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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on June 28, 2022, 09:26:17 AM »Monday/June/27/2022
I had a strange experience of waking up from a dream but still being in it. I guess you could say I was lucid because I was aware of what was happening. I woke up and I could tell for sure I was awake and laying there with my eyes closed. But I guess I had to be in some kind of in-between state as I see my mother meet a man in an auditorium kind of place. The man is the father of a dream character I had been with in the dream a moment earlier. My mother and the man are having a conversation about myself and my in dream friend and trying to figure out what we had been up to.
I'm laying there awake and feeling very curious about the fact that I'm awake but also able to pay attention to the interaction and conversation of the man and my mother. I also begin to wonder if I'm just making up their words like I'm just imagining the dream continuing. But I decide I'm not purposely putting the words in their mouths. I'm just listening to them.
The man finally puts the pieces together and figures out what was going on with my friend and I like a lightbulb moment and explains the apparent situation to my mother. A situation that was rather amusing. And I laugh out loud as the man figures it out and my mother is like "Ah that all makes sense then." And she is no longer concerned and walks away.
I had a strange experience of waking up from a dream but still being in it. I guess you could say I was lucid because I was aware of what was happening. I woke up and I could tell for sure I was awake and laying there with my eyes closed. But I guess I had to be in some kind of in-between state as I see my mother meet a man in an auditorium kind of place. The man is the father of a dream character I had been with in the dream a moment earlier. My mother and the man are having a conversation about myself and my in dream friend and trying to figure out what we had been up to.
I'm laying there awake and feeling very curious about the fact that I'm awake but also able to pay attention to the interaction and conversation of the man and my mother. I also begin to wonder if I'm just making up their words like I'm just imagining the dream continuing. But I decide I'm not purposely putting the words in their mouths. I'm just listening to them.
The man finally puts the pieces together and figures out what was going on with my friend and I like a lightbulb moment and explains the apparent situation to my mother. A situation that was rather amusing. And I laugh out loud as the man figures it out and my mother is like "Ah that all makes sense then." And she is no longer concerned and walks away.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on June 27, 2022, 10:41:28 AM »Sunday/June/26/2022
Notes:
-I'm out walking when I come upon a water park. This is not exactly unrealistic as I don't live far from a water park in waking reality. The surprising part is that I just walk into the place and there is no fee, or gates, or any kind of barriers. It's just like any park that you could walk up to and sit on a swing except in this case there are water rides/slides. Before waking I only recall going down one waterslide but instead of sitting or laying down on the slide I go down it standing up as if skiing with no skis down the slide. It was fun.
-A rather odd scenario about a secret crop of plants that a group I'm with are trying to cut down and steal in the night. The entire dream has a tone of being marijuana crops grown by the cartels only the plants are not marijuana at all. The plants are celery plants. Very tall and wide celery plants. The people I am with are using machetes to hack down the tall celery and put them in piles to be bagged up in large sacks and carried away.
-I enter a house and I have the awful recurring theme that I find my lost friend and she has been taken by someone else. And the reason I've not seen her so long is because I must have abandoned her or gave her away. It's a horrible feeling and I can't believe I could have ever done such a thing. I scoop her up in my arms and walk away with her uncaring if anyone tries to protest that I'm taking her. Let them try to stop me. But instead of protests I hear someone comment that she has become nearly unmanageable because of being so upset by my absence. I hold her close so thankful that we are at least together again as I walk away with her. I think I woke up as I don't remember anything else after that.
Notes:
-I'm out walking when I come upon a water park. This is not exactly unrealistic as I don't live far from a water park in waking reality. The surprising part is that I just walk into the place and there is no fee, or gates, or any kind of barriers. It's just like any park that you could walk up to and sit on a swing except in this case there are water rides/slides. Before waking I only recall going down one waterslide but instead of sitting or laying down on the slide I go down it standing up as if skiing with no skis down the slide. It was fun.
-A rather odd scenario about a secret crop of plants that a group I'm with are trying to cut down and steal in the night. The entire dream has a tone of being marijuana crops grown by the cartels only the plants are not marijuana at all. The plants are celery plants. Very tall and wide celery plants. The people I am with are using machetes to hack down the tall celery and put them in piles to be bagged up in large sacks and carried away.
-I enter a house and I have the awful recurring theme that I find my lost friend and she has been taken by someone else. And the reason I've not seen her so long is because I must have abandoned her or gave her away. It's a horrible feeling and I can't believe I could have ever done such a thing. I scoop her up in my arms and walk away with her uncaring if anyone tries to protest that I'm taking her. Let them try to stop me. But instead of protests I hear someone comment that she has become nearly unmanageable because of being so upset by my absence. I hold her close so thankful that we are at least together again as I walk away with her. I think I woke up as I don't remember anything else after that.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on June 26, 2022, 04:45:03 AM »Saturday/June/25/2022
Notes:
I slept pretty good with little recall most of the night probably because of being pretty well out because of a lack of sleep.
-Then there was a bunch of work related stuff for a while.
-Then a dream of being in medieval times. Armies of soldiers gathering for a war that doesn't happen because some kind of agreement is made to avert the violence. After that there is some very strange difficult to describe stuff going on when I'm lost in enemy territory and trying to stay hidden. There is a large bag/sack that has some kind of magical properties. The inside of this bag/sack leads to another realm or dimension of reality and I'm trying to hide/escape within it as the enemy soldiers are searching for me. There is a wise woman who has already traveled through to this other realm and I'm trying to follow her as my perspective jumps around all over and I'm viewing the soldiers entering the structure and searching for me room by room.
-There is a false awakening where I wake up in a bedroom at a place where I lived as a kid. My brother is there as we had shared the same room back then.
Notes:
I slept pretty good with little recall most of the night probably because of being pretty well out because of a lack of sleep.
-Then there was a bunch of work related stuff for a while.
-Then a dream of being in medieval times. Armies of soldiers gathering for a war that doesn't happen because some kind of agreement is made to avert the violence. After that there is some very strange difficult to describe stuff going on when I'm lost in enemy territory and trying to stay hidden. There is a large bag/sack that has some kind of magical properties. The inside of this bag/sack leads to another realm or dimension of reality and I'm trying to hide/escape within it as the enemy soldiers are searching for me. There is a wise woman who has already traveled through to this other realm and I'm trying to follow her as my perspective jumps around all over and I'm viewing the soldiers entering the structure and searching for me room by room.
-There is a false awakening where I wake up in a bedroom at a place where I lived as a kid. My brother is there as we had shared the same room back then.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on June 25, 2022, 07:23:49 PM »Friday/June/24/2022
Some notes.
Two nights in a row of parkour dreams where I was thinking about parkour dreaming but didn't quite get lucid. I did have a fantastic parkour based lucid recently that I didn't record. Last night (Friday night.) I slept less than four hours but recalled a bunch of work related stuff.
Some notes.
Two nights in a row of parkour dreams where I was thinking about parkour dreaming but didn't quite get lucid. I did have a fantastic parkour based lucid recently that I didn't record. Last night (Friday night.) I slept less than four hours but recalled a bunch of work related stuff.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Lucid Dreams
« Last post by Caradon on June 09, 2022, 01:30:43 AM »Saturday/June/4/2022
Lucid Dream # 19 Of 2022
Dream Reentry Induced Lucidity
Drunken Dreaming
It was kind of an odd situation. In reality I had bought two bottles of 100 proof Yukon Jack whiskey and two packs of cigarettes for the week off that I took for my birthday. just in case I felt like drinking and smoking I was going to. But it's now the final day of my vacation and both whiskey and cigarettes remain unopened. Every day I considered it, but never actually wanted to.
Anyways. I was dreaming that I was with a couple of people but at an old apartment I used to live at and decided to crack open that whiskey and get drunk. So hanging out getting drunk (And actually felt drunk in the dream.) But I started waking up and re-entering the same dream repeatedly. Each time waking a little confused and regretting drinking not wanting to wake up feeling sick. Then thinking I probably won't be hung over in reality from drinking in a dream and falling back to sleep right back into the same dream.
Finally in the dream having confusion whiskey bottle in hand trying to figure out what is real and what isn't. Am I awake and drinking now or still in the dream?
Then full lucidity comes over me when I realize this is still the dream and I'm not actually drinking in reality. I explain this to one of the people I'm with and I do a watch reality check and have the dream character do a watch reality check. The watch numbers are doing all sorts of wonky stuff and realize that maybe the screwy numbers could be rationalized by the fact that I'm too drunk to see right. Even though certain I'm dreaming I do a nose pinch reality check and I can breathe through my pinched closed nose and tell the dream character to do the same.
I then decide I'm going to walk down the hall to the apartment office and talk to the land lady. So I do with whiskey bottle still in hand. I see the land lady and explain that I'm not really drinking because this is a dream. I hold up the whiskey bottle to show it to her. As I look at the bottle it changes form being three quarters empty to being full again. I have an odd sense that I'm now holding up the actual bottle as if the dream and waking reality are blending together and showing that I never actually drank any of it. The actual bottle still full because I was only drinking it in a dream.
I wake up for the final time thankful I wasn't actually drinking and not waking up feeling sick and hung over.
Lucid Dream # 19 Of 2022
Dream Reentry Induced Lucidity
Drunken Dreaming
It was kind of an odd situation. In reality I had bought two bottles of 100 proof Yukon Jack whiskey and two packs of cigarettes for the week off that I took for my birthday. just in case I felt like drinking and smoking I was going to. But it's now the final day of my vacation and both whiskey and cigarettes remain unopened. Every day I considered it, but never actually wanted to.
Anyways. I was dreaming that I was with a couple of people but at an old apartment I used to live at and decided to crack open that whiskey and get drunk. So hanging out getting drunk (And actually felt drunk in the dream.) But I started waking up and re-entering the same dream repeatedly. Each time waking a little confused and regretting drinking not wanting to wake up feeling sick. Then thinking I probably won't be hung over in reality from drinking in a dream and falling back to sleep right back into the same dream.
Finally in the dream having confusion whiskey bottle in hand trying to figure out what is real and what isn't. Am I awake and drinking now or still in the dream?
Then full lucidity comes over me when I realize this is still the dream and I'm not actually drinking in reality. I explain this to one of the people I'm with and I do a watch reality check and have the dream character do a watch reality check. The watch numbers are doing all sorts of wonky stuff and realize that maybe the screwy numbers could be rationalized by the fact that I'm too drunk to see right. Even though certain I'm dreaming I do a nose pinch reality check and I can breathe through my pinched closed nose and tell the dream character to do the same.
I then decide I'm going to walk down the hall to the apartment office and talk to the land lady. So I do with whiskey bottle still in hand. I see the land lady and explain that I'm not really drinking because this is a dream. I hold up the whiskey bottle to show it to her. As I look at the bottle it changes form being three quarters empty to being full again. I have an odd sense that I'm now holding up the actual bottle as if the dream and waking reality are blending together and showing that I never actually drank any of it. The actual bottle still full because I was only drinking it in a dream.
I wake up for the final time thankful I wasn't actually drinking and not waking up feeling sick and hung over.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on June 07, 2022, 10:40:54 AM »Thursday/June/9/2022
Didn't get to sleep much because of having to get up early to deal with my car that died the previous day and get it towed to a shop. And it was a reality check moment when I turn the key and the car is completely dead, nothing. After my initial "You have got to be fucking kidding me" reaction I did remember to reality check to the fact my car had no response at all to turning the key, but unfortunately it was no dream and I had to work through a particularly stressful night with the added stress of knowing my car is sitting dead in the parking area and having no idea what I'm going to do about it, how I'm going to be getting home, or to work and back through the rest of the weekend. ( But fortunately I managed to get my car to the shop the next morning and was able to get a loaner to use.) And I fucking hate everything to do with life.
-Recalled a dream of being chased by a giant King King sort of gorilla through some kind large multi leveled facility. However, the odd part is that there was wine sampling of some delicious wines.
Friday/June/10/2022
-Slept less than three hours but I woke up to my alarm clock recalling a fragment of something that I quickly forgot exactly what it was. I was talking with someone, a woman about what I can't recall. Also I think there was a freeway involved but I'm pretty sure I wasn't actually in a vehicle on the freeway. More like my conversation with the woman was creating images of the freeway as we are having our discussion.
Didn't get to sleep much because of having to get up early to deal with my car that died the previous day and get it towed to a shop. And it was a reality check moment when I turn the key and the car is completely dead, nothing. After my initial "You have got to be fucking kidding me" reaction I did remember to reality check to the fact my car had no response at all to turning the key, but unfortunately it was no dream and I had to work through a particularly stressful night with the added stress of knowing my car is sitting dead in the parking area and having no idea what I'm going to do about it, how I'm going to be getting home, or to work and back through the rest of the weekend. ( But fortunately I managed to get my car to the shop the next morning and was able to get a loaner to use.) And I fucking hate everything to do with life.
-Recalled a dream of being chased by a giant King King sort of gorilla through some kind large multi leveled facility. However, the odd part is that there was wine sampling of some delicious wines.
Friday/June/10/2022
-Slept less than three hours but I woke up to my alarm clock recalling a fragment of something that I quickly forgot exactly what it was. I was talking with someone, a woman about what I can't recall. Also I think there was a freeway involved but I'm pretty sure I wasn't actually in a vehicle on the freeway. More like my conversation with the woman was creating images of the freeway as we are having our discussion.
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The Den / Re: Reality Check Moments
« Last post by Caradon on May 31, 2022, 01:55:54 AM »Maybe luck was on my side dealing with the issues with renewing my license last week which prevented me from getting work done on my car which (Mostly) prevented me from driving right into this area today. Glad I decided to stay home. Though I probably would have left early enough to miss the storms.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aY8FJv1IBzo
Edit: They eventually reported a total of nine tornadoes touched down in that part of the state that evening.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aY8FJv1IBzo
Edit: They eventually reported a total of nine tornadoes touched down in that part of the state that evening.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on May 28, 2022, 12:44:03 AM »Wanted to record an interesting and very vivid dream from Wednesday of walking with my lost friend though an unfamiliar neighborhood and past a school that was letting out but didn't get around to it.
Today at work I found out that one of the unmasked people I work with and have been in very close contact a lot with and last week is now out with covid. I have two work shifts to get through before I have a week off and I'm going to be pretty upset if I start getting sick for my week off. I did notice my lungs feeling a little heavy today as if I had been smoking too much or something, really hoping it's not because of that. Odds are it probably won't be quite as bad as last time, though, if I do, since I had had it really bad already maybe I have some resistance to it. Also when I had it, it was Delta, had to have been base on both don the severity and when I was out sick with it the first cases of the Omicron where just being found. I still have damage to my sense of smell. I can smell things now, but not anywhere close to what I could before I had covid. Always something has to ruin it for me when I get extra time off. Blah, I had just been glad that I had gotten my license crap taken care of before my week off and my license expired two days into my week off and have to be thinking about that shit and trying to get it taken care of during my break.
Thursday/May/28/2022
Notes:
-I want to get some notes down of a dream last night that was very long and elaborate and very vivid. It was weird to me how the dream evolved from being pretty mundane into a very disturbing adventure of hunting for the treasure of gold bars in a facility filled with death traps. The mundane portion of the dream was going on when some angry person runs outside and begins digging in a patch of sand and reveals a bunch of buried gold bars that another dream character had buried because said character had come by them by illegit means and was hiding them.
But that somehow evolved into a group of people I'm with hatching a plan to invade an abandoned facility that was housing even more gold. But in order to get to the gold the facilities security had to be bypassed and the traps evaded. The traps segment became truly horrific as I was witness to some awful deaths that were quite graphic caused by the traps. If I had written it out in detail I think I would have added it my thread of most disturbing as even in the dream I found some of what I had seen to be pretty disturbing. After waking from that one I felt pretty wide awake and wasn't sure I could get back to sleep but I managed to.
- And found myself in another pretty wild adventure where it seemed I was in some sort of video game world. There were these large lumbering ogre like beings that stood twice as tall as me were trying to kill me and I was trying to battle some of them and had some success but then ever more powerful ones would make an appearance and I end up trying to avoid them and run away and collect more weapons which with rather small and insignificant. I was just collecting some knives and long but not quite sword blades to defend myself against thing things that could take many hits. I had met up with some others and just trying to survive being hunted.
-There was a couple of early dreams I recalled and failed to take notes on and then forgot what they were later. At least one work related dream I also forgot the details of before the long dream about the place with the gold happened.
-Oh, after the weird video game dream I fell back to sleep a little longer and was dreaming about being at a wilderness park and then coming home to find my lost friend back at home and I was wondering how or why I had been out at the parks without her and felt shitty about leaving her behind at the house.
No dreams that felt close to lucidity but a lot of dreaming. Managed to sleep close to eight hours thankfully since not t going to be getting much tonight.
Today at work I found out that one of the unmasked people I work with and have been in very close contact a lot with and last week is now out with covid. I have two work shifts to get through before I have a week off and I'm going to be pretty upset if I start getting sick for my week off. I did notice my lungs feeling a little heavy today as if I had been smoking too much or something, really hoping it's not because of that. Odds are it probably won't be quite as bad as last time, though, if I do, since I had had it really bad already maybe I have some resistance to it. Also when I had it, it was Delta, had to have been base on both don the severity and when I was out sick with it the first cases of the Omicron where just being found. I still have damage to my sense of smell. I can smell things now, but not anywhere close to what I could before I had covid. Always something has to ruin it for me when I get extra time off. Blah, I had just been glad that I had gotten my license crap taken care of before my week off and my license expired two days into my week off and have to be thinking about that shit and trying to get it taken care of during my break.
Thursday/May/28/2022
Notes:
-I want to get some notes down of a dream last night that was very long and elaborate and very vivid. It was weird to me how the dream evolved from being pretty mundane into a very disturbing adventure of hunting for the treasure of gold bars in a facility filled with death traps. The mundane portion of the dream was going on when some angry person runs outside and begins digging in a patch of sand and reveals a bunch of buried gold bars that another dream character had buried because said character had come by them by illegit means and was hiding them.
But that somehow evolved into a group of people I'm with hatching a plan to invade an abandoned facility that was housing even more gold. But in order to get to the gold the facilities security had to be bypassed and the traps evaded. The traps segment became truly horrific as I was witness to some awful deaths that were quite graphic caused by the traps. If I had written it out in detail I think I would have added it my thread of most disturbing as even in the dream I found some of what I had seen to be pretty disturbing. After waking from that one I felt pretty wide awake and wasn't sure I could get back to sleep but I managed to.
- And found myself in another pretty wild adventure where it seemed I was in some sort of video game world. There were these large lumbering ogre like beings that stood twice as tall as me were trying to kill me and I was trying to battle some of them and had some success but then ever more powerful ones would make an appearance and I end up trying to avoid them and run away and collect more weapons which with rather small and insignificant. I was just collecting some knives and long but not quite sword blades to defend myself against thing things that could take many hits. I had met up with some others and just trying to survive being hunted.
-There was a couple of early dreams I recalled and failed to take notes on and then forgot what they were later. At least one work related dream I also forgot the details of before the long dream about the place with the gold happened.
-Oh, after the weird video game dream I fell back to sleep a little longer and was dreaming about being at a wilderness park and then coming home to find my lost friend back at home and I was wondering how or why I had been out at the parks without her and felt shitty about leaving her behind at the house.
No dreams that felt close to lucidity but a lot of dreaming. Managed to sleep close to eight hours thankfully since not t going to be getting much tonight.
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The Den / Re: Reality Check Moments
« Last post by Caradon on May 26, 2022, 01:52:46 AM »Just now, I was looking at my tidal music page and a live version of "Am I Evil" by Metallica in Mexico comes up and listening to it. Oddly though they start randomly playing "Smoke On The Water. For just a moment before going back to "Am I Evil" And "Smoke On The Water" being the first rock song I ever learned to play on the guitar as a kid. You know. Da da da, da da, da da, da da da, da da. Trying to spell guitar rhythm sounds now... Also later enjoyed playing my version of "Am I Evil." Anyways all of a sudden I hear this little chime for a pop up and a little pop up message on the lower right side of my monitor appears and it says. "You're in a dream." I'm like, what? lol. I'm in a dream? Reality check says no I'm not. Too bad. Will be soon though tired as hell and about 1:00am now.