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[dryalantha]

Happened to be shopping yesterday and walked by the tea so I looked but nothing with lemon balm or peel, just lemon grass, I dont know if it has the same effects.

Totally not, those are 2 different plants. Also, don't use supermarket tea's but try to find it in a herbal/natural food shop. Not in teabags but dried leaves, this way you can choose your dose. 

It's this one you need. If you have a garden: this plant grows very easy!

[luctab]

why thank you for that! lol and that's funny ab the supermarket, I just so happened to think that exact thing while I was browsing, that this was most likely not the place to be getting the .. type/quality I was so avidly searching for and that I would be better off at the health food store. You'd think with the large selection most places have that they'd have more variety. I guess considering.. for the general population.. they do. I will for sure be doing that soon. and be getting that PGA as well.

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Not so productive last night, despite my best efforts. I think my intent throughout the day needs to be more so. Maybe that's the issue. It seems like anytime I do wbtb with supps or not, I have less recall and still no lucidity. and I'm just restless. crazy insomnia, worse than I've experienced in a very long while. Altho now that I think about it, that's not really true. I think I was sleeping so well before bc of. oh. probably easy to guess. and that was going on for a very long while and isnt anymore so. I think that's why I slept so well for so long.

Last night I didnt recall anything at wbtb, it was my g/c/n night, and I had a little more g, ab 8, the most I've ever had, and less nicotine, 1/4 patch and I usually have 1/2. Sometimes nicotine promps some, okay a lot, of ruminating and makes it really hard for me to sleep so I thought thouse combined changes would be really good. Alas. Not much change. Still crazy insomnia and rumination. I even got so bored I tried to incubate some part of a storyline I made up and lol it got totally messed up. I'm not sure exactly where the dreaming actually started. Probably before the vibrations because they were different from my norm, a light buzzing throughout my body all at the same time, instead of intense waves. They did become more intense but nothing like my usual and nothing seemed to come of them, so I really think I dreamed them. Shame I didnt RC. I think I was just hoping beyond hope that I'd go to sleep at least lol.

Crazy Face
So at some point I 'realize' I'm being chased by a madman. He's trying to kill me and makes some threatening guestures and comments and oh, I found this out by picking up a note someone left for me and that's when I look up and there he is with the threats. I run and of course he's chasing me. This goes on for what seemed like a very long while. Various scenes with various past people, I'd get to something different and get involved in converstation and happen to glace somewhere and there's crazy face again, making his weird faces and off I go again. At some point I'm near a parade and it's getting dark and there's a doctor that says she knew him and he's been like this for awhile, chasing me, and he doesn't have a real reason, he's just crazy. I say, oh well that's good. So I can't really do anything about it? We dont have much time to talk because he's there again.

The ETs
I'm in a dark auditorium type place,  and a movie of ET is playing. People gasp at him and then a real ET comes from somplace and I realize he's like my brother, I've known him for a long while so I introduce him around, he speaks slowly and quietly and has that blond curly wig on. I think about how genuinely nice and good he is. The ET from the screen steps out and he's smaller, like a little brother or something and I think omg how fun and cute.

-I noticed last time and this time, the G dreams aren't the same. Even after waiting two weeks. They're not near as real. Before, I would be so involved that I would wake up thinking those things had been real, at first. I'm just as involved in the dreams now but. Now they're just regular dreams. They're just different. Could this simply be because of my lack of intent throughout the day? It's not that i dont have any at all, I'm just very focused elsewhere as well.

 

[pj]

You might lay off the G for a month or two.  I use it very rarely because of how quick tolerance builds.

[Sunshine]

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[luctab]

Thank you PJ and Moonbeam! I'll definately try both of those! I used to stay up for 45min-1 hr for wbtb but the last few days, if I can make myself get up to do it, I've been doing much shorter ones because of the insomnia.

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Thursday night
I was off work friday so no post, no recall anyhow!

Friday night 6.23.12

Great night of dreaming! PreWBTB:

He's Just Nervous
I'm going to a church, one from my hometown. I recognize almost everyone from before, TD's family is there of course. I want to ask them about him but I manage to hold back. A few Sunday's later, TD walks in after ceremony, but doesn't seem to look at me or talk a whole lot. He says, real softly, that he was in a nearby town and thought he'd stop in. Looks at me and quickly adds that he was visiting grandparents. It gets real quiet and he talks to me about something. Says something kind of.. rude? wrong? not sure exactly but I corrected him and I guess I shouldn't have because it got silent! We're with his family and my friend in a pew, so it's a little awkward, everyone just looking back and fourth between me and him. They seem nervous. and so does he.. shaking his foot really fast and playing with his ear and his eyes darting back and fourth, like he's thinking quickly. I realize, he DOES want to talk to me, he just had it very planned, which makes complete sense for him. I let the silence go for a few moments, I know I'm supposed to let him talk, but I hadnt' meant to be rude and who's damn rules are we following anyhow?!! I ask him about work. He looks up and says that he likes it alright, that he does reports on a bunch of statistical data and he has a daily quota, and I comment that that sounds tedious and a little stressful and that he must have a lot of willpower. He smiles, finally! We start actually conversing and so does the rest of the fam, all keep looking back and fourth between him and I. The dream goes on like this for awhile, various things happening, him wanting to buy me something for my kitchen he seems to think I can't live without and I'm like dude, I have got a ridiculous amount of cooking contraptions, mostly that I dont need, I should just give them away, I'm a good cook regardless (I do happen to enjoy it immensely and oooh I thought he'd like that *wink*)   so for a moment I just can't understand what the deal with him buying me something is and then I start thinking maybe he sorta feels like he's taking care of me? I say something to that effect and he gets this huge smile, gosh he's so. just wow. and then my mom walks in. Which is good conversation of course. We have to go outside to clean up a mess and it takes a long time because obviously we're talking ab how excited I am about how things are going with TD. Finally go back in and explain ourselves by saying there were a ridiculous amount of popcorn kernals we had to find. lol. Wake.

wbtb, long enough to record and check on A and hope that that was a precog hahaha. Hey a girl can dream and you never know
A LUCID DREAM YAAAAAAY!!!!!

At Long Last, Ze Mountain of Lucidity
Not sure what's going on prior to lucidity, BUT. I'm in a bathroom because I know I have a loose tooth and it's just feeling very strange. It looks really weird and I start to have a strange feeling, walk out of the bathroom and find another loose tooth with my tongue and think "!!!DREAM SIGN!!!" OMG AM I DREAMING!  Do a nose check, it works, I'm so stunned I almost dont know what to do. and then I get so excited I dance around in a circle pitterpattering my feet like my daughter would hehe. The plot is still very pulling, if that makes sense, I try to use my lucidity to help my dream family but they're not very nice about it so I fly up, out on the roof and it's strangely built and reminds me of indians for some reason, the roof is a thick rubber sheet tied down with rope and I think how ineffective that must be, for the bad guys outside, I mean we can hear them, but I suppose they can get inside quite easy too. I go back in and tell my fam ab the bad guys, intending to leave now that I've done as much as I want to lol and they're just indignant so I tell them I'll lead them away. They seem fine with that so I go outside and wake the neighbors dogs and make sure they can all see me, and the bad guys do chase me. I tell them they should just leave because I know I'm dreaming. The woman (oh yes there's a woman and a man) gets very angry and asks her man what they should do now, to which he sarcasticly responds that there's not much they can do, besides maybe chase me if she really wants to, and rolls his eyes. She says okay, so I push him just to see the look on their faces and take off. I'm having a lot of fun flying when land someplace and  meet someone, an older gentleman, and he asks what I'm going to do now. I think for a moment and then say that I think I'm going to fly to the top of a mountain, he looks very excited and says he's done that and it's an amazing experience and I should go right now, I think you know what, you're right guy. So I do. I'm then outside again and I know I just need to look up and there will be mountains, I do and there are. I'm flying towards them, and then up, and the rushing wind and then the rain! It's raining so hard and it's so loud that I thought it must also be IWL, regardless I feel it on my face and head and i think I must be near the top. I dont remember looking out or anything though so I must have woken up somewhere near here :( but oooh how wonderful to be lucid again!!!!!!!

[luctab]

*oh I want to add a tidbit that's been helping with my insomnia, when I remember to do it. For the record, I actually DO meditate during the day, even if I just get literally 30 seconds, just to completely clear my head. I feel so much better and I've gotten fairly good at it over the last year, especially considering the smally increments I get to practice, but I think the deal is that I just do it anytime I get a moment to myself. However, that's exactly why I'm so confused by all my insomnia lately, I'm pretty good at clearing my head, but when I lay down, its like. Impossible. I noticed that a few nights ago and thought I should maybe look for something different, some sort of visualization to busy my mind since I can't seem to clear it lately when I lay down. Karen569 does this energy visualization, -inhale, white energy to head, exhale, energy sweeping out the feet and then back up, repeat a few times and then reverse: inhale, white energy to feet/base, exhale, energy sweeps up and out the head. It makes my body feel really good and it makes me tired too, so I do those however many times I feel I need to at the time, until I get very drowsy and then I do some affirmations and lately I've been falling directly asleep! and I'm very happy about it lol.

[dryalantha]

wbtb, long enough to record and check on A and hope that that was a precog hahaha. Hey a girl can dream and you never know

Absolutely!  

energy sweeping out the feet and then back up, repeat a few times and then reverse: inhale, white energy to feet/base, exhale, energy sweeps up and out the head

Sounds like a good plan, I'll try this sometime.

!!!DREAM SIGN!!!" OMG AM I DREAMING!

Now I imagine you going like this:  
 

It's raining so hard and it's so loud that I thought it must also be IWL

Realistic lucid dreams are really the best.
Congrats with breaking the lucid dry spell!  

[luctab]

Thanks Much needed and very exciting!

[luctab]

Not much recall Saturday and Sunday.

One dream at wbtb sunday night. Getting ready for work, random jewelry and clothes, my brother is there, us having a party and my dream mom is showing us how. A friend that I'd lost contact with, in my dream, mom saying we're going to my grandparents later.

[luctab]

no supps, woke for wbtb but just long enough to check on A

Sugar and Spice, But Not Necessarily Nice.
I woke to see a spider crawling near me on my bed and remembered my dream: Creepy bugs with all these legs, and they could turn to little white sticky worms yech, on a couch and I couldnt' get them off. I spent quite a long time looking at the bugs and how yucky they were. Came from a very ghetto math class. I remember studying the ratio quite carefully and wondering where the heck I could be. Played games like, turkey tapping, who can throw a syringe correctly, just weird. Theres a little girl beside me and she says that if I have to go will I please not pick her, I say that of course not, I would never do that to her. Then she volunteers to go up and picks me. I still can't help but want to save her! Pretty sure this came from a little neighborhood girl IWL that is as cute and tricky as that one.

Frag: It's mother's day, A n I go see mine and take her out to eat. She's pissed that all the mothers got to go out to eat earlier in the day.


frag: At some point, I'm showering in a locker room and look around and I am alone except for a creepy guy. I decide it's time to go. I get out and look out the window and see my bus with my senior class pulling away. I get outside and they stop and I get on and ask why they would leave! They say because no one else wanted to shower.

[luctab]

The Band
ED and I go on a trip to see a band. The first time I saw them they'd had to pick 2 ppl to leave and they chose me and a friend :(. I hoped it didnt happen again. We go there and I realize BN should be inside, her dad and Margeret are taking her. LD asks what she looks like and I see an album, but she looks different, oh right she had a nose job (lol um?)  Later on MF shows up, I try to nicely converse just bc the silence is weird when we clearly know each other. He's politely answering but not real talkative so I just let the silence lapse. We then start talking ab the band. ED and I end up back in the room, platonically. Had another dream but just couldn't quite grasp the details.

[luctab]

6.27.12
Finding Clothes
I'm meeting my class to go someplace and am in a hurry trying to find something to wear, in a house that's 'mine'. Getting lots of texts and ooo I'm hurrying! some other ppl in my kitchen waiting while I find something to wear, and then I see BD outside in his car doing something, then he comes to the door with a bunch of meat he wants to put in my freezer. I wonder why? but I dont have time to argue and tell him to do so quickly. He wants to argue with me and I'm  a little exasperated. He's not making any sense and it seems he's just trying to make me angry. Tells me he's paying for my house so I have to listen, to which I laugh, not very nice I know but I can't believe he is now just making up things .. for what? the audience? I dont get it and tell him he has never paid for a thing to do with this house or anything to do with life in general and there is something wrong with his head and he needs to leave. I say that this is a pointless conversation and a waste of my time. He picks up A's blanket and starts using it to clean a dirty pot that he pulls out of thin air. I get kinda mad now and grab it and tell him to GET OUT.  I leave the room to go find clothes, and he follows me, saying that if we're going to play mean games then fine, we'll play mean games. I sigh loudly and ask him what he wants now. He throws something at me, a piece of paper or something, and makes a comment again ab playing mean. throws a bottle at me, and then picks up a metal can and says he's going to throw it at me. I say ooooo. Then he changes into one of my best friends BN and says the same thing, very slowly, that she's going to throw it at me. I say fine and she does, it bounces off of something and hits a box fan behind her and breaks it. and suddenly it's silent. I cover my mouth and start to giggle, I'm not sure why but this all strikes me as pretty funny, and then I feel sad that BN and I are fighting, she giggles too and I suddenly wonder why we're fighthing. I wake.

Monster Trip
I'm at work helping a woman, and she's telling me a crazy story, so crazy I feel the need to write it down for  her. Then she tells me about her prostitution classes. She gives me a list of places near here I should see. She leaves and I go to th front of the store and note all the clever changes. LD and I decide to go on this trip to see all these places. The first place is a gas station and it's hard to verify which one and where the names of them are. Everyone is running out because it's the scheduled time the monster comes. We go inside anyway. I see that, everyone is gone, of course, but dang I really wanted a snickers! I think about if I should just get it and leave money, and then said monster comes, it's a huge octopus, and it's huge tentacles are streaming thru the air past us, LD screams and we hide. I find a spot between two huge piles of waterbottles and see a 10 year old girl looking at me and tell her to come hide with me and she does. Dont recall anything after.

[luctab]

No recall from last night, but I thought when I woke, what a plot!