do she is looking at the animals, which is odd as this is not a zoo so there is no animals. At some point in the dream I find some sort of key, and Locke tells me its one of a set of 3 keys, i'll look out for more in future dreams.

Fragment: I am playing counterstrike as one of the characters. It's surprisingly realistic, I have a big heavy gun and I aimed down it to shoot some guys. Then we swapped sides and we were attacking and they were defending. The building that we were in I believe is the same one from the next dream, I think I transitioned from one into the other.

I am an employee at a big skyscraper, working for some guy who is a real douche. For some reason me and the other employees have snuck in after hours and we are playing around. I get into a game of draughts with a lady and she is getting close to beating me (even though we are not playing by the rules and there are pieces in stupid places). To avoid defeat, I trigger some sort of warning that says we need to get back to work. She says "Oh no I'm not falling for that one", but all of the other DC's jump to their desks to go along with it and we convince her :P

Then some alarm goes off in the boss's house telling him people are in the building. We don't know about it yet, but the woman gets taken upstairs to the top floor, I'd assume the head office is up there. There is a big alien with lots of tentacles sitting in the office chair, but she changes the environment to trick the colleague into a false sense of security. We run away and there is some big ladders going down to floors 3,5 and 7, but we jump instead and hit the ground with a crash. At this point I can see my co-workers, one of them is Kyle from South Park, one is Wheatley from Portal 2 and I am one of the small hooded guys that steal robots in star wars (name anyone?). Kyle gets taken by a big machine that picks him up, and me and Wheatley stay in the corners quiet and not moving. Some big guard dogs come down and take Wheatley, and then another dog jumps down and stares me in the face.

At this point someone tells it not to get me. It gives a long story about how I'm a good guy and I apparently looked after this person's son or family member or something. When I look up, the character that gave this story is a giant bell, the sort you would find in a church tower. I saw nothing weird about this at the time and left the building. As I was leaving I saw the boss talking to his Dad. He is angry about something, and the old man is fragile and scared. He is angry because of us somehow, maybe the old man helped the bell or he was the one who let us in. The old man is crying and the boss still doesn't care. He tosses the old man a few notes of cash and tells him to get away and never come back. I leave and I am extremely angry. I observe the outside of the building and I remember thinking I should draw some graffiti on it. However, as I look closer it seems somebody has already done it, and there is no space left to write profanities about the guy who works there (good job SC you beat me to it :))
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #65 on: February 26, 2012, 07:23:44 AM »
Thanks for the in depth reply Moonbeam :) I agree this dream does look very promising to my LDing in general. Hopefully we'll see some more good results in the near future :)
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #66 on: February 26, 2012, 11:07:06 AM »
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #67 on: February 27, 2012, 05:16:07 AM »
27th February 2012

No recall today, was travelling the country resulting in 4hrs sleep, on a couch...which was too small for me.

Hoping to catch up on a few sleep cycles tonight, so expect a few more than average dreams if my recall is up to par :)
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #69 on: February 28, 2012, 07:09:25 AM »
28th February 2012

I have made the classic mistake of waiting a few hours to write my DJ, so unfortunately there isn't much detail here.

I was dreaming of a zombie invasion. At some point we left someone behind, i'm not sure if he survived or not. We head to the nerds secret underground gaming basement to see if they will protect us. There is a display on the vault door, with a keypad to type in numbers. All of a sudden the display lights up and counts down from 5. The door swings open. Everyone assumes that the nerds have let us in, but I have a bad feeling about this. It's incredibly dark inside, and we can't see anything. I get tangled in a thorn bush but my friend S comes back to save me. Then we hear a noise so we all run off through this dark maze. Suddenly an old friend Tom comes jumping out of the darkness and shouts "BOO". We all jump, and at this point it is light again. He starts laughing but we are not impressed.

I remember at some point in this dream or another I was drinking an energy drink for some reason.

Also I have a fragment of my friend's E and C both giving me a book on how to make excellent orange juice. C looks sad because E gave me her's first, which makes C's gift look a bit crap. I really wanted that book too :( I would have liked some orange juice!

It's worth noting i've not had a dream in complete darkness before, so i'll watch out for it in WILD and DEILD attempts. No reality checks passing through to my dreams right now but my dreams are very inconsistent so I don't think they will. I wonder how I can make my dreams consistent...
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #70 on: February 29, 2012, 02:55:46 AM »
29th February 2012

It's morning. I'm tired and extremely angry. An attempted WBTB has left me with nothing but insomnia. I had no HI, no sleep paralysis and even though I was so tired my eyes hurt I could not get to sleep even when I gave up with the WILD. Not sure if G/C has anything to do with it, but the Choline probably didn't help. This will be the last night I take supps until I can WBTB properly without them.

As for dreams (before WBTB), nothing but a fragment. I was playing Dark Chess with Moonbeam (as I am currently) and I found her bishop. I was planning a sneaky move where I sacrifice my bishop for hers, as I am ahead on pieces. I lined up my bishop which revealed hers, and had the queen marking it. I then woke up.

I checked the chess game but unfortunately she doesn't have any bishops left so I couldn't cheat :P
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #72 on: March 01, 2012, 06:15:35 AM »
Moonbeam it was real. I had a really sucky night.

However, today was much better for me :)

1st March 2012

I don't remember how the first dream began, but I was being chased by some sort of killer. I was in my home, and he got in. I must have had some sort of powers because I turned him into a green boomerang and threw him out of the window. As I headed downstairs, there was a giant envelope on the door. It said "To bluebird". As I walked closer, the letters changed to say "Do not open this". Well this is obviously a dream. I make the mistake of not stabilizing and head straight into the living room to see my mum and dad. I hadn't spoken to them while lucid yet. However when I got in, my Dad's head was on my Mum's body and vice versa. It was really strange. Also the furniture was in odd places, far out from the wall and at funny angles. I sat down between them, but it felt awfully weird, and I woke up.

I am living in Nazi Germany, with my friend C, my Mum and Dad and later on my friend X. I was on some sort of wild night out and things got a little bit crazy. I had stolen some things from Tesco (UK supermarket), and I think we made the Hitler Youth angry by doing something but I don't remember what. Although in hindsight it may have been the SA or SS, not the Hitler Youth as they were much older and had guns and things. Amongst the chaos I got shot in the face, the bullet went through my jaw and out through my throat. However after a while it seemed to heal. We also all hid in a bush whenever we got chased by the Hitler Youth.

Something I only just noticed now during recall is I achieved lucidity during this dream, but in a weird way. As we were hiding, I had a sort of daydream of a way to escape. I dreamt that I could run along a fence and jump up on the house roofs and jump from rooftop to rooftop, which I felt as I imagined it. However I snapped out of the daydream and thought "Damn, if only that was possible".

The next day (in the same dream) I woke up in some sort of caravan that I am staying at with my parents. They aren't awake yet, and I find a very tiny dog that I must have got from somewhere last night. It's about the size of a bug and hardly visible. I put him in a cup of water to keep him alive (I think I got confused with fish) and he seemed happy enough with that. He told me he was thirsty so I went to find some water to give him. I poured some in, however I noticed that the cup was now slightly yellow, as I had poured beer in by mistake. The dog stopped moving and I scrambled to rescue him without pouring beery water everywhere, but it was too late. Mum and dad started to stir so I sprinted to the toilet to flush the dog away :(

When I got in the toilet it was a very confusing sight. There were handles and bars and things everywhere, I threw the dog in the toilet but every handle I pulled just made that noise when a toilet wont flush properly. Eventually I get it to work and not a moment too late, as Dad is awake. We start to eat food and suddenly I get an odd taste in my mouth. I sprint to the sink and spit out something that tastes exactly like skin. I look down and there is blood everywhere, more skin starts getting spat out. This reminds me about the hole in my face, and blood is dripping down onto my shirt too.

I start shouting "AMBULANCE" and "999" but either Dad is being dumb or I can't speak properly, probably a bit of both. I type in the number on my phone and throw it to my Mum. She is on the phone to them and says "Yes he's the one who was shot in the face". I instantly know what happened, she is speaking to the people from the Hitler Youth...They must have insiders at the hospital. I tell her I have to run and I leave the house. Two big giant men are there and say "Quick we have to hide you". I get in a black van with them but after that they don't speak to me. I know that I have made a big mistake. I say to them "are they going to kill me?", and they answer with "Yes". I request that I am killed quickly in return for not attempting to escape, and they oblige.

When I get to the secret base, there is some sort of pre party going on. Everyone is eating sweets and ice cream, and chatting about happy things. The bad guys are all watching me closely, but I decide it's probably best to keep my promise as i'll never be able to escape, and i'll probably bleed to death anyway. After the party i'm taken into a classroom to watch Nazi propaganda with some schoolkids who are all wearing full uniform, one of them even has a rifle. There is a smartass kid who looks like Draco Malfoy pretending like he knows it all already, and there is another little nerdy kid who keeps asking questions. The officers make a point to say that i'm a bad man and i'm going to be killed. I tell them "the jokes on you in 5 years" but they don't seem to understand.

I'm taken to a back room where they unveil their secret weapon. I wonder what sort of Nazi technology they will kill me with. They unveiled some sort of plastic see through mummy bag. I said "Are you going to gas me?", they said no they would just suffocate me. I tried to think of a way out of it, so I told them I would defect if they saved my life. They didn't seem convinced, so I added "and i'll tell you the secrets of the future. I can build supercomputers, I know who won the war etc...". As they are deciding the answer, my alarm went off and I woke.

I really should have thought to stabilise the first dream, that was silly of me. I guess I wasn't at a high level of lucidity as my brain was kind of on autopilot. Maybe I should have opened the envelop too, what harm could it have done? As for the second dream I was very happy with that, a nice long dream in my last REM cycle, with good recall
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #73 on: March 01, 2012, 08:32:14 AM »
Two bits of lucidity there without supps!
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Re: ** Baby steps by bluebird **
« Reply #74 on: March 01, 2012, 08:53:47 AM »
I'm not sure if the second bit counts, it was very weird. I felt lucid but it came and went so quickly, plus it was a dream in a dream which is even stranger. But yeah it was a great night of dreaming for me :)
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