** Baby steps by bluebird **

[bluebird]

8th March 2012

I am in my old house and for some reason I have an obsession with killing or hurting people. Whenever someone gets to my back door I have killed them and hidden their body. The dream picks up more later on, when I realise what I have done and once again find myself in trouble, and very worried.

I had another dream where I was doing a 4x4 challenge (driving a land rover across the countryside). We were driving across Britain, starting in John O' Groats in Scotland. While I was there I heard Scottish music and saw the hills... It was a beautiful sight and I'd like to return there in a LD to explore.

After I woke I napped for a little bit longer to try and get some more dreams to recall. I found myself in a lecture with my friends M and C. I was wondering why I could hear the lecturer's voice if I was asleep. I must be dreaming. I look at C's jacket as it is very vivid to me, and then I turn to look at M as well, hoping to stabilize the scene. Unfortunately I start to lose the scene, I try rubbing my hands but it is to no avail and I wake up.

[pj]

Getting lucid is getting routine for you!  This is very encouraging.

[bluebird]

This is a bit of a long post, but I encourage you to read the dream on 10th March. It's one of my finest yet Worth noting that I drank a fair amount of alcohol, including green absinthe, on the night that gave the 10th March dreams. I seem to have much better dreams if I've been drinking, but of course recall is difficult and there is a fine balance between a good amount and too much. I definitely would say that alcohol fits into the supplements category, not for LDing (although it has worked for me) but at least for more vivid and interesting dreams. Anyway, enjoy!

9th March 2012
Only fragments I'm afraid:

Fragment: Jumping up and down at a bar. Everyone is doing it and I'm not sure why but it's a lot of fun. People seem to be jumping a lot higher than is possible IWL
Fragment: Dog (not the one I saw in a dream a while ago) I think this one was brown
Fragment: Using github for something, storing some code maybe.

10th March 2012
Scene in bold is super vivid

I am walking to a town called Swansea with D, E and M. We are passing through the hills and it is a really nice scenic walk. D has brought his camera and I keep telling him to take photos of things I like (I think subconsciously this was a way for me to capture parts of the dream). As we approach Swansea the sun is setting. The sky is a deep red and the sun's final rays are reflecting off the clouds in a spectacular fashion. I notice a large dark grey cloud forming, lit up all different shades of red and orange. It is the most beautiful scene I have ever scene, dream or not.
I will make a note to draw this scene in detail at some time, my artistic skills are next to none but I want to at least be able to describe it better.

It then appears that the large cloud is being formed because one house is on fire. This does not ruin the scene in any way, and for some strange reason it just adds to the beauty of it. However, we weren't about to sit back and not help so we head over to see what's wrong and how we can help. It takes us a few minutes to walk down there, and I can describe the scene as complete chaos. There is a constant beeping of alarms and people shouting instructions and cries for help. As the fire is on the second floor, nobody really seems to know how to put it out and there is no sign of a fire crew. We assist the villagers in throwing jackets up into the window (probably not the best method ) to help drown out the flames. Someone (D, E or M) asks me "Can you see that fire?" and I respond with "Of course I can see it, it was me", referring obviously to the fact that it is my dream, which I didn't pick up on at the time.

It appears to be working, but then some of the fire spits into a different house. "Oh no" I think. Everyone starts evacuating that house, climbing out through the large windows that have been smashed (probably to allow their escape). I then stop helping for a bit to take in the scene. It's an amazing picture, everyone is helping each other out and it's really bringing the community together.
I think there is some sort of message to be taken from this, although what it is I have no idea at this time. If anyone has read the book "To kill a Mockingbird" there is a fire scene in that which again seems to bring the town folk together

A little later on we are in a different house and the fire is still going. We have all evacuated a few streets away for safety and we are in a big house with a very large room. Everyone here is playing call of duty, but for some reason I can't join in so I am sitting watching everyone else (I think it's because my computer has linux on). I am watching M in particular, and he is talking to me while he plays. He starts bouncing a small tennis ball under the table. When I look, I notice that everyone is wearing cricket pads. I tell him if he really wants to play cricket he might as well, as it looks like the crowd here are probably up for it as well. Although I said that, secretly I was hoping that he wouldn't ask, as I find cricket much more boring to watch than this game everyone is playing.

A few people say yes so a cricket game is started in the big room, whilst more people are still playing call of duty. I text my friend O as he quite likes cricket, but for some reason he starts laughing at me so I ignore his texts. I sit in the corner and pull out my laptop, deciding if they are going to exclude me I might as well actually do something. I start programming as I want to be able to do something that THEY can't, that'll show them! However the scene seems to change and I start playing call of duty myself.

After a while I get bored of this, and just when that happens the fire alarm goes off in the building we are in. It must have spread this far! I run upstairs to warn everyone and try and get them into safety. For some reason the room we are in seems like a safe place, so I start heading in all directions of this oddly laid out house to try and tell everyone (like the alarm didn't give it away). I get most people into the room safely, but some people are refusing to leave upstairs. M and D are up there lying down, and they are being too lazy to leave. I keep telling them there is a fire but they won't listen. M comes up with some smart ass remark like "we're safer up here anyway" and I can't think of a retort so I leave them to it and this amazing dream reaches it's end.

Fragment: I am on Google+ the next day and a picture of the fire makes the "What's hot" section. There is also some sort of call of duty highlights show on TV so I decide to upload the gameplay of me in the hopes of getting put on the show.

I have a false awakening in which we are all back home, and M is talking to my friend C outside my door. There is a strange noise coming from C's room, some sort of screeching like wood being sawn with a blunt blade. They are saying something about me not being awake on time to go swimming with them, whilst I'm gradually regaining consciousness. I reach for my DJ to quickly write down these dreams, for once it looks normal so I'm not aware that I'm dreaming. I start scribbling and then M says "Oh I know whats happening he's typing up his dreams. He's gonna be ages" (subconsciously I wanted them to know that I was going to be a while, but I'm glad M said it because I had no way of telling them without answering the door).

I then actually wake, and it takes a while for me to realise what has just happened (I'm still pretty new to identifying a FA).

Fragment: Egyptian kitty - I'm not sure what it means but these words made sense during the FA but I have forgotten the dream since

[Sunshine]

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[bluebird]

11th March 2012

I was on a cruise ship and I see a man I know, DAP. DAP is talking to one of my fellow students about something, I'm not exactly sure what it was now but I remember I didn't like it very much. I think DAP was telling us video games were bad or something. Everyone on the ship is waiting for some sort of performance to start, but it shows no sign of starting any time soon so I just get another drink.

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Later on I find myself helping someone do a stock delivery for Tesco (supermarket) as a favour. My job is to "turn on the third floor" however that works. So I go upstairs and fortunately there is someone who knows what they are doing to help me. However, half way through us unloading the stock there is some sort of sand cave-in in the corridor we were working it. The sand looks exactly like minecraft sand, and falls in a similar fashion. My friend JM is there digging with a diamond shovel, I can see my "inventory" and I only have an iron shovel. For some reason I choose not use it and proceed to punch the sand with my fist. I remember looking up and being concerned about a cave in, there was a lot of oddly floating sand up there.

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I don't remember the non lucid for this dream but I am in a forest and I find myself thinking that whatever situation sucks, this is really really boring. Wait a minute what am I doing here? I'm hit with full lucidity and complete awareness. I start to look around the forest and it's a very nice place. The dream seems stable enough, I start walking around to see what will happen. I remember iadr said something about moving fast and dangerous is useful in maintaining a dream and that's something I've been having trouble with, so I started running but I wasn't going as fast as I wanted to.

I tried to imagine a motorbike, and then I turned around and there was one. It was very old and fragile looking though, will this thing even move? I get on and start the engine, it is stuttering a lot. I twist my hand (that's how motorbikes work right?) and it starts wobbling onwards. Whatever I try it just won't go faster, eventually I go toppling off and hit the ground. I decide to carry on my journey by foot, and just see what I come across. I find a small slope, with a puddle at the bottom. The puddle seems awfully white to be water, and I'm reminded of the void. I decide this is as good as time as any to practice a scene change. I put my head in, at first I feel the cold wet water but then I'm instantly greeted with the void. I jump my whole body into nothingness, which was quite a squeeze as the puddle was very small.

The void is black this time, and I can see nothing and decide to stay there to be with my thoughts. However, I then see a white light and take it as my next scene so I pass through it. I find myself in some sort of large secure office building. There are gates all the way around the outside and there must be something secret hidden here. I start to wander around to see if I can find any DC's to talk to, when all of a sudden I see a very weird thing. I'm in a room with a very high wall, and a ledge at the top. It must be about 2 storeys high in total. Standing on the top of the ledge is a SQUIRTLE?!? This is pretty cool, I start to talk to the Squirtle. I ask him his name, he says his name is Squirtle. I ask him my name, he says my name is Tom (my name isn't Tom, I think the name came from Moonbeams husband, or 50 first dates' "Hi I'm Tom")

At this point 3 security guards approach me. Even though I'm lucid my dream instinct is to run away. I'm holding a small plush dull of a pikachu, which I guess represents the secret of this building, and the thing they were keeping so secure, is the fact they had pokemon. I get away and find myself on the top floor. It's more like a hotel up here. I walk in and find a girl I haven't seen for a long time, but used to quite fancy. I talk to her for a bit but it doesn't seem like she is too interested in me, darn.

The scene jumps and I find myself in the parking lot for the same building. I have to rescue the pikachu, it's really important! As I am heading to the gate, an alarm sounds. "God Dammit!". A police car pulls up and the cops come out after me. They have guns, so I guess I'm in America, but I do not fear them as it's only a dream. I start running away from them but they seem to get a good surround on me. I get caught and pinned to the ground. In one last ditch attempt I try to use logic to save me. "Tom, it's me buddy, it's Tom." Another cop was like "Tom, do you know this guy?". There is a little bit more discussion but eventually they let me go.

I want to leave the parking lot but I can see no easy way out. There are a lot of cast iron gates but I realise I could probably kick them down if I wanted to. I kick a few down with my infinite strength, but some of them just don't seem to budge. I start running towards the double doors that mean escape, and then I imagine them opening. Bingo! The doors slowly swing open. As I get closer the thought creeps into my head "Oh no I bet they will close right when I get to them". What a stupid thing to think! The doors slam shut and I am locked in the car park. Typical!

I remember that I wanted to fly again in a lucid so I decide to try and fly out. I find a suitable wall and try to imagine myself flying. I then try jumping but I just sort of float back down. I tried flapping my arms, putting an arm up like superman and even closing my eyes, I just couldn't do it. I was contemplating trying to merge through a wall to see if I could do it, when the scene changed itself.

I was on the ground floor of a building and I was with that girl again. I approach her and just outright kiss her. I don't think she really enjoyed it too much, which makes me feel a bit guilty, but at the same time I am confused because it's my dream so surely she must enjoy it. Then some guy comes up to me and goes "Hey I should be doing that". Oops, I guess she has a boyfriend. Then something weird happens, the boyfriend comes up and starts kissing me :| Ew no, I imagine him away and then I am kissing myself. What the hell! Oh I must be the girl. I kiss myself a bit longer and then imagine myself to be a guy again, and I go back to me.

We are now in the elevator and things start to get a bit steamy


I fall asleep again at my laptop after watching a minecraft video. I imagine I'm playing single player and I get killed by creepers. As I'm gathering my stuff I see another guy playing on my map. What the hell, am I dreaming? I put my hand into the keyboard and all the keys bend around, allowing my hand to pass through. I remember my failed attempt at flying so I decide I will try again. I float up out of bed and do a few spins in the air, for some reason I see my bed and a street view separately as I'm spinning. I want to go outside so I try and fly through the wall. I close my eyes to brace for it but it seems every time I open them I'm back where I started and I haven't passed through. I wake up

[Naiya]

Wow, the thing with everyone being Tom is just hilarious and awesome. XD

Congrats on your lucid!

[Sunshine]

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[pj]

Magnificent night!  So amusing.  Nicely written up too.

Yeah - you would think "infinite strength" would break down anything, wouldn't you?

[DrTechnical]

Yeah, what is it with these wacky DC's? I was fingered once in a lucid by the gal who played model 6 in Battlestar Galactica. That was the precise point in time where I determined that conjuring her was just too damned unpredictable and no longer worth it.

[bluebird]

Yeah, what is it with these wacky DC's? I was fingered once in a lucid by the gal who played model 6 in Battlestar Galactica. That was the precise point in time where I determined that conjuring her was just too damned unpredictable and no longer worth it.

I think I remember reading your experiences with her if it was about the time I joined MM. I didn't know it turned out weird like that though I hope not all DC's are into freaky things when it gets intimate.

[Sunshine]

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[bluebird]

What's a squirtle, and how did you know that was one?

I answered this in Chess but in case anyone else was wondering it's a pokemon:

I have found that everything gets much more realistic after a while.  It's amazing, really, how paying attention to my dreams has made everything much more real, even in non-lucids.  Especially in non-lucids, I'd say, but even lucids are more realistic, and the parts that aren't are actually better than IRL. 

Half of me would like that to happen, but I remember what you say about your SC constantly making it harder and harder for you to identify a dream. Right now I seem to notice things being wrong in dreams which gets me lucid, if I lose that chance I would be hopeless.

[Sunshine]

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[Rhapsode]

I have got to have me a Pokemon dream. That is just too cool that you saw one; though I have a hard time imagining a Squirtle saying "Tom". And being lucid on a plane full of bikini-clad girls on your way to Australia? Sign me up!

The sex part was pretty weird but this tends to be the case with lucids. I can probably count on one hand how many lucid dreams I've had where I had sex and it was actually like sex IRL -- all the ups and downs and a consistent partner with predictable results. Also, if I was more into Freudian psychology than I was Jungian, I would have some very pointed remarks about you kissing a guy, yourself, and then having a pencil stuck in your ass. But I'm not. So don't worry about it.

Keep on dreamin'!   

[bluebird]

12th March 2012

I am in a lecture being taught by E and I want to leave. I pretend that I'm going to the toilet but I just walk out and leave. I go for a wander, but then I hear the lecturer calling my name. As I look the lecture room was actually a giant greenhouse so she could see exactly what I was doing. I pretend I can't hear but it's obvious to her that I can. I walk into a building looking for a toilet to at least make my escape slightly legible.

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I am heading to my local bar to watch something on the TV there, I believe it's poker. As I get there I see someone famous and ask if they wouldn't mind me hanging out with their friends as I am alone. They say that's ok, so I head in and pull up a chair with them. It might have been Kanye West but I'm not entirely sure. After a while the poker gets interrupted for some reason and everyone leaves. As I go to leave, something goes wrong which results in me being in trouble (maybe we didn't pay). I get into Kanye's limo but he just double crosses me and kicks me out.

I have to try and flee so that I don't get in trouble for this. I am running around and it seems the longer I am "Wanted" the more trouble I am in. I head to bus stops and train stations and I believe a bus let me on eventually but I didn't get very far. I make it to a big central train station and try to find out which train will take me back home to my parents so I can be safe. However, someone I used to work with, Irish J, has told me off to the cops. At this point I also believe I have kidnapped one of he children, although she is a lesbian IWL so this is quite impossible.

I am walking up some steps in the train station when she sees me. I am wearing a hoodie with my name on it so I take it off and try to cover my face, but she catches me anyway. She grabs me but I struggle free and run away. I then see all the train drivers in big yellow coats. They are on strike. I find it quite ironic that they are all singing "London Underground", a parody which calls train drivers lazy for striking all the time. I find their singing to be quite amazing, and take out my phone to start recording it. After they are finished it dawns on me that the cops are probably tracking my phone, so I throw it over a wall and head in the opposite direction.

Eventually I meet up with my parents, they are in a car we no longer own heading to Ireland. I ask if I can come with them to keep me safe. They seem scared but also like they don't want to leave me behind at the same time. My mum lets me in, but says they will only take me as far as the ferry, I have to get the rest of the way myself. That's fine with me, I don't even want to go to Ireland I just want to get away from where I am.