Tab's intuitive answers

[pj]

I get a lot of those.  Just out of reach and not coming back.

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6.29.12

A messy trip
Another trip. JC and TD. A worker RA is there too, cleaning up his huge mess. The trip is to the future and we get stuck and are annoyed bc it's not a position we want to be in, this situation in particular, the places in life we happen to be, but we figure we have to deal. I go to my drawing animation class and that's where I see JC, he's taking the class too and looks surprised to see me. AW and I keep taking turns sitting down, sharing the same seat, then I think ab it and realize there were plenty of open seats, and take one, she looks at me funny and I just smile.

frag: It's my brother's birthday and I sneak a piece of pizza for us and I know my stepdad would be mad, we're all supposed to be napping. All my brother's presents were car and race track oriented.

6.30.12

RD moves home
I make pastry candies and give A some fruit. RD is taking me and A to the babysitter, his son RD is moving home and he is SO excited! I'd been at a party, but didnt drink or anything and cops picked us up. Found out a dentist gave up someone's whereabounts. Al owns the store, BD says its stupid tho.

7.1
CWILD nap!
Lucid Frustration
I have a lot of frustrating repeat scenarios, like something falling and me picking it up 12 times and finally RC and could breathe, I thought I just did it wrong tho, so I didnt acknowledge lucidity very clearly. I still realized on some leven because I'm totally getting it on with TD and everytime I close my eyes he becomes smaller, everything, the obvious, his arms, hands, neck, wtf! I concentrate very very hard and think, this is a dream, I just have to focus. THIS bigger, THIS bigger, this big lol. I'd get whatever bigger and it would just get smaller the second I got to something else and then, a knock at the door *sigh* uuuugh. Lil neighborhood kids that just walk on in and I set them straight and then check on A and wake.

Beautiful Architecture!
A guy stashing a marble from a truck to give to me, met him in a building. Here dad finds a farris wheel flier at the OKC fair and I have a design on my knee from kneeling to read something to find his heart dr. Great building details.

Fasionable.. or not.
AW and I are getting ready and I am cutting out pics of cute clothes i want and finding ones to wear, went to put lunch together and left my star cookies by the techs, went to find them and had a bunch of water on a piano in a foyer like our lake house. I swipe it all onto the floor lol. AW 's bf wants us to have a, well something I dont want to do and I KNOW she doesnt want us to do and then she starts using all these huge words that I'm quite certain dont exist.  

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a lil drink and gpc before bed.

My alarm wont turn off!
Talking to a guy and can't get my phone alarms to go off (they were going off IWL for WBTB), keep checking the volume and everything. The guy starts to get annoyed. Telling me a long story that has nothing to do with his service that I'm trying to explain to him.

Miss Talky-Talk at the Messy McDonalds
Later I take A to MCD's and she asks me a question repeatedly and demands an answer everytime and I'm trying to park and at one point, I answer a little exasperatedly and some nearby girls look at me funny. We get inside and I go to a table first (why?) and we want this one, by these toys, and it has piles of ketchup all over it, with clear gel ontop of them. I start to clean it all off and the lady close to me says, oh the gel is ours, sorry, and points to her young daughter. I say, ah okay, and she starts talking a mile a minute and I realize it will be hard to get away to order food, why didnt I do that first? Then I realize it's breakfast and we should've had a healthy breakfast and then this for lunch instead, and trying to still converse with talky talk lady and play with A.

frag with my brother

Some Great Ol(d) Sex
I'm at TD's church, I somehow end up with some old guy which turns out to be SF and he has all these sunspots on his back that he doesn't have IWL, and hes got the biggest dick I've ever seen, much bigger than IWL. We finish up and I note that the sex was much different than IWL, his technique is just different. I leave to find a bathroom and find TD there, the bathroom is in a garage.

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7.4.12

frag: LD comments that she saw B post something on fb, he's going to a girls house to fix something, and how that's hypocritical of him.

7.5.12

frag: my dragon and a turtle fighthing, the turtle ends up missing a flipper and the lizard a hand :( poor animals!

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7.6.12
wbtb

Flirty Fry and Burts Bees
I'm at work and SF comes in, opens a coputer in back after making a comment ab how I'd gotten nervous talking to him or his gf on the phone and he sure looked proud of it. I wanted him to understand that I wasn't nervous at all, they just weren't making any sense about what they were asking me. I follow him to back, he starts flirting with me. I'm silent. People keep adding me to IM conversations and taking me back out immediately, like it's a computer problem. BB is one (past ppl, DS) I go to get A and play with Rosie. She's sooo cute and funny and all smiles and cuddles. Her parents, friends of mine, get there and the mom looks at the dad funny, like she's surprised I'm there and holding her. Or that Rosie is happy or something? She asks me and T, our sitter if we need chapstick, her sister gets tons from work and has like 200 extra. I think how great it would be if they were Burts Bees, and oh whaddu you know, they just so happen to be. lol at that point I get a little suspicious of the situation and almost start thinking it's a dream, go to RC but before I do the mom says it's a new kind from them, with orange in it, and it smooths well, and I can't wait to try and and wake.

frag: b's mad we're not getting together and is being mean to me.

7.7.12

She doesn't like her job
Walking thru some place trying to find an outfit, they all keep coming up short above my stomach. Outside going to a car with some people some place, tell them I want to go home to get lunch. There's a lady that takes me home and I'm going to paint my nails, and she insists on doing them, that it's her job. I really don't want to let her, I like to do them but she's quite insistent so I let her. She does an awful job, like it's on purpose. one coat and didnt even paint to the ends.  I go back to the other car to get the polish and remover. 


7.8.12

A bus tour with Grandma, a movie star, and ooo complimentary showers
On a bus trip, Sitting with BN. There's a guy next to her that I think likes me and I kinda like. He's funny and I recognize him from a movie. My mom and grandma are there too, grandma's been handling the tour and now we're going some place to get drinks and dinner, and then the next morning we get complimentary showers lol. I'm very glad for this relaxing break, have been working a lot. There's a priest behind me and he keeps waiting for attention from me. It's very uncomfortable, I'm not interetsed in the least, and his wife and child are there with him, it's sooo rude and awkward.

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frag
some of us are staying in, lifted on stilts like some at beaches. They're recommended by an elderly couple. Mom wants to take A for a game in some strange town, they toss kids between two people on blanket but AK says the town is really unsafe and refuses to go there at all.

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really did have some recall, but had a drink last night so I was entirely too lazy to wake up and record :( and random happenings in the night made it impossible to sleep well anyway..

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Aquarium Cleaning
cleaning out aquariums for Marley, which I recall being very involved. 3 or 4 diff ones, one had an alligator and I had to get marmar out very quickly, but he turned out to be just fine in there.

Working at Kmart with J
Working with my sister the night before july 4th, at a kmart. It is completely dead. We know it was ab to start up with the craziness. A coupon had just come out for the last few hours of today, and I suddenly thought gosh, I hope I dont have any problems getting it applied, that'd be a pain. Shockingly (lol) exactly this happens. We get swarms of people and oh my goodness I can't get the coupon to post.

frag: SF keeps trying to talk to me again.

frag: Watching someone throw up and they're not allowed to play with us, and then I do too.

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7.12.12

Organized Animals
I am in SF's house and it's crazy organized. One with all animal toys and they're set up into scenes, I'm captivated. He says he knew I'd like it, with a smile.

British Cheer
I am in church, and people have to hold their hand up and swear they're being truthful and then I follow ID into a place. We have to watch a football game and I get bored. There is a girl with shoulder length dark hair and the crowd boos her for being british, and she wasn't but she painted herself like the British cheerleaders and started cheering/dancing and then everyone liked her. lo.

7.14.12

Flip off the doll, do it.
I leave A at home and go to dinner with L, I ask her if she thinks I should have and she says no prolly not. B comes too. We start racing back to get A and I tell them tos low, wont do her any good if we dont maek it there. Later there's a doll being awful to us and b is there and I'm scared. I'm aware we're broken up but I'm scared of the doll. I go to the bathroom and I just know the doll will show. low and behold it does. I get suspicious and almost RC, and then it starts banging on the window and takes the form of A, so now I KNOW and I RC just to be sure. Become slightly lucid, only enough to flip the doll off *eye roll* and then go back and talk tell b to watch A while I get rid of the doll bc I know how to now. wake.

7.15.12
laughing with JD
JD out at a party, I'm out with B. I go to the elevator and she's there too. We have to fig it out ourselves and it's got the tiniest little panel to select the floor we want and we have to devise a small pin to push the button. Some people come up and suddenly JD and I have the same outfits on and appear to work there so we pretend we do bc we think it'll be humorous. She has these light blue keds with black outlines that I constantly notice and like. We just laugh constantly and talk ab how glad we are ab finally meeting and talking.

Country Club Locker Room
I go into the locker room, and the ladies there look at me like I shouldn't be there. I realize I dont have clothes in here. Oh yes, that's right, I came in here to break into a locker and steal some. lol hmm.

Haven't updated journal any furhter, been getting much less sleep the last few nights!

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no recall :( Even LESS sleep. doing a lot of remodeling

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7.18.12

Flying Chucks
I'm with my senior class stopped some place. We're on street, with a restaurant with big windows on one side and a many-storied victorian on the other. It's dark. We're all in a line, waiting to get in some place, assume the restaurant. I'm bored so I start doing some flips and handsprings (lol random?) and think how fun this is and wonder why I dont do it more often. haha. Then I start flying around too. I'm trying to look in the restaurant windows without being obvious about it. Suddenly I see my chucks being tied to a steeple on top of the victorian house! rude! why would someone do that! I immediately land and stare at them. I decide to sneak in. JD comes with me. We get to the attick where we will sureely go out the window. I knwo the boy that did it is still up here and it's very dark and hard to make out anything. I check out the rooms and cant' find him. On my way back to a closet JD is in, I pass an old lime green recliner facing said closet. I catch the reflection of the front of it and oh! tehre's the boy. He's ab my age, black hair, sleeping. I quickly go in teh closet and kill the lights, they're the kind w the lightbulb and pull string. I cover JD's mouth bc she's talking so loud and my attempts to silence her are to no avail. One of the lights pops back on (uuuugh NO RC?! not enough that I was FLYING lol now the lights! man! fail.), I quickly turn it off and then we hear a phone ring. We hurry and look to see if it's ours but then hear the boy start talking, he says he's on his way. Another light pops on and I see him coming in, He grabs a shirt and doesn't even glance our way. He runs back in, same thing. Okay, he seem sto have left. We decide to get the shoes and go. Get to the open space by the window and there's a couch, boy runs back up the stairs and JD and I share a shocked glance and drop to our stomachs and I just know that the slightest glance around and he will certainly see us. I can't bear to watch lol I cover my head with my arms and squeeze my eyes tightly shut. He pulls my arms away from my face and picks me up, sets me on the couch. and just looks at me. I think it'd be kinda fun to kiss him. I AM kinda attracted to him, after all. I do and it is. I open my eyes and he's staring at me grinning. Whatever. Close my eyes again and have a FA.


Want to journal ab all the cool flying and how much fun I had. A runs in, how? Her father follows her in looking irritated at me. Wait, this is a tech from work. Hold on a second! Then he gets all rudely sarcastic. I was just looking at him and suddenly we're in a car. teh backseat, arguing. I'm imitating him and his love of x. I make a dumb face and pretend to roll some? and then suddenly I have a joint. He grabs it from me and has a very large thick cardboard cylindricial thign thru which he smokes said ecstacy joint. lol. wake.

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7.23.12
haven't been getting enough sleep lately and decided to make it a point to go to bed early and thought i'd try some supps for a nice change, at the beg of the night since i knew i'd sleep well. hyp a (haven't taken this in awhile... felt like it was making my dreams slightly sinister), n, and choline:

I'll never leave her again
A n I are traveling, saw MM and she invites us to come over. I leave A with her for a bit for an emergency, come back and it is so dark. Finally find her with tons of blankets in a bedroom, with my shoe and her drink. Make sure I have my phone. The other little girl says A fits well in a box under the sink like a cat, and I should do that. I am alarmed and feel terrible, and swear to never leave her again. Something with baked chicken with very thick skin in this house.

matrimonial discrepancies
Getting ready for BN's wedding, we're having a video made with the entire wedding party. waiting for the videographer (whatever he's called) BN hates some girl who pisses her off worse than I've ever seen her. BN actually tackles her, i'm shocked and try to calm her down but she's not listening. The girl barely escapes and I decide that BN probably has a very good reason for whatever she's doing, and it really doesnt matter if she does, if she wants the girl down she needs to go down so I tackle her myself  and hit her a few times to slow her down so BN can do what she wants. Later, once the video recording starts, I'm made to wait in a seperate room. I'm confused. Why is this? look in the room with the party and see everyone dancing down the aisle with their dates and think oh maybe cause mine's not here. Wait, I'm supp to dance with the best man anyway, its like that, so..? I open the door and the director guy tells me I wreak too much havoc with me tackling that girl before and they just cant' have that. I go back in the room to go play on my phone, find a blackberry pearl in my pocket and think wtf am i gonna do with this! (iphone spoiled, fully aware and appreciative lol) I notice I have a strange small brown purse and realize I must be holding BN's stuff. I check in her purse for my phone and indeed its there but i get distracted by a packet of seeds she has hanging off the purse like they're important so i look and see they're henna seeds haha.

anti-rape fountain
a dream ab a college, a huge rape neighborhood, running thru it. noting how this happens so often bc girls have to go thru here to get to the showers. Later I purchase a very large fountain/pool for women only and am diving into it with a friend for the opening ceremony.

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recall, didnt wake to record :(

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Check Out Troubles and BG
Shopping with AK and her card keeps getting declined. I keep trying to offer to pay but get distracted by the cashier who is being so strange. anytime i look at her she acts really uncomfortable, like im checking her out or something? i dont get it. I decide to just turn around and look in another direction. See BG. (I should recognize him as a dream sign!) something makes me turn back around and see AK looking very uncomfortable, I apologize and try to get my card out, and then she lays down a $50. I stop and consider for a moment, and we start to leave, and the bags are on the other side of her and she just starts walking away, I go to get them, thinking she must be distracted by the situation and she says oh yes! what's wrong with me. I see BG again and he grins like he has a secret.

Family Haunts
Mom, bro and I are going to haunted houses. I keep saying what I think the trick is going to be and Bri and I talk ab the options at each. We get inside some part and I know it's going to spin us into a secret passge. I try to hold onto both of them bc I know it will seperate one of us, thought I grabbed mom, i was so sure. But it turns out it's some st range coat or something, and then i see us being deposited outside at a diff spot and we all run back in to go find each other.

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7.26
AK and AW and I are stuck on a deserted island for 3 years. We come bac by bus and as I'm jumping off the bus, there's a boy i like and I'm afraid he will like AW better, she knows I like him and is still. whatever. she'd given him a pic of a hippo a year ago and she didnt recognize it when he gave it back. back in civilization, we get to the airport and I see a mom with a child w cerebra palsy on a stretcher. He's fine, about 14 and just kinda, out of it. The mom and her sister look so much alike. i see JW and she's pregnant. She's so relieved to see us and I can tell she really missed AAK. She hugs her a very long time and starts crying. AK rocks her back and fourth and she sits in her lap. All around people are sick. On all the tvs are news stations showing bombings and threats and a few places have been hit. It seems we've returned to total chaos and I'm afraid we should've stayed put before.

7.31.12
Looking for JM. Get some texts from him saying he will be along shortly, he is watching the new spiderman movie. Should've realized I was dreaming!!! The texts were actually all messed up for once, strangely capitalized letters and diff sizes of the words. I have to hide in a room, the other 3 pl are in the main part and I'm in a closet closed off by a partially see thru shower curtain.

Need to be better ab recording so I can be better ab recall!!!