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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #15 on: April 16, 2008, 07:30:43 AM »
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #16 on: April 16, 2008, 01:17:34 PM »
I love how easy it is to get reality and dreaming confused.  One day I'm blown away by how brilliant my subconscious mind is, and the next I'm amazed that I'm such an idiot.  Maybe its a good thing that we don't have access to our mind's full potential all the time.  That would mean I would we subject to its full stupidity all the time also.
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« Reply #17 on: April 16, 2008, 01:23:06 PM »
I was trying Kromoh's new WILD technique.  I woke up 5 hours into the night with an alarm.  I ate a banana, and read some of The Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep for 5 minutes.

I laid back down, trying to enhance the visualizations that my brain was naturally coming up with.  A scenario appeared of myself in my front yard wrapping duct tape around a concrete bench sculpture.  I was feeding the scene, trying to go along with what felt natural.  Things were going great.  I felt my body get heavy and numb.  My consciousness was starting to feel detached from my body.  I was staying remarkably lucid while the visualization took shape.  I remember thinking, "I hope this works, because this should be a great lucid.  I'm outside in bright daylight.  No sticky body, annoying darkness, or house to be trapped in."

Next thing I know,  my mind goes totally blank and I get startled awake by.....the feeling of falling asleep.  The shift I normally feel that alerts me that I'm entering a dream was too disturbing.  Falling asleep woke me up?  No F.A, no entering the dream.  Just me totally awake and feeling like an idiot.

It felt a lot like when you nod off during a boring lecture or meeting.  As soon as you feel yourself fall asleep, you jolt yourself back to reality, 100% awake.

I can't recall any dreams from last night, either.  I feel like I just didn't get any REM sleep at all.
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #19 on: April 17, 2008, 12:03:03 AM »
How do you do such great visualization?  Is it something that comes naturally to you?  When I close my eyes and try to visualize, I don't see a thing.  I can think about it in a vague random kind of way, but never anything clear or specific.

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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #20 on: April 17, 2008, 12:46:30 PM »
I have those nights where I swear I don't have REM sleep either.

I feel like I had another one last night too.  No recall except for a snippet of a hooded sweatshirt and being in a department store with....You, Moonbeam!!

Plus, I had a Killers song in my head.  I don't even really like them..

I took my baby's breath beneath the chandelier
Of stars in atmosphere
And watch her disappear
Into the midnight show...


Maybe more will come later today.  I hope  :)

How do you do such great visualization?  Is it something that comes naturally to you?  When I close my eyes and try to visualize, I don't see a thing.  I can think about it in a vague random kind of way, but never anything clear or specific.

I don't think its anything special.  I think I'm just a very visual person.  I draw pictures all day at work, so that might help.  Have you tried visualizing  something thats very familiar to you?  Nothing fancy, just whatever comes naturally to your mind? 
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #22 on: April 18, 2008, 07:58:04 PM »

I don't think I've ever been dreamed about so much before.  It's going around, everybody is dreaming about everybody else now.  If we were ever going to prove shared dreaming, it seems this would be the time!  :)

It is getting a bit incestuous around here.  I don't know if we should be scared or excited.  A lot of energy being shared.
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The Green Giants
« Reply #23 on: April 18, 2008, 07:59:08 PM »
Part 1
I was lost in a dense and ancient forest.  The trees and plants all looked very realistic, but the way they were arranged was strangely alien.  Redwoods dominated the landscape, but they were covered in twisted hanging vines.  Tropical grasses and low bamboo formed a dense underbrush, but the air was cool, and the floor was spotted with clumps of thick damp moss.  Overall, it was a strange combination of a redwood forest and a tropical jungle.  It felt very alive.

I made my way to the center of the forest, and stumbled into a large open clearing.  The trees and underbrush stopped in a wide ring, like a wall.  The spongy moss continued out to cover the entire clearing like a carpet.  Two giant redwood trees stood alone in the  center of the clearing.  The bases of their trunks were so close, they had begun to fuse together.  It was an amazing sight to see these two majestic trees standing alone, but framed with the background of the dense forest.  It wasn't until I started walking towards them that I realized their immense scale.  I underestimated the size of the trees and the clearing, and had to run to reach the center.

By the time I got to the trees, they were changed.  They did not look healthy.  I could see gouges in their bark, and blackened diseased sections.  I walked around the perimeter of their intertwined trunks, with my hand outstretched to run my fingers against the rough bark.  The more I touched them, the more they seemed to be dying.  Aggression and anger seeped out of the bark into my fingers, and I started to feel scared.

Before I had made one complete circuit, the fear overcame me, and I turned to leave.  I don't remember visuals of what happened next.  The scale of everything was too overwhelming to make sense.  The trees started to attack me.  I ran, and they somehow gave chase without uprooting  themselves.  It was like they grew in size as I fled.  I could feel the vibrations of gigantic footsteps shaking the earth, and I could hear the cracking and groaning of breaking wood, but I could not see.  I don't know if I was too scared to look back, or if there was nothing to see.

I fled as fast as I could, but I felt them coming closer.  At the edge of the clearing, I saw a metal dumpster full of construction waste.  I jumped into it to hide, like a bad action movie.

Part 2
I lived alone in a landfill.  It stretched as far as I could see, and I was the caretaker.  The landfill provided me with everything I needed.  It was not garbage that surrounded me.  It was everything I ever wanted.  There were piles and piles of my favorite foods, mountains of designer clothes.  One pile had every toy I had ever wanted as a child.  I was thrilled.  It was almost like a game.  I would think of something I wanted, or something I wanted as a kid, and it would be right on top of the pile.  It was awesome.

I was digging through a pile of packaged, unopened toys, and I uncovered a scaly patch of leather.  I dug deeper to see what it was, flinging cardboard boxes and action figures away without even looking to see what they were.  When I had exposed a large enough section, it started to move.

It was a giant mouth.  It started eating mouthfuls of the junk, helping me clear away the boxes under which it was buried.  Soon, the whole face came into view.  It had no neck, head, or body, just a face.  It was the size of a small car, and could easily swallow me whole.  Its mouth took up most of its face, like a cross between a human and a frog.  Its gray-blue skin was blistered and scaly.

It was a monster, but not a frightening one.  I felt sorry for it, but I knew I had to destroy it.  Fire was the only way to kill it, so I ran to find something that would burn.  As I ran towards a pile of burning trash, I noticed more of these huge creatures eating their way out of the piles of junk.  There were dozens of them that I could see.  It was like they were hatching, or breaking their way out of cocoons.

I grabbed an armful of flaming garbage, and threw it at the face I had helped to free. It caught it in its mouth, and instantly went up in flames.  It shrieked as it melted, and I felt bad at the human quality of its screams.  I wondered if maybe it had the ability to talk.
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #24 on: April 18, 2008, 11:51:19 PM »
More tree dreams...sounded like a bit of Tolkien influence there.

Cool place to live.  That landfill sounded awesome.  If the monsters weren't bad, how come you felt the need to destroy them?  I felt kind of sorry for them.  It seemed like they could have been some kind of friends.

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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #25 on: April 19, 2008, 08:11:56 AM »
I felt bad for destroying them too, but I think I figured out the dream.  It was based on three things I did the day before.

1) I was studying hardcore for my USGBC (U.S. Green Building Council) exams to get my certification to  become a LEED AP  (Leadership in Energy and Environmental Design Accredited Professional).  I feel guilty because a lot of the buildings I've been working on lately have not at all been 'Green', even though I've been trying to incorporate Green Building practices.  I've been feeling like no matter how much I try, I end up living pretty wastefully.  I think that explains the greedy landfill consumer monsters.

2) I also hung a hammock a few hours before bed.  That explains the two trees thing.

3) I also had to tear out some established and healthy plants to make room for the hammock.  I always feel bad killing plants for selfish reasons.  The same way a lot of people feel bad about killing animals for food.  Its not a huge deal, but I do still feel like I'm taking a life.  Thats the reason I could never be a vegetarian.  I would have to stop eating animal meat and plant meat.  Doesn't leave much else to really eat.  I think that explains the plants coming back to kill me.

I'm not some over the top environmental nut.  I'm a pretty big realist, but the guilt still gets to me sometimes.  Hence recognizing the humanity in the greedy landfill consumer monsters, but still wanting to kill them.
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #27 on: April 19, 2008, 08:31:42 PM »
Wow that is interesting.  So do you just have a normal diet and live with the guilt of eating plants and animals?

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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #28 on: April 21, 2008, 02:13:40 PM »
Wow that is interesting.  So do you just have a normal diet and live with the guilt of eating plants and animals?

Yeah, I just eat everything.  Life is too short and food is too delicious.  I just try not to think about it.  It grosses me out more than it makes me feel guilty.  I think its disgusting to rip a big bloody ovary off of a living plant, tear it open with your bare hands while the plant blood juices all over your fingers, then eat it uncooked....but I still think fruit is delicious.  I guess I'm just alright with being a hypocrite.
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Re: Snacks from the Butler's Pantry
« Reply #29 on: April 21, 2008, 02:14:21 PM »
Part 1
I was orphaned at a young age, and taken in by a wealthy family in Georgia. The patriarch of the family, Hamilton, always treated me well, but never adopted me as his own son. His money was all old money, family money, and the family politics kept him from ever treating me like a real son. It never bothered me, because he educated me well and taught me to take care of myself so I would never need to rely on any kind of inheritance.

Hamilton's only daughter was getting married, and the wedding was lavish beyond imagining. It was an orgy of food, drinking and dancing that lasted three days. All the big families came in from across the state to celebrate at the mansion . I was working with the kitchen crew to keep the party flooded with booze.

On my rounds refilling the champagne, I could not find Hamilton anywhere. He had been brooding since the party started, so I figured he must be outside. I bundled up in my warmest coat, and stepped out into the cold night to explore the plantation grounds. As I passed by the family mausoleum, I noticed my friend Angela sitting on the old stone ruins. She was dressed in a light summer dress, but the cold wind did not touch it, or move a strand of her unbound hair. I was happy for some company in the cold night, even if it was the company of a ghost. She glided over to meet me, and we talked about the upcoming wedding.

She spoke more honestly than I was used to, sharing family secrets I was not supposed to know. She told me about the cruel history behind the family's money. Money that came from the early days of the slave trade. The money was cursed. As the family's wealth grew, so would its misery. Death and tragedy seemed to plague the family's history, and it would continue until the last generation was destroyed. She called this the prophecy of the moon.

As she finished her story, I heard screams and shouting from the main house. I hurried back, but was too late. The place was no longer a celebration. Somehow, things had turned violent. Two of the most powerful families had started to fight, and the wedding had become a battleground. I heard people yelling about rape and murder as I ran from room to room looking for Hamilton. What I found were the remains of the bride and groom. Hamilton's daughter was on the bed with her dress torn to pieces, and her throat slit. Her future husband was crumpled in a corner with a pistol in his hand, and a knife in his chest.

This was too much for Hamilton. It destroyed what little spirit he had left in him. He spent the following weeks in a drunken stupor. He would not take any visitors, and would barely eat. My fiance and I moved into the house to care for him, but it took a month for him to finally speak with us. He told us he had to get rid of his cursed money. He had a plan to give my fiancee a job that would pay her everything he owned within the first two years. Get the money out of the family. My fiancee refused, saying she could not replace his dead daughter.

That evening, I found him on a hill overlooking the family mausoleum. The spirits looked restless. There were more out than normal, and they were milling around the tombs as if looking for something. As I sat down, they started walking up the hill to meet me. Hamilton opened a box with two curved blue daggers, and handed one to me. As the ghosts approached, Hamilton's dagger began to glow with a soft blue light. Each shade had a dagger, and they came in pairs to touch daggers with Hamilton as if giving a toast. When the finished with him, they surrounded me. They looked at my dull lifeless dagger with sadness. I did not belong. Each shade approached me and touched the point of their knife to my cheek, right below my left eye.

A heavy bass beat started to pound out a rhythm, and the night was suddenly filled with pure white light. The ghosts became solid, and started to dance and celebrate. Hamilton and I were carried along with the music and dance, and soon the hilltop became a beautiful party.

As we danced, the party became more crowded, until I was in a sea of people. Eventually I noticed that I was in a separate room with half a dozen dancing ghosts. It was not that the crowd was getting bigger, it was the room that was getting tighter. I started feeling claustrophobic. The music changed to an evil sounding heavy metal riff, and the white light started to fade to a murky green.

I recognized the feeling of a nightmare approaching, and struggled to fight it. I looked up to see a ceiling covered in sharp spikes, and the room started to slowly rotate. The ghosts around me were now demons, and as the room turned, they started sliding down he walls to be impaled on the spikes. I knew it was a nightmare, so I fought to escape it. I floated off the ground, spread my arms and legs, and started to spin in place sideways, end over end like a cartwheel.

Part 2

I became very disoriented, and suddenly found myself alone in the guest room of my own house. I was still floating in the air, rotating slowly. I turned myself one more time, and paused upside down to take a look under the futon. I was disappointed that there was nothing under it except for a crumpled dark blue jacket.

I shot out the window, splintering the closed wood blinds, and shattering the glass. I found myself over the open ocean at night. I could see the lights of a city skyline, so I flew towards it. As I approached the coast, I searched for buildings I recognized. I saw the Chrysler Building, and figured I must be in New York. I was now close enough to be flying amongst the skyscrapers. I saw the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center, and thought it funny that they were still standing in my dream. Each tower had the graphic outline of a key on the upper right corner.

I wanted to land and find some interesting dream characters to talk to. I decided San Francisco would be a more familiar city to experience at street level, so I started looking for buildings in the San Francisco skyline. I was searching for the Transamerica Building. Instead, I found a strange futuristic stepped pyramid built entirely of glass. I was surprised, and figured I must be in the future. I landed, and was convinced this was the future. The sidewalk looked metallic, and there were broad canals carved between the buildings instead of streets. There were no cars in sight.

I saw an old man crossing a bridge over the nearest canal. I waited for him to approach me. He was carrying a yellow phone book, and reading it like a newspaper. I stopped him as he passed, and asked casually, "Excuse me, you do know that this is a dream, right?" He looked up from his phone book, startled and annoyed and said something along the lines of, "Well, its about time." I asked him another question. "Do you recognize me?" This really made him stop. He looked me in the eyes in a creepy way, smiled and said, "Of course I recognize you. Do you recognize me?" I then recognized him as my future self. Me as an old man. I looked down at my body to see that I was old also. I was wearing the same clothes as him. "You must not have been paying attention to the dream I gave you " he continued. He lifted up his phone book, pointed to the headline and said, "First manned space flight to the moon in 1969. It took 15 years less than their first, unmanned flight. So you figured out a shortcut? Do you think this matters in the long run?"

He then pointed to the bridge he had just crossed. A young man was walking towards us, carrying a white rose and a stack of greeting cards. I thought must be here to meet me. I remembered him as a character from the story in the beginning of the dream. I think he was the character I was playing. As he came near, I started to speak, and was startled as he walked right by me. He handed the rose and the cards to a young woman. I felt sad that I can never be reunited with the characters from the beginning of the dream. They can not recognize me now that I am lucid. I will never see the end of the dream.
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