
So, according to iadr and Vex, I've been encouraged to post this:
Jan 13
5-HTP. To bed with a very strong determination that I SHALL get to Endor and ride one of those ranger vehicles with Luke...
Hup-A nicotine
Awake... For too long.
Eventually I pull off the patch.
OBE. (After many attempts at WILDing, including visualizing myself in the scene on Endor). I go shooting up but cannot see. I say I want to go to Endor. I start to see and I come up over a grey, dead moon. And I feel the grasp on my ankles. I insist I want to go to Endor. I fly over this grey dusty moon, looking for green lush forest or even its vast blue oceans. I feel a tongue there and still yearn for Endor.
We start to fly much lower and I feel out to the dust and dirt. It feels very real but not what I hoped for. I give up and pull RR up in front of me and we have sex as I continue to insist to him and my SC that I want to go to Endor. RR ignores my pleads as I look at him. We are about to complete as I wake.
OBE. This is a bit of a struggle but I sudden fly up and again have strong intent of going to Endor. I quickly see yet another grey moon with old small craters. I start to dive down and think I'll go through the moon but I don't and skim along its surface, feeling again dust and see a small long row of uniform round rocks. I feel these as well as I also feel the grasp of my ankles.
I shout that I want to go to Endor. As we fly I see small patches of green on the surface but they seem more like mold, not grass or any vegetation at all. Again RR who looks a bit like Hubby comes up and forces himself on me. I look into his brown eyes and submit. I might as well as my SC does not seem to get that I want to control this dream. He enters me and I start to really enjoy it. I feel another appendage and work it with my mouth as we continue to fly along the surface of this desolate and dead moon. We both finish and I wake.
So, when I woke from the second OBE, I planned to ask RR why I cannot control my location of my lucids any more. I fell asleep and dreamt instead. But, I did get to 2 different moons.
So, I think this is at MOST at Silver. And maybe not even that... iadr is the decision-maker