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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's WILD/Hypnagogia Journal
« Last post by Caradon on May 31, 2024, 10:02:27 PM »
Last night I had a strange experience that I thought I was being electrocuted. I'm not exactly sure if it was and HI or SP kind of thing or what but when I came out of it I had only been falling asleep for a few minutes so I think it could have been. I remember feeling the weight of something across my body which in reality was my coverings. But I was being hit with vibrations which my mind translated to something like an electrical wire across my body. electrical vibrations were flowing through me and I first I didn't seem worried I could just wiggle away from it, but the more I tried I couldn't and the vibrations were intensifying and I begin to think I might be in serious trouble here and was trying to angle my body away from the source but couldn't. And for a moment thought I was about to die from electrocution from power lines laying across my chest or some such thing. But then I came out of it pretty disoriented realized I only been laying there a few minutes.

then remembering the vibrations some people say they experience during sp/ hi/or obe. wondered if that is what the cause was. That in-between where physical of body/nerves and awreness goes wonky, like hypno jerk too.( hypno jerk being much more common to me than vibrations.)
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on May 31, 2024, 09:18:50 PM »
Alight maybe I will continue with notes at least. Recall has been pretty spotty. Had a couple of lucids and near luicds I never recorded at all over the last month or so.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on January 29, 2024, 02:05:28 AM »
Recall hasn't been that great the last week. Hasn't been that bad despite not being that focused on my dream, up until the last week that is. Doesn't help that I've not been sleeping enough and been sick too the last week.

I know I need to start record more at least taking better notes.

My last vivid recall is of a fragment from a couple days ago. I'm in a vehicle as a passenger in the front seat. We are driving down a highway when there is a car coming at us that is going the wrong way into oncoming traffic. The driver of the vehicle I'm in swerves to avoid the oncoming car and we go up onto two wheels nearly rolling the van. It was kind of a scary moment as I realize we are not wearing seat belts and I wonder what would have happened had we actually rolled with no seatbelts. 

I actually just woke up from a dream that kind of slipped away. I was in some kind of room and a woman in a flowing outfit like a dress or in my mind seems more like a long loose nightgown is silhouetted in the doorway light behind her from the are outside the room. She is talking to me saying something but I don't remember what she was saying or what it was about.

A couple of days previous to that I recalled a little bit of a parkour dream. That was pretty cool as I've not had a good parkour dream in a while. There was some type of parkour competition going on and I was trying do more creative moves other than just jumping off obstacles and flipping through the air in order to score better better points in the competition or whatever. I felt like I was being kind of repetitive leaping and doing flips off of whatever was in front of me so I was trying think of a way to add more to my moves.

Waking reality notes:

I've been playing my guitar a lot, and playing too much of Dying Light 2. Trying too max out my characters legend level points in the game and unlock a bad ass night runner outfit which I should have completed today as I have less that five levels left to gain to get the prize.

I'm planning to start broadcasting playing my guitar on the internet. I would have loved web cams and internet back in my hard core headbanger days, and I guess it's never too late for that. And who knows maybe can even make some money doing it. I've been playing a lot and sometimes when I'm getting into it I feel like I'm playing better than I ever have.

Maybe it's because I'm more in tune now with the spiritual aspect of where it's coming from than I was back then. I remember back in the day I sometimes felt like I was getting help from someplace beyond as I would gone into a sort of trance state and it just flowed out of me and I had no idea what the heck I was playing from moment to moment. Now when I get into that zone I acknowledge it and just fall into it completely.

i had felt like my dreams were trying to tell me to get back into playing my music as inexplicably playing music kept repeatedly showing up in my dreams. I'm glad I listened as it's the only thing that cuts through the horrible depression and takes me to some completely other reality sound and emotion. One day recently I was playing to a pretty fast tempo to a drum beat on my keyboards. I think I played at fast tempo for over five hours straight until I noticed blood on my finger tips, look at my guitar and I had been smearing blood all over the fret board lol. Playing for so long and hard I had sliced open my finger tips. Fuck, I had noticed a little soreness and just completely ignored it and kept playing had no idea I was bleeding all over my guitar, ha. The next day I put band aid over my sliced open finger tips and managed to still be able to play somewhat with the band aids on.



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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Lucid Dreams
« Last post by Caradon on October 06, 2023, 10:51:30 PM »
Thursday/October/5/2023

Some notes on a lucid I had last night.

It started out I had decided to go to a doctors office regarding some possible serious issues I'm having in waking reality. (But most likely won't be going.)

So I'm in the doctors office and end up getting pissed off. The doctor gives me some thick book of paperwork while I'm sitting there waiting. I look through it and it's a like a booklet of school work. I was immediately like these guys can go f... themselves if they think I'm going to sit here and do this.  So I toss the book of paperwork aside and walk out of the place.

Leaving the office I'm now in a huge mall and walking around look for the exit to the parking area where I had left my car.

The mall becomes a labyrinth of corridors and shops that I can't find my way through, it feels super natural in nature at some points as I keep finding myself in areas I had already been and I begin feeling like the mall itself is purposely changing and trying to confuse me.

After some interesting events I begin thinking about dream malls and how weird and amazing they can be and this place seems similar to a dream mall.

I decided I should do a reality check and do a watch reality check and the numbers definitely change and even though pretty much lucid I decide to also pinch my nose closed to see if I can breath through it and I can.

Fully lucid I start begin thinking about trying to find my lost friend. I feel like I might actually be able to do it but I then become worried that I'm about to wake up. So I begin focusing on rubbing my hands together and keeping myself in the dream and become distracted by that.

Doing this must have helped as I stayed in the dream which became a really long bout of lucidity even after the first part of the dream was already pretty long.

The rest of the dream consisted of mostly having fun and doing silly things in the mall and interacting with the dream characters there.

I did end up waking up a couple of times but each time managed to reenter the dream with my lucidity intact. Until my final waking

I was happy to get lucid as I had been trying to focus harder on it the last several days even though I've not been in much of a mood for writing lately. And spending a lot of time playing my guitar which I've taken up again the last several months.

 

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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's WILD/Hypnagogia Journal
« Last post by Caradon on September 26, 2023, 08:45:50 AM »
I've been having an interesting experience with tinnitus ear ringing lately. I can be laying there eyes closed and all a sudden the ringing fades away and gone. First few times it happened I didn't even realize it was because I was drifting to dream space because there no other indication that I'm not laying there wide awake with eyes closed. But now I know soon as that ringing fades away I'm no longer awake even though I still completely feel like I am.

I need to figure out how to use that somehow. So far just a bit of relief from the ringing before drift back to wakefulness and ringing comes back. It's weird though, ringing fades away and I'm like I must be in sleep space now even though feel see or hear no other indication other than the absence of the ringing.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on August 27, 2023, 07:52:33 PM »
After the forum being broken and then completely gone for three quarters of a year I'm surprised to see it back up again I believed the mist to be gone for good this time.

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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Lucid Dreams
« Last post by Caradon on August 27, 2023, 07:14:21 PM »
Saturday/August/26/2023

I had what felt like a really long lucid dream that was very surreal. I may try to write out what I can of it later as I don't want to forget it.

Most would have called it a nightmare. To me it was just a bizarre adventure. Especially after I figured out that I was dreaming. I was never once frightened during the entire thing, grossed out a bit at one point but not frightened.

Dream began as a haunting dream, An entity/demon overpowered me with supernatural strength/force. The thing absorbed me, my awareness, consciousness, however you want to put it.

Sucked me through a portal to a hellish realm, another dimension where the rest of the dream took place. While in this hellish demonic dimension I figured out I was dreaming and it was just wow. A few times I felt like I was waking up but fell back into it, I didn't actually lose it until I decided to give in to sexual urges. I think a part of that was expectation of waking.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on November 16, 2022, 01:27:08 PM »
Tuesday/November/15/2022

Not a lot of recall, feeling like shit. Might be a miserable five days of working before my week off. Hopefully it's just a regular cold and will be mostly over it before my vacation week I've been looking forward to.

- Some weird lucid hypnagogia. I thought I'd be out pretty quickly last night as I was feeling sick but I had some trouble falling to sleep and was getting into HI stuff. It was weird in that I kept looking at my dream body hands and arms each time feeling as if I might have successfully wake initiated. It happened several times where I was seeing my hands and arms and then moving my dream body as I'm feeling my physical body laying in it's position so it had a weird awkward feeling. Especially when I was experiencing my dream body laying in a different position from my sleeping body so that I'm trying to move my dream body arms at very awkward angles. Almost like if you are in VR in first person but the viewpoint is off center from your VR characters position.

-I recalled a fragment of being at the town houses where I lived as a kid. My lost friend being present. I step outside the door onto the steps for a minute and it's dark outside and an earie feeling tone to it. And hearing some creepy sounds.

-I recalled a little bit of a dream of being out shopping. Vivid memory about looking through the clothing section and looking at a rack full of pajama pants and thinking about getting some new ones.

-There was some weird stuff that I can't quite recall and had forgotten to takes notes on.
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Dream Journals / Re: Caradon's Dream Journal
« Last post by Caradon on November 16, 2022, 01:17:11 AM »
Monday/November/14/2022

Didn't have time to record Friday but recalled a dream where I was thinking about lucid dreaming and trying to incubate the kind of dreams that could easily turn lucid for me.

Last night I recalled a fun dream of jumping off bridges and cliffs into a rushing river multiple times. There was some low level lucidity as I remember some scary jumps but reminding myself I was dreaming and couldn't be hurt by a fall. But no full lucidity took hold. There was also a little bit of work stuff, and later recalled a fragment of being in some battle defending with a long stick/staff type of weapon. Deflecting blows this way and that.

Going to try and get more sleep tonight. Wanted to post some more of my old lucids but didn't get around to it yet. 
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The Den / Re: Reality Check Moments
« Last post by Caradon on November 14, 2022, 06:34:18 AM »
Got a funny idea. Going to see if I can get a bunch of people to start posting on the schedule app. Sorry, can't work today, going dancing, thanks for understanding hahaha.

Hahaha, that might be a fun way to bring attention to the issue.

Sitting here LMAO now, thinking about just before I get into my car to go to my next shift/Wednesday I post on there. "Sorry can't work. Going dancing. Got me a disco ball and everything! Thanks for understanding! See you all Thursday!"

The people that have been working with me a while will get a good laugh knowing that is a totally me kind of silly smart ass thing to say. And also how ridiculous a thought of me going disco dancing is. 

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